Chapter 117 The house is peaceful...

The room was very quiet. After Lin Yang finished speaking, he lowered his head in frustration. He didn't know what he wanted to say. His mind was in a mess. Xu Qingye was very good and was willing to teach him everything. He was a good boss and a good person, but why did he fall in love with Shen Que?

"So, you can't accept Shen Que's relationship, or you can't accept that he is gay?"

Xu Qingye continued to ask, but Lin Yang still shook his head. The incident happened suddenly, and the two things happened at the same time, so Lin Yang couldn't tell which one hit him harder.

Xu Qingye looked at him helplessly.

"Forget it, let's get back to the essence of this matter. What is your purpose of chasing stars? If it's just because you like him and want to be a true fan, then go watch his movies when they are released, turn on the TV when the TV series is broadcast, buy some support for magazines and endorsements within your ability, and stand up and argue when others say bad things about him. This is already very good. If you are more serious, you can just sign in to the super topic every day and do data. This is all an ordinary fan can do. If you envy those big fans who can make the wind and rain, then you have to change your mindset. What you see is that at least 90% of the so-called big fans, if not 100%, Fangirls, they chase stars as a profession, they want to make money, you have to consider your favorite star as a commodity. If you want to be a big fan, you can also ask Cao Muan how to do it. The fan page she opened for Song Nanxi made 200,000 or 300,000 during the talent show period alone, but do you think she is a true fan of Song Nanxi? She is not a fan of Song Nanxi at all, she just sees the commercial value of Song Nanxi. "

Xu Qingye looked at Lin Yang. The thing that broke his defense was nothing more than that he liked Shen Que so much but could not do anything. Xu Qingye, the real sister-in-law, looked so powerful, angry, aggrieved, and he didn't know what he could do. He hated and liked her at the same time, which made him twisted into a dough stick.

"Shen Que is not a commodity. Do you also make money from Shen Que? Are you in a serious relationship?"

Lin Yang was a little excited. He disliked Xu Qingye's commodity theory, but he couldn't refute it. He knew that Xu Qingye was right. After all, their company made money from this.

"Part of your salary comes from Shen Que's earnings, and you will make a lot of money from him in the future. The same goes for other artists. Since you have chosen this line of work, this is the inevitable result. As for love, you should talk to me or others. These men and women in the circle are handsome and excellent, and there are so many people who like them. Do you really believe those brainwashing singles? It's enough to like the dreams they create. Don't be too curious about their private lives. The more you know, the more disillusioned you will be."

The first time they chase stars, they are the most obsessed and will project all their beautiful imaginations onto the other person. In psychology, this is called "transference." However, this emotion will also lead to their over-idealization of the artist. Once something happens that is beyond their imagination, their beliefs will easily collapse.

"It's nothing, actually. You get used to it after seeing so many houses collapse. If this one isn't good, just switch to the next one. Chasing stars is just about spending money to buy happiness. If there's no happiness here, look for it somewhere else, or love more than one person at a time."

"You don't like Shen Que at all, how can you say such a thing."

Lin Yang's eyes were red. He looked at Xu Qingye and felt sorry for Shen Que. Xu Qingye was so cold when he said these words. In his eyes, Shen Que was no different from other artists. He was just a tool to make money.

"I've told you before, don't bring your idol-chasing emotions into work. You should also keep your life and work separate. What happened between Shen Que and I is our private matter. We are just partners at work. Of course, I can't rule out the possibility that I am biased towards him. After all, people are not completely robots."

Xu Qingye took a sip of tea and his smile deepened.

"I'm not going to waste my time talking to you. If you're just chasing stars, just keep your distance from them. It's a happy thing and shouldn't become a worry."

"I'm sorry to bother you. I don't have the photos, and this is all I have. I won't spread rumors."

Lin Yang looked at Xu Qingye, feeling very conflicted. He took out an envelope from his bag and handed it to Xu Qingye.

"Thank you for your care during this time. I was wrong this time, and I won't do that again in the future."

"If you want to quit because you don't want to work in this industry anymore, then I support you. If you just feel that you can't stay in the company because of this incident, don't worry. I'm a generous person and I won't argue with you. Think carefully about whether you want to continue working here. If you still want to work here, then start working on time. If you don't want to work here, then hand over your work."

Xu Qingye put away the resignation letter. He was not in the right mood to make a decision at the moment.

"I know I'm not qualified to ask such a question, but I still want to ask, are you serious about Shen Que? You are not playing with his feelings, are you?"

"You think I'm a scumbag, don't you? I don't know where you got this illusion from. If you don't want to go home, order some takeout and eat together. I'm still hungry after talking to you for so long."

Xu Qingye was speechless. In comparison, Shen Que was clearly more like a scumbag.

"oh."

Lin Yang ordered lunch and sat in the living room feeling a little awkward. Xu Qingye was leaning on the sofa playing with his phone and didn't seem to care about him. Lin Yang sat there and began to digest Xu Qingye's questions.

Was he unable to accept that Shen Que was in love, or was he unable to accept that Shen Que was gay? He couldn't tell the difference between the two things happening at the same time, and deep in his heart he actually had another answer.

He was celebrating, what was he celebrating? Was he celebrating that Shen Que was gay? Lin Yang was startled by himself. He stood up suddenly, and the chair moved backwards, making a loud noise.

