Chapter 443: Impotence

Qin Xixi has become a frequent visitor to Zhao Shuoer's house in recent days. She walks hurriedly and frequently shuttles between the two houses. Her arrival is of course not only to give Zhao Shuoer spiritual comfort, but also to share with her the latest information that is hotly discussed on the streets.

Just yesterday, Qin Xixi accidentally caught a rumor in the teahouse - about An Yuesheng's unfortunate experience. It is said that An Yuesheng suddenly encountered an accident one night and was seriously injured. There are even rumors that he may only be able to live like a eunuch in the future.

At first, this was just a topic that people discussed cautiously in private, as if mentioning a taboo. But for some reason, the news seemed to have grown wings, and quickly spread through the streets and alleys of the capital, becoming a hot topic of discussion after dinner.

When Qin Xixi told Zhao Shuoer the news, there was a mischievous light in her eyes, and there was a bit of suppressed laughter in her tone. It was obvious that she felt schadenfreude about Anyuesheng's misfortune. She might think that this was the best irony of those who were once invincible.

However, when Zhao Shuoer heard the news, although she also felt a sense of relief in her heart, she was more confused and vigilant.

She always felt that at this sensitive moment, such a coincidence seemed unlikely to happen naturally. Is there someone behind the scenes manipulating it secretly, using such rumors to achieve a certain purpose? These doubts made her feel relieved but also a little more thoughtful.

When Zhao Shuoer heard the rumors about An Yuesheng, her heart was immediately in turmoil. She couldn't help but think of her previous experience, and a strong premonition surged in her heart.

So, she turned to Qin Xixi eagerly, with a trembling expectation in her voice.

"Xixi, did your eldest brother Qin Qixuan help me vent my anger?"

Zhao Shuoer's eyes flashed with expectation and gratitude, as if she saw a ray of hope in the darkness, expecting Qin Qixuan to really vent her anger.

However, in the face of Zhao Shuoer's inquiry, Qin Xixi did not answer directly.

She neither nodded affirmatively nor shook her head in denial. She just looked at Zhao Shuoer silently, her eyes filled with complicated emotions.

She knew Zhao Shuoer's mood at this moment, but she knew even more that she could not easily reveal any information.

Qin Xixi knew that her eldest brother seemed to be planning something in secret, but she was not very clear about the specific content and purpose. She could only remain silent to avoid disrupting her eldest brother's plan.

Seeing Qin Xixi's reaction, Zhao Shuoer's guess became more certain. However, this also made her more confused and uneasy. She didn't understand why Qin Qixuan was so fickle. Did he really want to help her, or did he have other intentions?

These doubts surged in Zhao Shuoer's heart, making her unable to calm down. She decided to go to Qin Qixuan in person to ask clearly and solve this mystery.

"What exactly does he mean?" Zhao Shuo'er's voice was firm and resolute, "I'm going to your house to ask in person!" As she said this, she stood up and prepared to go to Qin's house to find the answer that troubled her.

However, just when Zhao Shuo'er decided to go to Qin's house, Qin Xixi held her tightly, with a worried look on her face, and gently advised.

"Sister Shuo'er, you really can't go now. I have an important news to tell you."

Qin Xixi paused, as if she was organizing her words, and then continued.

"I heard that sister Wen Yanya's parents will be coming to Beijing soon. One of the important purposes of their trip is to discuss marriage with my eldest brother. I think you should be more concerned about yourself now. It's time to prepare well and welcome your new life in the future."

When Zhao Shuo'er heard the news, she was stunned as if struck by lightning.

There was a trace of confusion and helplessness in her eyes, as if she couldn't digest this sudden news. She slowly sat back in her chair, and the emotions in her heart were as complicated as the surging sea.

Qin Xixi looked at Zhao Shuo'er's distraught look, and a wave of sadness surged in her heart. She knew Zhao Shuo'er's feelings for Qin Qixuan, and she also understood how much this news hit her.

So, she held Zhao Shuoer's cold hand tightly, trying to give her some comfort and support with her body temperature and strength.

At this critical moment, Qin Xixi knew that the comfort of words had already seemed pale and powerless.

She understood that Zhao Shuoer needed not only a few comforting words, but also time and space to slowly digest the news and think about her future.

Therefore, she just stayed by Zhao Shuoer's side silently, conveying warmth and strength with silent support.

However, Zhao Shuoer was in a state of confusion at the moment, and she really couldn't care more. Qin Qixuan's figure lingered in her mind. She didn't know how to face him, let alone how to face the confusion in her heart.

"Xixi, please go back home first and let me be alone." Zhao Shuoer's voice was a little trembling, and she needed time to sort out her thoughts.

Qin Xixi looked at Zhao Shuoer's distraught look. Although she was worried, she also understood that giving Zhao Shuoer some alone time was the best choice at this time. She left very considerately without saying anything more.

However, on the way back home, Qin Xixi's little head was full of doubts. She didn't understand why Zhao Shuoer was so sad. What on earth was love that could make people so miserable?

Her little face was wrinkled and her brows were locked, as if she was thinking about something very important. She tried to understand the complicated emotion, but she couldn't figure it out.

So, Qin Xixi stopped and asked the maid beside her, Jinzhu, very seriously.

"Sister Jinzhu, can you tell me what emotion is? Why does it make Sister Shuo'er so sad?"

Jinzhu looked at Xixi's serious face and her heart softened.

She squatted down, gently stroked Xixi's head, and explained softly.

"Miss, feelings are a very complicated thing. It can make people feel happy and blessed, but it can also make people feel painful and sad. Sometimes, when we like someone, we can't help but want to be with him, but the reality is often not what we want. At this time, we will feel pain and sadness. However, this kind of feeling is also a very precious part of our life. It makes us cherish the people around us more and makes us understand the meaning of love and being loved more."

Xixi listened to these words with a vague understanding, but it seems that she still doesn't quite understand the meaning of feelings.