Chapter 41
After this reminder, Ke Xin rubbed her head in self-reproach: "Oh, I really forgot!"
In the evening, Fu Xuan, wearing gold-rimmed glasses, walked into the study, turned on his computer, typed a few lines, and asked, "Can depression cause amnesia?"
There are many different opinions, but the conclusion is that as the disease worsens, memory will be selectively forgotten.
One comment read: "Being in a relationship with someone with depression is like putting her life in the other person's hands. It's easy for the other person to hurt her if they want to!"
When he saw this message, he was even more certain of his desire to treat Ke Xin well.
The next morning, Fu Xuan specifically told Aunt Fang to remember to remind Ke Xin to take her medicine.
Aunt Fang immediately responded: "Hey, I'll remind her as soon as she finishes breakfast!"
“It’s a daily reminder!”
"good!"
There is wind and rain outside the window. The weather forecast reports that a level 7 typhoon will arrive in the next two days, so citizens are advised to take precautions.
After reading for a while, Ke Xin played a soft and soothing song. When the song was halfway through, thunder and lightning sounded in the sky.
Ke Xin likes to curl up on the sofa and watch the lightning and thunder outside. She feels like she is wrapped in a sense of security.
The first time she took action to commit suicide was on that rainy day with thunder and lightning. She was eight years old that year. For this purpose, she even climbed to the top of the mountain, thinking of finding a place where it would be convenient to jump off the cliff.
But just as she climbed to the top of the mountain, it began to rain heavily, and lightning flashed clearly in front of her eyes, as if it would hit her in the next second.
At that moment, it seemed as if God was saying, if you dare to die, I will immediately strike you to death with lightning.
She imagined the moment she was struck by lightning, her whole body instantly becoming a scorched furnace, or her eyes turning black, and as she wished, she died.
But she was only eight years old at that time. She was subconsciously afraid, so she shivered and hid under a rock until the rain turned into a drizzle. Then she climbed down the mountain in a mess. On the way down, she had to climb over an iron railing. While climbing, she accidentally cut her hand, and blood immediately flowed. She covered the wound in pain and went home. Chen Min slapped her in the face and said in a ferocious tone: "Where the hell have you been? Do you know that your brother's birthday is today and there are so many chores waiting for you to do at home!"
Ke Xin covered her red and swollen face with her hands in pain, opened her bloodshot eyes, looked very sad, and couldn't help shedding tears.
A humble hope suddenly arose in her heart. She endured the pain and raised the bloody hand in front of her mother, praying for even a hint of pity!
But what she received was still a look of indifference.
Yes, she has long been accustomed to it. Whatever she expects, she shouldn't have any expectations.
That day, she washed dishes in the sink all day with her injured hands, more silently than ever before. It was also from that day that she began to learn silence, but what she didn't know was that the wonderful things that should have happened in her life were also killed in silence.
If she were to ask what forced her to death, she now thought it was not violence, not insults, not sarcasm, and certainly not exploitation, but silence.
Silence was like an invisible blade, slowly fermenting in her scarred wounds, until a certain dark power in her heart could no longer be suppressed. That power then turned into silence, destroying her childhood, which she had ignored but experienced many vicissitudes of life.
Ke Xin took a deep breath and tried to climb out of the dark abyss. She staggered to the scale and found that she had lost another seven kilograms from her original weight of over ninety kilograms.
Just then, there was a gentle knock on the door, and Aunt Fang's gentle voice came: "Ke Xin, it's time to take your medicine." This voice was like a rope, pulling her back from the edge of the quagmire of self-loathing.
"good."
Ke Xin responded, her voice slightly hoarse.
She opened the door and took the water and pills handed to her by Aunt Fang. Aunt Fang's eyes lingered on her pale face for a moment, with cautious concern.
Ke Xin tilted her head back and expertly swallowed the medicine. The warm water flowing down her throat seemed to temporarily dispel the darkness surging in her heart, and her mood strangely calmed down a bit.
Ke Xin had nothing to do, so she read a book for a while. Seeing that the rain had stopped, she thought of going downstairs for a walk.
The rose seeds that had been planted earlier were washed away by the rain, disrupting their original location. Smelling the fresh scent of soil after the rain, Ke Xin could vaguely see a few tender buds breaking through the soil, and her heart also moved with these tender buds.
Today is Friday, and Baobao got out of school earlier than usual. As soon as she got back, she ran towards Kexin with a clatter of her feet. Her rosy face was filled with joy as she said, "Mom, I saw a classmate perform the violin today, and she was so beautiful. I want to be as beautiful as her. Can I learn?"
Hearing this, Ke Xin half-knelt down and said with a bit of surprise: "Sure, as long as you like, our Bao Bao can learn it!"
With Ke Xin's support, Bao Bao immediately raised his hand excitedly, his expression brightening with excitement: "Yeah, really?"
Ke Xin looked at Bao Bao dancing with joy because she could learn the violin, and she found that she had become stronger, her hands were a little fatter, and most importantly, her expression was brighter than usual.
