Chapter 375 Unprecedented Initiative

"Why?" Gu Mian frowned, "You want to take Xinxin away?"

Xu Yihan shook his head. "I've thought about it over and over again. Junlin will never let me take Xinxin away."

"I am not strong enough now and I have no way to fight him. If I take Xinxin away, with his ability, he will be able to find me and take Xinxin away no matter where I go. It will not only torment the child, but also prevent Xinxin from staying by my side."

"So you're saying you want to leave on your own?"

"This is the only thing I can do..." Xu Yihan burst into tears, "Mianmian, I can't bear to leave Xinxin, but I have no choice..."

"Then you can choose to stay." Gu Mian was curious, "Even if there is something unhappy between you and my brother, the Ye family will not treat you unfairly. I don't think the Ye family will do such a thing as keeping the son and abandoning the mother."

"Mianmian, you are right. The Ye family will not treat me unfairly. Even if Junlin doesn't want me, Grandpa will not allow him to marry another woman. I can stay in the Ye family and grow up with Xinxin."

"But Mianmian, this will not only trap me, but will also trap Junlin for the rest of his life."

Xu Yihan tried to smile, but tears kept flowing. "These days, I learned a truth from someone: loving someone doesn't necessarily mean possessing them."

"Letting go and letting go are also love..."

"Jun Lin is a human being, not a doll that I can possess whenever I want. For so many years, I have stayed in the Ye family stubbornly, but I still haven't won his heart. This shows that he really doesn't belong to me."

"So I can't keep forcing it. I let him go, and I let myself go..."

"What about Xinxin?" Gu Mian asked, "How could you bear to give up Xinxin?"

Although she has lost her memory, the maternal love in her bones cannot be erased.

When I got divorced, I still wanted to keep Nian Nian by my side.

She didn't believe that Xu Yihan was willing to give up Xinxin.

"Of course I can't bear to let her go!" Xu Yihan said self-reproachfully, "This is also what I hate most about myself. I gave birth to this child, but I can neither give her a complete and warm home, nor can I take her away."

"Mianmian, I really hate myself..." Xu Yihan cried bitterly, "From childhood to adulthood, it seems that there is only Junlin in my eyes and heart. I forgot everything else, including myself."

"I feel really regretful now. If I wasn't so incompetent, could I have just taken Xinxin away..."

"Yihuan, don't cry." Gu Mian wiped her tears, "Calm down and tell me where you are going."

"I don't know, actually." Xu Yihan sobbed, "I just want to stay away from Junlin, find my lost self, and when I become stronger, I will bring Xinxin back to my side."

"Then you just need to move out of the Ye family and live in the imperial capital, right?"

"No." Xu Yihan cried, "If I live in the capital, I'm afraid I won't be able to help but go back..."

"So you are planning to stay away from the imperial capital and completely prevent yourself from returning to the Ye family?"

"Mianmian, I need time. I must leave the Ye family and become stronger with my own abilities. Only then can I become a qualified mother and be qualified to take Xinxin back."

"I don't agree with what you said." Gu Mian said, "You worked hard to carry her and gave birth to her at the risk of your life. You are already a qualified mother and don't need to become a mother."

"Of course, you are right about making yourself stronger."

"In the relationship between you and my brother, it is obviously unequal. He is high and mighty, and you are humble to the ground. Under such circumstances, even if my brother marries you under the pressure from my grandfather, you will not be happy."

Xu Yihan nodded vigorously, "Mianmian, you are right."

"I used to dream of marrying him every day, but gradually I realized that a forced marriage is not a happy one. Even if I marry him as I wish, if he is not happy, I will not be happy either."

"Yihuan, love is not the only thing worth pursuing in this world." Gu Mian took a tissue to wipe her tears. "Without love, you still have family and friendship. Even if all of these leave you, you still have yourself."

"You must love yourself first before others will love you."

"You're right, I gave all my love to Jun Lin and even forgot who I was." Xu Yihan curled his lips, "If I had realized earlier that he didn't belong to me and let go earlier, how great it would have been..."

"The world is unpredictable, and what we should do is never look back, but look forward."

"Yihuan, as long as you are willing to start over, it is never too late."

"Mianmian, thank you." Xu Yihan wiped the tears from her face. "I can't tell these to anyone else, so I can only tell you."

"We are friends, so of course we can be open and honest." Gu Mian promised, "Don't worry, if you want me to keep it a secret, I will never reveal a single word to my brother."

