Chapter 33 Chapter 33 "But you are like this..."
Xue Yuanyin went out again that day. When she came back in the evening and passed by the west wing, Zhang Jingxuan just came out for dinner. He looked calm, no different from usual.
Xue Yuanyin deliberately glanced at his Adam's apple. She didn't leave any trace, and the light blush on it had disappeared.
She didn't know if it was her illusion, but she always felt that he had pulled his collar a little higher.
After dinner, when Zhang Jingxuan stood up to leave, Xue Yuanyin suddenly threw a medicine bottle to him.
Zhang Jingxuan took the medicine bottle and examined it. There was nothing written on it. He asked, "What medicine is this?"
"This is for you," Xue Yuanyin said slowly. "I see you're going in and out of the toilet so frequently. I think you might be experiencing kidney deficiency. This is for treating frequent urination."
Zhang Jingxuan looked at her speechlessly and was about to throw the medicine bottle away.
Xue Yuanyin quickly said, "Don't throw it away! I spent money to buy it!"
Zhang Jingxuan placed the medicine bottle on the table and said, "I'm not worthy of it. You should take it yourself."
He simply left and the medicine bottle was placed on the table. Xue Yuanyin looked at the bottle and slowly put it away.
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The next morning, Xue Yuanyin washed the clothes. This time they were pomegranate red, soaked in water, revealing a gorgeous color.
As she hung it on the rear window, she paused, something crossing her mind. A few seconds later, she walked to the yard and, pretending to be calm, hung it on the line to dry.
When Granny Chen was making breakfast, she was a little surprised to see the small clothes and asked, "Madam, do you want to hang your small clothes out to dry in the yard?"
The master and mistress had told her before that underwear should not be hung out to dry in the yard, and Granny Chen thought she had made a mistake this morning.
Xue Yuanyin glanced at the tightly closed west wing. He hadn't come out yet. When she thought about what he would see during breakfast, the heat on her ears rose. She pretended to be calm and hummed, saying:
"Now that autumn has arrived, I think the sun is better in the yard, so I'm going to bask here."
Granny Chen nodded in agreement. Although she didn't know why the master and mistress wanted to bask in the sun in their own room, there was no doubt that the sunlight in the yard was better.
As she set the table, she said, "That's right. It would be better if the clothes were dried in the sun!"
As soon as he finished speaking, the door of the west wing was pushed open and Zhang Jingxuan came out to have breakfast.
Xue Yuanyin sat at the table, calmly picking up a piece of sweet potato with wooden chopsticks, glancing at Zhang Jingxuan's reaction out of the corner of her eye.
He walked out of the wing room and into the yard. As expected, his eyes paused for a few seconds on the clothesline, but after a few moments he looked away. Without stopping, he walked to the table and sat down as if he hadn't seen anything. His tone was casual:
"What's for breakfast today?"
Xue Yuanyin said slowly, "Sweet potatoes, pickled vegetables, and rice porridge."
Zhang Jingxuan nodded, picked up the wooden chopsticks and started eating without saying anything else.
Xue Yuanyin lowered her head and stirred the rice grains in the soup bowl. She didn't get any unusual reaction from him, so she couldn't tell whether she was happy or disappointed.
However, he usually wouldn't ask "What are we having for breakfast today" before breakfast even though he already knew the answer.
Because this is something you can tell just by looking down.
Xue Yuanyin finished her breakfast first, stood up, threw her bowl and chopsticks into the kitchen sink, and turned back to the house.
When I closed the door, I seemed to hear the sound of the person having breakfast.
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In the evening, a wooden dragonfly landed in the yard.
This was the message Xue Yuanyin had sent out earlier, and His Royal Highness Prince Yu had replied to her letter.
Xue Yuanyin put away the wooden dragonfly and looked around the yard, looking for a safe place to open the letter.
It's absolutely impossible to do it inside the house. There is a window in the main house, the inner room and the west wing facing the yard, which is covered with a layer of paper. It's okay at night when you sleep, you can't see anything clearly, but when the sun shines during the day, her shadow will be reflected on the paper, and you can tell at a glance that she is opening the letter.
Xue Yuanyin was silent for a few seconds and walked straight into the toilet corridor.
She suddenly understood why Zhang Jingxuan came here to check whenever he received a letter. This place was indeed an absolutely safe place.
Hearing footsteps behind her, she hid the letter in her sleeve and turned around to see Zhang Jingxuan following her in.
Xue Yuanyin raised her eyebrows and said, "Master Zhang, do you also enjoy watching people urinate?"
Zhang Jingxuan looked at her for a few seconds, said nothing, turned around and walked out. Xue Yuanyin snorted. He was allowed to read the letter secretly, but she was not allowed to?
After he left, she took out the letter and read it carefully.
