Gu Ting glanced at Gu Zhili, warned him with his eyes, and then hurriedly chased after him.
The snow is getting heavier.
Gu Jiu stood under the eaves, looking up at the cold sky. Just like her mood.
Gu Ting chased out, "Sister, are you okay?"
He was a little worried and nervous.
Gu Jiu didn't turn around, and asked softly, "Brother, what are your plans?"
Gu Ting looked back at the study and said, "I want to kill him, but I can't kill him."
He couldn't and didn't dare to kill his father.
Whether he was timid, selfish, or cowardly, he just couldn't do it or make a decision.
The Three Bonds and Five Constant Virtues, ethics and morals, legal systems... everything, all came together to tie his hands and feet, imprison his thoughts, and release his inner fear and self-loathing.
Therefore, he could only be a general, he could not be a commander, nor could he become a hero.
Gu Jiu's voice was very soft, "Brother, don't worry, we won't kill him."
Gu Ting was shocked, "Really?"
Gu Jiu nodded gently, "Killing him is useless. Mother doesn't want his blood on our hands."
So until her death, Su never revealed a single word to the trusted maidservant around her.
She used her own death to save the lives of her two children.
Then her death was a worthy one.
She can rest in peace.
As for Gu Zhili, Gu Jiu smiled coldly.
She said, "Find a courtyard, not too big, not too small, and lock him up there. Don't let him leave the courtyard. Whether he wants women or wine, satisfy him."
Gu Ting was shocked. This was clearly the treatment his grandfather received back then.
My sister is dealing with my father in the same way she treated my grandfather.
Gu Ting took a deep breath and said, "Okay, I'll do it!"
Gu Jiu turned around and looked at Gu Ting, "Can't you bear it?"
She had no father-daughter relationship with Gu Zhili, so she could make the decision without any burden.
But Gu Ting is different. As the eldest son of the Gu family, he has more complicated feelings towards Gu Zhili.
The love between father and son is thicker than blood, and it is not just a casual remark.
Although the truth is cruel, it cannot erase blood ties all at once.
Human emotions are so complicated.
Gu Ting shook his head. "I was wondering if this would be too easy for him."
Gu Jiu laughed, "Then what do you want to do?"
"I don't know." Gu Ting really didn't know.
Gu Jiu said softly, "To trap a self-satisfied person in a small world, with no hope until his death, can you imagine how painful it is for him? A blunt knife cutting flesh, while not fatal, can make him live a life worse than death. You think I'm punishing him the same way I treated my grandfather, but that's not the case. My grandfather can sit still and be quiet. Trapped in the courtyard, he has his own ways to entertain himself. As for him..."
Gu Jiu looked back at the study door.
She no longer called Gu Zhili "father". From beginning to end today, she always called Gu Zhili "he".
"He's a man who can't sit still or be still. Trapping him in a small world with only women and alcohol will make him feel miserable once the novelty wears off."
Mr. Gu can stay at home for months just to get a jade carving.
Gu Zhili, huh, even if he is asked to stay in his room for three days without going out, it will cost him his life.
Nowadays, not everyone is a homebody. Some people like to go out and walk around, even if it's just for a walk in the garden.
Now, Gu Jiu wants to deprive Gu Zhili of the opportunity to go out, even the chance to take a walk in the garden.
For someone who is naturally active, this kind of life is no different from being in prison.
Mental pain is worse than physical pain.
Gu Ting asked, "Sister hates him?"
"Don't you hate me, brother?"
"I hate it. But I also feel that I'm unfilial and have let my mother down. I have a vague memory of my mother's passing, and I must have been very sad at the time. But when I learned the truth about her death, the first thing I thought about was myself, not revenge. I didn't expect that I was so selfish at heart, and I despise myself."
Gu Jiu looked back at Gu Ting with a calm expression, saying nothing.
Gu Ting was embarrassed. "Sister, please spit on me. I am a coward. I don't deserve your love and support."
"Your reaction is only natural. You were so young when your mother died, let alone me. To you and me, mother is just an abstraction, not a sentimental one. You've earned your current situation by risking your life, and subconsciously, you wouldn't sacrifice everything you have for someone without feelings. You can't bear the accusation of patricide for her."
Gu Jiu's words did not comfort Gu Ting.
Those words were more like a knife, piercing his heart and digging out the dirty side of him.
Gu Ting became increasingly embarrassed and was too ashamed to face anyone.
"I am an unfilial son, a bastard. I am worthy of being his son. I am as selfish as him." Gu Ting was in great pain and fell into a vortex of self-loathing and couldn't get out.
Gu Jiu did not comfort him, but said: "Remember how you feel at this moment, and remind yourself from time to time not to be a person like him."
Gu Ting burst into tears, crying for himself and even more so for his mother Su.
