Chapter 394 I Still Lost

Xu Yihan looked straight into his deep eyes, smiled and said, "I really want to nod and realize my dream, but Junlin, debt is not love."

"If you marry me because you are in debt and want to make up for it, you will not be happy. In recent days, I have learned a truth from Mr. Li and Mianmian: love is not about possession, but about fulfillment, fulfilling the happiness of each other."

"I don't want to use my life-saving grace to kidnap you. You should marry the woman you love and find true happiness."

"So Junlin, thank you for being willing to marry me, but I can't marry you."

"I don't feel like I'm being kidnapped." Ye Junlin said truthfully, "We have been together for so many years and have a child. I am willing to marry you."

"I appreciate your consideration for Xinxin, but a child shouldn't be the rope that binds us together." Xu Yihan smiled, "I believe that when Xinxin grows up and experiences love, she will understand us."

"And even if we don't get married, it won't affect our love for her. She will still have the love of her parents, right?"

Ye Junlin was silent for a moment, then asked, "So what are your plans for the future?"

"I asked you to come here today because I wanted to end things with you. My feelings for you started here and will end here." Xu Yihan took a deep breath and a relieved smile appeared on his face. "From now on, I will start living for myself."

"I will be self-reliant and take good care of Xinxin. I also hope that you can fulfill your duties as a father and spend more time with Xinxin."

"I will."

Xu Yihan smiled and said, "Jun Lin, you saved my life, and I saved yours. We are even now. From now on, we owe each other nothing."

For some reason, Ye Junlin did not feel the slightest bit of joy in his heart. Instead, he felt very upset.

He didn't understand where this feeling came from, let alone what it represented.

"Let's go." Xu Yihan said, "Go back and have dinner with Xinxin."

"good."

......

When Mr. Ye learned of Xu Yihan's decision, he didn't say much, but just told her that the Ye family would always reserve a room for her when she came home.

Xu Yihan nodded while crying, and moved out of the Ye family with Xinxin.

Gu Mian prepared a large flat in the city for her. It was not too big, but just enough for the mother and daughter.

After settling Xu Yihan down, Gu Mian went to meet Gu Xingzhi.

Gu Xingzhi was locked up by Li Ting and never saw the light of day.

The moment he saw Gu Mian, a warm smile appeared on his face, "Mian Mian, it's great that you're alive..."

Gu Mian sat down on the sofa.

"Mianmian, are you here today to say goodbye to me?"

"yes."

Gu Xingzhi curled his lips, "How is Li Tingshen going to deal with me?"

Gu Mian raised his eyes and looked at him coldly, "You have done so many evil things that you deserve to die. But we have no right to judge you. Ting Shen has already handed over the evidence of your fraud in northern Myanmar to the police. Your fate will be determined by the law."

Gu Xingzhi's handsome and gentle face was calm and composed. "Mianmian, do you hate me?"

Gu Mian smiled faintly, "Of course I hated it, but when I look back, I find that hatred is meaningless."

Gu Mian looked at him and said, "Xingzhi, don't go down the wrong path again in your next life."

"Yeah, one wrong step, all wrong..." Gu Xingzhi curled his lips, "Mianmian, I still lost, lost to Li Tingshen... I hope that in the next life, I can get to know you before him."

"I hope that in your next life, the person you fall in love with is... me."

Gu Mian didn't say anything and just got up and left.

"Mianmian!"

Gu Xingzhi's almost hoarse voice came from behind.

"sorry......"

Gu Mian didn't look back. He closed his eyes, suppressed the emotions surging in his eyes, and left.

......

Gu Xingzhi was quickly handed over to the police.

Gu Mian took some time to visit the cemetery.

Gu Wanrou on the tombstone lives up to her name, with gentleness and tenderness in her eyes.

"Aunt Gu, I'm sorry I couldn't stop Xingzhi from going to his doom."

Gu Mian placed a bunch of daisies in front of the tombstone and took out a handkerchief to wipe the dust off the tombstone.

"I wish he could turn back in time, but unfortunately, he has become extremely stubborn."

The number of lives that Gu Xingzhi was involved in in northern Myanmar alone is enough to sentence him to death.

Although he is the blood of the Li family, Li Tingshen will never let him go.

"Aunt Gu, I hope that your spirit in heaven can bless him and help him become a good person and have a stable life in his next life..."

......

Life returned to normal. Gu Mian arranged an early childhood education class for Nian Nian and sent her to school for collective life.

Nian Nian has adapted very well to the school after a few days and what she looks forward to most every day is going to school.

After breakfast, Li Tingshen accompanied Gu Mian to send Nian Nian to school.

