Episode 6 The Secret Place
When he returned home that night, Yan Yiming was more enthusiastic towards Lin Ying than usual. Perhaps it was because his career was finally taking off, and he was somewhat excited both physically and mentally.
However, Lin Ying didn't want to follow his pace because of the sudden satisfaction she felt that afternoon. Just before he was about to act, she finally admitted -
"I'm a little tired today."
"But I want it."
She hesitated for a moment, but finally said, "...I understand."
She doesn't like physical contact or verbal abuse. It's not that she dislikes the act itself, but she dislikes the feeling of not getting the same response.
Eight out of ten times that they had sex before ended in this way. Either he said he was not interested, or he didn't want to move, or he even gave up halfway and insisted that Lin Ying help him.
So it is difficult to say how much response Lin Ying has received in her love affairs over the years, and how much of her own desires she has suppressed.
Once, after helping him solve a problem, Yan Yiming actually praised her for the first time:
“You’re awesome!”
She asked him tentatively: "Will you help me next time?"
"I don't want to do that. I can't accept it."
The refusal was so blunt that it made Lin Ying look like a joke. How could she be so foolish as to ask Yan Yiming for such a thing? How could a young master like him, who had never done any housework, serve her?
But after that, he tasted the pleasure here, and he would ask her to do it first every time. Sometimes when the passion came, he would end it directly in her mouth, and naturally there would be no follow-up.
It would be fine if he wasn't willing to give direct feedback, but at least he should pay attention in formal occasions. However, he once stopped talking on the pretext that Lin Ying's voice was too loud and he was afraid of disturbing the neighbors, and he lost interest in the conversation instantly.
It was before he went to Libo that the two had a head-on conflict.
Lin Ying angrily complained to him, "If they heard it, then so be it. We're a legal couple, not an affair. Why are you overthinking it so much?"
"If you scream like that, I'm afraid people will think you're an indecent woman."
"Who are you calling indecent? What are you pretending to be? The women in the porn movies you watched back then screamed much louder than me, and you're still the same..."
"Shut up! It's your turn to speak!"
This sentence seemed to have touched his nerves, and he actually slapped Lin Ying...
Lin Ying nearly fell off the bed. The pain and numbness on her face made her feel overwhelmed. She was stunned for a few seconds, put on her clothes, and rushed out of the house...
But she didn't know where to go. Back to the Jiang family? From the day she got married, that place was no longer her home. It was Lin Jidong and Jiang Yueling's home. They had their own child, their child was Jiang Shu, and she was nothing. It had always been like this.
Her only identity now is Yan Yiming's wife.
That night, she had neither the courage nor the confidence, and sat on a bench downstairs in the community for two hours. It was only after Yan Yiming came downstairs to apologize that he took her back.
He explained, "I'm sorry, Ying. I've been under too much pressure lately. I've had a nervous breakdown and haven't been inspired. My work hasn't made any progress. At that time... I was just a little tired. I didn't have that kind of feeling towards you."
So that week later he left without saying goodbye and flew to Libo to collect folk songs.
He is always like this, doing what he wants, even when it's beyond his ability. No matter what time or what he does, he always follows his own feelings. This is a great gift for a creator, but it is a great torment for those around him.
Her torment lies in the fact that her true self is worn away, her ego is ignored, her love is not reciprocated, and the care and consideration she deserves is all due to his self-righteous selfishness.
But these things did not seem to be completely ignored by the other person in the past two weeks.
Undoubtedly, Jiang Shu's self-righteousness is no less than Yan Yiming's, but at least he knows how to respect and understands her unspeakable helplessness.
He would list options for her in a roundabout way, and when she was stuck in a dilemma at work, he would throw opportunities at her, take the initiative to take her to participate in activities, and even introduce her to his circle. He even... glimpsed her hidden passion and desire, and desperately and seductively gave her hints.
Even if it was taboo and unbearable to think about, he would satisfy her fantasy without hesitation.
She wanted to experience an orgasm, and he wouldn't hesitate to kiss her sensitive parts.
When she wanted to vent her feelings by screaming, he would remind her: "Scream as much as you want, I want to hear it."
She had clearly entered his restricted area, but he wasn't angry. The only thing he felt was that she hadn't told him, "I need the key."
But he is also selfish.
He treated her so well only because of their relationship. He wanted to have sex with her only because he also needed someone to have sex with. Although Lin Ying was his "sister", she was such an inconspicuous existence. Few people knew about their relationship anyway. If it weren't for his parents' marriage, they would have had no relationship.
It is precisely because of this ambiguous relationship that even if there is something unclear between them, it is not a big deal.
As she recalled these trivial matters, a familiar taste suddenly gushed out of her mouth, and Lin Ying felt a little nauseous... For the first time, she didn't swallow it, but spat it all into the toilet paper, then quickly stood up to rinse her mouth...
Yan Yiming didn't pay attention to her unusual behavior today. He suddenly hugged his wife from behind while she was brushing her teeth and kissed her on the cheek. "Do you want to go on vacation? I'll go with you and have a good time for a few days."
It's the same again. Every time he starts from his own perspective and directly gives the result without considering the other party at all, or even asking.
Lin Ying spat out the toothpaste, washed her face, and retorted, "Didn't we talk about it at dinner? My company is looking to expand its business recently, and I want to join in. Besides, I just secured the site at Tengchun..."
"I know, but didn't we agree at that time that you could just work from nine to five, it would be so easy, and you could always take time off to be with me."
She frowned and went back to the bedroom without looking at him at all.
"That's your idea. I don't agree. Besides, I can't just take leave from my current position..."
"Then let my dad talk to your boss. He used to work for my dad..."
"Yan Yiming, could you please stop talking to yourself!"
