Chapter 1182 There is no us, only you.
Li Yu took it naturally, and under Gu Yan's gaze, he brought it to his lips, took a small bite, and said softly, "Thank you."
The tone was very sincere, which made Gu Yan feel like he was about to split apart.
Gu Yan had never felt so helpless in his life.
He sighed, raised his hand and rubbed Li Yu's hair vigorously, and said helplessly: "You."
Gu Yan had no intention of watching others finish the duck legs, so he hugged another brother and went to dance again.
Li Yu took the chicken leg in his hand, took small bites of it, and ate it all bit by bit.
It’s your last meal, so you should eat enough.
He poured himself a glass of wine. He had never drunk much, and he had never experienced anything that a boy in his twenties should have.
He actually liked Gu Yan very much. He was lively and cheerful. Even though he had lost a leg, it didn't stop him from doing anything.
But he can't.
The things he lost when he was a few years old are like a deep nightmare that he has not been able to forget for so many years.
When he passed by Gu Yan with his beer glass in hand, the beer bottle bumped into Gu Yan. Facing the tiny lights in the yard, he smiled and said to Gu Yan: "It would have been great if I had met you earlier."
The music was too loud and Gu Yan couldn't hear clearly. When he wanted to ask him what he said, Li Yu had already raised his leg and walked towards Bian Zhi with a wine glass in hand.
Bian Zhi sat lazily on the bench, his posture was unusually lazy.
Li Yu brought over some chicken nuggets and ate one himself before saying to Bian Zhi, "It tastes great."
Among so many people, Li Yu was most worried that Bian Zhi would not eat the food here.
She is very self-disciplined and cautious, and is not very receptive to other people's kindness. After all, Zhou Suihuai is the only exception for her.
But Bian Zhi was different today. He ate the chicken nuggets that Li Yu brought over very happily.
Before eating, Li Yu called her.
Bian Zhi held the chicken nuggets in one hand and raised his eyebrows at Li Yu.
Li Yu smiled and asked Bian Zhi, "Junior Sister, do you still remember the first time we met?"
She had no impression of Bian Zhi. In some ways, Zhou Enyou completely inherited Bian Zhi's face blindness. Before she met Zhou Suihuai, she actually didn't care about men.
She usually doesn't remember a man's appearance. Shen Ting Si Zhang is good, Lin Ye is also outstanding, and with the absolutely beautiful Zhou Sui Huai since she was a child, no matter how good-looking a man is, he can't be as stunning as her.
What's more, Li Yu is a little boy type.
"Don't you remember?" Li Yu said with a hint of disappointment.
"But I remember," Li Yu smiled and said, "You came to my house to look for my father. I was inside the house at the time. As soon as you opened your mouth, I came out because you had a nice voice, like a female anchor on the radio. When I came out and saw you, I was stunned. It took me a long time to come back to my senses.
You always follow me to the lab. On the bench outside the lab, I will watch you for a long time. People always say that I have a calm temper. In fact, it is because you are inside. But your time in the lab is too short. Before I can see enough, you are leaving.
I hoped you would stay. I went to find you, but you just smiled at me and left without saying anything. I have never hated myself as much as I did that day for being a fool in the eyes of outsiders. Because I was a fool, you didn't even give me a normal conversation.
I was so disappointed, but then you came back. You looked me in the eyes and told me to climb out of the abyss and not to be alone in the abyss looking up at the stars. You left and I was very disappointed. I thought I would never see you again, but you came back. Do you know how happy I was?
Li Yu turned his head and looked at Bian Zhi with a paranoid obsession in his eyes.
"But there's another person beside you!"
Li Yu's tone was full of resentment at this point, "I like you, I like you so much, but you can never see me, never see me. I originally thought, okay, if you can't see me, I will guard you, I can be a fool forever, guarding you like a fool by your side, but what about you?
You can only see Zhou Suihuai! I've already let it go that you can't see me. I've convinced myself to just watch you from afar, but you want to leave, you still have to leave! You don't want to take me with you, you want to abandon me like before! Bian Zhi! I just want to ask you, why are you so cruel! Why don't you give me a little tenderness! "
"Liu Shuyi! That fat guy! Li Siyue! And those patients waiting outside the hotel!"