On the way, Li Tingshen turned his head to look at Gu Mian beside him and said, "Mr. Lu Lang wants to see you."

The smile on Gu Mian's face froze for a moment, "I see."

"Do you need me to go with you?"

"Need not."

After sending Nian Nian to school, Gu Mian went to the Chinese medicine clinic.

Mr. Lu Lang was seeing a patient. When he saw Gu Mian come in, he looked up, smiled at her, and motioned for her to sit down.

Gu Mian waited for a few minutes until the patient left. Then Mr. Lu Lang got up and walked to the sofa and sat down. "Mian Mian, long time no see."

"Master, how are you doing recently?"

Mr. Lu Lang paused while pouring tea, and his eyes instantly turned red, "Mianmian, you are actually willing to call me Master..."

"Once a teacher, always a father. I can't possibly deny you." Gu Mian bent his lips. "These days, I have thought a lot. You have remained single for the sake of Aunt Gu. How can you not be a sentimental person?"

"So it's understandable that we make mistakes just for the sake of our own interests."

"Master, I can't deny you, but I can't forgive you either... Now that the matter has been settled, Gu Xingzhi has been handed over to the law for punishment. As for you, I have discussed it with Ting Shen. You can regain your freedom, but you must leave the imperial capital and never come back."

"Fortunately, there are Chinese medicine clinics in other places. If you continue to practice medicine, it will also benefit the society."

"Mianmian, thank you for your kindness." Mr. Lu Lang had tears in his eyes. "I knew that with Mr. Li's character, he would never let me go. It was you who saved my life."

Gu Mian shook his head gently. "I said, I can't deny you. You are my master after all. I will give you a sum of money every year as maintenance."

"I know you are filial, but Master is not short of money."

"Whether you need it or not is your business, and whether you pay the money or not is my business. If you don't want it, you can just donate it."

Mr. Lu Lang did not refuse, "I'll listen to you, but Master also has something to ask of you."

"You say."

"Your medical skills have surpassed my master's. When it comes to benefiting society, you are more capable than my master. Besides, the Chinese Medicine Hall was originally meant to be managed by you."

"If you are not afraid of hard work, I want to keep this decision and leave the Chinese Medicine Hall to you. As for me, I have been serving the rich and powerful in the imperial capital for many years. I am already tired. I want to go out and be a traveling doctor. Wherever I go, I will help patients who need help. Isn't this another way to benefit society?"

Gu Mian nodded, "That's good too. Don't worry, I will take good care of the Chinese medicine clinic and help more people in need."

"Mianmian, thank you."

"Master, take care."

......

After lunch, I took a nap.

When I opened my eyes, I saw Lin Jinshu sitting beside the bed.

Gu Mian stood up and asked, "Mom, why are you here? Do you miss me?"

Lin Jinshu said nothing. He stroked her face with trembling hands, tears streaming down his face.

Gu Mian looked at her clear eyes and suddenly thought of something. He stared at her with wide eyes in disbelief, fearing that he had seen it wrong.

Lin Jinshu said nothing, but tears kept flowing.

Gu Mian could no longer control himself and tears rolled down his cheeks.

When their eyes met, all the words seemed to turn into tears, silently venting the pent-up emotions.

Gu Mian hugged her tightly, and the two of them cried together...

Upon hearing the news, Ye Junlin rushed to the hospital.

Gu Mian immediately took Lin Jinshu to the hospital for a physical examination. The doctors who had been treating Lin Jinshu were amazed that this was a miracle.

A few days later, Gu Mian and Ye Junlin accompanied Lin Jinshu abroad to pay tribute to Gu Mian's father.

When the plane landed, Li Tingshen called immediately.

"Nothing happened on the way?"

"Everything is fine, why do you ask?"

"Nothing."

"Impossible." Gu Mian frowned, "Your face looks weird, what happened?"

"Gu Xingzhi ran away."

"How is it possible?" Gu Mian couldn't believe it. "He ran away right under the noses of the police?"

"His sentence had not yet come down, and he mutilated himself in the detention center. He bled a lot, so we had no choice but to send him to the hospital, but he ran away in the hospital and his whereabouts remain unknown."

Gu Mian panicked, "Ting Shen, you must protect your family, especially Nian Nian!"

"I know that Nian Nian will not go out again until she finds Gu Xingzhi."

"Gu Mian, I'm worried that he might attack you, so you must be careful."

"He is a wanted criminal now, so he can't possibly chase me out of the country, right?" Gu Mian analyzed. "Even if he sneaked out, it wouldn't be that easy. Besides, my itinerary is confidential, so it's not easy for him to find me."

