I looked at her quietly, and could still see a hint of tenderness in her eyes full of resentment.
I whispered, "You keep saying you don't believe in love, but didn't you still keep Che Xiaofeng?"
When talking about Che Xiaofeng, Jin Shu's attitude changed a little.
"He was an accident." Jin Shu paused and continued, "When I first found out I was pregnant with him, I felt disgusted and repulsed. At that time, I had only one thought in my mind, which was to abort him!"
"But when I really went to the hospital, I regretted it." Jin Shu's eyes began to soften. "An idea began to occur to me. Maybe I could give this child a life completely different from mine. My family was poor before, but I had enough money to raise that child. I can raise him to be whatever I want him to be."
At that time, Jin Shu decided to give birth to the child with a joking attitude, and treated the unborn child as a doll that could be manipulated at will.
That's why she decided to keep the child.
However, during pregnancy, every day's changes in the child will deeply affect the mother.
"As he grew bigger and bigger in my belly, started to have a heartbeat, began to respond to me, and kicked and struggled inside my belly, I began to feel very happy."
Jin Shu's lips curled up. "He is the only person in this world who is connected to me by blood, and I can truly feel that he loves me. Every time he responds to me, it is an expression of his love for me. It was only later that I realized that this feeling stems from my expectations and love for this child."
When I heard her say these words, I couldn't help but feel moved.
I comforted her, "The baby is also sensitive. Although he is only very small in your belly, he can feel your love for him, so he is willing to grow healthily in your belly."
Jin Shu obviously agreed with what I said: "Yes, when I realized this, I suddenly began to feel fortunate. I was fortunate that I wasn't as cold-blooded as my biological parents. I even began to look forward to the birth of my child and began to fantasize about my future life with him."
I believe that what Jin Shu said was true, because at this moment she exuded the aura of motherhood.
But in the blink of an eye, her eyes dimmed again, and she said resentfully, "When my child was only eight months old, I unexpectedly gave birth prematurely. I couldn't save the baby, and it was born without a heartbeat. At that moment, I felt like I had just stepped into a world of light, only to be plunged into darkness again. I began to resent and hate this world! I hated this world, I hated everyone, because they all had the happiness that I longed for but could not obtain!"
Looking at Jin Shu's hysteria, I felt a little sympathy in my heart.
I couldn't help but think of how I felt when I just lost that child. I'm not much better than Jin Shu.
I resent Yuan Yaxin, I resent Lu Zhiyuan, and I even resent fate for making me suffer this!
I can understand Jin Shu's helplessness and pain at that time.
As for what happened afterwards, I also know it all.
When Jin Shu was full of resentment, Yan Meng found her to cooperate.
At that time, Jin Shu had no worries and wanted to take revenge on the world, so he funded Yan Meng to establish the Mr. Organization.
It was just fate, Jin Shu would never have thought of it.
The love of her life whom she later met died at the hands of the organization she had personally funded and established.
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