"You endured night after night for them, trying every possible way to save them. But what about me? Why can't you see me? Why don't you save me? Tell me!"
Li Yu's eyes were bloodshot and his tone gradually became louder, but he didn't care.
He didn't care about anything anymore. He questioned Bian Zhi almost crazily, asking her, "You saved so many people, why didn't you save me? Am I destined to be the one abandoned in this life?! Everyone is bewitched by me, they are all nice to me, but what about you? You didn't even look at the scarf I knitted with so much effort! Why!"
I have no other hope in life. I just want to see you happy from afar, but you are so stingy! You won't give me anything. You are so stingy!
As Li Yu spoke, he raised his hand and was about to touch Bian Zhi's face. Bian Zhi tilted his head and Li Yu's fingers missed.
Li Yu was stunned for a moment, and then quickly smiled.
"You won't let me touch it because you think I'm dirty? That's okay," Li Yu smiled softly as he watched Bian Zhi eat the chicken nuggets. "It's okay, it doesn't matter anymore. Everything will turn into nothingness, everything will be shattered. I, you, everyone will be shattered!"
Bian Zhi took another piece of chicken from the plate.
There is a reason why Li Yu is so likable.
She usually eats light food, but when she eats chicken nuggets, she likes to sprinkle some pepper and salt on them after frying them. The salty and savory taste is very good.
She didn't tell anyone, and Li Yu was the second person to notice this besides Zhou Suihuai.
Maybe there are many other times.
"I'm not picky about food, but actually I'm very picky." Bian Zhi suddenly spoke.
Li Yu was stunned for a moment.
"I like carrots cut into strips, but not in chunks. I don't like hard potatoes or taro; I prefer soft ones. I don't like chicken nuggets, but I do like grilled chicken legs. I don't like onions, ginger, and garlic, but if you put them in a hot pan and braid them, I'll eat them as long as I can't see them. I don't like blueberries in my smoothies; I only like to eat them with my bare hands. You can't use a knife that's been used to cut vegetables on fruit, not even a little bit, or I'll taste it."
“…”
Bian Zhi spoke softly, his eyes not on Li Yu, but on a certain empty point in front of him.
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Li Yu was stunned for a long time by Bian Zhi's voice.
At an unexpected moment, Bian Zhi suddenly turned around and said, "You are very careful and smart. When it comes to diet, you understand me much better than I do myself."
The sudden confirmation made Li Yu stunned.
"You know what?" Bian Zhi leaned back in her chair, legs crossed, her long, curly hair draped over her shoulders. She spoke softly, her expression less cold than usual. Even when she spoke, a faint smile played on her lips. "I had a rough childhood, very rough ones. For a long time, I felt like I couldn't breathe, and I wanted to die many times."
Bian Zhi stretched out his fingers and gently stroked his wrist. "I've done this before." Li Yu opened his eyes wide in surprise. Bian Zhi smiled. "Is it strange?"
Li Yu: "You look like a very powerful person, invincible."
"There's no such thing as an invincible person. The life I've lived is far more unbearable than you can imagine." Bian Zhi rarely spoke of the past, and was too lazy to talk about some things that were difficult to say. But today, he suddenly felt relieved, so he said lightly: "Not long after my mother died, my father brought someone home and had sex on the sofa that my mother had chosen. They didn't know I was at home at the time, so I was standing at the stairs. At that time-"
Bian Zhi thought for a moment. "I was probably a little over ten years old. Looking down from the upstairs, there was flesh lying all over the place. That was my ugliest understanding of sex at that age. It was just spread out in front of me. Can you imagine?"
Li Yu looked at Bian Zhi with less guard in his eyes.
"At first sight," Bian Zhi said, "I knew you were the same kind of person as me."
As soon as these words came out, Li Yu was suddenly stunned and got goose bumps all over his body.
"But you're not the first one I've met. I've been to slums and the poorest tribes in the world. Those so-called ugliness have overshadowed all my perceptions of the matter. So I told you at the time to get out of the abyss."
"But I really don't have much impression of you. I've met too many miserable people who can't even guarantee their basic living. You're really not the most miserable person I've ever seen."
The invisible children in North American welfare institutions.
A mentally ill patient who has been wandering the streets and has been abused for a long time.
