Shen Zhongli didn't want to listen to Shen Yue anymore. He just wanted to hear Jiang Manyue speak for herself. He put his hands on Jiang Manyue's shoulders with trembling hands, and his eyes swept across her face as if he wanted to see through her.

"Jiang Manyue, you like me, right?"

Jiang Manyue's eyelashes trembled slightly, and she hesitated to avoid his gaze and questions.

"So why didn't you tell me when your mom was killing us?"

"No...I..." Jiang Manyue pushed his arm and wanted to escape.

"Answer me." Shen Zhongli stretched out his hand to hold her small chin, forcing her to look at him, "Why did I make so many careful efforts, but you didn't even want to give me a chance?"

Jiang Manyue's throat moved, and tears rolled down her chin into her clothes, feeling icy cold.

“You said you didn’t want to affect your studies, so I took the initiative to withdraw to the regular class.

You said I hurt you and asked me to stay away from you. I didn't bother you again until the college entrance examination results came out.

I have done everything I promised you, including studying medicine and finding medical treatment to cure you.

What about you? You promised me that you would study medicine with me. Did you do it? "

“……” Jiang Manyue was speechless.

"She even lied to me that she was studying abroad with her dad. In the past ten years, I have traveled to more than a hundred countries, big and small, and even to uncivilized places.

No embassy can look up your name.

After all these years, is it really that difficult to tell me the truth? "

Is it difficult?

Difficult.

For Jiang Manyue, everything Shen Zhongli gave her, whether material or emotional, was like luxury goods displayed in a display window.

But she is poor and timid...

When he held it in front of her with great joy, she could only awkwardly pinch her empty pockets, too timid to reach out to take it.

She is also ugly and vain.

Like a beggar visiting a luxury store, he obviously can't afford anything, but he still holds his head high and tries to look like a normal customer.

Picking out some problems that are totally untenable.

But she didn't expect Shen Zhongli to be a stubborn salesman, who tried again and again to solve her picky problems.

This made Jiang Manyue very nervous, fearing that he would discover her identity as a poor and vain beggar.

She was afraid that he would come to her with his true heart, only to find that she had nothing in her hands and had nothing to exchange.

Afraid that he would be disappointed in me, I had to pretend to be noble and tell him, "I really don't like your things, so please leave now!"

Seeing that she didn't answer, Shen Zhongli asked again: "Do you think that after so many years, I, Shen Zhongli, still miss you?

Stop being so self-indulgent. Just as you said, I can't accept being dumped by you. I won't bear to be played around by a woman like you who has everything you want.

I just want to know where exactly I, Shen Zhongli, am lacking?

After so many years, can't we be honest?

Or is it that after all these years, you still can't let me go, so you dare not mention what happened back then?"

Hearing this, Jiang Manyue couldn't help but feel ridiculous.

You really think you are so great.

With his conditions, he could find any woman he wanted. It's probably because there are too many women chasing after him and he doesn't know who to choose, which is why he is still single.

Jiang Manyue said: "Yes, I lied to you back then. My father never showed up, let alone went abroad to study.

I said that at the time because I didn’t want you to look for me again.”

Shen Zhongli released the hand that was pinching her chin and waited quietly for her next words.

She looked at him, and after a long while a choked sob rolled out of her throat, "I'm sorry!"

"It's not that you are bad, it's me. I am not worthy of you. I am arrogant because of my low self-esteem.

You are very good, it is me who is timid and dares not to be brave for you and myself."

Shen Zhongli didn't shed a single tear despite hearing so many hurtful words just now. But this brief apology made Shen Zhongli burst into tears.

He turned his back and faced the window, trying hard to control himself.

A tall shadow fell on her face and body in the sunlight. She took a long breath and continued:

"My father abandoned me and my mother when I was born. I have been dependent on my mother. My mother was in poor health and lived with my uncle after she became paralyzed. She was despised and insulted by my aunt.

Not only my aunt, but all the leaders in that area will join my aunt's camp.

I scolded my mother for being shameless and dreaming of marrying into a wealthy family, but ended up being treated like trash by the young master of that wealthy family. Now I'm paralyzed in bed, and it's retribution from God.

They would also call me a little bitch when they saw me.

I was still young at that time and had no ability to protect myself, so I could only imagine that my father would fall from the sky to protect me and my mother.

When I was a little older, I realized that my father would never come back and there would be no one to protect us.

I started thinking again that if they didn’t know everything about me, then I wouldn’t be bullied.

So I always chose the farthest school, because no one there knew me. The effect was very good, and there was no one bullying me anymore.

No matter how mottled the wall is, the new newspaper won’t be noticeable after it is pasted on it.

But over time, something will always show up, just like poverty.

My classmates invited me to go to the grocery store during breaks. I went there once or twice, but never again because I was poor and wanted to pretend to be rich, but my wallet wouldn't allow it.

But sometimes, when we have a good relationship, even if I make all kinds of excuses not to go, they will still bring me a copy when they come back.

Drinks, milk tea, popsicles...

To them, it's nothing, but to me it's a huge burden.

I don't want to owe anyone anything. If they buy something for me, I have to pay it back.

But I can't give anything back.

Over time, I developed another habit - staying away from everyone. "

Shen Zhongli turned around and looked at her. When she spoke, her eyes were looking into the distance with no light in them. She was so calm as if she was talking about something unimportant.

My heart feels like it's being pricked by densely packed needles, and it hurts so much.

She said: "When I sat next to you, I thought you were a cold and distant person who never interacted with people, at least not willing to interact with women like me.

I think you are safe, and indeed you are. You sleep in class, and after class you go to the bathroom and sleep again. It is so quiet that it seems like you don't even exist.

But I didn't expect you to come closer to me again and again, trying to peel off the layer of newspaper I covered the outside.

I try to say harsh words, and those words work great for others but have no effect on you.

Sometimes when I am angry, I am not angry at you, but at myself. I am angry at why God has given me such a terrible and rotten life.

I'm also angry that since God has given me such a life, he should let me live in a stinky ditch forever, why did he let you appear in my life.

You are like the sun, which can illuminate and warm people, but cannot shine into the festering sewers. "

"No...you are not" Shen Zhongli shook his head.

"I once thought I wasn't. On the night after the college entrance examination, you told me that you wanted to go to medical school with me.

I was moved.

Actually, I don't want to study medicine at all, and I don't have the confidence to follow your result. I agreed to you just because I am moved, because the way you are so happy like a child is really heart-warming.

So for many days after I promised you, I was like a fool, happy about everything I saw, even when my aunt scolded me, I could respond with a smile. "

"Then why...?"

"Because my mother enlightened me," she said, "My mother said that the reason why I chose reproductive medicine was because I couldn't accept that I couldn't have children."

"No," Shen Zhongli quickly retorted, "I went to see you after you were injured, and your appearance made me feel very guilty and distressed.

At that time, I thought that I would be responsible for you, I would marry you, and I would treat you well for the rest of my life. It wouldn't matter if we didn't have children.

Before I could even say anything, you kicked me out.”

turn out to be……

He studied reproductive medicine, so it's not that he couldn't accept the fact that she might not be able to have children.

But I was afraid that she couldn't accept it.