(Memories) Winter When the Ice Melts
My name is Yu Han, and I am fourteen years old. Two months ago, in...
With the help of my grandfather and other family members, I
Finally, I have the opportunity to move from the countryside to the bustling city.
The city, starting a new life, but everything here...
It seems it's not as simple as I thought...
"Yu Han! Work hard, and don't forget the city."
"The city's extraordinary competitiveness." "Understood..."
I haven't even had a chance to see everything here yet.
My father had already given me one without any hesitation.
It was a show of force. But after thinking about it carefully, it seemed appropriate.
Reason and logic dictate that nothing is purely advantageous.
Harmless. Cities are nice, with all sorts of...
New and interesting things and different people, but don't forget...
Yes, the urban population is far greater than the rural population.
Here, economic development is rapid, and the flow of people is fast.
There is also a certain upper limit to the amount of material, which means
All achievements can only be attained through hard work; only through hard work can one succeed.
Only through hard work can you stand on the same side as the majority of people.
A hierarchy. That's life—full of competition and pressure.
They say that time flies like water.
The past can never be repeated; final exams are approaching, and I'm feeling nervous before them.
The atmosphere was similar, after all, compared to other tests
Exams, especially final exams, are incredibly important. I once...
Those classmates who sprinted at the starting line can now only watch helplessly as they and their peers...
The gap in learning is widening, and it will eventually lead to problems in the final exam.
After the trial, they went their separate ways completely. If we say that...
Surviving in society is the second greatest thing in life.
If it's related to the gate, then having a good result and ranking is crucial.
Fame is the first major hurdle in life, and no one can overcome it.
Easily avoided, and no one can use any excuse.
Reject all man-made rules that have been passed down through the ages.
It all seemed like a deliberate arrangement by God.
I've long since lost count of how many days I've spent...
Night, simply because every night that comes is for me
It looks brand new. Late at night, at home...
Everyone else is asleep, but I'm still sitting here by the window.
Sitting wearily in the chair, reviewing for the exam...
The lessons that will be tested. Despite his father's repeated instructions...
I wanted to go to bed early, but I never did.
Courage to end it all tonight. For me, it's a long time coming.
The final exam is like a huge scam, on the surface...
It tells people the principle that "hard work will pay off."
In reality, they wanted to use this as an excuse to take everyone down one step at a time.
Step by step, they were pulled into the abyss.
"I told you to go to bed early, why..."
Are you still sitting here trying to delay tomorrow's class?
Class?
My father's scolding made me unable to bear it any longer.
The long-suppressed pain in my heart suddenly erupted.
Come:
"On one hand, you tell me to go to bed early, but on the other hand, you force me to get good grades. What exactly do you want?"
What for? "Now that finals are approaching, you're finally studying hard. What were you doing before?"
"Who said I hadn't reviewed before? Anyway..."
You'll never see my efforts.
"I don't care whether you've tried or not."
Li, anyway, in the end I only look at your final score.
If you don't do well on the test, you'd better watch out!
Seeing his father's heartless departing figure,
I couldn't stop my tears and covered my mouth, whispering.
I burst into tears, this time, I cried more than ever before.
It's always sad. In my opinion, parents...
The words were always so cruel, containing not a trace of...
Family ties, especially with the one who was most strict with me.
Father.
In the following days, in order to avoid his father's attention,
I had no choice but to hide under my blankets alone.
I use the sound to review, and when I want to sleep, I use it during class.
The compass slashed its hand hard.
Arms. It was as if all this effort wasn't my own.
Those who are truly willing to make sacrifices, rather than merely satisfying their families.
It's just a matter of various requirements. So, what about my life?
What is the meaning then? Is it merely to do one thing?
Do you try every means to please others?
That winter, I finally witnessed a long-awaited...
The heavy snow also brought the reward for all my efforts.
The final result came, but fate, like the approaching snow, was indifferent and unpredictable.
That evening, my father summoned me to his residence.
The room.
"Tell me, why did you do so poorly on the test?"
"I don't know, but I've already reviewed..."
"You dare say you studied on your own after doing so badly on the test?"
Pass! "
Does studying guarantee a good exam result?
"What about the others? They must be reviewing."
Did you? Then why did they all score higher than you?
Good!
"Some of them are talented..."
"Every time I ask you, you just say that other people are talented."
Right? Everyone achieves success through hard work, unlike...
You never know how to try...
Who says I haven't tried! Every single one of my efforts...