"In any case, please pay more attention to your safety and stay within the bodyguard's sight."

"Don't worry, my brother and I will accompany mom to pay tribute to dad, and then accompany mom to relax before going back."

"Okay, we'll keep in touch."

"Um."

......

Gu Mian stayed abroad for a month, partly because he wanted to spend some time with Lin Jinshu to relax, and partly because there was still no news from Gu Xingzhi.

It is safer abroad than at home.

But Gu Mian's heart was at home, so after discussing with Ye Junlin, the three of them returned home.

On the plane, Gu Mian looked at his mother tenderly, "Mom, the winter in the capital is cold. If you feel uncomfortable, please tell me at any time."

Lin Jinshu held her hand tightly and said, "As long as you and Junlin are by my side, I am not afraid of anything."

Gu Mian leaned in her arms, "Me too, with mom here, I'm not afraid of anything..."

When the plane landed, Li Tingshen was already waiting at the airport.

He took Gu Mian's cashmere coat and put it on her. "Are you cold?"

"Fortunately, I prepared some clothes before leaving."

"Go home."

"Um."

On the way, Ye Junlin couldn't wait to ask, "Is there any news about Gu Xingzhi yet?"

"No." Li Ting said deeply, "Just like evaporating from the human world."

Ye Junlin sneered, "How could a living person disappear from the world? He must be hiding in the dark, waiting for an opportunity to harm you."

Li Ting said, "The security of Yunyue Bay is very strict. He has no chance to take advantage of it."

"That's good."

"You should pay more attention to your own safety." Li Tingshen turned his head and looked at him, "Gu Xingzhi attacked you once, there's no guarantee he won't do it again."

"Don't worry, I won't let the dog bite me a second time." Ye Junlin smiled calmly, "I just don't like to bring bodyguards when I go out, but that doesn't mean I can't protect myself."

Although the two men were confident, Gu Mian still felt a little uneasy.

Gu Xingzhi has long been mad with despair, and now that he has become a fugitive, he will be even more desperate.

The day the criminal is not arrested and brought to justice, the more she will worry about when this bomb will explode.

......

Time passed day by day, and it was the end of the year in a blink of an eye.

Gu Mian can feel more and more that there is a dark tide under the peaceful life.

Late at night, a series of urgent phone calls woke up the two people in the master bedroom.

Gu Mian suddenly opened his eyes, looked at the screen of his mobile phone, and immediately answered the call.

"Hello? ...I'll be right there!"

Li Tingshen sat up and asked, "What's wrong?"

"Something happened to Jinchuan!"

When the two rushed to the hospital, Pei Jianchuan had already woken up.

Gu Mian hurried forward to check his pulse, but his face did not look very good.

Pei Jianchuan curled his lips and said, "I'm sorry for making you worry."

Gu Mian paused for a moment and said, "I'll adjust the prescription for you. You should take the medicine on time."

"Gu Mian, you know best what my physical condition is like." Pei Jianchuan said calmly, "The medical team said that it's a miracle that you've been able to hold off for so long."

"Sleep, my time is running out. Rather than relying on bitter medicine to support myself, I would rather leave this world with dignity..."

"Don't talk nonsense!" Gu Mian said sternly, "I know you are not afraid of death, but you still have Xiaobao. As long as you live, Xiaobao still has a father!"

"Gu Mian, it is because I have Xiaobao that I want to maintain my dignity. I don't want Xiaobao and Nian Nian to have the last impression of me sitting in a wheelchair and unable to speak complete sentences." Pei Jianchuan's eyes were filled with pain. "Gu Mian, do you understand?"

Gu Mian tried hard to hold back tears, "I understand, but Jianchuan, this is too cruel for the child..."

"Gu Mian, if I could live a few more years, I would be willing to hold on for the sake of my children, but you know I can't hold on that long."

Pei Jianchuan held her hand and said, "Rather than holding it up without dignity, I would rather end this pain as soon as possible."

"Gu Mian, please help me..."

"How do you want me to help you?" Gu Mian frowned. "Give you a medicine to help you end your life? Don't even think about it!"

Pei Jianchuan shook his head gently, "How could I let you do such a cruel thing? I just want to ask you to take Xiaobao to Yunyue Bay and tell him that I'm going on a business trip abroad and will be gone for a long, long time..."

Gu Mian's tears fell, "Are you going to say goodbye to Xiaobao in this way?"

"Gu Mian, I know that you and Ting Shen will help me take good care of Xiao Bao. He will grow up in a loving family, and his life will not lack anything compared to others."

"Mian, help me, when I beg you..."