Chapter 270 My Heart is Dark
Concubine Qin Shu turned to face the Bodhisattva, clasping her hands together. "If you can't stand it, just go and expose me. As long as the Qin family isn't afraid of being implicated, I have nothing to fear either."
Qin Qingyao clenched her fists tightly, but felt deeply powerless, because she found that she was also a selfish person and it was impossible for her to expose Concubine Shu.
She didn't know how Concubine Shu had survived in the harem for so many years, but when she looked at the women in the harem with the eyes of an ordinary person, she found them obviously stupid and ridiculous.
Who has the right to blame others?
It was not her who had her love shattered, it was not her who was betrayed, and it was not her who had her unborn child killed. No matter what she said to Concubine Shu, it was all easy talk!
She doesn't know what kind of suffering others have endured, so she has no right to give them any advice on how to fight back against the world.
There is no such thing as empathy in this world!
Qin Qingyao only realized what Concubine Shu had said just now. "What did the Queen threaten you with?"
Concubine Qin Shu turned around and frowned, "This is none of your business! If you have nothing to do, please leave immediately and don't disturb me while I am in meditation!"
Qin Qingyao then saw that Concubine Shu had her back to her with her back straight, her words were full of coldness and ruthlessness, but in a place where no one could see, she was almost biting her lips to make them bleed.
She suddenly realized that deep down in her heart, Concubine Shu might not be as righteous as she appeared to be.
She pretended to be indifferent to everything, only because she was actually more helpless than anyone else in her heart. Beneath her cold and hard appearance, there was still a little bit of ridiculous conscience hidden.
She carefully treasured and preserved the thing that was discarded like a piece of trash in the harem. She was tortured day and night. Qin Qingyao felt that perhaps this was the reason why the emperor was still willing to trust her and give her a way out.
"Empress Shufei! We are a family. If you are bullied in the palace, you can tell me and my father. You don't have to bear it all by yourself!"
"Since the Queen can threaten you to kill a child, who knows if she'll ask you to do something even more outrageous in the future! Are you going to let her control you like this for the rest of your life?"
Concubine Shu sneered at first, then her shoulders shook with laughter, her eyes growing redder and redder. "Family? Go home and tell your father about this!"
Qin Qingyao looked at Concubine Shu with an uncontrollable feeling of heartache. She thought of her second brother, who would rather hurt himself than ask his family for help. Maybe her second brother's mood at that time was actually the same as Concubine Shu's.
Do they all feel that they have been abandoned by their families and have no one to rely on? Do they think that the Qin family only cares about interests and future and doesn't care about their life or death at all?
"Aunt, you really misunderstood my father. My father didn't contact you because he didn't want people to accuse you of colluding with the emperor's relatives and didn't want you to be suspected and hated by the emperor!"
"You said Dad didn't help you, I admit that, but did my dad ever hold you back or cause you any trouble?"
"Whether it was when you were most favored, or when the Emperor was happiest when my cousin Prince Ning was born, did my father ever take advantage of you? Did he ever ask you or my cousin Prince Ning to speak a word for him or my brothers in front of the Emperor? Never!"
"My father knows how hard you work, so he has always been careful and never causes you any trouble."
"If he didn't care about you and didn't treat you as a family member, he could just be like everyone else, sending messages to the palace every few days, asking you to coax the emperor and persuade him to seek benefits for the Qin family without caring about your life or death!"
Concubine Shu turned around and faced the Buddha statue, not looking at Qin Qingyao. "Don't say anymore. I don't want to hear it. I made the mistake myself, and I will bear it myself. If I can't redeem myself in this life, then let me pay for it in the next life. Isn't this what you want?"
"What the Qin family is like, I had no control over it before, and it has nothing to do with me in the future!"
Qin Qingyao felt particularly uncomfortable after hearing what Concubine Shu said. She was unable to accept the subversive truth at the moment, so she spoke without restraint, which must have hurt Concubine Shu's heart.
Now think about it, how helpless and painful she must have felt when the queen forced her to kill a child.
"Then you and the Queen..."
"What does it have to do with you?"
"I... am just curious..." If that handle is so easy to use, what if the Queen comes to cause trouble again in the future? Does Concubine Shu really not want to solve the problem?
"What do you want to know? Princess Wu Ling, you should know how to cherish your blessings. You are lucky to marry into a prince's mansion instead of the imperial palace, so don't meddle in other people's business!"
"Do you have to wait until the entire Qin family is involved before you can satisfy your curiosity? Don't come to this temple again. Get out of here!"
After saying this, Concubine Shu knelt down in front of the Bodhisattva and ignored Qin Qingyao. Qin Qingyao left the Taimiao, feeling even more confused than when she arrived.
She found that she couldn't see through Concubine Shu's heart at all. Was she a bad person? Or a good person? She acted so cold and kept chasing her away, but Qin Qingyao felt that she seemed to care about the Qin family and her.
