Chapter 703 Shen Anning: It Doesn't Matter Whether Qi Yue Loves Her or Not
"Yes, you guessed it." Yun Qin smiled faintly. "The Qi Yue you see now is the rational, unemotional Qi Yue you once hoped for."
Shen Anning's mind went blank with a 'boom'.
“Shen Anning, remember this: Qi Yue loves you very much. I can even say that if you miss Qi Yue, you will never meet someone who loves you like Qi Yue does again. But unfortunately, that Qi Yue is no longer there. The current Qi Yue will still be moved by you, but it will be difficult for him to love you as unconditionally as before, because he has become the mature and rational person you expect him to be.”
Shen Anning pursed her lips, her thoughts in complete disarray.
It turns out that every word she had ever said had deeply influenced Qi Yue.
But she thought it was communication... Unbeknownst to her, her words, which she thought were meant to be communication, had already deeply hurt Qi Yue.
Shen Anning raised her hand to cover her eyes, and the moment she closed them, her eyes fell silently.
Yunqin couldn't bear to see her wallow in self-blame, so she added, "However, I think this is a good thing. He will be an ideal husband and father, loyal to the marriage, and will protect you with a lifetime of wealth and happiness, ensuring you have no worries. As for the past, let it all fade away with Qi Yue's memory. In life, it's rare to have it all; there are gains and losses. You also need to learn to move on from the past and look forward."
Shen Anning wiped away her tears, sniffed, and when she looked up again, her expression had returned to calm. "Thank you for telling me all this."
Just as Yun Qin was about to speak, her phone, which was on the table, vibrated.
She glanced at the caller ID, gave a helpless smile, and said, "Excuse me, I need to take this call."
Yunqin pressed the answer button and held the phone to her ear.
A child's innocent voice came from the other end of the phone: "Mommy, where did you go? Uncle Zhou said he's taking us to the new kindergarten to register today!"
"Mom went out to meet a friend and is going back now." Yun Qin said as she hung up the phone. When she looked up, she saw Shen Anning staring at her in shock.
"You want to ask me how I had children?"
Shen Anning blinked. "I'm sorry, I was just too surprised. I didn't mean to pry into your privacy."
“This isn’t really a matter of privacy.” Yun Qin stood up, put her phone in her bag, and smiled at Shen Anning. “I’ve wasted seven years, and only now have I come to terms with it. Shen Anning, you’re still young. This isn’t mockery, it’s a blessing, it’s advice. You and Qi Yue should both live well and cherish the time you spend with each other.”
Shen Anning felt that some of the things Yun Qin said today were inexplicably sentimental.
"Your child is...Wen Yusen's?"
“No, he has nothing to do with Wen Yusen.” Yun Qin smiled with relief. “My life has been unrelated to him for seven years now.”
Shen Anning looked at Yun Qin, and after a moment, she stood up and extended her hand to Yun Qin, "Miss Yun, no matter what, I still want to thank you."
Yun Qin held her hand, "No need to thank me. The medical fees that Qi Yue has paid me over the years are enough to ensure my son's future."
Chen Anning paused for a moment.
Yun Qin had already let go of her hand and turned to leave.
Chu Yuke had been watching them closely, and as soon as Yun Qin left, she immediately got up and ran over.
"What did you two talk about?" Chu Yuke stared at Yun Qin's retreating figure. "Why did you shake hands at the end?"
“I think I’ve been misunderstanding her all along…” Shen Anning stared at Yun Qin’s back and blinked.
The woman's silhouette was free and easy, and old songs echoed in the coffee shop.
Yunqin's high heels clicked as she walked further and further away.
At that moment, Shen Anning had no idea that this was the last time they would ever meet.
…
Back in her office at the law firm, Shen Anning locked herself in.
She sat down at her desk and opened the file folder.
Inside was a thick stack of medical records.
There was also a black USB drive.
Shen Anning first looked through those records.
The date of her first treatment record was five years ago, not long after she started university.
