Chapter 20 Snowy Night
When Chen Shan came back, Chen Wan just went to the living room to get some water. The clock on the wall stopped at 4:16 in the morning, and everything was silent.
The old chandelier was suddenly lit, casting a dim light, illuminating the fatigue and decadence on Chen Shan's face. He looked like a man returning from wandering in the darkness, lost and self-degrading.
The pungent smell of alcohol quickly spread in the narrow living room. Chen Wan looked at him with a glass of water, feeling caught in a dilemma.
Chen Shan also saw her, and his dark eyes finally lit up a little, "Why haven't you slept yet?"
"I'm thirsty, come out and get a glass of water."
The questions and answers were even more distant than just polite greetings.
Chen Shan nodded, and rubbed Chen Wanshi's sparse hair. "Go to bed early."
After Chen Wan finished drinking the water, his eyes fell on the old calendar on the coffee table and he saw clearly that the date on it was June 2012.
This year, Chen Shan began to indulge in the debauchery of bars and became addicted to drugs.
Chen Wan sighed, stayed in front of Chen Shan’s bedroom for a long time, and then returned to his own room.
Summer nights are hot and humid, like a pool of stagnant water that has been deposited for a long time.
She lay on the mat, listening to the noisy chirping of cicadas and the calls of unknown insects, and fell into the next old dream in a daze.
"Chen Wan, give the syringe to Daddy, please, please..."
The endless pleading was accompanied by the sound of kowtows. Every time Chen Shan looked up at Chen Wan, his forehead became more bloody.
The time shown on the calendar was July 2014. That year, Chen Shan's drug addiction had become very serious.
Chen Wan saw his humble plea and begging appearance turned into the tip of a syringe, and then stabbed his heart fiercely.
In this deformed family relationship, it is no longer possible to tell who is suffering more and feeling sadder than whom.
Chen Shan's facial features have changed a lot, and he is no longer as handsome and elegant as before.
The skinny and bony facial features, deep and dark eye sockets, pupils as cloudy as thick fog, and deformed teeth make up the image of a middle-aged man in a disheveled state.
His blood mixed with tears fell to the ground, forming a swamp.
Chen Wan watched Chen Shan struggling in the swamp, using up all his energy and hope, and finally sinking into depravity in exchange for the happiness he wanted.
She told Lin Yu that she sent Chen Shan to rehab because she was afraid of being dragged into this swamp and into the abyss of despair, and was afraid of going down the road of destruction with Chen Shan.
Since his mother's death, Chen Wan's life has never been full of sunshine and good times. There are only endless nights and a slight desire for dawn.
She was the one who walked around at night with a candle, lighting up Chen Shan's last retreat and the freedom he had gained by chance, sending him to prison in exchange for a spark of light for herself to illuminate the way forward.
In November 2015, Chen Wan returned home from school. There was a heavy snowstorm in the evening of that day.
Chen Wan stood in the corridor for a long time, and was hesitant to push open the door because she knew that a feast for drug addicts was taking place inside.
The snow outside was falling heavier and heavier, and the overwhelming coldness penetrated her bones.
On the way to the police station, Chen Wan lost his umbrella. The streets were empty and every tree was covered with snow.
Her hair and eyelids were pressed down by the cold snow. She walked in the snow instinctively, and every breath felt like a sharp knife stabbing into her lungs.
The hesitant steps became heavier and heavier, and both feet seemed to be frozen in place, making it difficult to move forward.
Finally she fell in the snow, her nose hit the sharp gravel, and hot blood gushed out, spreading a large area of red, which looked particularly glaring in the pale snow.
She struggled to get up, without wiping the blood, weakly raised her eyelids, and then fell on her back.
The sky was gray and the sound of wind came from far away. The echo floated into the snow curtain, and the surrounding area gradually fell into deep and chaotic darkness.
Endless white snow was flying wantonly between the sky and the earth. Chen Wan exhaled a breath of hot air and blew away a few snowflakes, but it was still of no use.
The blood from her nose solidified at the corner of her mouth, blocking Chen Wan's words. The wind blew it and turned it into an icy edge, which stung her face and hurt her.
She remembered the story of the little match girl. If no one found her the next day, then the little girl would really have left with her grandmother. Maybe she would see her mother if she closed her eyes now.