"But you also have to promise me that no matter where you go, you must contact me as soon as possible to let me know that you are safe."

"Well, I won't lose contact." Xu Yihan hugged her gently, "Mianmian, I'm sorry, I didn't comfort you, but instead complained to you..."

"I don't need comfort." Gu Mian smiled and patted her back. "Li Tingshen is a thing of the past for me."

"Mianmian, you have such a strong heart. You can say no and let go at will. If I had your courage, maybe I wouldn't be so painful."

"It's not about courage." Gu Mian smiled, "I just don't want to get entangled in the hearts of a broken person. Li Ting deeply likes Lan Jinghao, so I will fulfill their wish and let myself go."

Xu Yihan's nose felt sore.

Although Gu Mian spoke calmly, she could feel that she was still resentful in her heart.

Gu Mian's resentment towards Li Ting is understandable.

And Li Tingshen is so innocent.

But all the truth had to be buried, and she couldn't reveal a single word to Gu Mian.

Gu Mian saw that she looked strange and couldn't help asking, "What's wrong?"

"Nothing." Xu Yihan said hurriedly, "Mianmian, after I leave, can you help me check on Xinxin more often, okay?"

"good."

"I will definitely find a way to take Xinxin away as soon as possible."

"Um."

......

Nian Nian kept talking about Li Tingshen every day, and Gu Mian couldn't help but think of this man and their uncollected divorce certificate.

During dinner, Ye Junlin was also there, and Gu Mian asked again.

"Brother, did Li Tingshen say when he would get a divorce?"

"He's gone abroad."

Gu Mian raised his eyebrows, "Take Lan Jing along?"

"You're overthinking it." Ye Junlin explained, "I'm on a business trip. But I don't know when I'll be back."

"Mianmian, according to the divorce agreement, half of the MS Group is yours. Li Tingshen should manage the MS Group well. It will be beneficial to you and not harmful."

Gu Mian disagreed, "I don't think I'll starve to death without him."

Ye Junlin smiled and said, "Of course not, I'll cover you."

"I originally didn't want any shares, but I don't want them because I want to save Lan Jing a lot of money. From now on, I will donate all the money that comes into my account every year to charity, except for the share that I keep for Nian Nian."

"Just be happy."

Gu Mian took a bite of the food and asked, "Brother, how is Yi Huan doing recently?"

"Didn't I hear that she came to see you a few days ago?" Ye Junlin asked instead of answering.

There were no accidents with the sleep.

Ye Junlin would not pay attention to Xu Yihan's whereabouts, but he knew the situation here very well.

All the servants and bodyguards are his people.

"She came once." Gu Mian said, "She came to talk to me and see Nian Nian. I haven't seen her for a few days, so I asked her to bring Xin Xin over to play."

"I haven't seen her much these days. Besides taking care of the kids, what else can she do?"

Gu Mian said seriously, "Brother, raising a child is very hard, you shouldn't belittle Yi Huan's efforts."

"There are three professional nannies taking turns to look after Xinxin at home, and there are so many domestic helpers. How hard can she be?"

"Even if there is a nanny, Yihuan is still a mother and needs to take care of her. She loves Xinxin so much."

Ye Junlin showed impatience, "Xinxin was born as a tool to kidnap me, of course she loves me."

Gu Mian frowned, "Brother, in your eyes, is Yi Huan really that unbearable?"

Ye Junlin picked up some food for her using a serving chopstick. "I know you two have a good relationship, but I am telling the truth."

"I think you have a preconceived notion about Yi Huan. She is not what you think she is. Maybe you can sit down and have a good conversation."

Ye Junlin's eyes darkened slightly, "Did she ask you to tell me this?"

"Of course not." Gu Mian explained, "I am just saying this from the perspective of an outsider."

Ye Junlin drank red wine, "Mianmian, the group has been very busy these days. I rarely have time to have dinner with you. Let's not talk about this, okay?"

Gu Mian nodded, "Okay."

......

After finishing his meal, Ye Junlin went to a drinking party and did not return to the Ye family until after one in the morning.

He opened the door to the master bedroom and saw Xu Yihan and Xinxin sleeping soundly.

Ye Junlin reached out and touched Xinxin's little head.

The little guy moved but didn't open his eyes. He changed his position and soon fell asleep again.

Xinxin didn't wake up, but Xu Yihan next to her woke up.

