(Memories) My Heart Is Free
"Lianying, the test is about to take place, these few..."
Heaven will surely
You need to work harder and review properly.
"Okay, I understand."
Time passes like flowing water, turning...
Final exams are just around the corner, but I still don't understand...
What exactly did I do during this lost time?
Well, I just feel that the world is so unfair.
All opinions and incidents seemed to be deliberately targeting [them].
I feel the same way, but I also know that such thoughts will eventually...
It would be futile; where in this world can one truly be free?
When it comes to choices, no one can escape the ravages of fate.
In this critical situation, we have no choice but to obey.
Parents' opinions, try again in these few short days.
You have to exert yourself once, otherwise, the discomfort... will be more than just that.
It's me now.
A few days later, the results were finally released.
Ultimately, I still didn't achieve the results I wanted.
"What's going on? Didn't I tell you to take good care of yourself?"
Review?
"How should I know..."
"You've even learned to talk back, haven't you? You know..."
I wonder what we, as parents, have done for this exam.
"How high were their expectations?"
I clearly studied hard before my final exams.
I've already studied it. Also, this final exam was very difficult.
"It's not entirely my fault." "It's not entirely your fault... Okay, then you..."
Tell me, why do other people do so well on the exam?
"I……"
"Can't say it anymore, huh? I think you're just..."
"Sophistry."
Even if...even if there are many people with good grades
"Aren't there any students with bad grades?!"
Are you really content to be the one with bad grades?
"吗"
"It's not like I'm the only one..."
"If you've always thought of yourself as this kind of person..."
As for the goods, then what we, as parents, have sacrificed for you...
What does effort even matter?
"Do you really think I'm like that?"
Is this a good way to study?
"This isn't up to you, do you understand?"
How intense is the competition in today's society?
"Enough! You never know how to consider things."
My feelings are limited to what I know about social pressure, I only know...
I know I've been holding you all back... Alright, I...
I won't drag you all down with me, okay? I'm leaving now!
That was probably the biggest argument I ever had with my parents.
It was such a harsh thing that after leaving home, I was unwilling...
Go back. I tried my best to overcome the immense...
Despite the overwhelming emotions, tears still flowed uncontrollably.
Flowing downwards, fate, perhaps, is just as fragile as this.
Unbearable.
Walking along a road that grows increasingly unfamiliar and takes me further and further from home, my mind is still filled with thoughts of today.
All the sad things that had happened in the past, in an instant, all...
Some efforts and hopes have been shattered, leaving only...
A somber atmosphere hung in the air. Even though I had already tried to obtain...
Yue's parents have made such efforts, why
But they only ever value everything I've given.
Why do they always bring about such a terrible outcome?
It compares me to others, to this dark society.
How would it compare?
Without realizing it, I had already traveled far from home.
At that moment, I only felt a little bit of peace of mind, perhaps this
That way, I can gain a brief period of freedom. (The surrounding area...)
On the surface, people seem to have a very easy life, but in reality, I also know...
They also have their own agenda behind the scenes.
They work, but they simply don't want to directly express their pain.
It's just something to express. After all, that's how the world is.
Cruel and unbearable, everyone is merely a person with autonomy
It's merely a tool for consciousness to work with; it has never truly been a tool.
Fairness in the true sense.
The scene on the street was indeed not as good as before.
It's a different place. Most of the people here are like me.
Students of similar age gathered one after another.
Their interaction instantly transformed the quiet street into a vibrant hub of activity.
Get up. Standing on this street filled with a joyful atmosphere.
Upon looking up, it seemed as if the worries from before had suddenly lessened.
Quite a few, I seem to have become an ordinary person too, unintentionally
They were integrated into their team and worked together with them.
Enjoy this fleeting moment of pleasure. Perhaps I was having too much fun, for I didn't realize it had already gotten dark. The people on the street suddenly...
And then they scattered, and in the blink of an eye, I was left all alone, amidst all sorts of...
The omen tells me that today's happiness is over.
"So...that's it. What's next..."
How can I accept this reality?
Perhaps I am the reason why there is no one left on this street.
Or perhaps it's because I'm too bored, and I've forgotten the pain I should have let go of.
My worries suddenly resurfaced like a dying ember.
In my mind. Finally, I sat alone on the street, and I still...
