Chapter 663 Qi Yue, Too Cold
Shen Anning did not have a happy New Year. She did not cry every day and seemed to be in a good mood, but when she was with her family, she would always get lost in thought.
Shen Qingshu had tried to talk to her, but each time she sensibly said that she was fine and that she would be fine once she returned to Peking University and got busy with her studies.
But everyone knows that she was just suppressing her emotions.
Shen Qingshu and Fu Siyan, Shen Anning's parents, could see how much she liked Qi Yue.
This is my daughter's first relationship, and it's with Qi Yue, whom she grew up with. No one expected that they would reach this point so quickly.
They didn't even make it past the honeymoon phase.
Shen Anning never revealed the reason for the breakup.
She simply said that she had disappointed Qi Yue.
Yes, after thinking it over and over, she felt that the problem lay with herself.
She misunderstood Qi Yue first and broke his heart, so it was her own fault that Qi Yue broke up with her.
From that day on, Shen Anning dreamed of a snowy, icy world every night.
In the white space ravaged by wind and snow, she could only search for an exit by stepping on the thick snow.
Startled awake from her white dream once again, Shen Anning clutched her chest and gasped for breath.
Her face was pale, and her forehead and back were already soaked with fine sweat.
It has been half a month since the breakup in N country.
With only two days left of winter break, she will be returning to Peking University the day after tomorrow.
For the past two weeks, the whole family has been spending as much time as possible with her and taking care of her. To put her family at ease, Shen Anning has tried to act as if nothing had happened, eating her three meals a day as usual and maintaining a normal daily routine.
But every night she would be trapped in a white dream. After struggling and waking up, she would be unable to fall back asleep. In the dim and silent room, she would lie awake waiting for dawn.
Perhaps due to poor sleep quality, her appetite has been getting worse lately. Although she tries to eat normally for three meals a day, her weight seems to have dropped by three pounds uncontrollably.
But Shen Anning believed that all of this was caused by heartbreak.
She thought things would get better after a while.
Heartbreak is painful, but she knows that even without Qi Yue, she still has to try to live her life.
She also has family who care about her and love her, and she can't let her family worry.
Shen Anning sometimes asks herself whether she is too rational or too indifferent.
She clearly loved Qi Yue so much, yet after their breakup, she was still able to live on unscathed.
Whenever she doubted herself, she would always recall Qi Yue's words—
[So, for you... you're in a relationship with me, you say you love me, but I'll always have to come after your family and friends, is that right?]
[Shen Anning, do you know? I can't feel your love. You're willing to say it, but I can't feel it. Sometimes I really doubt whether you've ever taken our relationship seriously.]
[You're so rational. So rational that I feel like you're ready to break up with me at any moment!]
The words Qi Yue once said to her became clearer and more profound after the breakup.
Like a curse etched into her heart, those words would echo in her mind whenever she reminded herself that losing love wouldn't kill her.
In this daily self-reproach, Shen Anning gradually realized that in Qi Yue's life, she had long been the heartless and indifferent person.
Therefore, breaking up was an inevitable outcome.
She had no chance of making amends.
The unspoken explanation and apology are no longer important.
…
In early March, the snow in Beijing completely stopped.
It has been two months since I broke up with Qi Yue.
The snow began to melt, and all things on earth began to revive.
Shen Anning faces another round of group competition.
This is a national competition, much larger in scale than the last one. If Shen Anning can win an award, it will be of great help.
Shen Anning has been having fewer nightmares lately, and the aftereffects of the breakup are gradually fading with time.
She knew that one day she would completely get rid of all the symptoms brought on by the breakup.
But there's always a place in my heart that gradually feels empty as the aftereffects of the breakup fade.
...
A week later, Shen Anning's team won the national championship.
On the day of the finals, the organizers specially invited a mystery guest to present awards to the winning students.
Shen Anning stood on the stage and froze when she heard the host announce the name 'Qi Yue'.
Amidst enthusiastic applause, Shen Anning saw Qi Yue, dressed in a black suit and with a tall and straight posture, walk confidently towards the stage.
Long legs encased in black trousers stepped onto the stairs, walked onto the stage, and headed towards the center.
The host went up and shook hands with him...
Shen Anning felt as if all the sounds around her had disappeared, and all she could see was Qi Yue's familiar yet strangely unfamiliar face.
He cut his hair much shorter, a neat buzz cut, but his naturally superior features meant that even a buzz cut did not diminish his good looks at all.
But he seemed to have lost weight, and his features appeared more defined and aloof.
He accepted the trophy from the host and, guided by the host, walked towards the champion group.
In Shen Anning's group, she was the main pressure bearer this time, and she also took the final baton in today's final, performing exceptionally well. Her performance in this final has become a sensation online.
However, she was less experienced than the three senior students, so she stood on the far side, while Chu Yuke remained in the center position as always.
Chu Yuke was also shocked when she saw Qi Yue.
She glanced at Shen Anning, then, before Shen Anning could react, reached out and pulled Shen Anning closer—
Shen Anning's eyes widened. By the time she realized what was happening, she was already standing in the center of Chu Yuke's seat. When she looked up, she unexpectedly met Qi Yue's gaze.
Shen Anning: "..."
She turned to look at Chu Yuke, frowning and glaring at her.
Chu Yuke was unaware that they had broken up. After all, it had only been two months since the breakup, and Shen Anning and Qi Yue hadn't seen each other for two months at a time. In addition, Shen Anning's behavior hadn't changed much, so Chu Yuke and the other two group members naturally didn't expect that they had already broken up.
At this moment, Chu Yuke was genuinely trying to create some romance for Shen Anning and Qi Yue.
However, her efforts were destined to be in vain.
Qi Yue routinely handed the trophy to Shen Anning, his deep voice devoid of any emotion: "Congratulations."
Shen Anning looked up at him.
At this moment, she was only one step away from Qi Yue, face to face, and she could even see her own reflection in his deep black pupils.
But he was too cold.
He looked at her as if she were a stranger.
Shen Anning felt as if she had been stabbed in the heart by a needle, and the sharp, persistent pain brought tears to her eyes.
It turns out that the calm of the past two months was nothing but self-deception.
When she saw Qi Yue again, she still couldn't control her emotions.
She still liked Qi Yue and still wanted to be with him.
But what about Qi Yue?
He showed no emotion, remaining as indifferent as if they were complete strangers.
Urged by Chu Yuke, Shen Anning mechanically reached out and took the trophy handed to her by Qi Yue.
The two fingertips touched unintentionally, and Shen Anning's brow twitched. She subconsciously looked at Qi Yue's reaction.
But he simply turned away indifferently, his expression unchanged.
He didn't look at her even once more throughout the entire process.
Shen Anning held the trophy, her pale lips pressed tightly together.
Qi Yue wouldn't even spare her a glance anymore...
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