When their eyes met, Xu Yihan was stunned for a moment, and it took him a while to react.

"Why are you back so late? Have you been drinking?"

"Um."

Xu Yihan threw back the quilt and got up. "Go take a shower first. I'll make you some hangover soup."

When Xu Yihan brought the sobering soup into the study, Ye Junlin had already finished his shower and was drying his hair with a towel.

Xu Yihan put down the sobering soup and went to get a hair dryer to blow his hair.

The man had short hair and it was blown dry quickly.

Xu Yihan put away the hair dryer and said, "Drink the sobering soup while it's hot and go to bed early. I'll go back to accompany Xinxin."

She just turned around to leave, and the next second, her wrist was grabbed.

Xu Yihan turned around curiously, "What's wrong?"

Ye Junlin didn't say anything, he just exerted force and pulled Xu Yihan back into his arms.

Before Xu Yihan could recover from his shock, he was kissed on the lips.

She quickly guessed what he was going to do.

After Ye Junlin drinks, his sexual desires become stronger.

And they haven't had one in a while.

In the past, if he was willing to get close to her, Xu Yihan would be delighted.

But now, she wanted to push him away.

She used to feel happy because she thought it was a manifestation of love.

But now, she already knew that he could not possibly love her, so his closeness to her could only be a drunken release.

In his eyes, she was just a tool for venting his emotions at any time.

Xu Yihan felt sad.

She looked at Ye Junlin who was kissing her, and her eyes were instantly blurred with tears.

This is the man she loves with all her heart. After leaving here, she will never be able to fall in love with another man as much as she loves him in her life.

Xu Yihan gently pushed his chest away and avoided his kiss.

"What's wrong?" Ye Junlin's voice was hoarse from drinking, and sounded somewhat gentle.

Xu Yihan couldn't help but asked, "Jun Lin, do you love me?"

Ye Junlin frowned, looking unhappy.

He turned over and sat on the bed, took out a cigarette and lit it, "If you don't want to do it, there's no need to be so disappointed."

Xu Yihan laughed at himself.

Although she knew the answer, she didn't know what to expect.

It's simply asking for humiliation.

Xu Yihan wiped away the tears that had not fallen from the corners of her eyes.

Not crying or making a fuss is the last way for her to maintain her dignity.

Xu Yihan smiled and turned over to sit on the man, taking unprecedented initiative.

Ye Junlin narrowed his eyes and looked at her with interest.

Xu Yihan is actually a very traditional woman at heart, especially in love affairs, and has always been guided by him.

This is the first time she has taken such initiative.

Ye Junlin enjoyed her initiative.

A night of romance...

......

The next morning.

When Ye Junlin woke up, Xu Yihan was no longer in the study.

He didn't care, went downstairs to have breakfast, and went straight to work.

He was busy with work in the next few days and never returned to the Ye family. He either slept at the group or went to the sleeping quarters.

It wasn't until a few days later that Mr. Ye called.

"Jun Lin, what happened to Yi Huan?"

"Yi Huan?" Ye Junlin was curious, "What could happen to her?"

"If nothing happened, how could I not get through on the phone?" Grandpa Ye said, "She said she was going back to her hometown to worship her ancestors. She was gone for several days. Xinxin couldn't see her and cried every day."

"I called her, but her phone was turned off. Why was it turned off out of nowhere? Something must have happened!"

"Going back to your hometown to worship your ancestors?" Ye Junlin frowned. "When did it happen?"

"You're not home every day, so of course you don't know." Old Master Ye said, "Didn't you come back to stay that night? The next day, Yi Huan left right after you left."

"I specifically asked about the two of you, and she said you were fine and told me not to worry... Junlin, did you have a fight that night?"

Ye Junlin's brows knitted even tighter.

Not only did they not quarrel that night, they also did it several times. Xu Yihan was more proactive than ever before, which gave him a different experience.

"Jun Lin, I'm asking you a question." Old Master Ye pressed, "Did you really have a fight?"

"No." Ye Junlin calmed down and said, "We didn't quarrel."

"Something must have happened to Yi Huan, otherwise she wouldn't have lost contact, and she wouldn't have called to ask about Xin Xin's situation!" Old Master Ye suddenly became anxious, "Hurry up and send someone to look for her, and make sure to bring her back safely!"

"Grandpa, don't worry." Ye Junlin comforted him, "Nothing will happen to him."

Ye Junlin hung up the phone and immediately dialed Xu Yihan's number...