But is her mother really the person she wants to see again the most? Who is the person she wants to see the most now?
"My name is Lin Yu. You can come to me if you have any problems in the future."
She recalled these words from the bottom of her heart. When the person who spoke looked at her, there was a hint of sympathy in his eyes. His smile was shallow and deliberate, but his tone was sincere.
Suddenly, a blurry figure appeared in the vast and lonely snowfield. Chen Wan struggled to prop up his arms, trying to see who this person was.
The man was holding a lantern, and the falling white snow was illuminated by the warm yellow light, turning into clusters of light yellow spots, as if igniting the stars in the universe.
Chen Wan struggled and tried to stand up. She wanted to touch the light and get closer to that person.
The complex and chaotic light spots were getting closer and closer, and the person holding the lantern finally showed a clear outline.
He reached out his hand to Chen Wan who was trapped in the snow. His palm was broad and warm, rescuing her from the ice and snow.
The eyes looking at Chen Wan were bright and clear, like the warm sun in winter.
He said, "Chen Wan, it's me. I'm here to pick you up."
It’s Lin Yu.
It turned out that the person she wanted to see most was Lin Yu.
"Lin Yu, it's you."
You light a lamp for me on a snowy night, giving me the only light in the chaos.
.......
There were many thunders on a rainy night in midsummer. Lin Yu was awakened by the rumbling sound and subconsciously wanted to go and see how Chen Wan was doing.
He paced back and forth at the door for a while, and then entered the bedroom before the next thunder exploded.
The little girl on the bed curled up into a small ball like an abandoned kitten.
Lin Yu sighed inaudibly, walked forward to cover her with a thin blanket, and then stood there in a daze.
The strands of hair on Chen Wan's forehead were wet with sweat, revealing her furrowed brows. Her long eyelashes fluttered slightly like butterfly wings, showing her uneasiness.
"Do you have a fever? Why are you sweating so much?" Lin Yu reached out to check his body temperature and felt a chill.
Chen Wan's skin was damp and cool, which scared Lin Yu. He withdrew his hand and planned to wake her up to ask if she had a cold.
"Lin Yu?"
But she woke up by herself, opened her eyes slightly, and looked at him in confusion.
Lin Yu didn't have time to retract his hand, which was pressed against her face. He was stunned and looked at Chen Wan.
In an instant, both of them fell silent, as if they were trapped in a vacuum, isolating themselves from the noisy rain, the hustle and bustle of the day, and also relaxing all their cautious guard.
Lin Yu and Chen Wan looked at each other silently.
Finally, Chen Wan smiled first. Her smile reminded Lin Yu of Jasmine who was drenched by the rain outside the glass door, and she felt a subtle sense of fragility.
"I didn't expect this dream to be so long." She gently held Lin Yu's hand, then lay down naturally, "Then let's just talk in our sleep."
Because of this posture, Lin Yu had to bend down, with his eyebrows lowered, looking very gentle.
It turned out that Chen Wan thought it was a dream. He felt a little relieved, but also felt an indescribable loss.
"Is there anything you want to talk to me about?" Chen Wan scratched his palm like a child, his eyes as clear as the raindrops sparkling in the morning light.
Lin Yu felt an itchy sensation in the palm of his hand, and his heart moved. He looked away uncomfortably, frowning and wondering why this little girl Chen Wan was so good at acting like a spoiled child after drinking.
Forget it, just treat it as coaxing the child to sleep. After all, she got drunk this time, and I am also responsible.
As for the reason why she was drunk, although he was not sure, he thought it had something to do with him.
After Lin Yu thought about it, he felt much more relieved. He simply sat on the carpet, slightly hunched his back, and kept his eyes aligned with hers.
He thought for a moment and finally came up with something to talk about. He asked her, "Why did you run into Zhang Mo today?"
"He came to our store to buy flowers. It was just after get off work, and he said he wanted to come see you, so he gave me a ride back." Chen Wan answered him, then pondered for a moment and added softly, "He seemed to be crying."
Lin Yu said calmly, "Did you shed tears in front of a bouquet of white roses?"
"How did you know he bought white roses?" Chen Wan was a little surprised by his foresight. She pinched his knuckles nonchalantly, blinked, and corrected him, "It's not that I was crying, but I just felt a little nostalgic when I saw the roses."
