Chapter 43 I owe you
Yu Fei was startled, his mind racing to think of a response.
To cover up her panic, she went to the table and poured a cup of tea, sipped it slowly, and whispered: "As a ruler, you should love your people like your own children. I was influenced by the good around me, and when I saw our child fall, I must have been in a hurry and only cared about saving him... I forgot that we had a pig."
Jing Cang glanced at her as if she was joking, "Yu Fei, do you believe what you said?"
Yu Fei was embarrassed and said nothing.
Jing Cang sighed: "Yu Fei, I really doubt that your previous 'crying, making a fuss, and then hanging yourself' were not just acting, but your true nature."
"You don't know how to swim, why are you jumping into the river? Before you entered the palace, I told you to control your arrogant temper, but you have become even more arrogant in the past few months. You have violated the rules and flouted the law in every way. If it weren't for the pig, you would have died many times over."
Seeing Yu Fei shivering, as if she was scared, he softened his tone and said, "Don't be so impulsive in the future. I won't give you what you want."
Suddenly, I thought of something. "As for freedom. First, you are concerned about not wanting to have children, so I'll wait for you to open your heart. Second, you took the initiative to find a wife for me. If there is discord between husband and wife or difficulty in having children in the future, won't you make up for it? Third, my legs were damaged by you. You, the culprit, shouldn't have taken care of me until I recovered. If I get a hidden disease in the future, you will have to serve me."
Yu Fei: “…”
Well said. Don’t say it again next time.
Fortunately, Jing Cang knew that the original owner could not swim, and thought that she jumped into the river because she failed in the negotiation for the golden medal of immunity from death that day and impulsively sought death, not because she wanted to escape.
When she heard him say "I won't give you what you want", she curled her lips slightly.
If she wanted the position of wife, he would certainly say righteously that she was of humble origin, had bad character, was incapable of the responsibility, and was not worthy of the position.
It is true that men's words are lies.
Yu Fei didn't want to be scolded anymore, so he evaded the question, "I remember that." He looked at his legs and changed the subject, "You stood up earlier?"
Jing Cang nodded. "The doctors at the Imperial Hospital have brought me back to health. I've also been training myself to stand and walk, but my bone injury hasn't healed yet, so I need to rest."
He seemed reluctant to talk about this topic, and turned his head away, staring to the side.
When Yu Fei saw the sadness in Jing Cang's brows, her intact legs seemed to hurt.
He was born a proud man, with outstanding talents in both civil and military affairs, wise and self-controlled. However, being insulted and having his legs broken by a merchant woman was probably the biggest setback he had encountered in his life so far.
She felt a little upset. If she was destined to die at sea in modern times, why didn't she die earlier so that she could travel through time and space to stop the original owner's cruel act?
But in this way, perhaps they would not have so many intersections. He and the heroine took the happy route of marriage first and love later, and she... continued to flirt with women and live a life of drunkenness and dream in ancient times.
But I feel a little regretful for some reason.
Maybe she just likes big waves.
Subconsciously, Yu Fei didn't want to delve into it further, or perhaps, he didn't dare.
"Yu Fei, do you regret it?"
Jing Cang looked at her like a guilty child, with a trace of frustration, pity, confusion and other expressions passing across her face, and tears welled up in her eyes when she blinked her eyelashes.
Yu Fei came back to her senses. The matter was settled, and all the entanglements could not be resolved by her words of "regret". She lived in the world for the original owner, and she should pay for the sins she committed.
She smiled and deliberately misinterpreted his meaning: "'To die under the peony flowers, even as a ghost, is still romantic', what do I regret?"
Jing Cang rolled his eyes at her and said, "You're fickle. How long have you used the peony flower? And you don't want it anymore."
He secretly suspected that she was fickle and gave up. Yu Fei felt wronged. If he was a prostitute, she would definitely redeem him and make him her principal wife, but with his status, she couldn't afford him...
Perhaps it was the residual alcohol that was intoxicating her. She imitated the way a rich lady would order a duck at a club and said with a smile, "There are so many handsome men out there waiting for my attention. If you don't show some real ability, why should I rely on you alone?"
Jing Cangxing walked up to her and asked, "Miss Yu, do you think I don't have the real ability?"
Yu Fei looked at his almost warm face and suddenly remembered the scene when he pinched her neck with a face like Shura. She pouted: "Anyway, don't force a woman's true ability."
Jing Cang seemed to remember that incident as well. He coughed lightly and sucked her earlobe. "Then I'll compensate you with a 'Searching for Honey in Flowers', okay?"
Yu Fei was stunned and didn't understand what he meant.
In a flash, he picked her up, put her on the table, and lowered his head to be her slave.
She is like a flower, from which bees diligently collect nectar, and finally her stamens rustle and her fragrant juice oozes out.
He supported the table with one hand and stroked her cheek with the other, and whispered, "Are you happy?"