The letter said that the emperor had already returned to the palace and was now aware of the unusual profits in Quanyang County and the presence of the Western Qiang people.
Perhaps the emperor was intentionally concealing the truth, so Prince Yu didn't know many details and mostly heard them from her letters. He also ordered her to report any news immediately.
Xue Yuanyin took the letter and the dragonfly with an indifferent expression. When she walked out, she saw Zhang Jingxuan waiting outside the toilet.
She made way for him to enter, but she didn't expect that Zhang Jingxuan didn't intend to go to the toilet, but his eyes fell on her.
After a moment, Zhang Jingxuan took the initiative to speak: "Have you informed His Royal Highness Prince Yu of all the news?"
Xue Yuanyin let out a cry and tried to play dumb.
Zhang Jingxuan said calmly, "I don't intend to pry into what information you exchanged. I just want to know, have you told him everything?"
Xue Yuanyin looked at him for a moment, then slowly said, "Just like you would tell His Royal Highness the Crown Prince, I said what you said."
She didn't understand the meaning of Zhang Jingxuan's question.
She and he each serve their own masters and have opposite positions. Isn't it natural for them to tell each other the news?
Zhang Jingxuan lowered his eyes and said nothing more.
Xue Yuanyin walked around him and planned to find a way to get rid of the letter.
Zhang Jingxuan suddenly grabbed her wrist. She turned her head in surprise, meeting his calm yet surging eyes. Xue Yuanyin was slightly startled, her heart racing for a few seconds.
She calmed down a little and asked, "Do you have something to say to me?"
Zhang Jingxuan frowned.
In fact, he knew he shouldn't say it, but this sentence had been lingering in his mind for a long time, making him think about it day and night, and it had become a heart disease. He finally decided to follow his heart, looked into her dark and clear eyes, and said softly:
"It's true that Prince Yu was brilliant, but it's also true that he was ruthless. To him, the forces that supported him weren't living beings, but pawns on a chessboard, to be kept if useful, discarded if useless. Everything he did was to fulfill his own selfish ambitions, to conquer the Central Plains and expand his territory. If you truly delve into his past, you'll discover he didn't hesitate to sacrifice human lives."
Xue Yuanyin's brows slowly furrowed, and when he heard the last part, he interrupted him and asked;
"What do you want to say?"
Zhang Jingxuan said slowly, "What I want to say is that His Royal Highness Prince Yu has a crooked heart and sinister tactics, and is not a wise ruler."
Xue Yuanyin's face turned cold, and she shook off his hand. "Isn't it too late for you to tell me this? Are you asking me to quit Prince Yu's party and choose His Royal Highness the Crown Prince? Are you dreaming?"
She even felt a wave of irritability and self-loathing. Could she choose to join or leave the Prince of Yu's faction whenever she wanted? The Xue family had long been tied to the Prince of Yu's side, doing too many things that aligned their interests. This alignment had been formed years ago, with deep roots, a single entity that could not be separated.
Zhang Jingxuan didn't understand whether he understood or not. What he said was useless. If she didn't fight, she would die. She had no choice and no way to turn back!
Zhang Jingxuan said slowly: "I don't want you to betray Prince Yu's party. I just hope that you can think twice before doing anything. You don't have to assist His Royal Highness Prince Yu with all your strength. How can you do it be more beneficial to yourself..."
Xue Yuanyin's emotions were ignited at once, and she suddenly became angry and yelled at him:
"Can you please stop talking! What have I done wrong? I just want a good ending!"
Zhang Jingxuan frowned slightly, and finally closed his mouth without saying a word.
The yard suddenly became quiet. Grandma Chen was picking vegetables in the kitchen. She was a little hard of hearing. She glanced at the two of them, then finally lowered her head and continued picking vegetables.
Xue Yuanyin felt a little sour in her nose. This was not a good place to quarrel, so she took the initiative to walk into the nearby west wing.
When Zhang Jingxuan came in, she closed the door, took a deep breath, tried to calm down, turned around and looked at him, and said:
"You know, sometimes I actually hate you. I hate the way you act like you're clean-handed and sitting on top. I hate the way you always seem to be so effortless and in control, making me look like a clown."
Zhang Jingxuan frowned and said, "Xue Yuanyin, I never regarded you as a clown."
Xue Yuanyin whispered, "But I feel like a clown."
Zhang Jingxuan looked at her and said slowly, "Don't belittle yourself. Don't belittle yourself."
Xue Yuanyin said with some self-mockery, "Zhang Jingxuan, you've devoted all your energy to assisting His Royal Highness the Crown Prince, turning yourself into a heartless and desireless person. Do you think it's worth it? What do you really want?"
Zhang Jingxuan's expression has returned to calm.
