Chapter 385 Is She Really Wrong?
Zhou Suihuai still didn't answer her.
The two of them stood under the tree in silence for a long time.
Zhou Suihuai had never treated her like this before, so when Bian Zhi realized that he might be angry, she was a little dazed and confused.
"Are you unhappy? Zhou Suihuai."
There was a hint of unconscious coaxing in Bian Zhi's tone.
After Bian Zhi said this, Zhou Suihuai blinked.
"Why are you unhappy?"
"Because," she guessed, "because I didn't let you kill Zhang?"
"Zhou Suihuai, you're not a child anymore. This is an information society, a society ruled by law. If you really kill or maim someone here, and he seriously sues you, won't you be in trouble too?"
Bian Zhi saw that Zhou Suihuai's expression did not relax at all.
She sighed.
She sympathized with his being a manic patient.
"Let's take a step back and say, if you really want to teach him a lesson, you should go to a secluded place. This guy named Zhang deserves to die a thousand times, but it's really not worth it for you to die for him."
Bian Zhi tried to make Zhou Suihuai understand that she was thinking about the problem from his perspective.
But Zhou Suihuai remained motionless as he listened to the explanation.
Bian Zhi was at his wit's end.
"You really won't come in with me?"
"If you don't leave, then I'll leave?"
After Bian Zhi finished speaking, he moved his feet and observed him out of the corner of his eye.
He really didn't move.
Stubborn as a bull.
"Zhou Suihuai," Bian Zhi said patiently, "You can be unhappy, but you must tell me why you are unhappy."
Otherwise, how would she coax him?
"Or maybe you could give me some hints?"
Zhou Suihuai looked at Bian Zhi who was whispering softly, but he was not necessarily happy in his heart. He turned his head away and did not look at her again.
But he opened his mouth.
"Zhang has been looking for you."
This is an affirmative sentence.
Bian Zhi also said frankly: "Yes."
"So, my second brother suddenly asked me to go abroad with him. It was you who discussed it with him."
Bian Zhi: “Yes.”
"You don't want me to know that Zhang came to see you, and you don't want me to do anything violent to Zhang."
Bian Zhi: “Yes.”
"So, you already knew that I was sick."
Bian Zhi didn't answer.
Zhou Suihuai, however, understood clearly, "So, you think I'm sick, that I'll act impulsively, that I'll get in your way, and that's why you went through so much trouble to get me sent away."
Bian Zhi: "I didn't mean that."
Zhou Suihuai heard this, lowered his head and smiled bitterly, "You didn't mean it that way, but you did it."
His eyes suddenly turned red. "In your eyes, am I a patient who can never be relied upon?"
"So, that's why you are so patient in coaxing me?"
"Because, in your heart, I am just a patient who is unreasonable but has to be comforted."
Zhou Suihuai finished speaking, then paused for a long time before speaking word by word: "So, my wishful thinking that I had a special place in your heart was not without reason an illusion."
His eyes were red and his face was as cold as a winter night.
"So, these days, you've been so nice to me...it's just because I'm a patient. I'm just as hopelessly stupid as I was many years ago."
"Yeah?"
Bian Zhi's brows furrowed tighter and tighter as Zhou Suihuai spoke, "That's not what I meant."
"I just feel like I can handle this on my own."
"Of course," at this time, Bian Zhi still didn't want to lie to him, "I also took your condition into consideration, but it's not entirely because you are a patient..."
Bian Zhi suddenly felt that he was a little confused.
"Anyway, I feel that this isn't a big deal, and Zhang's presence doesn't pose any threat to me. I allowed him to appear because I wanted to clarify certain things through him. Do you understand me?"
Zhou Suihuai looked at Bian Zhi quietly.
After a long time.
"I don't understand."
Zhou Suihuai lowered his eyes and slowly exhaled, his sorrowful face blending into the gradually darkening darkness. "I only know that you don't trust me."
"I'm not someone you can rely on when things go wrong."
"You've never thought of me, not even once. You've never thought that I would be a part of your life. You always face everything alone. You've never considered that my desperate attempts to get close to you were a fervent hope to share in your joys and sorrows."
Three years ago, Bian Zhi suddenly got married. Zhou Suihuai was disappointed, but not desperate.
Three years later, Bian Zhi divorced him, and he suddenly felt that he was getting further away from her.
Later on, we got along.
At one point, he felt very close to her.
He even felt that her indulgence contained elements of love between men and women.
He felt that maybe this time, just maybe, he could touch the distant stars.
until--
He was taken abroad by Zhou Sui Han. He was too lazy to auction the gift, so he directly bought it from the seller at a premium of more than twenty times the price. He came back excitedly.
result--
He was greeted with a heavy blow.
"So, Zhang has already contacted you, right?"
When he became suspicious of Zhang's motives for appearing around the Chinese Medicine Hospital, he had already contacted Bian Zhi without his knowledge.
Obviously, he appears by her side every day.
Obviously, at this moment, they were only a few steps away.
But at this moment, he felt that he was so far away from her.
The distance between them seemed so great that he could never cross it even if he tried his best throughout his life.
The whole world knows that Zhou Suihuai likes Bian Zhi.
But this time, he clearly understood—
Bian Zhi, you won’t like him.
Zhou Suihuai's eyes were filled with sadness, and he lowered his dazzling peach blossom eyes and clenched his fists.
There was a long pause.
Then he lowered his voice, as if afraid of startling something, and asked in the lowest voice, "So, does my presence disturb you?"
Bian Zhi was about to speak.
Zhou Suihuai: "I'm sorry that my self-righteous protection disturbed your plans."
These words fell.
Without waiting for Bian Zhi to say a word, Zhou Suihuai turned around and left. His steps were very fast. After Bian Zhi came to his senses, Zhou Suihuai's lonely figure had already merged into the thick night.
Bian Zhi stood there, silent for a long time.
Then she called Zhou Suihuai.
She wanted to say something.
Even so, she couldn't organize her words well at the moment.
But she had to say something.
She is not good at relying on others, and has never felt that anyone's shoulder is reliable.
It was a long time after Bian Yaoyao left.
One person digests all emotions,
One person handles everything.
There were many such times, and they lasted for a long time, so long that she almost felt that it was a survival instinct.
She felt that this was how it should be.
So, when she let Zhou Suihuai leave, she never felt that she had done anything wrong.
Is she really wrong?
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