Chapter 318 I’m Afraid I Can’t Feed You Enough!

"But I still think you should go back." Su Mei then changed the subject.

Huo Jianguo didn't understand: "You don't want to live with me every day?"

"Of course I do." Su Mei nodded, "But as your bedmate, I know you best. Your sleep talk at night is the slogan of the army.

If you can't let go of something, why would you say something against your will?"

"I am reluctant to leave you, but I am even more reluctant to leave you. You have bought a house in Yanjing and have your own business here. You will probably stay here forever.

If I return to the army, our separation will not be three or five years, but ten or eight years, or even a lifetime. What's the point of such a marriage? "This is a very realistic problem. For two people to be together, someone must make a sacrifice.

Huo Jianguo did not want to admit that he was sacrificing his career, and he did not want Su Mei to be burdened by his decision.

But his thoughts were clearly written on his body. Su Mei slept in the same bed with him every day, so how could she not see through his thoughts?

This is the difficulty of military marriage. If two people want to be together day and night, then one of them has to make sacrifices.

But if one has to sacrifice career for love, Su Mei feels that this is too much for this relationship. She asked:

"Can I understand that between defending your country and your children's love, you chose the latter?"

This question made Huo Jianguo silent for a while.

He put his hands behind his back and walked slowly forward towards the moonlight. His resolute face looked a little indescribably sad under the moonlight.

He didn't know how far he walked before he stopped. Then he stopped and looked at Su Mei:

"When faced with the choice, my father chose the country over his own family, and in doing so, he lost my mother and me.

Now that my country is stable and the world is at peace, I want to be a little selfish and choose my own small family. I think my mother will support me in doing so."

"But I'm afraid you will regret it." Su Mei stretched out her hand and smoothed the wrinkles between Huo Jianguo's brows.

Huo Jianguo grabbed her hand and kissed it gently: "No matter what choice you make, you will regret it.

But if I choose to go back to the barracks tomorrow, I will regret it tomorrow night because I will miss you too much.

Leaving the army will only make me feel a little sad when I think back to my military career in the future.

Su Mei, you are excellent. What you can do for this country is far beyond what I can do. I can't let you break your wings again for me.

So it doesn't matter if I have to make this sacrifice, because I am willing to do anything.

And just because I'm discharged from the military doesn't mean I'm giving up on my future. No matter what I choose to do, I'll do it well."

"Of course I believe it, but..." Su Mei still felt uneasy.

Before she could figure out how to express her inner uneasiness, Huo Jianguo interrupted her again:

"Don't persuade me anymore. Since I chose to say this to you, these thoughts must have gone through my mind thousands of times in the past few months.

My only worry is that I have failed my father’s cultivation, but as you said, everyone has their own aspirations, and he will understand.”

"When you talk about him now, are you willing to call him father?" In the past, when talking about Chen Yillong, Huo Jianguo was only willing to use words like "he" or "chief" instead.

Huo Jianguo nodded: "Actually, I know I can't blame him, some things are just so wrong.

The domestic environment was very complicated at that time, so he chose to give me away, and of course he had his considerations.

I can only say that it is an irresistible factor created by the times. It just so happens that your matter has come to an end. I will go back tomorrow and handle the transfer!"

"I've really thought it through!" Su Mei was still a little worried, "Once you make a decision, there's no turning back."

"Of course." Huo Jianguo nodded confidently, "Okay! Don't persuade me anymore. Your needs are so strong. I'm afraid I can't satisfy you if we meet once every one or two months."

"Get lost! Walk properly, why are you so unruly while talking?" Su Mei didn't expect Huo Nian to change his language so quickly. There were people living on the side of the road. She was afraid of being embarrassed by being heard, so she quickened her pace and walked forward.

Huo Jianguo followed behind and heaved a sigh of relief when he saw that the topic had been successfully changed and the atmosphere had become much more relaxed. He let out a breath and followed Su Mei:

"Hmm! Why are you walking so fast? You must have eaten something. If you haven't eaten enough, your husband will feed you when he gets home."

"Huo Jianguo, hurry up and leave!" Su Mei said as she took out a mask from her clothes pocket and put it on.

She didn't want to be recognized when Huo Jianguo was making a lot of nonsense.

The two of them quickly reached home, and Huo Jianguo took the initiative to boil water for washing.

The weather was hot and the couple took a shower to cool down.

After taking a shower, Su Mei lay in the yard to enjoy the breeze. She waved a palm-leaf fan to drive away the mosquitoes around her.

When Huo Jianguo finished taking a shower, he came out and picked up Su Mei by the waist and walked into the house.

"What are you doing!" Su Mei was frightened by the sudden suspension and screamed. She quickly stretched her back and hugged Huo Jianguo's neck.

Huo Jianguo smelled the fresh scent of her body after bathing and said:

"You're leaving tomorrow, so don't you have to pay your rations today? Keep your voice to yourself, so you can call me later!"