Chapter 9 Addiction
Perhaps it is because we are family, so close that I can't bear to be disappointed in him.
Knowing that someone is waiting for you and always has high expectations of you is actually both a good thing and a bad thing.
The good thing is that you can feel that you are being relied upon, but the bad thing is that it will create inertia.
I thought the other person would always be there waiting for me and looking forward to me.
But people are lonely after all, and everyone has their own path to walk.
Either you move forward, there is no turning back in life, and staying where you are is a form of lag.
After Chen Wan left, he went to the bureau and Qiao Yue asked him, "What did Wan'er say?"
Lin Yu shook his head, and Qiao Yue understood.
After a while, she sighed softly, "Actually, this is better."
People always have to grow up and weigh the pros and cons. Chen Wan chose to let go of the past.
When Chen Shan came out of Anshan Prison, it was raining outside and there was no one at the door. He stood there for a long time.
Because the college entrance examination is approaching, the school cancelled evening self-study.
Chen finished his exam at around 6 pm and sat in the classroom for a long time, staring at the rain outside the window. A skylark flew through the green branches of the sycamore tree, startling the dense water.
Chen Wan opened his eyes wide, trying to see where the skylark had gone, but he still couldn't see clearly.
It disappeared in the rain and fog.
After a long silence, she stood up with the help of the desk. Because it was raining, Chen Wan did not ride her bike in the morning. After missing several buses at the bus stop, she got on the last bus in silence. The street lights disappeared one by one behind her.
It was already past seven when she got home. She passed by a courtyard with grape vines and saw bunches of grapes glowing light purple in the dim light.
The grapes are almost ripe, but they must still be sour now, she thought.
When I got downstairs, I felt even more timid. I looked up and saw that there was no light on in her house.
Dark.
Her heart sank, and she walked up the seventy-seven steps in silence. When she reached the door, she took out her key and unlocked it.
The entrance was pitch black. She stood in silence with her hands hanging down, the sound of raindrops falling on her heart.
It turned out that she was the one who was abandoned.
Chen Wan didn't turn on the lights, and walked into the living room relying on the light coming in from the corridor.
Everything was the same as before, dead silent and lifeless.
Chen Wan realized that as long as there are expectations in one's heart, there will inevitably be disappointments.
She sat there for a long time, looking at the heavy rain outside the window, feeling regret, relief, disappointment, and mixed emotions.
I regret not going to pick up Chen Shan. Maybe if I had gone, he would really come home and be a good father.
I'm glad I didn't go to pick up Chen Shan. If I had gone, he would have abandoned me in front of me.
Disappointingly, neither of them gave each other a chance to apologize or say goodbye.
Lin Yu came out of the interrogation room and sighed deeply, his expression unable to conceal his fatigue. The case was not difficult, but the cause and effect were too complicated, and it took a long time to sort out the clues.
He was so tired that he fell back in his chair, his head was groggy and his mood was as depressed as the continuous rain outside the blinds.
After finishing her oral statement, Qiao Yue stood up and walked past Lin Yu, jokingly saying, "Junior Brother Xiao Lin, you're not in good shape today."
Lin Yu opened his eyes weakly and looked at her, saying embarrassedly, "Senior Sister, I've been working overtime for half a month and have been out on field trips. I haven't had a good meal in several days."
After he said that, Qiao Yue wanted to laugh even more. "It's not that you can't eat enough, it's that you're picky and you dislike everything you eat. This is the temper that Chen Wan has spoiled you with."
After listening to Qiao Yue's words, Lin Yu frowned and sighed bitterly, "Don't mention my sad story."
Chen Shan is back, and Chen Wan and his daughter are very close. There is no reason for him to go and ask about their well-being or eat for free.
Whenever Lin Yu thought about this, he felt a little lost, as if the string suddenly broke when he was flying a kite.
Confusion and helplessness coexisted, and he couldn't think too much about the emotions involved on the other end of the line.
Seeing Lin Yu's dejected look, Qiao Yue patted him on the shoulder and said, "Come on, Senior Sister will treat you to a meal in the cafeteria."
For the criminal investigation department, working overtime is the norm, so even though it is not mealtime, there are still many colleagues in the cafeteria hall.