He didn't want to say anything more, but since she pressed him, he didn't try to hide himself anymore. The pride and ambition in his handsome eyes were like a blaze burning in the barren land, making Xue Yuanyin, the person closest to him, feel the scorching heat of it like a cold fire, almost making her feel ashamed of herself.
He looked at her and spoke slowly, "I want to sit above everyone else and become the new emperor's closest official. I want to hold great power and leave my name in history."
Xue Yuanyin's expression turned cold, with a hint of sarcasm and anger.
It was like this again, this calm and composed expression! He was like an outsider, watching her with his hands tied, knowing everything. She hated seeing him like this!
She wanted to see other expressions on his face, wanted to see him lose his composure, to see his handsome face shattered bit by bit, to be tied to her every move, and no longer be an outsider.
Xue Yuanyin suddenly approached him and pressed her body against him. Zhang Jingxuan frowned slightly and took a step back. He didn't expect that there was a wall behind him. She blocked him against the wall and supported her arms on both sides of his body.
She looked at his gradually furrowed brows and increasingly calm, even cold eyes. Her eyes curved slightly, with a hint of cunning, and she asked softly:
"Why did you take a cold shower a few days ago?"
There was a second of silence in the air. Zhang Jingxuan didn't answer, but his eyes gradually darkened.
Xue Yuanyin reached for his hand, and he didn't dodge. She smoothly pulled it over, trying to press it against her. Seeing her intention, Zhang Jingxuan began to pull his hand away.
How could she ask him to hide? She hooked her fingers around his, entwining them like vines. When his resistance eased a little, and she sensed his weakening resistance, she suddenly pulled him closer, pressing his palm against her lower abdomen, guiding him to gently rub it up and down.
Zhang Jingxuan suddenly raised his eyes, his gaze fixed on her.
A wave of heat passed from her lower abdomen to his palm. Even through the cloth, he could still feel the girl's warm body temperature. Along with the throbbing under her skin, her pulse beat slightly faster under his palm.
His calm rationality was wrestling with his almost impulsive emotions, as if a pair of hands were tearing at the veins in his brain.
He resisted the urge, controlled his slightly rapid breathing, and tried to calm himself. He even knew that he should pull his hand away, immediately distance himself from the matter, and prevent things from going any further.
It was just that her body seemed too close to him, so close that he could easily smell her body fragrance. This scent and warmth made him addicted for a moment, and there was almost nowhere to hide... or rather, he didn't want to hide.
Xue Yuanyin patiently moved his hand down, trying to move it even lower. Looking at his eyes that were now filled with lust, she whispered excitedly:
"Further down, in a more private place... Aren't you tempted?"
Zhang Jingxuan's fingertips touched her lower part and he suddenly came to his senses. He controlled her wrist with his backhand and stopped her from moving to take his hand.
There was a flash of regret in Xue Yuanyin's eyes.
Zhang Jingxuan closed his eyes, his arms slightly tense. Through his intense restraint, cyan veins, like rolling hills, loomed on his forearms beneath the shadow of his sleeves.
The air became quiet, with only the sounds of two breaths blending slightly in the close space.
After a while, Zhang Jingxuan opened his eyes, and the emotions in his eyes disappeared without a trace, and he seemed to have regained his composure.
He stared at her, suppressed the slight hoarseness in his throat, and said slowly:
"You want to force yourself on me? You've got to be able to do that."
A hint of triumphant smile flashed across Xue Yuanyin's eyes. He glanced down, caught a glimpse of something, and hastily looked away.
Although it was just a glimpse, she vaguely saw what she wanted to see. Her smile filled her eyes even more and she said:
"But you're already like this... Zhang Jingxuan."
No feelings for her? He was completely calm?
Humph, she finally caught me.
There was a slight darkness in Zhang Jingxuan's eyes.
She doesn't need to remind me.
He knows best what changes have taken place in his body.
But now that she found out, the nature of the matter has changed.
Things were getting a little out of control, but he didn't want to let it get any further out of control. Calmness and restraint were playing a game with him, telling him that he should cut his losses in time and stop.
Zhang Jingxuan concealed the dark color in his eyes, smiled softly, and said in a hoarse voice:
"So what? Even if that's the case, I have enough self-control to control it."
There was a slight redness at the corners of his eyes just now, clearly revealing for a moment that he was enduring, but now his expression was calm, as nonchalant as usual, and he was not moved at all.
It was as if he was telling her in this way - don't waste your energy.
Xue Yuanyin glanced down again in disbelief, and was a little frightened by the curve of the robe. She raised her head hastily and met Zhang Jingxuan's cold face, which was completely different from hers, and a pair of overly calm and insightful light brown eyes.
The grip she held on his hand loosened slightly, and she wavered for a moment.
Could it be that... Zhang Jingxuan had truly received the strict training of the Zhang family and wouldn't do anything evil? After all, it was rare for him to be like this, and he was still incredibly calm, not doing anything inappropriate towards her...
