Without waiting for Klein to respond, Azik stared at the depths of the mausoleum and continued speaking:

“I still remember the first time I died and came back to life. I was lying among the pale corpses, and I stood up unsteadily. I was terrified. I didn’t know what had happened or where I was.

“Before the church staff collected my body for purification, I stumbled away from there, wandering like a ghost through the wilderness, the countryside, and the city, unable to remember who I was or where I came from.

"During that time, wherever I went, I could hear a lot of crying, saw priests presiding over a large number of funeral ceremonies, and felt sadness permeating every corner.

"Later, I accidentally saved a noble girl and entered her manor. She was a sunny and cheerful girl, while I was like a beast from the forest. I was sensitive, suspicious, inferior, and fearful. I also often showed a cold, indifferent, cruel side that was not in line with human morality.

“She was very curious about me. No matter how I avoided her or did something bad, she would get close to me, infect me with her smile, and influence me with interesting things. Unconsciously, I got used to her teasing and her presence.

"We got together quietly, she was worried that her father would not approve of her marrying a former tramp and now a servant.

"Looking at her sad smile, I felt my blood boiling for the first time, and impulsively told her that I would leave here, but would come back with a title and a wreath for the bride.

"I joined the army and became a knight. I held a three-meter-long lance and rushed towards the enemy. In the chaos left by the northern continent at the end of the Fourth Epoch, I became a baron and had my own fiefdom.

"I kept my promise and married my bride with the king's title, the family emblem, the knight's ribbon and the wreath I made myself."

At this point, the expression on Azik's face gradually softened, as if he was recalling and reminiscing about something, and even the corners of his mouth curled up unconsciously.

Klein's heart moved when he heard this, and he seemed to see the familiar Mr. Azik again.

"What happened next?" He began to guide carefully.

Azik looked ahead and said:

"Later... Later, we built a castle in our own fiefdom and had a child, a boy who grew up very fast. It was foreseeable that he would grow up to be very tall and strong.

“He loved to fight, and he was always running around with a broadsword in tow, talking about wanting to be a knight.

“I thought it was just a temporary hobby of a child and it would be hard to stick to it. But even though he broke his leg and bruised his head, he still didn’t give up practicing. He thought I wouldn’t be able to see it if he hid in the room with a distorted expression covering his wounds. Haha, he underestimated his father. The spirits of the entire territory are secretly serving me.

"As the years passed, I recovered more and more memories. My wife always complained that the castle was too dark and wanted to go somewhere sunny and warm. I met her request, but it was not until much later that I realized that she didn't hate living in the castle, but was afraid of the changes that were happening to me, afraid of me becoming increasingly cold and unfamiliar.

"She never told me these things and still got along with me as before. We had a wonderful life by the sea in the south and even wanted to have another child, but unfortunately it didn't work out.

“It was not until I felt that my next death was approaching that we returned to our fiefdom and the castle.

"My eldest son, that boy, told me that he wanted to go to Backlund, become a squire to the viscounts and earls, and begin his own journey as a knight.

"I asked him why he made such a choice at the age of ten. He answered me that I was his idol and role model. He wanted to become a knight and a nobleman by relying on himself instead of his father and mother like me.

"At that time, I had recovered most of my memories. Facing this child, I always felt a little awkward, unfamiliar, and uncomfortable. But when I heard his answer, I still felt an indescribable joy, satisfaction, and pride in my heart. This is my child, a child completely different from the blood descendants I left behind in the Balam Empire."

Klein knew that Mr. Azik was referring to his identity as the "first Baron Ramde," and that the child who had made him proud and satisfied was poisoned and murdered in his later or middle age, nailed to death in a coffin, and even his skull was taken away by Ince Zangwill.