Seeing this, she smiled knowingly. Often, she felt particularly satisfied when she saw Baobao Meimei eating a full meal, wearing a beautiful dress, and playing freely in the fun playground. It felt as if she was using her own power to let Baobao relive the beautiful childhood that she had never experienced, so as to purify her obscure and painful childhood.
Seeing Aunt Fang about to wash her hands and cook, Ke Xin hurriedly stopped her and said, "Aunt Fang, let's go out for dinner tonight. After dinner, we can find a place for Bao Bao to take violin training!"
Seeing this, Aunt Fang let out an "ah" and untied the bib on her chest.
The three of them took a nanny car to the most prosperous place in City A and reported to the agency. When they were discussing what to eat, Bao Bao's eyes lit up and said, "Let's eat Cantonese food!"
"Okay, let's eat Cantonese food. Baobao likes the squab there." Ke Xin took Baobao's hand and walked into an elegantly decorated Cantonese restaurant.
Perhaps it was past the peak meal time, so the restaurant was not crowded and seemed very quiet. They chose a seat by the window.
Ke Xin was looking down at the menu when her eyes accidentally swept across the booth in front of her. She was startled by a familiar figure.
——It’s Jiaqi.
Jiaqi had her back to her, chatting and laughing with the strange man opposite her.
The man was well-dressed and leaned forward slightly while talking. His eyes would occasionally fall on Jiaqi's face with a bit of deliberate admiration.
As he picked up the teacup, the metal strap of the Rolex on his wrist flashed a striking luster under the light.
Ke Xin quietly took out her cell phone and sent a message to Jia Qi: "Guess where I am? [Restaurant picture]".
The dishes came up one after another, and Baobao was first attracted by the pigeon on the table.
Seeing this, Aunt Fang put on gloves, cut the pigeon into several pieces, picked out the fattest meat and handed it to Baobao.
Maybe he was hungry, or maybe he was growing, Baobao has had a good appetite recently, eating rice with big mouthfuls, and not being picky about dishes, eating whatever he gets.
After a while, Jiaqi finally saw the message and looked around. When she turned around and saw Kexin, she came over with surprise on her face: "Kexin, why are you here!"
At this time, Ke Xin had almost finished her meal. Seeing Jia Qi coming, she said with an inquiring smile, "I came here to sign up for Bao Bao's violin lessons and to have a meal. I didn't expect to meet you!"
While eating, Bao Bao suddenly saw Jia Qi. His eyes suddenly lit up and he subconsciously greeted her enthusiastically with the hand holding the spoon: "Aunt Jia Qi, Aunt Jia Qi, how come you have become more beautiful today!"
Jiaqi bent down and pinched Baobao's cheeks with her hands, and said with a doting expression: "Ah, Baobao, why do you suddenly feel a little taller? Your face is chubby and even more pinchable! Not only has your mouth become sweeter."
After fighting with the child for a while, Jiaqi turned around and said something to the man behind her. The man then nodded politely and walked out the door, while also smiling and nodding at Kexin.
After the man left, Jiaqi pulled a chair and sat next to Kexin: "Do you still remember him?"
Jiaqi asked, nodding her chin in the direction the man was walking away.
Seeing that the two were about to talk and Baobao had just finished eating, Aunt Fang took a wet tissue and wiped Baobao's hands while saying, "Well, you guys chat first, I'll take Baobao to violin lessons first!"
"Okay!" Jiaqi and Kexin watched them leave. Kexin then asked with a confused look on her face, "Who is he?"
"You really are a forgetful person," Jiaqi said with a pout, "He was the one who asked for our WeChat last time at our coffee shop!"
Hearing this, Ke Xin was startled and couldn't help asking, "Why, where's your hat uncle? It broke so quickly?"
When Jiaqi heard her, her eyes darkened and her expression began to become depressed: "Didn't I say before that I almost got together with him, but then he became more and more perfunctory towards me. One time, I couldn't help it and asked him if he wanted to talk to me?"
At this, Ke Xin covered her mouth in surprise: "Oh my God, our Jiaqi was a famous figure back then, and was a hot commodity in the eyes of many people. I didn't expect you to confess your love to her!"
"What's the result?"
Ke Xin couldn't contain her excitement and wanted to know how the other party would react.
Jiaqi scoffed, her voice suddenly rising: "In the end, he actually said he hasn't thought about it yet, he doesn't know?"
Ke Xin asked, shrugging and waving her hands, "Watt?"
"Is this person ignorant of the value of things?"
Jiaqi said with frustration on her face: "Who knows? Besides, we didn't contact each other for the next few days!"
Ke Xin, with a look of sudden realization, looked out the window at the neon lights and asked, "So, that was a blind date just now, and you really wanted to make up for it with another man?"
Jiaqi neither admitted nor refuted. She withdrew her gaze from the window, fixed it on the tea the waiter had just handed over, and said, "Not really. I find other men boring. I just occasionally date different men and listen to their boring flattery. I think it makes me feel better!"
Ke Xin couldn't help but hug Jia Qi: "It's okay, it's this man who doesn't know what's good for him. You deserve better!"
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