Chapter 279 A Familiar Figure
“No.” Shen Qingshu’s voice was calm. “Whether I look for him or not is none of his business.”
Bai Jianwen looked at her, trying to find a trace of lying on her face.
But no.
Shen Qingshu was very calm.
Bai Jianwen sighed, "But if you're like this, your godfather and I will worry. We'll worry that you'll be stuck in the past and won't be able to get over Fu Siyan's death."
“Godmother, even if Fu Siyan were still alive, I would never get back together with him.” Shen Qingshu stared at the wine in her glass. “It’s just that I feel a little regretful that he’s dead, but it’s not about love. I just feel that he shouldn’t have left like this…”
“Ah Shu, it’s normal for you to have regrets. Not to mention you, even I, your godmother, feel a strange mix of emotions whenever I think of Fu Siyan and see those two children.”
“But I didn’t remain chaste for Fu Siyan, it’s just a regret.” Shen Qingshu lowered her eyes, staring at the red wine in her glass. “But this regret has nothing to do with love, it’s more about feeling sorry. The nine years of marriage between him and me weren’t that important. I feel that Fu Siyan’s life should have had a better ending, but that ending only has to do with the child, not with me.”
"I understand." Bai Jianwen put down her wine glass, walked to Shen Qingshu's side, and hugged her.
"Your regret is because he was clearly preparing to go for treatment, but that happened. Ah Shu, do you think that if you had been more ruthless that day and hadn't agreed to go to the amusement park with Fu Siyan, perhaps that incident wouldn't have happened?"
Shen Qingshu nestled in her arms and slowly closed her eyes.
She neither refuted nor responded.
Bai Jianwen gently stroked her head, "Silly A-Shu, everyone has their own destiny, you did very well."
Shen Qingshu closed her eyes, her eyes moist.
After a long while, Bai Jianwen heard her say, "He asked me if I still resented him? I regret it, godmother, I regret that I didn't answer him that day."
It was she who made Fu Siyan leave this world with such regret.
In the final moments of his life, all Fu Siyan felt was her indifference.
It was she who brought Fu Siyan's life to a close with her indifference.
The embrace of her family and the influence of alcohol allowed Shen Qingshu, who had been suppressing her emotions for the past six months, to let down her guard for the first time. Her tears fell silently, soaking Bai Jianwen's clothes.
How could she not be sad?
She was very sad.
If she could do it all over again, she would tell Fu Siyan in person: I don't resent it anymore, let's both be well!
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On New Year's Eve, Shen Qingshu received many New Year's greetings.
Some were business associates, while others were young men who somehow managed to get her private number.
Jiang Miluo sent a voice message.
The little girl was busy participating in the New Year's Eve party, and at the right moment, she took out her phone to wish her a Happy New Year.
Qiao Xingjia also sent a message, accompanied by Xiao Xingchen's babbling baby talk.
There were many more messages, and Shen Qingshu replied to those she was on good terms with one by one.
By the time I finished replying to the messages, it was already very late.
The spring fireworks that started at midnight have all finished, and the northern part of the city has returned to a state of tranquility.
Back in the bedroom, I found that Xiao Nian'an, who should have been fast asleep, had woken up at some point and climbed up to the bay window to sit.
The night sky outside the window was very quiet.
It was already past 1 a.m. on New Year's Day.
Even the busiest cities have quieted down.
Xiao Nian sat on the bay window, her small body curled up, looking up at the outside.
The room was heated, so Shen Qingshu wasn't worried that her son would catch a cold.
She walked over and sat down next to her son.
Xiao Nian'an glanced back at her, then turned back to look out the window.
Shen Qingshu patted his head, "What is our little Nian'an looking at?"
"Snowflakes." Xiao Nian'an stared at the snowflakes falling outside the window, her dark eyes unblinking.
Upon hearing this, Shen Qingshu also looked out the window.