Was Qi Yue already ill at that time?
The record states that the patient experienced insomnia, tinnitus, palpitations, auditory hallucinations, and mood swings...
Shen Anning tried hard to recall Qi Yue from that time, but it was all in vain.
At that time, Qi Yue and she rarely saw each other. Occasionally, when Qi Yue came to see her, he would get jealous when he saw other boys confessing their feelings to her, but other than that, he did not show any abnormal emotions.
Further on, there were increasingly more and more medical records.
Shen Anning recalled that it was probably when she was busy with the competition, and Qi Yue was always traveling abroad on business during that time...
No, he wasn't on a business trip at that time; he was receiving medical treatment abroad!
It turns out that, long before she knew it, Qi Yue had been fighting against his inner demons all by himself for a long time.
It wasn't until this moment that Shen Anning realized that Qi Yue had been trying so hard to appear in front of her in a healthy and normal state, but what had she done?
Even as he struggled to fight his inner demons, she always said he was emotionally unstable...
Shen Anning closed her eyes in anguish.
She calmed down for a while before opening her eyes again and continuing to flip through page after page of treatment records.
My vision blurred, tears fell onto the documents, soaking and blurring the handwriting...
After reviewing all the records, she picked up the USB drive and plugged it into the computer.
The treatment videos started playing on the computer screen...
Qi Yue lay there, surrounded by white, wearing a special hospital gown, his face as pale as paper.
He lay on the hypnosis bed with his eyes closed.
During hypnotherapy, he was like a lost soul, gradually relaxing his guard under Yunqin's guidance.
He said, "I'm afraid she'll back down if she sees me as imperfect and flawed. I'm afraid she'll think I'm weak and useless. I'm even more afraid that my obsession will hurt her..."
“I get jealous whenever I see her talking to other people. You Jingqiao likes her, and so does Xie Xu… Every time I walk with her on campus, I can easily see the admiration in other people’s eyes. Those looks make me feel uneasy. I’m holding her hand, I can feel her warmth, but I always feel like she’ll fly away at any moment…”
“Her radiance, her beauty, every time her gaze lingers on someone else, a voice inside me tells me to lock her away, that only by locking her away can I truly possess her, that she won't be taken away… But that's wrong. She doesn't belong only to me. I can't do that. If I do, she'll hate me, she'll despise me…”
The man in the video sometimes cried, sometimes roared, and his words were like sharp knives, cutting into Shen Anning's heart.
She watched him go mad, watched him struggle, but was powerless to do anything.
During those days when Qi Yue needed her the most, she was never by his side even once...
In the video, several treatments did not go smoothly. Qi Yue broke free from the hypnotic dream and completely fell into a state of out-of-control madness. The medical staff who rushed into the treatment room restrained him on the treatment bed and used restraint straps to hold him firmly.
His eyes were wide open, and he roared like a trapped beast struggling with all its might to break free of its cage.
That was the worst period in Qi Yue's condition, and Yun Qin had no choice but to use electric shocks on him...
The scene was too cruel, and Shen Anning broke down, raising her hand to cover her eyes and sobbing uncontrollably.
She never knew, never knew that Qi Yue had suffered so much pain!
His body convulsed uncontrollably during the electric shock, his empty, crimson pupils bulging as if about to burst…
It turns out that Qi Yue, who loves her, has to live such a painful life!
Then she shouldn't love her anymore; she didn't want Qi Yue to suffer so much because of loving her.
Whether or not there is love, it doesn't matter anymore.
All she wants is for Qi Yue to be alright!
...
That day, Shen Anning sat in her office and cried for a long time.
Even after the video ended, she was still unable to shake off those images.
No wonder Yun Qin said that Qi Yue is better this way.
Yes, so what if he loses some of his memories? Those memories are so painful for Qi Yue, so let them not exist.
She can forget it, and even if she can't, it doesn't matter.
As long as she and Qi Yue are still together, things will gradually get better in the future.
Shen Anning made a decision in her heart.
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