Qiao Yue finished cooking and saw that Lin Yu had only ordered two vegetarian dishes. She was surprised and asked, "Don't you love meat?"
Lin Yu picked up his chopsticks and took two quick bites, frowning, "The meat dishes in the cafeteria are not tasty."
Qiao Yue shook her head helplessly and said, "Virtue." After eating for a while, she couldn't help but tease him, "Don't you think the food I made last night is tasteless?"
Lin Yu ate the dishes pickily, nodded when he heard this, and said with an embarrassed look: "But in fact, it can't be said that it is simply a problem of the food. I just feel that..."
"What do you think?"
"I feel very comfortable and relaxed when I eat with Chen Wan. I feel indescribably happy." Lin Yu pondered his words, frowned, and said seriously, "It's just that I feel that watching her eat is very fragrant and makes me want to eat."
Qiao Yue rolled her eyes at him speechlessly after hearing this. "It's just an appetizer, and you're still looking at it with rice."
"Anyway, eating with her is just delicious." Lin Yu concluded.
Qiao Yue smiled, and suddenly thought of the photo. She rolled her eyes and an idea came to her mind.
She paused holding the chopsticks and looked at him hesitantly, "Junior brother, are you...?"
The second half of her sentence was interrupted by someone. A trainee police officer from the Criminal Investigation Team 2 called her and said he wanted to retrieve a file.
Lin Yu also looked in the direction of the shouting, then averted his gaze and asked her, "Sister, what were you going to say just now?"
Qiao Yue opened her mouth, but seeing his naive look, she decided not to point it out. She gave him an enigmatic smile and said, "Senior Sister, I'll give you four words."
Lin Yu raised his eyebrows and said, "Please speak."
Qiao Yue cleared the plates and casually said, "Once you have tasted the marrow, you will know the taste."
Lin Yu watched her walk away and scratched his hair. He didn't understand Qiao Yue's sudden mystification. After finishing his meal absent-mindedly, he returned to the office to enter the case report.
He returned to the department and sat back in front of the computer. After organizing the documents, he finally breathed a sigh of relief and inadvertently remembered what Qiao Yue said: "Once you taste the marrow, you will know the taste."
For some unknown reason, I opened Baidu and looked up the meaning.
Having tasted the sweetness once, one wants to try it again.
Addicted.
Looking at Shi Yi Lin Yu was stunned for a long while, and the kite string that was fluttering in his heart suddenly found its reason.
After realizing that he had to fade out of Chen Wan's life, he felt a vague sense of emptiness somewhere in his heart.
It was like a crack had appeared, and a part of my thoughts and wishes were lost.
As for where this sense of loss came from, he couldn't and didn't want to think about it in detail.
The wall clock stopped at half past ten, and the cold sound of the timer echoed in the office, startling Lin Yu.
After hastily coming back to his senses, he raised his hand and hit the enter key, sending the report to the captain. He shook his head, trying to sober up, and after drinking a glass of cold water, he calmed down a lot.
Qiao Yue came back from the second team's department and saw that he was still in the office. She urged him, "The interprovincial robbery case you handled has been closed. Go back and have a good rest."
Lin Yu was indeed feeling tired. He nodded, packed his briefcase, and said goodbye to her.
After walking out of the police station, he saw Yuan Ke’s car parked at the door. He rolled down half of the window and greeted Lin Yu.
The rain was dripping, but Lin Yu didn't hear it clearly. He walked away in a daze with his umbrella.
After Qiao Yue got in the car, Yuan Ke smiled and said, "Just now I saw Lin Yu seemed to have lost his soul. Has your department encountered another big case?"
Seeing her shaking her head with a half-smile, she said, "It's not that we have no clues in the case, it's that Junior Brother Xiaolin has a knot in his heart."
Yuan Ke raised an eyebrow, "What's the knot?"
Qiao Yue wanted to be mysterious and shook her finger at him. "You can't say that."
The most indescribable emotional feelings are those that are difficult to describe. Once they are revealed, they become less interesting.
It is up to the person involved to see through the clouds and mist.
Yuan Ke nodded, didn't ask any more questions, leaned over to fasten Qiao Yue's seat belt, but didn't set off.
"Why don't you drive?"
Yuan Ke didn't say anything, just looked at her quietly, his eyes gentle and affectionate.