She couldn't help but burst into tears.
For the next few days, I spent almost all my time on the street.
Although there are some painful memories along the way,
Interacting with all sorts of people on the street and enjoying happiness
I'll probably never forget the process for the rest of my life.
I thought I would stay like this forever.
Come on, but I never imagined that these boring days would end
Then one day, things took a turn for the better.
"Sister, why are you sitting here all alone?"
"I don't know, maybe it's like other people on the street."
Compared to them, I seem so out of place.
"Really? But I don't think so, sister."
He looks like a very kind person.
"Thank you so much, since I was born."
This is the first time someone has said that to me. But you'll understand when you're a little older.
"Why"
"Because my sister isn't a studious person; she only knows how to run around outside all day."
"But...isn't the purpose of life to enjoy happiness?"
This child is a few years younger than me.
I think he probably still doesn't know what's behind this world.
The truth. So, to avoid making him overthink, I tried to avoid...
Let's start this topic.
"Little friend, how old are you this year?"
Nine years old.
"So you're in school too, just like me?"
"Um."
"Um... why don't you go somewhere else to play?"
Perhaps... she's not very good at getting along with others.
"Sister, it's okay, I'm not good at talking to..."
"Let's chat with others."
That's simply because you're too old.
It's too small.
"By the way, sister, do you often live alone?"
"Probably."
"Sister, if possible, I'll come."
How about I stay with you?
Don't you have to go to school?
"It's okay, look, isn't this already..."
"Has winter break started?"
"That's true, without realizing it, it turns out..."
I had long forgotten about it.
"Sister, no matter how good or bad your grades are..."
Okay, I don't care about any of that, I just hope you can cheer up.
From then on, he became the only one I had after becoming a monk.
My playmate, we ate together, we played together.
We talked about life together. During our time playing together, I...
The dying struggle within me finally subsided, and for a moment...
I feel like life isn't so bad after all. I think...
As long as he continues to play with me, I
I'll probably never feel lonely.
Street life moves quickly, like a train.
The car drove by. In the blink of an eye, he and I had already...
After a winter break, as the start of school approached, he spent time with me.
Time was dwindling, but even so, he
She still makes time to visit me every day and brings me...
He lit all sorts of things. To me, he was like igniting...
The candlelight on a winter night, always warm and gentle.
He warmed my heart; he didn't reject any of my flaws.
Instead, he regarded me as the person he cherished most.
I think meeting him might have been my destiny.
"Sister, can I ask you a question?"
Okay, go ahead and ask.
Why do you sometimes sit alone?
I'm thinking about things in a quiet place.
"It's nothing, maybe I'm just too worried about myself."
"It's the future."
"Sister, although what I've learned isn't..."
Not much, but at least I know that surviving is the most important thing.
That's lucky, especially considering you're only fifteen. So young.
"At best, some things just don't need to be thought about."
"Of course I know that too."
"Moreover, there are some things that we will never be able to understand."
As the law foresaw, so continued daydreaming was also unforeseen.
It doesn't really matter.
"Yes! That's life."
"Sister, you believe me, I will never abandon you."
Are you?
"Of course I believe it."
"Then it's a deal, we'll never be apart."
"Um."
I thought these joyful days would last forever.
It continues, but sometimes, fate is never quite right.
Human will. One day, after who knows how much time had passed, I saw...
The child's parents.
"It's because you've made our child neglect school."
It's Xi's, isn't it?
"What"
"I've heard about it all, it's about you, you homeless man."
They tricked my son away.
"This has nothing to do with me!"
"How dare you talk back! You're just a wild...
They're just kids.
"I……"
"It's already a favor that I didn't beat you up, you..."
Remember this: if you ever try to seduce my son again, watch out, or I'll treat you badly.
You're welcome. "
Perhaps that's how fate works; it creates something beautiful just when you're about to break down.
Then they tore all this beautiful thing apart. From that...
After that, I no longer believed in how much of my future I had.
Such high hopes, everything, it was all just a lie.
For the next few days, I didn't eat anything.
I just lay helplessly on the street, watching those people mock me.
A sarcastic expression. I guess I'm not far from death.
"Hey! Wake up, are you alright...?"
"Who are you……"
"I'm here to take you away from this world."
"Please... take me with you."
The story ends completely at this moment.
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