Chapter 194 Because I Love You

The more Gu Mian listened, the more confused he became. In the end, he didn't understand a single word.

"Lawyer Yan, what are you talking about? What happened between me and Xingzhi?"

"Gu Mian, I have always admired you for being straightforward and frank. Why do you find it so hard to accept that Gu Xingzhi is your first love?"

Yan Mu was quite unhappy.

He has made it so clear, yet Gu Mian still refuses to admit it?

"Xingzhi is my first love?" Gu Mian was so angry that he laughed, "Who told you?"

Yan Mu stared at Gu Mian.

She is actually a very transparent person.

It was so transparent that Yan Mu felt that she was not acting.

But if Gu Mian wasn't acting, wouldn't many things be terrifying if you think about them carefully?

Yan Mu looked at her seriously, "Maybe I expressed it wrongly. You and Gu Xingzhi were not together, so it can't be called first love. But even if you were not together, he was the first man you fell in love with, and he was a thorn in Ting Shen's heart. Not to mention, you regarded Ting Shen as a substitute for Gu Xingzhi."

"What are you talking about? How could I possibly love Xingzhi?" Gu Mian also realized something was wrong. "Why do you think I love Xingzhi? How could Tingshen be Xingzhi's substitute?"

"Also, you just said that it was because of my past with Xingzhi that affected the child. What's going on?"

Yan Mu frowned, "Didn't you get the cold because you saved Gu Xingzhi?"

"...Who said that? Xingzhi said that?"

"Gu Xingzhi has a diary that Ting Shen found in your old house. It's clearly written in it."

"How is that possible?"

"Why is it impossible?" Yan Mu asked, "Is it the diary that is impossible? Or is it this thing that is impossible?"

Gu Mian recalled, "Xingzhi left a diary at my house, but I don't know what's inside. It was locked. How did Ting Shen know? Have you seen that diary too?"

"Not only have I seen it, I've also read the contents of the diary carefully. It records the regret that you and Gu Xingzhi were in love but couldn't be together." Yan Mu said truthfully, "The diary has been in Ting Shen's office all the time. It's a thorn in his chest. I don't know why he keeps it to torture himself..."

......

Gu Mian didn't know how he walked out of the cafe.

When she came to her senses, she was already standing on a busy street.

This city has always been fast-paced, and pedestrians on the road are always in a hurry.

Gu Mian was bumped on the shoulder by a passerby and suddenly came to his senses.

Her mind was in a mess, like a tangled mess, and she couldn't find any clues.

But one thing is certain, everything revolves around that diary.

Gu Mian didn't hesitate and took a taxi directly to MS Group.

It was already seven o'clock in the evening and most of the employees had gone home, but the skyscraper was still brightly lit.

Gu Mian originally thought that it would not be so smooth to enter, but unexpectedly, the facial recognition system at the door let him in quickly.

"Madam?" The security guard on duty on the first floor saw Gu Mian and immediately came forward. "Why are you here? Mr. Li has already gone home after get off work."

"I want to go up there."

"Of course, ma'am, please."

Gu Mian successfully entered the president's special elevator and reached the president's office on the top floor.

She walked over to her desk, sat down, and opened the drawer in front of her.

Just as Yan Mu said, a quite familiar diary was lying quietly inside.

Gu Mian took out his diary to check and found that the combination lock had not been broken.

Sleep, close your eyes and think about the password.

Li Tingshen was able to guess the password set by Gu Xingzhi. Could it be related to her?

Gu Mian turned the numbers on it and adjusted it to his birthday.

With a "click", it was unlocked.

Gu Mian frowned slightly.

She had never touched the diary, let alone tried to open it, so it never occurred to her that the password might be her birthday.

Gu Mian calmed down and opened the diary. When he saw the words on it, his pupils suddenly contracted...

......

Gu Xingzhi received a call from Gu Mian on his way home.

"Xingzhi, where are you?"

"We're almost home."

"Okay, I have something to talk to you about."

Gu Xingzhi returned to Yuhua Mansion and went directly to Gu Mian's house.

He obviously felt that something was wrong with Gu Mian's face.

Gu Xingzhi followed Gu Mian into the room and saw the diary on the coffee table at first glance.

Gu Xingzhi frowned slightly, "Mianmian, where did this come from?"

"I want to ask you the same thing." Gu Mian handed him the diary. "If I'm not mistaken, this is indeed your handwriting."

Gu Xingzhi took the diary and opened it. A strange look flashed across his gentle face, but it disappeared in an instant.

"Did Li Tingshen give it to you?"

"How do you know that this diary is in Li Tingshen's hands?" Gu Mian questioned, "Xingzhi, tell me the truth, what role did you play between Li Tingshen and me?"

Gu Xingzhi calmly sat down on the sofa, picked up the cup on the coffee table, and poured himself a glass of water.

"Mianmian." He said calmly, "I'm sorry."

"I don't want to hear an apology, I want your explanation." Gu Mian picked up the diary and opened it. "You said I confessed to you, when did I confess to you? This date is clearly the day I came back from studying in the capital and told you that I liked a boy!"

"I fell into the water in the dead of winter and caught a cold, but it was not because I wanted to save you, but to save Ting Shen! Xingzhi, why did you write these meaningless diaries?"

Gu Xingzhi slowly raised his head and looked at her, "Because I love you."

Gu Mian was stunned. "...What did you say?"

"I said I love you." Gu Xingzhi said calmly and firmly, "Mianmian, can't I love you?"

"You..." Gu Mian's mind was in a mess, "We have always been a family, how could you have any romantic feelings for me?"

"Why not?" Gu Xingzhi smiled and said, "I have loved you since I was a child, but I dare not tell you."

"I always think that when you grow up a little bit, I will confess my love to you. When you graduate from college, I will propose to you. Then we will get married, have children, take care of grandma together, and live the most stable and happiest life."

Gu Xingzhi's eyes flashed with pain, "But Mianmian, when you were in your first year of high school, everything changed because you went to the capital for a half-month study tour."

"When you came back, you told me that you fell in love with a boy at first sight, and you said you wanted to go to the capital to see him again. Did you know that my world collapsed at that moment?"

"But I don't even have the qualifications to feel sad. I even smiled and said to you, "Come on!" Do you know that I have had a high fever since that day?"

Gu Mian looked at him in disbelief, his brain simply unable to think.

Gu Xingzhi closed his eyes, suppressed the pain in his eyes, and continued, "The content in this diary is my fantasy. I fantasized that the person you liked was me, but I rejected you."

"I fantasize that even if you can't be with me, you will marry someone who looks like me in the future."

"I fantasize that the person you jump into the water to save is me, because you love me so much..."

"During those tormenting days, if I hadn't relied on these empty imaginations, I don't know how I would have survived..."

"Mianmian, if loving someone is a sin, I think I have already committed the sin unforgivably..."