It's snowing again, with downy snowflakes falling from the sky.
"Does Xiao Nian'an really like snow?"
“Dad promised me,” Xiao Nian’an said softly. “Dad said that when it snows in winter, he will take me to build a snowman and have a snowball fight.”
Shen Qingshu was taken aback.
"Mom," Xiao Nian'an turned to look at Shen Qingshu, "Is Dad not coming back?"
Shen Qingshu looked into her son's dark eyes and didn't know how to answer for a moment.
My heart felt like it was being gripped by an invisible hand.
She knew Xiao Nian was sensitive; he must have realized that Fu Siyan was no longer there.
Xiao Nian'an said, "Actually, I know that my dad is sick. He said he was going abroad to make money, but he actually wanted to get treatment, so he sent me to live with my mom."
Shen Qingshu's nose stung with tears. "How did you know? Did Dad tell you?"
Xiao Nian'an shook her head. "Dad often gets up at night to cough, and Uncle Qin often comes over, always with a first-aid kit. Mom, they don't need to tell me, I know Dad is sick."
Shen Qingshu could no longer hold back and embraced her son.
"Mom, is Dad gone?"
Shen Qingshu held her son, unable to easily utter words of comfort.
“Mom, it’s okay.” Xiao Nian’an looked up at Shen Qingshu with a serious expression. “Dad taught me that I am a man and that I should stay with Mom and my sister. I should grow up and study hard so that I can take care of Mom and my sister in the future.”
The breath became light and easy to stop, and the tightness in the chest subsided.
Her heart ached terribly.
It turned out that the son already knew.
But he's only a child under five years old, why should he have to bear all this!
“Xiao Nian’an, you don’t need to be so strong. Dad is gone, but Mom can still give you and your sister a good life on her own.”
Shen Qingshu held her son and said gently, "As for your father, he just left this world early, but he will become a star in the sky. He will always be watching over you and your sister from heaven."
Little Anning nestled in Shen Qingshu's arms and nodded obediently. After a while, he asked again, "Mommy, will you miss Daddy?"
Shen Qingshu closed her eyes.
She didn't answer, but gently patted her son's back, "How about Mommy sings you a lullaby?"
Xiao Nian'an leaned against her mother's chest, gazing at the snowflakes outside the window. "Mom, when I look at these snowflakes, I keep thinking, will Dad suddenly appear?"
Shen Qingshu's breathing tightened. "Go to sleep. Perhaps your father will come to see you in your dreams tonight."
Xiao Nian'an obediently closed her eyes and slowly drifted off to sleep to her mother's gentle and soothing singing.
…
After that day, Xiao Nian'an never mentioned her father again.
Xiao Nian'an didn't tell Xiao Anning that her father was gone.
Xiao Anning still felt like the older sister, and Xiao Nian'an didn't refute it. He fulfilled his responsibility as the older brother by acting as the younger brother.
After the Spring Festival, Shen Qingshu returned to her busy schedule.
In just six months, Huanxing has become an undeniable force in Beicheng.
Jiang Ruomi won Best Actress at the Nebula Awards.
The TV series adaptation of "Oriental Soul" is scheduled to premiere on the Lantern Festival, with Jiang Ruomi as the lead actress.
On the thirteenth day of the first lunar month, a charity gala was held in Beicheng.
We invited bigwigs from all walks of life.
Shen Qingshu brought Jiang Ruomi to the event.
They walked hand in hand down the red carpet.
Despite being an outsider to the entertainment industry, Shen Qingshu held her own standing next to newly crowned Best Actress Jiang Ruomi.
She wore a black off-the-shoulder evening gown, simple and elegant in style, paired with stiletto heels, exuding sophistication and grace.
When she reached the signature wall, she took the pen handed to her by the host and smoothly signed her name.
After signing the document, Shen Qingshu turned around, and out of the corner of her eye, she inadvertently caught a glimpse of a familiar figure...
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