Chapter 149 149
Song Peifeng looked at the cunning in Jiang Xixiao's eyes and couldn't help but smile happily.
He knew she said that on purpose, and he was indeed surprised that she still had the energy to write after such heavy study.
He didn't know what she was writing, but she could still find time to go to the Internet cafe to write during the competition training period. He thought that her writing performance should be very good, otherwise she wouldn't need to submit the manuscript on time.
Only when it was particularly urgent and the other party needed her manuscript urgently, would she go to the Internet cafe at night to write in such a situation, just to submit the manuscript on time.
He suddenly became curious about what she was writing, and he had a desire to know more about her.
But his behavior and gaze were still polite and restrained.
As Jiang Xi was looking at her with a smile, she suddenly raised her head and asked him with a smile: "Do you like me?"
Song Peifeng had never expected that she would ask such a question so directly at this time, so unexpectedly.
His ears, neck, and face quickly turned red.
But he did not avoid her gaze. Seeing that she seemed to be smiling but had actually regained her calm and self-control, he nodded and said affirmatively: "Yes." Those words seemed to be burned on his lips, making him blink shyly.
At this moment, Jiang Xi only thought he was cute, but she didn't dare to respond.
She was still smiling, and said objectively and seriously as if it was not her business: "I am a non-marriageist."
She leaned back in the chair, and her hand holding the spoon rested on the edge of the table.
This is actually a distanced posture.
She doesn't know if there is a perfect life without regrets in this world. No matter in this life or in the previous life, she feels that she is a very lucky person who is favored and cared for by God. If the central person in this world is the son of the world in this world and a person with great luck, then although she is not that kind of person with unique luck, she must have a little luck.
Although she was born in a remote rural area, her father was willing to support her to study, which was her luck. Although
she was born in a family that favors boys over girls, she has the preference from her grandfather, which makes her feel the best family love. She
is not that smart, but she is not stupid either, which allows her to have enough IQ to enter university.
She has been through hardships, but she always finds someone who can help her.
Not to mention her career. To use someone else's words to describe her, she has found the right person and has a great life.
But she still has regrets, such as her relationship with her parents, her feelings, and her marriage.
It may be because of her experience in high school and the repressive education she received since childhood. She has always felt inferior and unworthy. If someone is a little bit good to her, she will be grateful and want to repay them with gratitude. It
is also for this reason that others see her as a cold and beautiful woman, but in fact she has always been a single dog, guarding her heart tightly, not knowing how to love, and not daring to love. On the one hand, she
acts like she is as hard as a rock and doesn't care at all; on the other hand, she is very scared.
When she reached the age when others thought it was time to fall in love and get married, Jiang's father and mother began to urge her to get married, just like they were completing a task. At that time, she still had a shallow understanding of many things in the world. She was single, and happened to meet a man on a blind date at that time who wanted to marry her. She said that she would look around and wait until this time next year, if the two of them still felt good, they would consider getting married. The other party said that he had already sent out the invitations. At that
time, she actually did not notice that there was anything wrong with the other party's behavior. Instead, she tried to convince herself that since they were all here for the purpose of getting married, they might as well get married. So they got married after knowing each other for eleven days.
Jiang's father was actually against it, but she did not listen.
She was deceived by the gentlemanly and accommodating attitude that the other person showed in the short time.
Or maybe, she was lacking love. After so long, someone finally showed her willingness to marry you and become a family. She completely lost her mind and really made such a stupid decision.
Jiang's mother is also amazing. If others see their daughter marrying a person they have only known for eleven days, they will definitely stop or persuade them, but Jiang's mother is not like that. Jiang's mother is happy to urge her daughter to get married, as if as long as she gets married, the mission she brought her into this world will be completed.
She doesn't blame Jiang's mother. In fact, if she has to blame someone, it is her own stupidity and her irresponsibility for her own life when she was young.
She just thought of her mother sometimes and felt that her mother was magical, and seemed to be different from other people's mothers.
Because they knew each other for a short time, nothing happened on their wedding night.
This was exactly what she wanted.
In the next ten years, nothing happened between them.
The other party was away from home all year round, saying that he was doing business in another place.
They often did not contact each other for several months. Occasionally, he came back and chatted with the man until three or four in the morning.
She was in the bedroom, and he was in the living room or the study.
Until then, she had never doubted anything.
The shyness of women also made her ashamed to talk about marital affairs. Later, she didn't want to have anything to do with this person at all. The other party's evasive attitude was exactly what she wanted, so she lived like this for several years.
She was busy with her work, and she was actually a stranger to the other person, so she didn't care about it because there was no love.