An elderly man in his twilight years who can't afford to eat and kneels like a dog begging for food.
Some people could not even have a hot meal in their entire lives, and she really did not have enough mercy to save the little son of a professor.
"You had many opportunities to save yourself, but you didn't."
"Destroying what you can't get has become your usual way of thinking, right?"
Bian Zhi slowly ate the chicken nuggets and whispered, "Are you feeling quite proud? But also very twisted? When you called Gu Yan, did you ever think about how good he was to you? How he protected you? Gu Yan is not a soft-hearted person. You can't imagine how decisive he is, but he softened his heart towards you. The people of the Poison Scorpion saw everything you had done, and they were all soft on you, but what about you? Have you been soft on them?"
Li Yu's eyes flashed fiercely at Bian Zhi's questioning.
Bian Zhi smiled again and clapped his hands. "You appear soft on the outside, but your heart is too hard." Bian Zhi spread his hands, smiled, turned to Li Yu and asked, "Now, at this moment, are you satisfied with our situation?"
At that moment, Li Yu seemed to feel that Bian Zhi had seen through him.
See through what you have done.
But he quickly denied it. No, he did it so carefully, Bian Zhi couldn't have discovered it. He couldn't have discovered the things he had done these days.
"What do you mean?"
Bian Zhi looked at Li Yu and asked softly, "Do you still want to pretend?"
"I'm leaving soon. If you still want to pretend, I'm afraid I don't have that much time to act with you."
"Besides," Bian Zhi smiled, "didn't you drug us? Why, we all took it, and you still don't dare to admit it?"
Li Yu's eyes widened at this moment, and he looked at Bian Zhi in disbelief.
The music stopped at some point, and the people who were dancing enthusiastically stopped and looked at them together.
Li Yu had been wearing the mask for so long that he didn't know how to react.
He smiled with great difficulty, then glanced at Gu Yan hurriedly, and smiled quickly again.
The two smiles were a bit ugly, with the fake smile making people look funny and pitiful.
“You, you guys…”
"So, you guys already discovered it."
"Then why do you still want to eat?"
He sprinkled the medicine there himself, so there couldn't be any problem.
"There's nothing wrong with the medicine." When Li Yu was about to ask if the medicine had been swapped, Bian Zhi answered the question in Li Yu's mind first.
"Then you... still..."
"Impossible, impossible, you can't possibly find out!"
Li Yu suddenly laughed crazily, tears streaming down his face. He then pointed at Gu Yan and then at Bian Zhi, "So you've already noticed and taken precautions tonight?"
"It's too late!"
"Bian Zhi, you're so smart, do you think I would just poison today's food?"
"You know what? Quantitative change will lead to qualitative change."
"From the first day I entered this house, I have been putting drugs in your food little by little. Not only in the food, but also in the fruit, water, cups, and any place you might come into contact with. I put drugs in it."
"This medicine is colorless and odorless, making it perfect for those of you who are highly vigilant. But it doesn't matter. I'm a fool. Who would be wary of a fool? The identity I despise so much has given me a layer of protection at this time. You think a fool can't do anything to you, right? But in the end, didn't you still fall into my hands?"
"Hahaha--"
"Ha ha ha ha--"
"Bian Zhi," Li Yu said frantically, his mouth making a gurgling sound out of excitement at this time, which sounded extremely creepy in the night, "This medicine is extremely potent. Even if you are a skilled doctor, you can't save these brothers of yours, and you can't save Zhou Suihuai!"
Gu Yan stood aside with his arms crossed, looking at Li Yu coldly, "Didn't you eat what you just had?"
"Yes, I ate it too." Li Yu didn't look at Gu Yan, his eyes were always on Bian Zhi, "Because, I don't want to live at all. I eat with you, every day's meals, fruits, whatever you eat, I eat with you, and sprinkle medicine on it while eating. I don't want to live, I want you to die with me."
"The road to the underworld is too cold, you two should accompany me to have some fun!"
Li Yu's mental state was completely distorted. The youthfulness and ignorance on his face had faded, and there was an extremely ferocious feeling. The servants were all scared and no one dared to come over.
Bian Zhi looked at Li Yu, and amid his crazy laughter, he whispered: "There is no us, only you."
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