Chapter 1188 When you didn’t know, you had actually saved me.
"I took Enyou's Chinese medicine before, and I remembered some of it sporadically." Zhou Suihuai avoided the main point.
Bian Zhi looked at him.
Ask, what next?
Zhou Suihuai pursed his lips, not daring to look at Bian Zhi, "Then, it became intermittent..."
"Think about it first," Bian Zhi interrupted Zhou Suihuai without looking at him during the whole process. He quietly wiped his own hands with a tissue and then wiped Zhou Suihuai's hands.
Zhou Suihuai wanted to raise his hand to take it, but Bian Zhi dodged it, lowered his eyes, moved his hands, and waited quietly for someone to answer.
She is very patient.
As long as he is willing to speak, she is willing to wait.
The room fell into silence.
Bian Zhi still had a faint smile on her face. She asked again, "Is it difficult to answer?"
Zhou Suihuai pursed his lips, raised his eyes cautiously to look at Bian Zhi, and remained silent as he considered how to say it so as not to make the matter become too serious.
He wanted her to be happy all the time.
"Zhou Suihuai," Bian Zhi understood Zhou Suihuai's feelings very well, but there were some things that needed to be said. "Between husband and wife," Bian Zhi threw the tissue in her hand into the trash can and casually tapped the ring on Zhou Suihuai's ring finger. "Really, husband and wife?"
Zhou Suihuai was startled and quickly said, "Yes, yes, what's wrong?"
Bian Zhi smiled and said, "I thought you thought I was just giving you this ring casually."
Zhou Suihuai: “No.”
Bian Zhi nodded. "That's good." She sat cross-legged, her posture very relaxed. Her aqua blue pajamas made her look very soft. "How did it happen? Even if you don't tell me, I can guess. After being hit, you remember everything completely, right?"
Bian Zhi didn't need Zhou Suihuai's feedback, she knew, "No matter why you didn't tell me, this is my problem."
Zhou Suihuai was anxious when he heard this, "No, it's..."
"You don't have to defend me. I admit my problems," Bian Zhi's voice was very soft, without any emotion. She spoke slowly and said, "I really have too many things to do. Many times, even if it's not intentional, it is easy to ignore you at those times.
I seem to be used to it, very used to it. I'm used to you always standing by my side, and I'm also used to you being behind me no matter when I turn around. Wan Qian once said something not very modest to me. She said, I'm very talented in dealing with you.
I thought it was funny when I heard it, but later I thought about it, and I actually thought the same thing in my heart. So how many times we've been apart, how long we've been apart, and why we've been apart, don't seem to be the biggest issues for me. I'm used to you always loving me, and I firmly believe that you will only love me in this life."
Bian Zhi's voice was low but sincere. "Today I went to your house. Your father said that I was soft-hearted. Because I was too soft-hearted, I always gave people the impression that I could give in. At that time, I was distracted for a while. What I was thinking was,
I'm soft-hearted towards many people, but you're soft-hearted towards me, so I'm proud and spoiled, and I find ways to provoke you. We've been apart for five years, and even though you've lost your memory, I still coax you back. You even gave up everything and followed me to North America."
"I have too much confidence in you."
Bian Zhi finished speaking and laughed softly, "Zhou Suihuai, I feel like I have you in my hands."
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Zhou Suihuai also smiled, his smile filled with the tenderness and gentleness of satisfaction, "Well, you've got me."
"I never thought about getting married. Or rather, I thought getting married was something interesting. I never thought about that. I have shadows in that area. I'm not lying to you. Before I met you, before my previous marriage, those shadows were always there."
"It's not that Ou Moyuan hasn't thought about it, but I'm very resistant. People outside think he's cold and aloof, but that's not the case. But I can't accept it."
Bian Zhi leaned into Zhou Suihuai's arms and said, "I was too young at that time, barely a teenager. My mother had just passed away. I was sick that day and came out of the room in a daze. When I'm sick, I rely on my family the most. I went to look for Lin Jue. When I came out of the room, I heard panting downstairs.
I was young at that time and didn't understand anything. When I walked to the corridor and looked towards the living room, I saw two bodies entangled together. The sun was very dazzling that day, and the strong sunlight coming in through the floor-to-ceiling windows hit the living room, and even the air was hot.
I stood in the corridor, my mind was in a trance, a little confused, and the sound of panting continuously reached my ears. I looked down, but in fact, there was nothing in my mind anymore. There was only the scene in front of me and the hideous and painful expressions of the two people when Lin Jue kept sprinting towards Wang Zhen.
I was still confused at the time, but I actually knew what it was for. I went downstairs. They didn't hear me, so I stood a few meters away and watched silently for a long time. It was not until Wang Zhen screamed sharply, "Ah," that Lin Jue hurriedly stopped. I'm a doctor, I've seen the human body structure, but that doesn't stop me from thinking it's ugly and disgusting.
Zhou Suihuai hugged Bian Zhi, feeling distressed and sad, "Don't say anymore."
Bian Zhi shook his head and patted Zhou Suihuai's hand. "For a long time, I was afraid of men. That day, I had a fever and my mind was confused, but after the fever subsided, those originally blurry scenes seemed to become clear in an instant. Everyone thought that my depression was due to my mother's death. In fact, a large part of the reason was this.
I had a nightmare for a long time. In the dream, my mother, my father, and I were sitting around a round table, celebrating my birthday. My mother had a smile on her face, and my father was gentle and loving. But then the scene changed, and I saw Lin Jue and Wang Zhen lying on the sofa. Then my father hurriedly got down from the sofa and hurriedly buckled his belt.
"That was the longest and most difficult dark journey of my youth. I almost...couldn't make it."
"I was really young at that time and couldn't face it," Bian Zhi said here. Feeling Zhou Suihuai's hand holding her waist tighten, she smiled and asked, "Did you hear what I said to Li Yu that day?"
Because I heard it, I feel sorry for it.
He was afraid that she would think too much, so he always wanted it, but he would always stop at the right time. He would rather go to the bathroom himself afterward and never let her get tired. He always thought of ways to make this thing pleasant, wanting to use the current pleasant experience to cover up the past.
"Zhou Suihuai," Bian Zhi turned over and faced Zhou Suihuai. She kissed him gently on the lips with a murmured laugh, "What you think is a shadow, what you want to cover up, in fact, I had already completely let go of it as early as the first time I was with you."
Without you knowing, you have actually saved me.
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