The phrase "seeing something reminds you of someone" is quite accurate. Lin Yu smiled and told Chen Wan the story of the white rose.
Zhang Mo has always been very open and flamboyant in pursuing women, and he wants to make others envious.
During festivals and holidays, he pays special attention to the appearance of everything, big or small, with endless flowers, jewelry, luxury cars and checks. Unfortunately, this trick does not work well with Zhou Zhou.
After several setbacks, Zhang Mo decided to start with her hobbies and put some thought into it. So when he learned that she liked Eason Chan and her cell phone ringtone was white roses, he decided to make a fuss about it.
Zhang Mo, who caters to Zhou Zhou's tastes, thinks that Eason Chan's songs can be a breakthrough point. He plays Eason Chan's songs on loop every day, trying to become a like-minded person and get closer to Zhou Zhou.
However, the falling flowers have feelings, but the flowing water is ruthless, and Zhou Zhou still turns a blind eye to his love for her and her family.
So one night, according to Zhang Mo himself, he suddenly realized the saying, "What you can't get is always precious, and when you are at a disadvantage, how can you not use tactics?"
He felt that Zhou Zhou was his white rose.
Silence is a smiling rose, but the thorny return only trusts and defends.
How can it be cold and yet still beautiful.
"So he buys a bouquet of white roses every time he's heartbroken?" Chen Wan found it a little funny. Zhang Mo's infatuation was really a bit silly.
Lin Yu also laughed and said, "This guy would take advantage of every opportunity to show his courtesy whenever there was a festival. Then one Qingming Festival, he gave Miss Zhou a big bouquet of white roses..."
When Chen Wan heard this, her smile froze and she looked at him in disbelief. "Sending white flowers for Qingming Festival?"
Lin Yu hummed, and after a moment added, "Zhang Mo, he's stupid here." He stretched out his index finger and waved it around the temple point, "Really, this guy is stupid."
Chen Wan was completely amused by him, showing his white rabbit teeth, and then slowly said, "He who keeps company with vermilion becomes vermilion."
Lin Yu looked at her smile and smiled unconsciously, but he quickly suppressed his emotions and was choked by her nonchalant comment.
As the saying goes, "Birds of a feather flock together." Isn't this just another way of saying that he is also stupid?
But looking at Chen Wan's curved eyebrows and eyes, Lin Yu was speechless for a moment, and then comforted himself, forget it, adults don't remember the faults of villains, children speak without restraint, children speak without restraint, bah.
Chen Wan smiled and looked at Lin Yu without blinking, looking at his sparse and gentle eyebrows and his well-defined facial features. This man was so good, but he was only honest with her in dreams, without any scruples.
I really wish this dream could last longer and longer.
Lin Yu watched her fall into a deep sleep, then gently pulled back the hand she was holding. His fingertips paused for a moment between her frowning brows, carefully soothing some of her sorrow.
"Good night, little one."
Chen Wan thought it was a hazy dream, but Lin Yu hoped she was awake.
"What am I to do with you?"
His hesitation, retreat, and inappropriate sincerity were all hidden in this helpless self-questioning.
Thoughts: Oh, my mom said I have a frog personality, I only move when poked. If it weren’t for Youran and Xixi, I would have died a long time ago. Then yesterday, my little cutie, the little angel who often leaves me messages, said that she has to take the postgraduate entrance examination and doesn’t have much time to read novels. How should I put it? I felt quite sad at the time, but like her, I also have to pursue my studies, so let’s work hard together!!! Then I hope you can come back and continue reading this work. I hope that in the busy and tight life, this work can make the readers feel comfortable and at ease. This is why I write so slowly (delaying the manuscript is not my intention). My writing style is far behind Baibai, and the plot is not as good as Sasa. I always wonder how to write it. After writing about the problems in my native family, I feel like I seem to understand a lot about how I should write. The next chapters are about eating and drinking. I saw someone calling Lin Yulin brother. Hahaha, they are wrong. He is Lin Daiyu. And Chen Wan is really a girl who loves to act coquettishly that I like, like a little white rabbit. I hope I can write her more cutely later. And then I will finally write about the plot of going to the countryside. I really like the feeling of being free from constraints. Thanks to Youran, Xixi, Baibai, Sasa, Weiyang, and the cute persimmon who gave me nutrient solution. Thank you!!!
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