selfishness
Determining whether you like someone is simple: you must have a physical attraction. Imagine yourself kissing that person and see how it feels—whether you like it or feel repulsed.
Zhu Shiyi shuddered with a shiver of disgust.
Huh—
A long-ago dream inexplicably surfaced in my mind.
......
She and Pan Yue kissed in her dream.
How does it feel?
......
Zhu Shiyi slapped his forehead.
I don't seem to feel anything.
How can someone who has never kissed know what kissing feels like?
However, it is certain that she is not opposed to it.
But it's also definitely because the other person is a handsome guy!
Who wouldn't want to kiss a handsome guy?
Don't believe me? Try replacing him with Li Xuan? Or Fan Jun?
It immediately withered.
What's said online is unreliable.
Zhu Shiyi silently turned off her phone.
It's not that she's never been in a relationship.
Although, according to Yu Fan, her dating experience was barely half a relationship.
Zhu Shiyi turned over.
So what exactly does "like" mean to her?
Is it like a first love?
Unrequited love.
Basketball boys under the sunlight exude a strong hormonal aura, like a refreshing spice that makes one look forward to a dull and dreary life.
Pan Yue's abs came to mind.
Zhu Shiyi silently closed his eyes, suppressing a laugh.
Such strong hormones.
We certainly can't be that superficial.
I was only in middle school then, how could I know what liking someone meant?
As Pan Yue also said, how can liking someone without understanding their feelings be considered true liking?
......
So, is it like online dating?
Su Gan.
In the virtual world, her ex-boyfriend guides her, a complete newbie, through the canyon, all while sporting the handsome face of a two-dimensional hero.
I recall Marco Polo's fake pentakill.
Adrenaline surged.
Zhu Shiyi turned over again.
How is that possible?
Those feelings of admiration, that worship...
Get out of here, all of you. That's a dark history.
The greatest charm of an online male god comes from her imagination.
Zhu Shiyi took out her earphones, put them on, and found a playlist to distract herself.
......
But Pan Yue is indeed very handsome.
And gentle.
Dating him should be very...
Zhu Shiyi closed his eyes, unable to stop his reverie.
A night rain began to fall outside the window, accompanied by soft music, its gentle patter creating a very soothing effect.
As night fell, the lights outside gradually dimmed, and the inside of the house was just as dark as the outside.
Zhu Shiyi tossed and turned in bed.
Someone lit a lamp in her heart.
He stood there silently, gazing at the lake in his heart, without ever stopping.
......
I don't know exactly when I closed my eyes.
It's all that lamp's fault.
It was too bright; it was keeping her awake.
--
The department held another meeting the following day.
Zhu Shiyi didn't sleep well last night, and was in a daze, only hearing He Qiong's voice echoing around him.
"...The focus of the new project direction is on the R&D department, but the company is a whole, and the subsequent tasks of other departments..."
After vaguely listening to the entire meeting, Zhu Shiyi felt uneasy and decided to go to the break room to get a cup of coffee.
A familiar face was also in the break room.
"Vicky," Zhu Shiyi greeted, "Want some coffee?"
“Yes,” Vicky waved her hand, “Would you like a drink?”
“Great,” Zhu Shiyi leaned against the bar, “I can’t use a coffee machine anyway.”
Vicky was very enthusiastic, patiently teaching her how to use the coffee machine while operating it herself.
"Do you think I might bump into President Pan here?" Vicky sighed.
Zhu Shiyi paused in his action of scooping up the snacks.
It was the person who kept her up all night.
She gave a perfunctory smile and replied, "I don't know."
His hand movements returned to normal.
Vicky crossed her legs and leaned against the wall, continuing to speak to herself, "I've come up with a plan to woo men, do you want to hear it?"
Zhu Shiyi could no longer pretend to be stupid and had no choice but to ask along.
"I plan to try to bump into President Pan at the company, make more of an impression, and let him remember me."
"Then, I'll find an opportunity to ask him some questions and demonstrate my abilities. After that, I'll add him on the phone so I can ask him out." Vicky clenched her fist excitedly, her eyes shining.
“…That’s good.” Zhu Shiyi picked up her coffee and took a sip.
Americano is really bad; it's both bitter and sour.
She frowned slightly.
"It tastes better with this." Vicky handed over a milk ball.
"Thank you," Zhu Shiyi accepted the gift, but after much deliberation, she finally asked, "Aren't you afraid that President Pan will reject you if you directly ask him out?"
Zhu Shiyi mixed the milk ball into the coffee.
