Chapter 397 Ling Jingxuan Extra 1
I am His Royal Highness Prince Duan of Zhaoling State, the third son of the current emperor, Ling Jingxuan.
I used to feel that I was unfortunate. As a prince, I had no powerful relatives, and my mother was just a concubine. She died when I was thirteen.
But I am lucky, because my relationships are simple and I am not powerful, so many people don’t take me seriously and don’t bother to care about me, such as the emperor and empress, and the prince.
I hate the prince.
Precisely because no one takes me seriously, I have grown up where they can’t see me, until I have grown to the point where no one can ignore me anymore.
From the day I entered the court, I received more and more praise and support from the court officials, and finally became a thorn in the eyes of the prince and the queen.
I don't care. In my eyes, the high and mighty Crown Prince is nothing but a clown who deceives himself and others. Without the favor of my father, what would he be?
However, he was favored by his father, so he was born with something that others could not get even if they worked hard for their whole lives.
As sons of the same father, why is he born with everything, while I and the other princes are invisible?
I am unwilling to give up. I want to prove that I am better than the prince.
Finally, I did it. That high and mighty Crown Prince, who ridiculously sat on the dragon throne holding a fake imperial seal carved out of a carrot, was nailed to death on the palace gate by me on the day of his enthronement!
His queen also died at my hands. I scratched her face, wiped out her family, and accused her and the prince of murdering the late emperor, making it impossible for them to turn over a new leaf.
Because she has hurt the woman I love time and time again!
The person I love is Qin Qingyao, the princess consort of King Wuling.
I think the thing I regret most in my life is that I didn't ask my father to grant me and Qin Qingyao a marriage. Instead, I let Lin Xiafeng persuade Dugu Yu to marry her reluctantly.
Whenever I think of a wedding like that, my heart aches.
If God could give me a chance to live again, I would rather give up everything I have and run away with her than let Qin Qingyao marry into Prince Wuling's Mansion!
Before she got married, Qin Qingyao had a very bad reputation. She was arrogant, willful and rude, a complete spoiled daughter. But the truth was not like that at all.
Although she is just a teenage girl, she seems to have endless energy. She is very bold and always confronts me every time she sees me and never gives me face.
Every time she argued with me, it was for Dugu Yu and her husband. She had an inexplicable hostility towards me, as if I was not a good person in her eyes.
However, I couldn't control my gaze from following her, because I had never seen anyone like her who could defend her man with confidence at any time and in any place.
Yes, the Wuling King, a man of great achievements and commanding hundreds of thousands of troops, would actually be protected by such a little girl. Is it ridiculous? Actually, it is not ridiculous at all.
It was that unrealistic-sounding protection that made me jealous of Dugu Yu for the first time, and made me regret one thing for the first time, regretting pushing such a woman to someone else.
The person who, like me, will be angrily scolded by Qin Qingyao as soon as they meet is Lin Xiafeng.
Qin Qingyao hates her, and I can even feel that Qin Qingyao hates her more than she hates me. In fact, I know why, because Dugu Yu once had feelings for Lin Xiafeng.
I even fantasized that if Dugu Yu couldn't let go of Lin Xiafeng, would Qin Qingyao leave him, and then I would have a chance.
But the fact is, Dugu Yu also saw the good in Qin Qingyao, and he was greedy for every bit of peace of mind and warmth that Qin Qingyao brought him.
He was obsessed with Qin Qingyao like a hen protecting her chicks, and she would argue with everyone for him, as if he was a poor little thing who would be bullied.
The more greedy he is, the more jealous I am.
What I cannot understand the most is that Qin Qingyao always firmly believes that I will be with Lin Xiafeng.
Will it? I don't know. Before Qin Qingyao appeared in front of me, I did have a good impression of Lin Xiafeng, but it was far from being like her, let alone marrying her.
Later, some people said that Qin Qingyao was shameless and that she seduced me. In my heart, I felt very excited because of this. I knew that this happiness was so shameful, but I was really happy.
But the result was that she not only had to confront me for Dugu Yu, but also had to sabotage me for the prince, ruining my plans again and again.
I should have been angry, but I couldn't get angry at her no matter what. I was just very unwilling to accept it. Why did it have to be the prince? Why did everyone favor the prince, why even her?
I hate them so much, so much that I don't want any of them to have an easy life. I hate them so much that I want to send a woman to Dugu Yu to let her see whether that man is worthy of her unconditional protection.
Since you won’t let me live easily, then no one should live easily!
But I didn't expect that Dugu Yu actually loved her so much that he no longer listened to what I said or what Lin Xiafeng said.