Xu Qingye was startled by him. He looked up and saw Lin Yang's panicked look and quickly walked over.

"What's wrong?"

"No, nothing. I, I'm leaving first."

Lin Yang waved his hands in a panic and walked out in an unsteady manner. When Xu Qingye wanted to call him, he had already run away.

After rushing out of the door, Lin Yang stood in the community with his mind completely confused.

"What is your purpose of chasing stars? Do you want to have a love affair with Shen Que?" Xu Qingye's words kept going back and forth in his mind. Lin Yang suddenly realized that he had such thoughts in his subconscious mind. When he saw Shen Que and Xu Qingye kissing, a thought suddenly popped up in his mind: why was that person not himself?

Lin Yang was even more scared. He had never been so scared in his twenty years of life. He suddenly realized that he seemed to like boys. He always thought that the reason he didn't have a relationship was because he hadn't met the right girl. But he suddenly found that it was not the girls' problem at all, but that he had never faced up to his true inner desires.

Lin Yang looked a little strange when he left. Xu Qingye was a little worried, so he called him. When the ringing was almost over, Lin Yang answered the phone.

Before Xu Qingye could say anything, Lin Yang's voice came over first, and he sounded like he was crying.

"I found out that I lied to you and myself. I was Shen Que's dream man, so I was angry and happy when I found out you two were in love. I didn't know before so I never thought about it, but when I found out he was gay, my first reaction was to feel relieved. I was actually pretty bad, wasn't I? I had the same thought, but I still wanted to blame you. But what qualifications do I have? I'm just a humble peeper, jealous of you for having him."

Lin Yang said a lot and Xu Qingye listened patiently. He found that he really had the potential to be a good father and he could cook every spiritual chicken soup very well.

"If you haven't walked far, hurry back. The takeaway has arrived and I can't finish it all by myself. Don't waste it."

Xu Qingye did not comment on Lin Yang's fancy words, but just urged him to go back. It was only a few minutes, and Lin Yang must not have gone far.

Lin Yang was a person with a soft temperament. Xu Qingye's tone was not good, and he was shocked for a moment. He responded timidly and turned back upstairs.

Lin Yang stood at the door and didn't dare to go in. Xu Qingye took a look at his useless look and rolled his eyes.

"Do you want me to invite you in?"

"No, I'm just a little embarrassed. Don't you hate me for taking secret photos of you?"

Lin Yang moved inside, lowered his head and did not dare to look at Xu Qingye.

"It's normal to be photographed when I'm with Shen Que. I can only blame myself for not being able to hold back. I had to kiss him right after we got home. I will never do that again in the future."

Xu Qingye handed the chopsticks to Lin Yang. In fact, if it wasn't Lin Yang who took the photo, someone else would have taken the photo sooner or later. He was still not alert enough.

"I'm sorry, I'm so mean."

"From what you said, you didn't know that you liked men before? Did you rush out just now because you scared yourself?"

"Yeah. I never thought about it before. You asked me if I was angry because Shen Que was in a relationship or because he was gay. I thought about it and suddenly realized that it was neither of the two. I got an answer that surprised me, so I was a little scared."

Lin Yang nodded honestly. Xu Qingye looked at him in disbelief. Lin Yang looked okay. He was not very handsome, but at least he was not ugly. He was also quite tall. Logically, he should be a popular person. It wouldn't be surprising that he only realized that he liked men now.

"You've never been in love, nor have you ever liked anyone?"

"No, I'm not smart, and I spend more time studying than others. In order to get into college, I practiced questions every day. After getting into college, I was busy taking exams and working part-time. I never thought about these things before I suddenly realized it. I was a little panicked for a moment, and no one around me talked to me about these things."

Lin Yang lowered his head lower and lower, and he suddenly realized that he should have realized it earlier when he saw how much he liked Shen Que. It's not that there are no men who are fans of stars, but probably none of them have such a strong liking for him. They like his looks, voice, personality, everything, including his later writings and his thoughts.

"Well, you're slow enough."

Xu Qingye was silent for a long time. He realized that he liked boys when he was sixteen or seventeen years old. When his friends were discussing which girl was pretty, he was only interested in the male stars in the advertisements. Although he didn't understand it at that time, he had some vague guesses. He secretly went to the Internet cafe to search for information online and realized that there was such a small circle. He accepted it quite calmly. Although he was confused for a while at the beginning, he soon learned to make peace with himself.

Xu Qingye and Lin Yang have known each other for a while. Although they are not very close, they are acquaintances after all, so Xu Qingye took the initiative to chat with him.

I didn't say much, just told Lin Yang to learn to accept himself, not to think of himself as an alien, and not to force himself to live a normal life just to pretend that he is the same as others, because that would hurt others.

Lin Yang never thought that Xu Qingye would say these to him. He was moved and ashamed. It was not until after dinner that he mustered up the courage.

"I thought about it and decided that I should resign. I am too close to Shen Que if I stay here. I am afraid that I will have some unnecessary fantasies. I need to stay away from him and be an ordinary fan. I also want to sort out my messy mood. This period of time has been too wonderful for me. It is too different from my previous life. I need to digest it."

"Well, I understand how you feel. Just hand over the work properly and don't leave any trouble for others."

"Then can you help me and Shen Quedao say goodbye?"