Later, she realized something, but because she was married, it was actually like living a single life without being able to fall in love again. It just so happened that the other person didn't hinder her, and her career also required her to have a stable marriage status.
Before that, she also knew that there was a group called "gay wives" in the world, but she never thought about herself.
It was not until ten years later, when she recalled the little things when this person appeared, that she suddenly realized that, oh, she seemed to have been a gay wife.
In fact, many, many details have been exposed, but when she didn't think about it, she didn't notice it, and she herself didn't have the habit of sharing her private life with others.
The other party probably didn't expect that a good-tempered and well-behaved little civil servant like him, who had a decent career, would be so successful in the past ten years and rise so fast. So he began to use her name to curry favor with others and stir up trouble for his business.
Fortunately, she hadn't committed any crime or abused her position for so many years, and she didn't have any handle for others to accuse her.
So she got married so hastily and irresponsibly, and then divorced so inexplicably.
In the first few years of marriage, she actually had no regrets, because she was the same before and after marriage. Except for the additional identity of being married, her life had basically not changed except for some complicated interpersonal relationships brought about by marriage.
It was not until he gradually brought her troubles due to her promotion in her position, and all the negative emotions in her life were caused by this person, and even this family, that she gradually realized how irresponsible she had been to her life. She so easily handed over half of her life's rights to a stranger whose background and character she did not know.
After the divorce, she completely focused on her work and gave up the idea of remarrying.
After making this decision, she found that she had reconciled with the world.
It turned out that many problems in this world are brought about by "marriage". As long as there is no such relationship, there will be fewer problems and less internal friction in your life.
She didn't even have the desire to fall in love.
As a single person, she felt that her life was very peaceful and her spirit was very calm.
So at this time, after noticing Song Peifeng's gaze, she told him so directly and frankly that she was a non-marriageist and she didn't plan to hand over a very important part of her life to another person in this life, and naturally she would not delay a young and passionate boy.
Song Peifeng was a little surprised by her frankness and straightforwardness, still looking at her with a blushing face: "I don't care."
Jiang Xi leaned back in the chair and just looked at him indifferently.
She can be very rational and hardworking at work, but she is actually very clumsy when it comes to feelings.
Either she pours out all her impoverished emotions for so many years like an old house on fire, or she closes her heart and locks up her love, and simply has a calm heart and wants nothing.
When she first got married, she had expectations and really regarded the other party as a family member, until she found out that this was just her one-sided belief.
The other party just needs a marriage.
She, who was deceived into marriage, just happened to need a marriage.
Sometimes she suspected that she had bipolar II disorder.
When she faces the loneliness of the world alone, she sometimes feels depressed, loses her sense of happiness, is unwilling to talk, and feels emotionally exhausted.
But when she is working normally, she feels that everything is normal.
She doesn't know whether her state is normal or not.
She knows very well that she is not willing to please anyone now. Anyone who maintains an emotional relationship with her is trying to please her.
Such a relationship is unhealthy and abnormal. If she keeps asking for emotional needs from the other party, she doesn't know when she will consume the other party's enthusiasm. Normal emotional relationships are two-way efforts.
For example, she and her leader, she and her grandfather.
Why doesn't she want to go home to see Jiang's mother during the Chinese New Year? Because from childhood to adulthood, her relationship with Jiang's mother was unhealthy. Jiang's mother was in the position of a demander, and she had always provided emotional value, labor value, and all the value that the other party thought she could provide.
Over time, she had been demanded and could no longer squeeze out any enthusiasm.
Because she had seen through the other party's true nature.
She also saw through her own true nature.
She was cold and selfish, and didn't want to give anything to the world at all. However, the education she received since childhood and the kindness she had received since childhood made her unconsciously give back kindness to the world.
Even though she sometimes felt that she really couldn't give anymore.
She was taking care of her grandfather, helping her brother, and helping He Xiaofang. Wasn't she also taking care of herself whose spiritual world had dried up, helping herself who had been powerless, and helping herself who needed a hand?
"Thank you." She looked into his eyes and smiled sincerely to thank him.
But that was all.
She lowered her long eyelashes and lowered her head to eat the food in her bowl. It was like she had covered herself with a layer of isolation, isolating herself tightly inside. She couldn't go out, and people outside couldn't get in.
The next morning when she went for a run, he still showed up on time. In the dim morning light, he smiled and said to her, "Good morning."
She also nodded politely and went for a run with light steps.
