Chapter 179 Capturing Light
It was so beautiful that he looked through the flying paper scraps and wanted to experience again the university that his teacher had described as having everything good.
What does it look like?
Will people there lose interest in life just by looking at textbooks?
Are the people there full of expectations for the future?
Are there still bright eyes shining with light that has not been worn down by life?
He just wanted to see what a normal, ordinary life was like.
I have no other demands, just die after watching it.
With his grades, he will be able to get into any top university, but there is no need for him to go that far. He won't go very far in his life, so why should he choose a place that requires traveling through mountains and rivers to reach?
…
It really does exist. It turns out there really are people full of vitality.
It was in college that I appeared beside him.
Ah, but why would this person appear next to him?
Why get close to him? Why should you talk to him? Why should we learn to write on paper from him?
Why did he put such brightly colored maple leaves in his book?
Why do you have to disrupt his plans to hurt yourself again and again?
Why did I have to bandage his wrist so gently and carefully time and time again?
Why did she cry helplessly after he was hurt?
Obviously, they are strangers to each other.
Obviously, no one has ever cared about his life or death.
Obviously, he was planning to die on the day this person came to his residence.
It's disrupted. Everything is disrupted.
Whether it is his cold and dark heart or his dark future.
The sudden appearance of Qiu Tingxu disrupted the chessboard into a mess. What to do next depends entirely on how Qiu Tingxu plays.
He was controlled by this person and needed this person to lead him hand in hand to explore an unknown future.
For the first time, he was completely obsessed with someone and couldn't leave her. His previous fear of having his peaceful thoughts disturbed was washed away by Qiu Tingxu's gentle invasions into his life time and time again.
He wanted to go back in time and take back all the harsh words he had said.
Tell yourself who used to be fearful and kept people at a distance: You can’t say that. How can you say that? He is the light in your life, a beam that finally shines in. Why do you want to drive him away?
Fortunately, Qiu Tingxu is very persistent, fortunately, Qiu Tingxu never cares about his indifference, and fortunately, Qiu Tingxu is a person who can say the same sentence many times.
Otherwise, his light might retreat and disappear at any time because of his indifference.
Then he will disappear too.
You see, falling in love with a beam of light is a natural thing, isn’t it?
It’s not that he likes a dark life, it’s just that he can’t rely on himself to capture a glimmer of happiness.
But when happiness really came knocking on the door, he couldn't stop it. All his fear and timidity, inexplicable inferiority and dark emotions, couldn't stop the desire deep in his heart that he could hardly detect.
Qiu Tingxu...
Qiu Tingxu.
This name is really nice.
He said he could hear people's voices, but it seemed like he was the only one he couldn't hear.
He said that by staying by his side, he could block out those annoying and noisy voices in his heart. It was very quiet and he liked it very much.
So it turns out that he is useful, so that’s why I came close to him?
What does that matter? If a person is of no use to others, what is the point of his living?
At first he didn't think there was anything wrong, but later, when his selfish desires grew wildly and his lusts arose.
He began to wonder again, how can he make Ting Xu fall in love with him?
How can I make Tingxu mine alone?
Why can Tingxu hear everyone's voice but not mine?
I want him to hear it, I want him to hear my heart that is open only to him.
He succeeded.
But at the beginning, he didn't dare to reveal all his thoughts to Ting Xu. What if he scared her away?
Therefore, Tingxu could only hear some insignificant but suggestive thoughts.
Be cautious and plan carefully at every step.
He took advantage of everything he should have. He used his whole body, from his eyes to his inner voice, from secretly taking advantage of his beauty to openly falling into the water and pretending to faint.
They are all telling Qiu Tingxu—I am fascinated by you.
Ting Xu likes him to be cute, so he is cute.
Ting Xu couldn't stand him showing weakness and acting like a spoiled child, so he would often do so.
Look, he finally gathered his world's treasure into his arms.
Sure enough, the light is warm and shining.
He finally touched Ting Xu's lips openly. The touch was warm and soft. The touch between their skin went into his heart, which really made him feel hot and unbearable.
He hadn't known that the chasm of desire was always difficult to fill. Even if he locked his beloved baby in his arms and hugged her tightly, he couldn't satisfy the ever-growing desire in his heart.
It turns out that desire will also escalate. Originally, I just wanted to look at him, then it turned into wanting to possess him. After possessing him, I wanted to be in perfect harmony with him, without any distinction between us.
The human heart is truly scary.
There will always be new desires and you will never know satisfaction.
Fortunately, he met Qiu Tingxu.
Qiu Tingxu would go and hear Xu Yansheng.
You will know that all his desires are related to him.
**
So, "Ting Xu, now that I'm done, can you compensate me?"
Xu Yansheng no longer stared at Qiu Tingxu with his lifeless beautiful eyes.
Qiu Tingxu felt very sad at first. Turtle, Xu Yansheng spoke simply and did not describe in detail his mental journey growing up, but some things are very sad just by thinking about them.
School violence and domestic violence, including physical violence and cold violence.
What child would want to experience this violence over and over again? It seems like I haven't felt any love at all in my entire life.
Except for the pitiful and hypocritical attention Xu Shiming gave him when he first discovered that he had the power of words.
The first time Xu Yansheng felt kindness was probably on the eve of the college entrance examination. Because of his strong ability, he was treated like a treasure by the teachers.
Qiu Tingxu felt very distressed when he heard this. Although he was born an orphan, he had to fight for resources for survival since he was a child. Although he was not a bad person, he was not righteous and gentle either.
But Xu Yansheng was different. He was trapped. Unlike him, who knew from childhood that he had no parents, he had to obtain all the resources in the world by himself.
Xu Yansheng has no worries about food and clothing. He has no lack of material things, but what he lacks is spiritual sustenance.
I can only ponder in passive silence why life is like this and why biological parents can treat their children like this.
What's more, there is a younger brother standing in front of me, serving as a sharp contrast.
Even more confused.
There would be something wrong if there is no psychological problem.
So Qiu Tingxu felt sorry for him. Originally, while Xu Yansheng was talking, he folded up Xu Yansheng's shirt sleeves to look at his arms.
"Did this start when you were a kid? Was it Xu Shiming who led you astray?"
His gentle touch did not convey his heartache to Xu Yansheng, but instead conveyed an unspeakable feeling.
In this way, Xu Yansheng finished his words hurriedly and asked him for compensation.
Qiu Tingxu: ...Damn it, you’re wasting my feelings.
Continue read on readnovelmtl.com