“That’s why you have to make a plan,” Vicky raised an eyebrow slightly and tilted her head. “To woo a man, you not only have to take the initiative, but you also have to use some tactics, just like making coffee.”
She casually pointed to the coffee in Zhu Shiyi's hand.
Zhu Shiyi lowered his head and took a light sip.
It's still bitter.
Vicky continued her grand plan: "I plan to approach him on business first, then use my social circle and friends to find opportunities to intersperse personal matters, and then ask him out..."
What do you think?
Zhu Shiyi forced a smile and nodded politely, "It's fine."
She seemed to have a personal motive, not wanting Vicky to pursue Pan Yue.
......
Back at my workstation, I began a new round of work.
Perhaps thanks to the coffee, Zhu Shiyi didn't feel sleepy all morning.
In contrast, the afternoon.
Zhu Shiyi needs to use analysis tools to perform data monitoring.
Zhu Shiyi stared blankly at SPSS, which he was opening for the first time.
She could only ask Li Xuan for advice.
"Do you know the basic operations?" Li Xuan asked.
Won't.
Zhu Shiyi laughed awkwardly: "I'm not very skilled at it."
"You can search for some video tutorials online. Some basic things really need to be learned systematically to understand."
"Okay, Brother Xuan." Zhu Shiyi was a little embarrassed.
The unspoken message is that very basic things can be learned on your own.
It wasn't that Li Xuan was targeting her; what he said was correct and quite tactful, without trying to hurt her.
Zhu Shiyi opened Baidu and started browsing online universities.
Whether it was a problem with her intelligence or the quality of the teaching content, Zhu Shiyi was completely confused and drowsy, just like in a calculus class.
The tutorial is very detailed, but there are one or two steps that are not easy to understand.
Zhu Shiyi dejectedly threw down the headphones, clicked his tongue lightly, exhaled, and vigorously scratched his hair.
I'm going crazy!
It's all because of this terrible instructional video.
Where more can be said, it's glossed over in a single sentence; where less can be said, it's succinctly explained at length.
"What's wrong?" Vicky leaned over, seemingly very interested in these things. After staring at it for a while, she asked her tutor, "Even with a small number of database samples, can we still do correlation and regression analysis directly?"
"I only have about two hundred data points on hand," Zhu Shiyi replied.
Complaining aside, we still have to get the important things done.
“Indeed, we also need to consider the cost of data collection,” Vicky leaned closer, took the mouse, and swiped it around a bit. “Baby, you haven’t done the reliability and validity tests yet.”
Zhu Shiyi wore a sour expression and lowered his voice, "What is that thing?"
She really didn't know much about this kind of work. There were a bunch of procedures in front of her, but she had no clue where to start. She couldn't even understand the most basic vocabulary, let alone discuss professional issues.
Vicky answered patiently, clearly and in detail.
Zhu Shiyi seized the opportunity to praise, "You're amazing!"
"No, not at all," Vicky said modestly. She was very enthusiastic. "If you need any help, just ask me. This is indeed not easy. I worked on many projects when I was in school before I figured it out. Just take your time."
Zhu Shiyi smiled and said, "Thank you for comforting me."
She felt grateful, yet a strange sense of inferiority also arose within her.
She was acutely aware of the gap between herself and others.
She lags behind others in education, skills, and experience.
......
Zhu Shiyi suddenly realized what was happening. She shook her head inwardly.
Any emotion is acceptable.
But she was determined not to wallow in her pain, indulge herself, or belittle herself.
The second day's work was the same—painful.
The company's recent focus has been on the R&D department.
Zhong Qi took the three interns to the R&D department to do cross-departmental tasks, ostensibly to learn cross-departmental collaboration skills, but in reality, they were just doing odd jobs.
When Zhu Shiyi was assigned to a different job, he suddenly felt dizzy and his vision went black.
Fan Jun showed no signs of negative emotions.
Vicky was proactive; she quickly became acquainted with her colleagues and even struck up a conversation with a clean-cut young man.
The head of the R&D department is Lin Changren. It is said that he should also be in a senior management position, because his father is the largest shareholder of the company.
However, Lin Changren was not good at management; he preferred to deal with products and do practical work.
So, being a minister also means having to do management, which is really unfair to him.
However, none of this mattered. Zhu Shiyi merely listened to it briefly and didn't take it to heart.
After a whole day of running around, Zhu Shiyi was completely overwhelmed.
After a painful morning, it's finally lunchtime.
Zhu Shiyi finally had a moment to play on her phone and saw the WeChat message Pan Yue had sent her.