Seeing him smiling silently, Qiao Yue frowned and looked at him.
After a while, she couldn't bear it anymore and sighed, "I surrender to you. You always use this trick."
Yuan Ke put away his tender look and smiled, "Tell me, what's going on."
"I think there's something going on between Junior Brother Xiaolin and Chen Wan." Qiao Yue came over and said mysteriously.
Yuan Ke raised his eyebrows slightly, a little surprised. "Chen Wan?"
Qiao Yue nodded. "Xiao Lin has been absent-minded all day, especially when eating. He simply couldn't eat."
Lin Yu is a picky eater and has high standards for food. All his friends know about it and laugh at him for having a chef's tongue but no chef's skills.
"Because Chen Shan is back, he feels embarrassed to go and eat and drink for free anymore?" Yuan Ke joked.
Qiao Yue patted his head in appreciation, "Professor Yuan is so smart and insightful, he understands things immediately."
Yuan Ke thought about it, a vague idea hanging in his heart, hesitant, "But Chen Wan is still young, this..."
"Age doesn't matter. Besides, she'll be eighteen in three months." Qiao Yue opened her eyes wide and discussed her views seriously with Yuan Ke. "The key is Lin Yu. I think there are signs of something going on with him."
"Don't you think Lin Yu is too critical of Chen Wanyan?"
Yuan Ke thought about it and felt that the relationship between Chen Wan and Lin Yu that he saw seemed to be quite close.
But it is not like the love between neighbors, nor is it the love between brothers and sisters.
Lin Yu seemed to simply care about Chen Wan, just like taking care of a child.
He cared about her and took good care of her.
Qiao Yue squinted her eyes to look at his expression, and was also thinking in her heart.
After a while, Yuan Ke spoke up, "It's hard to say. Besides, didn't you arrange for someone to take good care of Chen Wan before? Maybe Lin Yu just took your words too seriously."
Qiao Yue had thought about this a long time ago and denied it. Lin Yu and she were just from the same sect, so he would not take her words as an imperial decree.
She stroked her chin, thought out something that made sense, and turned to Yuan Ke and said, "Do you think people's emotions should be defined, or is there a need to draw boundaries?"
Yuan Ke looked up at the ceiling light and said calmly, "From a physiological point of view, apart from the affection brought about by blood ties, which is innate, other emotions, such as love, hate, anger, and infatuation, are acquired and then artificially divided into categories. The corresponding human relationships are also divided into family, friendship, and love. Human relationships can generally be divided into these three categories."
Qiao Yue grinned at his academic words, but nodded politely. "Actually, feelings are all the same, they just have different depths and boundaries. When one person is too attentive and affectionate towards another, the boundaries will shift. I think this kind of blurred feeling is the beginning of love."
Upon hearing this, Yuan Ke remained silent.
Qiao Yue pondered what she had said. The more she thought about it, the more she felt it made sense. She nudged him with her elbow and asked, "You don't agree?"
Yuan Ke smiled helplessly, "I just feel that there is something between these two people. They are different in age and experience. From the current perspective, I think it's difficult."
This is also one of the issues that Qiao Yue is struggling with.
It is currently impossible to say whether Lin Yu treats everyone equally or treats each person differently.
Moreover, Chen Wan is a sensitive and self-respecting person, and his attitude towards feelings is also cold.
She is like the moon covered by fog, her emotions are vague and unclear, making it difficult to see clearly.
Qiao Yue sighed, "It's really difficult."
Yuan Ke laughed at her, "You are such a worrier. You can go to the neighborhood committee and make a difference in the future."
Qiao Yue glanced at him and said, "Let me tell you, I have a good eye for couples. Let's wait and see."
Seeing her arrogant attitude, Yuan Ke shook his head and said with a smile, "Okay."
Qiao Yue adjusted the height of the seat and leaned back with her hands under her head. "Little Yuanzi, please drive. I'm going home now."
Yuan Ke said yes, leaned over and kissed her, then went home contentedly.
Lin Yu drove back to the alley, and the bright headlights shone into a courtyard, startling a dog barking.
Hmm, it seems like I disturbed the big yellow dog’s sweet dream.
He remembered what Chen Wan said, "Because you are as stupid as Da Huang, you are Er Gouzi."
Is he stupid?
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