You didn't even see my efforts!
"Okay, so you say you tried your best, but what about the grades?"
"Do you think that trying your best is all it takes?"
Will there definitely be any gains?
"Otherwise what? Do you think those who get high scores..."
"Are those classmates relying solely on talent?"
For a moment, I was unable to answer him.
In this dark and competitive society, it's not just him.
Most parents are like this, for the sake of their own children.
Reputation, in order to help his child quickly integrate into society, he
They disregard their own past, resorting only to cruel methods to force their children to slow down.
Slowly becoming what he wanted to see, and
Which parent has truly considered their child's self-esteem?
What are your own feelings?
"Alright, since you say I never try hard enough..."
I'm always weaker than others, so I'll just have to learn...
"Isn't going there enough?"
"What did you say!"
Before I could even retort, my father...
He kicked the ground.
"I knew all along that your grandfather treated you like this..."
There's no benefit in handing over trash to me! You...
Stubborn! You say you won't study, so you won't study!"
After that, I never dared to approach my father again.
During the conversation, I lost all interest in what happened next.
Unfinished lessons. At this point, I had already lost...
It restored my confidence in life, because in the past, daily life had become more fulfilling.
During a day of exam review, I finally saw through this.
The truth of society: All students are just...
However, it is exploited by parents and teachers to obtain good grades.
It's just being enslaved by numbers.
I don't know when, but the leaves outside the window were covered with frost.
The ice crystals have begun to melt, and the long-awaited sunlight is shining.
The arrival of [something] signifies the end of winter, and also foreshadows [something].
With the end of winter break, I thought that once I...
After he truly gave up on studying, my father then
I won't say anything more about it, but I never expected...
One day after the winter break ended, he still took the opportunity to bring me into his room.
"Your knowledge is insufficient, I think you must..."
"You still don't understand the truth about this society, do you?"
"have no idea."
"Every student, after graduating from university, has to go..."
Only those with good grades have a chance to be accepted by society.
Only by having a higher probability of being accepted into various industries can one truly succeed.
You will gain more benefits than others...
You're lying!
"It's up to you to think what you want, but reality is..."
"That's how it is. You should think about it carefully yourself."
Does that mean people who don't read don't deserve to have...
Is it a good job?
Yes, look at the clean-up areas along the roadside.
Aren't all the workers and sweepers uneducated?
"What else is there for that person who is still alive?"
What is the meaning of this?
"Endure countless setbacks, feel this full of..."
A life of competition is also the meaning of a person's life.
"I don't believe it..."
After that, I couldn't help but begin to feel...
I doubt my future; I might be in society.
What kind of situation you end up in, and how you might be affected by others.
What kind of bullying occurs when someone of higher status than oneself?
I just know that these things will be part of my future.
You will definitely encounter it; there's no reason to refuse, and even less...
There are reasons to avoid it, but one can only bear it silently alone.
He endured it all, until he watched himself being gradually trampled and swallowed up by the crowd.
I used to try every possible way to escape
I've used every possible means to shield myself from this society.
Various methods of using human voices gradually helped me relax.
Solution. Gradually, I discovered that what had always been there...
I was the one escaping reality; it turns out that outside...
In some people's eyes, I will always be the most useless person.
To the point that I started to end my own life; I tried.
I tried cutting my wrists, but it turned out that it had no effect whatsoever.
Its function, after which I tried from the third floor.
Fang jumped down, only to find that he couldn't...
He fell to his death. Ultimately, I was on the verge of a breakdown.
She hid in the bathroom and cried loudly.
Why did this happen! I even want to die myself.
But why did fate choose not to let me die?
Do you know that I'm living a life worse than death? Clearly this...
That society is so dark, why don't they have one?
Everyone was afraid; no one chose to run away.
Why is it that I'm the only one like this...?
So useless! Does that mean I'm useless if I don't study?
Don't you deserve a good life? Is your status...?
People of lower status are bound to be bullied by those of higher status.
Is there anyone who can tell me about all of this...?
Why is all this happening...?
After that, except when I was in a bad mood, I would go to
I cried in the bathroom; the rest of the time I felt helpless.
Lying flat on the bed, I filled my mind with this.
The various realities and truths of society. During this time, I also had many dreams, and
And I can remember clearly what happened in my dream.
The beautiful aspects of life. If reality leads me to...
Where emotions are out of control, dreams become the means of redemption.
A place to heal my broken heart. If only.
I want to stay in my dreams forever...
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