Azik's eyes were dazed for a moment and he said:

"I died again, and woke up in a daze. I instinctively left the fiefdom and wandered to other places according to the pre-arrangement. In the first part of each life, I had a different life. Sometimes I encountered sweet love, and sometimes I got a daughter who was loved by people. The love, helplessness, and satisfaction from the bottom of my heart made me, who was gradually recovering my memory, stunned, confused, and conflicted again and again.

"Once, I was a filial son, bringing pride to my parents, a wonderful life, and lovely grandchildren. But when I 'woke' up and found myself again, I remembered that at the end of my previous life, I ignored the fact that their real son died on the battlefield and occupied this identity. On the one hand, I felt pain and guilt, but on the other hand, I thought it was nothing, just a small matter. I seemed to be split into two people in my heart.

"At that time, I had a mask that could transform me into anyone, but I lost it after I woke up. Maybe I lost it on my own initiative..."

Klein thought of the daughter Mr. Azik had mentioned who liked to ask him for candy. After thinking for a moment, he spoke:

“I think you’re not so much a broken heart as you’re fighting a crazy spirit.

"After losing your past memories, you have started a new life again and again. You are kind, enthusiastic, and have abundant emotions. The closer you are to your current life, the more you can reflect this.

"This may be the real you, the essential you. During the period of 'Death Archon', you were affected by the out-of-control tendency inherent in your Beyonder characteristics, and were influenced by the Death God who passed it down from a high position. I heard that He had gone mad after the 'Four Emperors War'."

Klein's words actually didn't have much basis, because the only things he knew about Azik's life were Baron Ramde, a father who made a swing for his daughter, a filial child, and a gentle and friendly history teacher.

His purpose was to provide a guess, a possibility, to help Mr. Azik fight against the "Death Archon personality" that returned with his memories, to let him face himself in his past lives, to reach some kind of reconciliation with himself, and to become less cruel.

As he was talking, he suddenly had a new idea. Without waiting for Azik to digest what he had just said, he quickly asked:

"Mr. Azik, do you know about anchors? The anchors that the gods and angels use to stabilize themselves and prevent themselves from being dragged down and corrupted by the out-of-control tendencies and madness of their Beyonder characteristics?"

"I know." Azik looked away and nodded.

Klein wasn't too sure, but he said with a firm tone:

"Perhaps, the new life you start after losing your memories again and again is your anchor against madness and loss of control!"

Don't discard them, don't forget them, this is who you are! After saying this, Klein added another sentence silently in his heart.

"Anchor..." Azik repeated the word, looking thoughtful and confused.

After an unknown amount of time, he suddenly sighed and said:

“This may be an explanation, at least it makes the division and conflict in my mind less intense.

"However, now that I have come this far, I still have to go to the depths of the mausoleum to see what is hidden there, why it is calling me, and what caused me to die and revive again and again, and to lose my memory and gradually regain it again and again...

"This has troubled me for more than a thousand years, and has troubled me over and over again in my life. I think I should get an answer today."

His eyes gradually became clearer, and his tone seemed gentle but contained an indescribable firmness.

Klein wanted to stop him, but after he opened his mouth, he closed it again.

Azik pressed the half-high silk hat on his head, without tilting his head, and smiled gently:

"Remember to close your eyes."

After saying this, he walked forward, following the steps, and went into the depths of the dark mausoleum.

The black fog that permeated the place stopped panting and slowly dispersed in all directions. The illusory things lurking at the bottom gradually appeared.

It was a feathered serpent so huge that it seemed to occupy an entire island!

It has huge dark green scales, with yellowish yellow feathers growing in the gaps. There are illusory black tubes extending from each feather.

This exaggerated feathered serpent is both illusory and real. Its more specific shape is difficult to describe, and it seems to have a composition that humans cannot understand.

In its eye sockets burned a pale fire, and its face was that of a human!

The face had a bronze complexion, soft features, and a tiny black mole under the right ear. He looked like another Azik Eggers!

PS: Update first and then modify. Also, the new version of this chapter seems to have a strong delay.