As he got closer, the sweet and fishy aroma of his daughter filled his nose. Yu Fei glanced at him and saw that his face was as clean as a wash, with tiny droplets of water on his eyebrows and eyelashes, which occasionally condensed into a drop and fell on her face with a "pop".
Her heart felt as sweet as if she had drunk a bowl of honey water, but when she thought of his marriage, she felt that the sweetness was over and that she would still feel bitter in the future.
She bit her lip: "You don't know whether I'm happy or not."
Jing Cang saw that Yu's hair was wet, her snow-white face was flushed, and her charming eyes were still misty, like a irritated kitten that was satisfied.
He didn't want her to only have physical pleasure, so he touched her chest and said, "I'm talking about this."
Yu Fei understood that Jing Cang was asking her indirectly whether she still had a grudge against him forcing her before. Of course she did. She was the one who held grudges the most, otherwise she would not have mentioned it again just now.
But he had already humbled himself to serve her like this. She was like a female general who had avenged her past humiliation and was having fun riding on the face of the enemy leader. All her previous depression was swept away.
Fireworks are popping outside the window, and everyone is celebrating the New Year. Perhaps by this time next year, they will have been separated and will never see each other again in this life.
Beautiful scenery and a night of spring are priceless. Yu Fei suddenly had an impulse, hoping that tonight he was not the scheming prince of the feudal dynasty, and she was not a cannon fodder who traveled through time and space, but they were just a pair of lovers who loved each other and indulged in love.
She covered his eyes and pushed him back onto the table, "Brother, I'm telling you now..."
"Are you happy or not?" Jing Cang felt that Yu Fei had not finished talking about these four words. She demonstrated with her own actions that she had let bygones be bygones.
"Yu Fei..."
"Brother called me...name..."
In fact, he had called her many times, angrily, helplessly, and to ask for sex, but she suddenly wanted to hear him think of her when they were together, as if she was a girl he particularly liked.
"Fragrant..."
Jing Cang was very obedient.
When Yu Fei heard him calling her by her nickname, she shuddered suddenly. It was like a cluster of sparks that ignited her whole body, and she was destroyed physically and mentally in an instant.
"Feifei is so beautiful..." Jing Cang stared at her and pecked away a tear from her eye.
Yu Fei blinked and looked at him. His expression was gentle and doting, as if he was treating his beloved.
She also said things like "Brother, you are so handsome". Her attitude at that time was frivolous, but his was as if seeing her happy was something that made him very satisfied, even more than his personal catharsis.
Her heart was beating like a deer in an instant, and she blurted out: "I like..." Then she vaguely remembered something and buried her head in his neck.
"What does Feifei like?" Jing Cang stroked her hair.
Yu Fei had said such words too many times, but this time it seemed to be infinitely close to her heart, and she felt homesick instead.
The unexpressed feelings were pent up in her heart, spreading through her body like an invisible thread. She opened her mouth and bit his neck, sobbing: "I like happiness..."
Jing Cang originally thought that Yu Fei didn't have him in her heart, but just now he had a glimpse of a corner of her mind, which was like a flash of light, making him suspect that it might be an illusion.
He deliberately said, "I heard you say you like me."
"You are delusional." Yu Fei raised her head to retort like a cat whose tail was stepped on, but then she realized that her reaction was too intense and did not match her previous image of a lovelorn person. She lowered her eyes and said, "If I don't like you, I will not get involved with you and enter the palace."
Jing Cang said without thinking: "I take back what I said before, 'delusional'."
Yu Fei's words just now, "delusional", were Xue Jingcang's answer to her previous teasing of "does he like her?", and now that he says he takes it back, isn't that admitting that he likes her?
In the face of the overall situation, this confession contains too many factors, making people wonder whether it is mixed with open and secret conspiracy - maintaining stability and calculation, and it seems empty and powerless at the same time. It can't make up for the gap in family background, nor can it resist Rutian's holy will.
Yu Fei laughed: "No need to take it back, I have always been daydreaming."
Jing Cang stood up and said, "You don't believe it, or you don't want it?"
Yu Fei changed the subject: "Who said they don't want a brother..."
Seeing her like this, Jing Cang seemed to have suffered a loss and was taking revenge on her.
The ninth floor of the Zhaixing Tower is exclusively for the nobility. In addition to the mahogany carved windows, there are also two glass windows for people to enjoy the view.
It was freezing cold, so Jing Cang just opened the wooden window and watched the fireworks outside with her.
Looking far into the distance, tens of thousands of families in the capital seemed to be lying in the arms of the earth. Countless bright lights and countless fireworks lit up the dark night, as if the people were praying for the future with their hands clasped together - today has passed, and next year will be better.
Yu Fei felt the scenery, her wet fingers blurring the glass window, but the thoughts in her heart became clearer.
——She doesn’t think about the future, but tonight, she is happy.