There is a saying on the Internet in later generations, "If there is no man in your heart, you will be as good as a god when you
draw your sword." Jiang Wu might be in such a state at this time. In the training team's exams again and again, she inexplicably performed better and more stable each time. Many students who she thought were very talented or at least more talented than her were eliminated by her.
The training team, which originally had more than 200 people, had fewer and fewer people. After the exams every month, someone left. Even her original roommate, who had not even become familiar with her, was swept away by Jiang Wu, who ran to the computer classroom after school every day and did nothing else except study and write.
The original white dormitory building was mostly double dormitories, but in the back, they became sparse single dormitories.
Until the end, there were only fifty people left.
And she and Song Peifeng are still there.
Sometimes, she thinks that Song Peifeng, who doesn't cross the line, doesn't bother her, and just looks at her with a smile, seems to have her in his eyes all the time, and she seems to be healed by him little by little. But she also feels like a snail in its shell, not even daring to stretch out its tentacles, afraid of hurting herself and others, so she keeps shrinking.
I don’t know if it was the question she suddenly asked Song Peifeng that day that made Jiang Xi, who realized that her mental health was still not very healthy, suddenly fall into the symptoms of bipolar II disorder. She was emotionally calm, without any waves, lost her sense of happiness, and her verbal activities decreased. She didn’t want to talk. During this period, she called Grandpa Jiang regularly and asked him to eat on time every day and take good care of himself. She only called Jiang Bo once, told him to take a vacation, and took Grandpa Jiang to Shanghai to ask him if the residential area and storefront behind his school were completed. If they were, she would entrust Manager Qian to renovate them. After the renovation and ventilation for half a year, Grandpa Jiang could move in. He could also take a rest and cook something to eat after studying. The apartment was still far from his school.
Sometimes, she felt that she was terribly cold and indifferent, and was not a qualified friend. For example, He Xiaofang and Xu Xiuli were sincere to her, but she had no desire to call them or chat with them. She just wanted to be alone.
As for Wang Yong, apart from emailing her new manuscript "My Years as the Commander of the Royal Guards", there was no extra words to say. I just sent it as soon as I finished writing it.
On the Wuxia side, I didn't expect that Xi Meng would be so easy to persuade. He said he hoped she would change the story to ancient officialdom, and she really changed it to ancient officialdom. Unlike "The Great Song" and "White Snake", which were serialized for a long time before signing the film and television copyright, the story "The Commander of the Imperial Guards" was serialized on Wuxia for less than three months, and the TV series and film copyrights were all signed. The price signed this time was not less than 100,000, and the project was quickly established.
After several months of polishing and casting, the script of "White Snake Cultivation" was finally scheduled to start shooting at the end of May.
During this period, the director also contacted Jiang Bai, wanting to contact Jiang Wu and let Jiang Wu audition for the heroine of "White Snake". Unfortunately, Jiang Wu refused on the grounds that she was training in the training team and competing for the country. The director knew that it was such a competition. Although he regretted that Jiang Wu could not become the heroine of this movie, he could understand and let Jiang Bai play a small role.
Jiang Bai, who had already brought Jiang Yeye and had to go to the store to sell clothes every day, was not interested at first. When he heard that there was money, he thought that there would be no school in the summer vacation, and the business in the store would definitely be bad. It would be enough for Jiang Yeye to watch the store alone. Thinking that if he earned more money, his sister could have more money to pay off the mortgage, so he went to the audition with Tong Jingang.
Tong Jingang and Jiang Bai, two disciples who have always been following Fahai, rescued people in the flood of the White Snake, but Fahai wanted to capture the monster. The two disciples, with completely different temperaments and personalities, helped Fahai to do evil, and were moved by the White Snake's act of saving people. They doubted whether their master's behavior was right or wrong. They helped their master to capture the monster while arranging the water, followed the White Snake to save people, and helped the White Snake block the fatal blow at the critical moment.
In short, they are two minor supporting roles with few roles.
Tong Jingang had a lot of fun, and Jiang Bai was very serious about his job of making money.
Jiang Xi and Jiang Bai have been used to being independent since they were young. Jiang Xi never calls Jiang Bai, Jiang's father and mother, and Jiang Bai never contacts Jiang Xi, Jiang's father and mother, including his hometown.
One of them is studying and writing, and the other is busy making money. They don't remember to call Jiang's father and mother occasionally.
Jiang's father has always been concerned about the construction of the house in his hometown. Every other week, he calls the brigade headquarters in his hometown to ask about the construction of the house.
The brigade headquarters, which originally did not call Jiang's father, is now very enthusiastic about Jiang's father after Jiang Xi was admitted to Beijing University. Although the brigade secretary is still lukewarm to Jiang's father, he did not stop other people in the brigade from calling people to answer the phone for Jiang's father after receiving the call.