Lin Ying suddenly couldn't bear it anymore and raised his voice.
The other party was stunned for a moment - it was more like surprise than shock.
"What's wrong with me? I said I was going on vacation just to make it up to you. I could see it at the dinner table today. You're not happy, are you? I don't want you to work hard. I want you to relax. Do you know what kind of faith I had to finish the painting in Libo in two weeks? I just wanted to finish my work quickly so I could come back and be with you, and go on vacation with you."
"Then why didn't you tell me earlier? Why do you have to act first and ask for permission later?!"
"I didn't act first and ask for permission later this time. It's you who didn't take it seriously."
Yan Yiming took out the chat history and showed her the corresponding words. It was just a bland sentence - "Honey, when we get back, let's find a place to go on vacation? I'm exhausted this time."
He had made similar promises many times before, but in the end, he was either stood up or suddenly had inspiration, and he would immediately forget the promise. This happened more than once or twice, and he never kept his word.
Lin Ying had long since stopped taking the "crying wolf" trick seriously.
In the end, they kept quiet that night because she didn't want to argue.
No matter who is right, she doesn't want to resolve this issue because it will make her hate each other more.
She didn't compromise on the vacation, choosing instead to remain silent and focus on her normal work. Yan Yiming didn't bother asking any further questions, so the matter was left unaddressed.
On the day of the summer solstice, Lin Jidong invited the two families to go to Sheshan together, which is also the annual spring outing routine.
After our last hasty farewell, I met Jiang Shu again. At first, we looked at each other and said nothing.
In the eyes of others, their relationship was still lukewarm. But in private, their actual relationship, though only that one time, was truly passionate.
I played golf in the morning and hiked in the afternoon.
Lin Ying's athletic ability was average, and she had been sitting in the office all year round after graduation. Climbing the mountain on foot was really difficult for her, and she soon fell to the back of the car.
She said to Ren Jiahui and Jiang Yueling, who were one step ahead of her, "Don't worry about me. Go ahead. I'll catch up after a while."
She didn't want to stay with them, and it was nice to be alone.
However, this stolen freedom was soon shattered—"Are you lying and being lazy now?"
Jiang Shu was behind her, staring at her thoughtfully. She subconsciously looked forward twice, afraid that someone would see them together - even though the two of them maintained a normal social distance.
“No one cares.”
Jiang Shu reminded her while trying to get closer to support her, but Lin Ying subconsciously dodged...
"No, I can do it myself."
She picked up her trekking pole and continued to keep a normal distance from him, not even glancing at him.
Jiang Shu had been following her silently at first, but then he pretended to be indifferent and quietly caught up with her side by side...
"how have you been?"
"I'm fine. How about you?"
"I'm not well."
Lin Ying pretended to tease: "Didn't you find someone else to accompany you?"
“I don’t like frequent changes.”
"Yiming doesn't go out much recently, so it's not very convenient for me."
After revealing his true colors, Jiang Shu seemed to have found a loophole and kept probing - "Oh? So you're acknowledging that you're the only one who can accompany me these days?"
…
"That's not what I meant."
Perhaps it was because Jiang Shu was beside her that he had dissipated a lot of her energy, so the two of them just kept going up and didn't feel so tired.
Jiang Shu suddenly said, "Don't forget what I said before. I'm your brother. If you have any difficulties, don't hide from me."
She thought to herself, you are a really competent brother, and you even provide company and sleeping arrangements.
"You left in a hurry last time, so I didn't ask you how you felt?"
"It's been so long, I've forgotten it."
"Really forgot?"
Lin Ying continued to play dumb, and the two continued to walk around the mountain road until they saw a hidden rockery. Jiang Shu asked her if she wanted to rest for a while. The vines under the rockery were the epitome of blindness.
She never thought that she would be so presumptuous as to allow Jiang Shu to kiss her here.
The temperature of the stone wall still had a chilly feel to it. If it weren't for the fact that the two of them were kissing and caressing each other to their heart's content, she would definitely not have been willing to seek pleasure here.
The quick-drying, smooth feel of the jacket clung to her body, yet it made her chest feel stuffy. Fortunately, the zipper was located at the front, allowing him to kiss Fang Ze...
"Do you remember?"
She didn't respond, but her slightly hot body temperature gave him the answer.
He was unstoppable, and she was losing ground step by step. However, she still refused to admit defeat, sneaking into his tent, which was the most vulnerable part. Her palms were hot and wet, and her breathing was trembling...
"Want me to help you?"
Before I could reply, his eyes betrayed everything.
Last time, he was trying to please her the whole time. This time, time was tight and the venue was cramped, so she could only respond to him with this behavior...
He was the one who should be comfortable, but Lin Ying was still bold, using a voice that only the two of them could hear, infinitely charming, to arouse him...
It sounds really nice.
He repeatedly kissed her lips, as if he wanted to completely store this piece of soft jade in his bag, but his bag was already full...
Lin Ying knew that after this, their relationship would never be the same again.
They had no relationship anyway, and even if they did now—it would be nothing more than a very dirty relationship.
The two of them fell too far behind the group, and the others waited for them at the top of the mountain for more than half an hour.
After they reunited, Jiang Yueling scolded Jiang Shu: "How come you've fallen behind so much?"
He explained nonchalantly, "At that time, Ah Ying's feet hurt and she couldn't walk. Seeing that you had all walked far away, someone had to take care of her, so I stayed behind."
"Aying, what happened to your foot? Why didn't you call me so I could go back and carry you."
Sure enough, Yan Yiming brought his afterthought concern as usual.
Lin Ying evaded the question: "It's all right now."
As she was about to finish her words, she looked up and met Jiang Shu's eyes in the corner - the mountain breeze blew over, as if grinding his kiss into the air, and passed across her cheek.
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