Even though the woman was Lin Xiafeng's biological sister and looked at least 70% like Lin Xiafeng, he was not moved at all. Even though he had been drugged, he still gritted his teeth and went home.
…
Fortunately, God was kind to me after all. Qin Qingyao slowly realized that Ling Jingyu was a fool and was not worth helping at all. She was always so smart.
But why would such a smart person be so sure that Lin Xiafeng and I would be together? She always seems to know everything, so why doesn't she know who I like?
She came to surrender to me and said that she would no longer help the prince and would no longer go against me. I couldn't contain my joy. I never doubted a single word she said because she was such a straightforward girl who never bothered to lie.
But she was so decisive that every time I couldn't help but express a little bit of my feelings to her, she would immediately and cruelly and resolutely crush my feelings into the dust.
Why does she love Dugu Yu so much? How am I any less than King Wu Ling?
I knew that the prince had some contact with Lin Xiafeng. I watched from the sidelines, feeling calmer than I had imagined.
In fact, I wish she would stay away from me, because I know that even if Qin Qingyao chooses to stand on my side, she will still hate Lin Xiafeng. I don't want to stand with someone she hates, and I don't want her to misunderstand that I like such a "smart" woman.
Yes, Lin Xiafeng is very smart, and her intelligence is completely different from Qin Qingyao's.
Qin Qingyao's cleverness lies in the major issues, while Lin Xiafeng's cleverness lies in the details, in scheming and plotting, and in maintaining ambiguous relationships with all men who can help her.
She is good at playing with people's hearts and taking advantage of others' good impressions of her to get what she wants. She is smart, but also scary.
Compared with her in this regard, Qin Qingyao is absolutely stupid, otherwise why would she hang herself on a tree with Dugu Yu and not give others any chance to show goodwill to her.
The Lin family and Lin Xiafeng both agreed to the prince's proposal without hesitation. This was within my expectations, but it really scared Qin Qingyao.
She finally believed that there was nothing going on between Lin Xiafeng and me.
Lin Xiafeng is indeed a capable person. Once she chooses the prince's camp, she will help him wholeheartedly. If she were a man, she would definitely be a military strategist as good as Murong Ce.
Her attitude towards the prince always reminds me of Qin Qingyao's attitude towards Dugu Yu. Do all married women give everything to their husbands, or are they just the two of them?
I envy the prince who is helped by Lin Xiafeng like that, just a little bit, but I am really envious.
I think if I hadn't fallen in love with Qin Qingyao first, if Lin Xiafeng could not be so ambiguous with others, but instead clearly favor me and help me like Qin Qingyao, I might really fall in love with her.
For men like me and Dugu Yu, it is really not difficult to fall in love with a woman who is devoted to us and has only us in her eyes.
We were once friends, but we became complete enemies after Lin Xiafeng agreed to the prince's proposal. She helped the prince deal with me without reservation and even tried to manipulate my marriage.
She blamed me, blamed me for falling in love with Qin Qingyao. Could it be that she really had loved me in the past? Then what did Dugu Yu and Ling Jingyue mean to her?
I was sad, even a little aggrieved. A loser like Ling Jingyu was favored and protected by someone, but what about me? When would someone be partial to me like Qin Qingyao was to Dugu Yu?
Is there someone in this world who only loves me, only cares about me, always puts me first in front of everyone and everything, and is willing to go against everything for me like Qin Qingyao did, and willing to do anything for me like Lin Xiafeng did?
I went to Fenghuaxueyue many times, but I didn't have many chances to meet Qin Qingyao. I knew that she was busy accompanying Dugu Yu.
But there were a few times when we finally met, and I thought, she will never understand how happy I am.
I told her I didn't want to marry Ming Ruoxi, and I asked her to help me. She said, "The best outcome would be for Ming Ruoxi to marry Lin Xiafeng's brother and become her sister-in-law."
Not only did he fight back against Lin Xiafeng and Ming Ruoxi, but he also took revenge on the Lin and Ming families. It was simple and direct, but it was definitely a brilliant idea.
The problem that had put me in deep distress was solved by her in just a few words.
For a moment, I wished I could take her for myself without caring about anything else, hide her so that no one could find her, and from then on, she would belong only to me.
But I dare not.
I can't do anything. I'm afraid that she will blame me and hate me. I'm afraid that she will never want to see me again or help me. I dare not take the risk of losing her completely. I am a coward.
She looked at me with a hint of teasing and a lot of sympathy in her eyes, as if asking, I have always been so optimistic about you, why are you doing so badly?
Yes, Qin Qingyao has always been optimistic about me. She even said that I would ascend the throne and become emperor. It was such a distant dream, but she believed it so firmly.
Continue read on readnovelmtl.com