Taking advantage of the moment when her strength relaxed, Zhang Jingxuan broke free from her hand, pushed her shoulders away, and walked out of the shackles between her and the wall.
Zhang Jingxuan turned his back to her, glanced down, and saw the same scene she had just seen. He couldn't help but close his eyes.
After a moment, he opened his eyes, still with his back to her, and said in a cold tone, "I'm so tired, so proud of you."
"It's inconvenient to see you off, so please go back."
Xue Yuanyin said angrily, "Zhang Jingxuan!"
Zhang Jingxuan suppressed the faint restlessness in his lower abdomen, but his tone was indifferent:
"It's no use yelling at me. You can't seduce me. Give up your plan."
Xue Yuanyin really witnessed his self-control this time, but the opportunity was rare and she didn't want to give up, so she had to take advantage of it.
She walked gently to his side, but unfortunately he blocked her way. She couldn't get through, so she stood behind him and whispered softly in his ear:
"Why don't you dare turn around?"
Zhang Jingxuan glanced sideways at her. If it weren't for her physical condition, her voice would have sounded remarkably calm.
"Didn't you see it just now? Are you asking even though you already know the answer?"
Xue Yuanyin was a little surprised. She thought he would avoid answering. But it was no use for him not to answer. She had indeed seen it just now.
But she only took a quick glance and only remembered that part of his robe was really... Unfortunately, she almost forgot what it looked like now.
If I had known earlier, I would have taken a few more glances.
She smiled and said, "Turn around and let me take a look, or I'll force you."
Zhang Jingxuan glanced down and saw no sign of abating. The muscles in his arms tensed and he said coldly:
"My internal strength is deeper than yours. If I don't want you to, you can't defeat me. I might even destroy your meridians."
He said calmly: "If you are willing to take the risk, then it's up to you."
Xue Yuanyin was so angry that her teeth were itching. Suddenly, she stretched out her arm, grabbed his shoulders and threw him to the ground. Unexpectedly, Zhang Jingxuan reacted faster. He turned around, grabbed her shoulders and pushed her to the wall, pressing her wrist with his fingertips.
He suppressed the wheezing sound in his throat and sneered, "You want me to seal your acupoints?"
Xue Yuanyin was restrained by him, unable to move. She had never thought he could even press the acupoints. She had really underestimated him. She was surprised at how much stronger he was now than before, while trying to break free from his hand that was pressing the acupoints on her wrist.
She knew that if she dared to violate him, he would really seal her vagina.
Zhang Jingxuan was restrained too tightly, with the tip of his nose right next to her face, and she couldn't even look down.
After struggling for a long time, Xue Yuanyin gave up reluctantly. Seeing how calm Zhang Jingxuan looked now, he probably gave up the idea as well.
She knew she had lost her best chance and said, "Don't ban me from learning. I'll go back to my room now. Is that okay?"
Zhang Jingxuan looked at her coldly for a while and let go of her hand.
Xue Yuanyin rubbed her wrist, curled her lips, turned around and walked towards the door. When she reached the door, she stopped again and looked at his back facing her, drinking water at the table, and said:
"Zhang Jingxuan, you're lying. You're clearly aroused by me, but you're just not admitting it. I won't give up on what I want so easily."
After saying this, she withdrew her gaze, pushed the door open and left the west wing.
The wooden door slowly closed with a slight "bang".
As Xue Yuanyin stepped out of the door, a dark thought suddenly crossed her mind. She wanted to hide and see if Zhang Jingxuan was really as calm as he appeared, or if he was just lying to her.
But she finally held back and went back to the house decisively and without doing anything perverted.
But it was precisely because she left so decisively and casually that she didn't realize that the young man in the west wing raised his head slightly, his Adam's apple kept rolling, and that after putting down the teacup, he suppressed a slight gasp for a long time.
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Granny Chen had already prepared dinner and left, but by the time it was so long, the dinner had already gone cold.
No one is coming out for dinner tonight.
Zhang Jingxuan finally took a cold shower, but this time it was different from usual. He used up all the cold water but the pain didn't go away.
He extinguished the candle. It was almost dark, and dusk was gradually falling. He lay on the bed in only his underwear, letting himself fall into the boundless silence. However, due to a known reason, he could not rest and was unusually awake.
After a long time, he closed his eyes.
In the quiet room, Xue Yuanyin also turned over gently.
She was not sleepy at all, which was why she heard the sound of Zhang Jingxuan drawing water just now.
If she hadn't paid attention, she would probably have been fooled by him again and thought he was really that calm.
But Xue Yuanyin pretended to be unaware of all this, turned over, closed his eyes and went to sleep.
The journey is long, but the future is bright.
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