Chapter 271
Wang Jiazhi's baby was about to be born, so she packed her things and planned to go to the hospital to give birth.
The closer the day is to meet, the more anxious and worried I become, and my mood becomes extremely sensitive and troubled.
Having learned from her first pregnancy, she had been prepared from the start, but sometimes it was unavoidable. She was calm, even relieved, when she found out she was pregnant.
She always felt that the child would come back to find her because she owed her.
The child was so quiet and sensible, never making a fuss. She believed that if she had been born, she would have been beautiful, smart, and sensible, and definitely not like her. This child was so good, yet she was so flattered to choose her as her mother. But she couldn't bring her into this world, to let her grow up happily and live her own life. She could only take her with her and let her die in the wilderness. This was a grave sin, and she felt so sorry for her.
When she was dying, she told her: Find a good mother in your next life, and don't be reborn randomly like this.
But she always felt that she would come to find her.
They certainly felt sorry for the unborn child. Old Yi was a cautious and careful man, but this was the only thing he'd let down. He had no experience with women, and since they were almost all experienced, married women, he trusted them to avoid any trouble. Furthermore, no one had ever conceived his child. Ever since his youth, he'd been unsure if there was anything wrong with him. But he didn't care; having a child or not didn't matter.
Even if they played like that, he thought she would be prepared, just like those women. He didn't know that she was so determined to die that she didn't even realize she was pregnant, let alone take precautions.
Just like that, these two people messed around and had a child. The child was so well-behaved and obedient, and never made trouble. One of them didn't know they had a child until she died, and the other one, after knowing, went crazy and refused to admit it. In the end, he died with the child's body, two lives. It's a sin.
Wang Jiazhi had never thought or hoped to have a child. But when the pain reached its peak, even though she knew she couldn't have the child, perhaps because of her natural maternal instinct, or perhaps because she wanted to have a child, she felt a sudden throbbing in her heart. She wanted to give birth to the child very much.
That was the most important part of her experience of the suffering of sentient beings. The pain turned into comfort. She could be loved, could love others, and even be a mother. She was still a person, not a beast without dignity and feelings in the eyes of others.
It’s such a pity that all this ended just as it was beginning.
Now that she knew she was pregnant, the feeling of relief returned. She thought that since she was still willing to come to her, she must give birth to the baby and make up for her debt.
But when it really came to this moment, she wondered if she was too selfish. If she really brought this life into this world, would it be a more terrible torture from God?
Could she, in her current state, provide her with comfort and a chance to grow up well? She was especially tormented by her past. She had ruined the rest of her life that way. She couldn't even be a good woman herself, so how could she teach her daughter well? If she had to repeat her suffering... she quickly shook her head.
No, she was like that because she was young and ignorant, and had no relatives around her. As long as she was by her side to teach her and protect her, she would not be like her.
Wang Jiazhi was deeply disappointed. If the child stayed with him, it would be better for her, if he wanted to raise her. She believed he wasn't a father worse than an animal and would treat the child well. If he could, he would comb her hair, put her to sleep, and protect her as she grew up. He would teach her well, teach her how to judge people and how to handle things. Her daughter would be perfect and outstanding, with her own achievements, a beloved lover, and a happy marriage. She would never be as shameful and unfulfilling as herself.
At night she drew a picture of a big white cat holding a small calico cat in its arms, and a big calico cat standing beside it licking the cute little calico cat.
She arranged her belongings again. Since she couldn't take too much with her, she packed her purse with her savings, the box of gold bars, and some valuable jewelry. She still hadn't spent all her savings, and she had sewn some of the gold bars and jewelry into her clothes, and the rest was hidden in a flowerpot in the house.
The next day, after packing up her things and heading into the city for the hospital, Wang Jiazhi spread the painting out on the table. Before leaving, she took a look around the house, feeling as if everything would have changed dramatically by the time she returned.
She was feeling uneasy the whole time on the road, not just because she was afraid of giving birth, but also because of some other trivial and indescribable annoyances.
She felt more at ease when she got there. She gave the aunt some money to cover her expenses for the next few days.
She was the only one in the ward. It was so quiet that she could only hear the voices in the corridor.
She went out for a walk out of boredom. There were so many pregnant women waiting to give birth. At this time, a nurse passed by with a cart full of babies. Each one was so tiny, their eyes seemed to be closed, and their bodies were wrinkled.
At this time, a man's voice was heard saying, "We'll pick a big one later."
Hearing the woman laugh, she turned around and saw a couple waiting at the door to claim their child.
She felt lost. She probably wanted to retract her thoughts. He might not care about the child. Other people have someone to accompany them when they give birth, but giving birth to a child by herself is all about herself.