"I'm so unfilial. Mother sacrificed her life to protect us. Was it worth it? I should have died at his hands back then."
Gu Jiu said coldly, "You know how to reflect on yourself and despise yourself. You are already a hundred times better than him. I think your personality is more like your mother. If it were him, he would never reflect on himself and repent in his life."
Gu Zhili has always been self-righteous and complacent.
When he was young, he acted like a son of a marquis. When he got older, he acted like an official, a family head, or a father.
Reflect?
Repent?
Gu Ji sneered. These words had nothing to do with Gu Zhili.
She never expected him to reflect on himself.
Gu Ting shook his head repeatedly, "I feel very dirty. Sister, I don't deserve everything I have now. I don't deserve your attention and reuse."
Gu Jiu sighed and said solemnly: "If you feel that you are unworthy, then you should work hard to make yourself worthy of your current honor and status."
Gu Ting whispered, "I want to go back to the northwest. That's where I feel at peace. The capital makes me feel uncomfortable."
Gu Jiu frowned slightly, "Have you thought it through? My sister-in-law and nephews and nieces may not want to go back to the northwest."
"I will go back to the northwest alone." Gu Ting's eyes gradually became firm.
"I don't agree." Gu Jiu rejected Gu Ting's decision.
Gu Ting was puzzled, desperate, and in pain. "If I continue to stay in the capital, one day I will become a pool of rotting flesh, disgusting."
Gu Jiu said seriously, "You don't really want to return to the northwest. You just want to return to the battlefield to regain your honor and confidence. On the battlefield, there is no room for deception. Your military achievements are earned through your own hard work, not by relying on me, the queen.
You cherish your honor as much as you cherish your life, so when you learned the truth, you subconsciously considered your own future. Is it worth it to sacrifice your honor for your mother, who has been dead for decades and whose memory is already hazy? You're not wrong, you just cherish your hard-earned honor too much.
Gu Ting stood against the wall, feeling as if all his strength had been drained away and he couldn't muster any energy at all.
He smiled bitterly and said, "So I am a selfish person. I don't deserve everything I have now."
Gu Jiu said solemnly: "Then go back to the battlefield and wash away your shame and disgrace with military merit."
Gu Ting looked up and asked, "Do you agree that I can return to the northwest?"
Gu Jiu said, "The battlefield is not only in the northwest, the southwest will also become a battlefield. If you really can't get over the hurdle in your heart, go to the south for training after the New Year to adapt to the climate and diet there in advance. If your sister-in-law and nephews and nieces want to stay in the capital, I will take care of them for you."
"younger sister……"
Even though Gu Ting had thousands of words in his heart, he couldn't say a single word.
Gu Jiu smiled at him, "We are brother and sister. We promised each other that we would support each other and walk together in this life. You feel that you are dirty inside, and so am I."
"It's different. You can't blame yourself." Gu Ting was afraid that Gu Jiu would get stuck in a dead end. "You were so young, you didn't know anything, you hadn't even seen her face. It's completely understandable that you have no feelings for her. But I was different. I already understood a little bit at that time..."
"Okay, stop talking." Gu Jiu interrupted him, "I'm fine, brother, don't worry about me. I know what to do is right."
Gu Ting observed her and felt relieved only after he was sure that she was really fine.
He felt a little guilty. "I didn't take good care of you. Instead, you took care of me a lot over the years. I'm an incompetent brother."
Gu Jiu smiled and said, "Brother, do you want to reflect on yourself? If you really feel that you owe me, then take good care of yourself and make more military achievements. I will wait for you to come back in the capital."
"Will you look down on me?"
"Won't."
Gu Ting felt relieved, as if he had unloaded the biggest burden from his heart.
Gu Jiu gave him a look, and Xu Yousi immediately rushed into the study with a few eunuchs and dragged Gu Zhili away.
Gu Zhili screamed in fear, "What are you doing? What are you going to do? Let me go..."
He was dragged out of the door and saw Gu Jiu. He panicked and said, "Gu Ting, please save me. I don't want to die... Don't kill me, don't kill me..."
Gu Ting turned his head away, avoiding his gaze.
Gu Jiu smiled softly, "Don't worry, I won't kill anyone. Take him away."
Gu Zhili must not be placed in the study, that would be too easy for him.
There are suitable courtyards in the mansion. The small courtyard where Gu Yue lived before his death is quite suitable.
"Where are you taking me? What do you want to do? Let me go... I really know I was wrong, I know I was wrong... Gu Jiu, Queen, please tell them to let me go, wuwu..."
Gu Jiu stood under the eaves and watched coldly as Gu Zhili was dragged away with his mouth gagged.
"I will arrange for someone to watch him."
"Let me take care of this matter." Gu Ting said.
Gu Jiu waved his hand, "You are a grown man, you don't understand the things in the inner house. You should listen to your sister-in-law's opinions on these matters."
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