Pan Yue: [I'm busy today, so my workout time might be later. If you can't wait for me, I'll go by myself.]
Zhu Shiyi forced a smile: "It's okay, it's convenient for me. Around what time?"
Pan Yue: [It's hard to say. Are you sure you want to wait for me?]
Zhu Shiyi realized that when the other person asked her if it was convenient for her, it was probably just a polite question. What he really meant was, "You don't need to wait for me, you can go by yourself."
But Zhu Shiyi just didn't want to be alone.
She smoothly transitioned the conversation: "[It just so happens that Sister Qi gave me a lot of materials to work on today, so I probably won't be able to leave work until later. How about this, if you're finished before I leave, we can go together?]"
Pan Yue: [Okay.]
......
Another afternoon of tedium and chaos.
Finally, it was time to leave work. One by one, my colleagues left the office, but Zhong Qi, Zhu Shiyi, and Vicky were still there.
Zhong Qi was still dealing with departmental collaboration with the R&D department, while Vicky slacked off in the afternoon and inadvertently left some work unfinished.
Zhu Shiyi figured she had to work overtime anyway, so she relaxed a bit in the afternoon.
But she has a damn heart of a beast.
Even so, she only managed to catch a tiny bit of fish, and there was hardly anything left for her to do today.
It was only 6:50 when I finished organizing the last part of the data.
I did not receive any messages from Pan Yue on my phone.
Zhu Shiyi decided to wait a little longer. She pulled out her previous project materials and idly passed the time.
At seven o'clock, Vicky finished her work, said goodbye, and prepared to leave.
She dragged her slightly weary steps a few steps outside, then suddenly turned around, jogged back to her workstation, hurriedly grabbed the files on her desk, opened them, and quickly sat down.
Even amidst her busy schedule, she still managed to find some time to tidy up her hair.
Vicky's series of actions are perplexing.
Zhu Shiyi chuckled: "What's wrong?"
Vicky put her index finger to her lips and shushed them. She hid her hand in front of her chest and pointed slightly behind her.
Zhu Shiyi stretched his neck, and Pan Yue was walking this way.
As if sensing her gaze, he turned his head slightly.
Zhu Shiyi abruptly pulled his head back and took a breath.
For some reason, she felt a little guilty, like a thief.
Pan Yue didn't greet her and pushed open Zhong Qi's office door.
Zhu Shiyi finally breathed a sigh of relief.
"Wow!" Vicky exclaimed, sounding particularly excited. She whispered in surprise, "Working overtime has even led to a man appearing in my life."
Vicky quickly took out her lipstick and touched up her makeup in front of her phone screen.
Zhu Shiyi bit her lip gently, unable to resist asking, "So, what are your plans?"
“I’ll go ask him a project question later,” Vicky said, putting away her lipstick and rubbing her fingers on the document. She found her target, her fingertips pausing there. “This one looks good. I’ll think about it.”
After saying that, Vicky closed her eyes and muttered something to herself, like chanting a spell.
Zhu Shiyi lost all interest in studying the materials. Her eyes were vacant as she stared at the computer screen, her mind a jumble of thoughts, and she couldn't understand a single word anymore.
A short while later, she heard the door being pushed open softly.
Pan Yue: "Okay, if the other side confirms that there are no problems, the marketing department will start work once the R&D department's plan is released."
Zhu Shiyi glanced at him furtively.
Pan Yue pushed the door open, but Zhong Qi quickly reached out and pressed the door shut: "Thank you for your help, Mr. Pan. I'll take care of it."
“It’s time to leave work, let’s not worry about these formalities,” Pan Yue released his hand from the door and smiled gently, “Director Zhong, you’ve worked hard.”
Zhu Shiyi pursed her lips.
She's right, isn't she?
Pan Yue was very good at taking care of people, and he wasn't just kind to her.
“It’s no trouble at all,” Zhong Qi said as he closed the door. “Mr. Pan must have other things to do, right? I really have to go now; the kids are waiting for me to pick them up.”
Pan Yue nodded slightly, his eyes glancing away.
Zhu Shiyi quickly looked away.
Just now, it seemed like Pan Yue was looking in her direction?
Zhu Shiyi rolled her eyes and saw Vicky standing up across from her workstation.
She glanced back at the computer data, pretending nothing had happened.
Well, Pan Yue might also be looking at Vicky.
"Mr. Pan, Ms. Qi," Vicky suddenly spoke up, walking towards them with the documents in her hand. "I have a question I don't understand, would you mind asking me for help?"
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