I don't know if she is just being sentimental.
After Qin Qingyao walked away, Concubine Shu closed her eyes, a tear slipped across her eyelids, "The thing I regret most in my life is entering the royal family..."
Dugu Yu came to pick her up after the morning court session. Seeing her walking towards him in a trance, he hurried over and carried her to the carriage.
"What's going on? What happened? Did the Concubine Shu blame you?"
Qin Qingyao shook her head without saying anything. She hugged Duguyu's waist and lay on his chest, wanting to cry but unable to. "Hubby, I don't like it here. I don't like it at all."
She didn't like those fights, she was afraid of the blood, she was afraid of being harmed, and she was even more afraid that one day she would do whatever it took to harm others.
Dugu Yu held her in his arms and coaxed her tenderly, "Okay, then let's go, leave here and live somewhere else, and never come back."
Qin Qingyao just lay in his arms and didn't come out. She didn't say whether she believed him or not. After she recovered, she told Dugu Yu, "Shufei said that she killed the nineteenth prince."
Dugu Yu, "Yeah."
"Why aren't you surprised?"
Dugu Yu pursed his lips and said, "From the evidence found by the Queen, it seems that Concubine Shu is not wronged."
Qin Qingyao, "..."
"But this was actually the Queen's doing. She used the evidence against Concubine Shu to force her to kill the Nineteenth Prince, and then revealed Concubine Shu's crimes to the Emperor with irrefutable evidence!"
The more I think about it, the more I feel that although the queen looks graceful and noble, she is actually very evil at heart!
Dugu Yu, "Then what do you want to do?"
"Why don't you look surprised at all?"
Dugu Yu, “…”
Should he be surprised by such a thing? If Huipin and the Nineteenth Prince were not killed, it would be the Crown Prince who would die. How could the Queen be lenient?
It just so happens that she has the leverage over Concubine Shu in her hands, so it's easy to kill two birds with one stone. What a great strategy! It's really not surprising that the Queen would do this!
If Qin Qingyao's so-called surprise meant that Concubine Shu, who seemed so peaceful and indifferent to the world, could actually leave a fatal handle in the hands of the Queen, then he could only say that his wife was still too naive and thought too highly of others.
If someone told him that Concubine Shu was completely innocent and clean, he would be really surprised!
"I really can't understand. Concubine Shu said she made a mistake when she was young. If it was a mistake when she was young, why didn't the Queen kill her sooner, but kept that handle until today?"
Dugu Yu said, "Perhaps, the Queen is also responsible for the mistakes made by Concubine Shu. Otherwise, how would the Queen know?"
Qin Qingyao nodded in agreement, "That makes sense!"
It was obvious that the two of them did evil together, and then the Queen forced Concubine Shu to make mistakes again. Concubine Shu would be punished, and the Queen could kill her without hurting herself!
Because the Queen was very sure that Concubine Shu would not confess her previous crimes to the Emperor, so she would not expose her!
The more Qin Qingyao thought about it, the more she felt this speculation was plausible! At the same time, she also thought of a new way to help Ling Jingxuan overthrow the Crown Prince!
"So what if the Queen killed Huipin and the Nineteenth Prince? As long as we find out what she and Shufei did in the past, she will definitely be punished!"
"Otherwise, after so many years, how could the Queen still use that incident to force Concubine Shu to kill someone personally? That would definitely be a greater crime than murdering the heir to the throne!"
Dugu Yu reached out and pinched Qin Qingyao's face, somewhat helplessly, "Are you sure you want to check? You have to know that some people's mistakes are far beyond your imagination. The truth may be something no one can bear."
Qin Qingyao immediately wilted. Yes, no matter what happened in the past, Concubine Shu had finally left the palace, and it hadn't been quiet for a few days. If she brought up those old accounts, wouldn't that lead to the death of Concubine Shu and the Queen?
She sighed deeply. Knowing some things is more sad than not knowing them, because there is nothing you can do about it.
When Concubine Shu said so easily that she was the murderer, Qin Qingyao was really shocked and surprised. It completely overturned all her fantasies about this aunt. So she was angry and even blamed Concubine Shu for being cruel.
But now think about it calmly, what can Concubine Shu do? She is just a concubine, she can't even protect herself, how can she be so noble and upright as to save Concubine Hui's child?
Even if Concubine Shu didn't take action, the Nineteenth Prince would surely die. By then, Concubine Shu might even have to pay with her own life...
Seeing Qin Qingyao lost in thought, Dugu Yu lowered his head and bit her cheek, "What are you thinking about?"
"Nothing, what have you been busy with lately? You always stay in the study and don't see anyone!"
Dugu Yu, "I'm busy trying to figure out how to resign and retire."
Qin Qingyao gave him a huge eye roll!
Dugu Yu just smiled and said nothing more. Qin Qingyao snuggled in Dugu Yu's arms, and the two of them leaned on each other and said nothing all the way.
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