In the evening, she went for a walk. This hospital was the best in the area, with many patients. In the small square in front, there were two flower beds planted with white cannas. The flowers lived up to their name, standing tall and graceful, like graceful beauties. The flowers were enormous, opening in sections from bottom to top. The buds on top resembled large ears of wheat, and the unopened, almost diamond-shaped buds were particularly beautiful.
Wang Jiazhi walked for a while before sitting down on the flower bed, looking at the crowd. Some had heavy bandages wrapped around their heads, some had plaster casts on their legs, and some were so skinny their skin was as yellow as oranges. They must have envied her, for she was just there to have a baby.
She was lost in thought when a man slowly came up to her and stopped. She looked up and her heart almost jumped out.
Zhou Minlin!
The two of them found a quiet, deserted spot, unable to believe their eyes. Wasn't he in the north? How could they meet here? The two of them felt like they had been in past lives and present lives together.
Wang Jiazhi was pregnant and lowered her head, not knowing how to start. Zhou Minlin asked, "Why are you here?"
"You saw it all. Of course it was the birth of a child."
She was just thinking about how to make up a lie when Zhou Minlin said, "I know everything."
"Ah?" She looked at him in astonishment.
"I met Kuang Yumin, and he told me."
"How did you meet him?"
"I've been working on things this year, and I met him after connecting with this place."
Wang Jiazhi's expression cooled, her restless heart now calmed. The man before her was no longer her former close friend, but someone like Kuang Yumin. She was no longer afraid of anything. She was just waiting for him to say the same thing as them, so she could prepare to turn against him.
Zhou Minlin laughed and said, "I beat him up so badly that two of his teeth were knocked out. It was really funny without his front teeth."
Seeing his scarred face showing the bright and innocent smile he had in school, her tears started to flow.
She choked up and said, "I know you must look down on me, but I... I have no choice... I know I deserve to die, I..."
Zhou Minlin quickly supported her shoulders, trying to calm her down. "This isn't your fault," he said. "I know a little bit about him. Many things are just fate. In fact, a few of our close friends have already guessed that you probably already have someone in your heart, which is why you stay so far away from the boys who are pursuing you."
"No, this is all my fault. I know he deserves to die, I know I shouldn't have, I know I deserve to die too. But I can't do anything about it. I've thought about starting over, I've thought about lying to myself, but I can't do anything about it..."
She had to bury all the torture and pain she had gone through over the years in her heart, and this was the first time she could speak it out to someone.
Zhou Minlin interrupted her and said, "You're not wrong. It's his fault, it's Kuang Yumin and the others' fault, it's fate's fault. But it's never your fault. You will always be a very good person. You haven't done anything wrong."
She was very grateful for Zhou Minlin's words. He was still the warm-hearted boy.
Zhou Minlin told her what he had seen and heard. It seemed that Kuang Yumin and his men hadn't changed at all, having only met with their superiors once since their release. His superiors had spoken to him about Kuang Yumin and his men, and he was practically mad when he heard that they had abducted her to do this. Kuang Yumin had told him that she had done it willingly, and he had even exaggerated and said a lot of unpleasant things about her. In a fit of rage, he beat Kuang Yumin badly, and the loss of his front teeth was just one of the consequences.
"Fortunately... this makes me feel better. If I thought about you, a good person, being defiled like that, I would almost die."
After hearing this, Wang Jiazhi's heart began to bleed again.
"Actually...he was the one who let me go."
"who?"
He pointed at her belly and said, "My brother-in-law."
"What!..." Her face turned red all the way to her ears and neck.
Zhou Minlin smiled mischievously. He didn't see Lao Yi's face, but he saw a pair of eyes through the small window. He was familiar with those eyes; he had seen them in school, and once seen, it was hard to forget. But these eyes looked twenty years older than he remembered.
It was as if they were back in school, and both of them felt lost, as if those carefree days would never come back.
Zhou Minlin said he was visiting a friend and would be leaving soon. He then carefully asked if she needed money and if she could handle it on her own. She said everyone would take care of everything and that he didn't need to worry. But he couldn't help but worry. She had fallen in love with that kind of person, and now they were separated, and she was alone with a big baby. But there was nothing he could do. In these troubled times, there were too many unresolved worries.
He mentioned that his son was already two years old and he hadn't seen him for a long time. After a few more words, he really left. After they parted, he looked back at her several times.
There are some people you know you might be seeing for the last time. They all feel that way.
That was the last time they met, and they never saw each other again in this life. Zhou Minlin's life was very fulfilling. He got what he wanted, and he had a complete beginning and an end. A few months later, he died on the front line.
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