Every time Jiang Dad heard Uncle Jiang talk about the progress of the house, how many bricks, cement, wood, floor tiles and wall bricks were needed, he wanted to call his three children to share the news.
The eldest son and the youngest daughter were like missing. They couldn't contact any of them. They didn't call him, so they called Jiang Bo to share the good news with him.
Jiang Bo was a man of few words. Every time he answered the phone, he would stare at the screen of the phone. When he heard what Jiang Dad said, he would say, "Yeah, yeah, I got it. Anything else? Fifty seconds, I'm hanging up." Then every time, at the fifty-ninth second, he would hang up the phone. For
such a long-distance call, if sixty seconds had passed, he would be charged another dollar.
Father Jiang was always frustrated by Jiang Bo and Jiang Ma's constant barging.
His younger son couldn't share his news with him, so he called No. 1 Middle School to share it with Grandpa Jiang. Unfortunately, Grandpa Jiang was the same. He would smile when hearing any good news, but actually he wouldn't give any feedback. He would just lie on the rocking chair and listen to you until you hung up the phone.
There was a gap between the words that Grandpa Jiang and the people in Shenzhen where Jiang's father worked. The owner of the small shop landline in Shenzhen that Jiang's father left could not understand what he said, and Grandpa Jiang could not understand what the owner of the small shop said. In addition, the Jiang family, including Grandpa Jiang, had been used to being alone for so many years. When he was taken to Shanghai by Jiang Bai, he did not think of calling Jiang's father.
Jiang Bai did call there, but Jiang's father was not there. Jiang Bai had to make money and go to class to study, so he forgot about it.
When Jiang's father called No. 1 Middle School again, he found out that Grandpa Jiang's shop had been closed and sublet to someone else.
The shop was originally leased for three years. Jiang Xi thought that the business was not good, but in the last six months, the business was so good that the landlord wanted to raise the rent. Jiang Xi finally summoned up the courage to raise the rent, but the landlord said he would not rent the shop anymore. The
landlord was happy not to rent the shop. If he sublet the shop to someone else, the price would not be the same as the original price. With such a good business, the price would be at least the same as the No. 2 Middle School and No. 4 Middle School next door.
Without the address of Grandpa Jiang's shop, he couldn't contact Grandpa Jiang. He also didn't have Jiang Xi's contact information. Jiang Xi wouldn't let him call, so he had to call the number that Jiang Bo had called him before. This number was the number of the canteen downstairs from his dormitory. During the summer vacation, all the students in the dormitory went home. There was no one in the dormitory. The person who ran the canteen also went home.
The phone kept ringing for a long time, but no one answered.
Although he knew that his daughter was admitted to Peking University in advance, when the college entrance examination season came, Jiang's father still had the illusion that Jiang Xiao would take the college entrance examination this year. He kept paying attention to this year's college entrance examination. During the college entrance examination season, he was very anxious and kept talking to Jiang's mother: "I don't know how Xiao Xiao is doing now."
"Didn't she get admitted to Peking University? I don't know if she has gone to school yet."
"She is in the training team, why didn't she call us?"
"I don't know if she has finished the training yet."
They work outside, and Jiang's mother is very frugal. In addition, she is busy going out early and returning late every day. So far, there is no TV in the rental house where they live. The only way to contact the outside world every day is to listen to the radio at the entrance of the train station and occasionally take a look at the TV in the store next door. Through these channels, we know the news of the outside world.
Time is until July.
On July 1, Hong Kong returned; on July 2, the Asian financial crisis swept Thailand; on July 3, the training team selected the final six people and six alternates to participate in the IMO competition.
Jiang Xi became one of the six people who officially represented the country to participate in the competition.
Song Peifeng became one of the six alternates.
On July 10, a group of twelve people, led by two head coaches from the Department of Mathematics of Kyoto University, a team leader, a deputy team leader, observers, and officials and staff from the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, set off for Argentina.
The next time Jiang's father heard about Jiang Xi was on the TV in the back of the store, "News Broadcast". He accidentally heard Jiang Xi's name in a very brief report of several dozen seconds: "In this year's IMO competition, our team members won gold medals and one person scored a perfect score, ending this trip to Argentina. Jiang Xi, Zhou Jin, Sun Xiaoqing, Jin Feipeng, Li Yiming, and Xu Zhengyi all won gold medals in this Olympic Mathematics Competition. Among them, Jiang Xi won the gold medal with a perfect score."