Chapter 45 Asking for Advice "Can you teach me?"
"I'm just a housekeeper. Don't make things difficult for me, sir." Zhou Jiu wanted to scratch his head until it was bald.
"Forget it, go back. I won't make things difficult for you."
Yang Yan was just saying this. After all, Chai Heng wouldn't give something a second time if it wasn't accepted. And if he didn't bring up the wood carving again, Chai Heng wouldn't think about it again. If he brought it up now, he'd be tripping himself up.
Chai Heng stayed in the room with Cui Miao for a while. She had originally wanted to tell him that she was willing to try to get in touch with him. If their personalities were really compatible, they could take a closer look after the Xirong incident was over.
But I don’t know what happened. When I really wanted to open my mouth to ask, I suddenly didn’t know how to get along with Cui Miao.
She has been married.
Also like to pass people.
But I have never really experienced the process of getting to know someone and falling in love with them.
When she was with Yang Yan, they first appreciated each other's value, and since they were already familiar with each other, they got married inexplicably.
There was no mutual respect after their marriage. She liked Yang Yan's face and his demeanor as a civil official, so she tolerated him most of the time.
When she couldn't stand it anymore, she would quarrel with him. Their marriage in the previous life was spent in repetitive contradictions and conflicts most of the time. There were also tender moments, but because there were too many quarrels, the tenderness in those ordinary days was worn away.
Now that she had left Yang Yan, she didn't know what it would be like for an ordinary man and woman to take a closer look.
Should she go with Cui Miao to see the stars and the moon first, or go to the martial arts arena with him to practice with his spear and find common interests? Or should she wait for Cui Miao to tell her what to do between them?
Chai Heng didn't know, and was afraid that if he showed too much, he would scare people away. It would be awkward if they couldn't even be friends. So after thinking about it, he took back what he wanted to say and decided to take it one step at a time.
Cui Miao hugged Chai Heng today and had a lot to say.
Likewise, I dare not say it.
He was a military general who had to practice swordplay and horse riding all day long, so it was inevitable that he would get dirty. He was definitely not as clean as Yang Yan, a civil official.
In addition, Yang Yan did have a handsome face, which was recognized by court officials as the face of the Ministry of War.
People are not afraid of anything else, but they are afraid of comparison.
He was always worried that even if Chai Heng accepted him now, what would he do if one day she recalled her ex-husband and felt that he was not good enough?
So after thinking it over, everything still needs to be considered in the long term and done slowly.
So after hugging her, he retracted his hand and nervously changed the subject: "What did you dream about? Can you tell me in detail and see if I can help you?"
"I dreamed about my second brother, and it wasn't a good dream."
Chai Heng couldn't tell him that she had the same dream in her previous life, but after bringing Nie San back, she did remember a lot of things from her previous life that she had previously overlooked.
For example, when the incident happened in Furong Mountain in the previous life and people were framed for treason, why could even Yang Yan kneel in front of the hall for three days, trying to make the saint change his mind and re-investigate the case, while the eldest brother claimed to be sick and could not go out?
For example, later the emperor really ordered a reinvestigation of the case, but before the case was thoroughly investigated, Xue Huaiyuan guessed the emperor's intention and took action against Furong Mountain. So many lives died at the hands of the Xue family.
She and he were the only two people alive in Furong Mountain, yet she still felt unfair and couldn't control the murderous intent in her heart, so she rushed to the Xue family and killed Xue Huaiyuan. How could he do that and still claim to be sick?
Was he really sick at that time?
In her previous life, she had never considered the strangeness of her senior brother's thoughts. This was because Yang Yan had kept her captive after she had killed so many members of the Xue family. Her mind was filled with resentment towards the Xue family, her mother, and Yang Yan. With so much on her mind, she couldn't think about anything else.
She didn't think about it carefully in this life, simply because Yang Yan had been ill in the early days and her mind was full of thoughts of leaving the capital, so she didn't think deeply about it.
Now that I think about it, my senior brother was a little weird.
But why would he collaborate with the enemy?
Also, where did the weapons, jade seals and dragon robes of the previous dynasty that were seized from Furong Mountain come from?
She suddenly recalled the question Yang Yan had asked her during their previous life's argument. Did she truly believe the uncles and aunts on Furong Mountain who were plotting a rebellion were wronged? Could she truly guarantee that among the hundreds of people on such a vast mountain, hundreds of them remnants of the previous dynasty, not a single one had ever considered or acted on a rebellion?
Thinking of this, she suddenly felt a little restless.
"Sorry, Cui Miao, I have something I want to ask Yang Yan." After saying that, she immediately walked out.
Cui Miao wanted to say something but stopped himself.
Looking at her leaving back, he smiled helplessly.
*
The room was filled with the smell of bitter medicine. When Chai Heng pushed open the door of Yang Yan's room, Zhou Jiu had just handed him the medicine that had been boiled in the inn's kitchen.
Yang Yan had taken off half of his shirt and had just applied medicine, revealing a hideous wound.
"Why aren't you wearing any clothes?"
Chai Heng didn't expect to see this scene when she came in, and subconsciously wanted to avoid it, but she felt that avoiding it would seem too pretentious. They had been husband and wife for so long, and there was no part of his body that she hadn't seen, so she simply didn't avoid it.
Yang Yan calmly pulled up his clothes. When he saw her at this moment, the scene of Cui Miao holding her not long ago flashed before his eyes.
"You came in without knocking and you blame me for not having clothes on?"
Chai Heng: “…”
This is indeed her problem.
"I wanted to come to you and ask you about my senior brother." Chai Heng said straight to the point, "What did you mean when you asked me before how I could guarantee that there was no one plotting rebellion in Furong Mountain?"
"Literally."
Yang Yan picked up the medicine bowl on the small table beside him, took a sip of the medicine, and his attempt to cover up his illness only made it more obvious.
He said that was too vague.
Chai Heng could probably guess what Yang Yan was thinking at the moment. He felt that if he said something bad about Lu Shichu at this moment, she would not believe it. Not only that, she would also think that he was framing Lu Shichu.
"Didn't you always call my senior brother a little bitch in the past? Why?" Chai Heng continued to ask.
Yang Yan put down the medicine bowl in his hand: "I won't tell you. If I tell you, you'll ask me to apologize to Lu Shichu again."
He had been acting servilely towards Chai Heng these past few days, and it was a rare occasion for him to play tricks on her. Chai Heng knew that he held a grudge much more deeply than she did. He still remembered the time in the capital when he had mocked Lu Shichu and she had asked him to apologize.
Chai Heng was completely uneasy with his ambiguity, and she didn't know why his attitude had suddenly become strange. But he was always like this, sometimes good, sometimes bad. Chai Heng didn't know what he was upset about, so she ignored his ambiguity. "Didn't you say I could bother you if I had something to do? But now it seems you don't really want to."
Chai Heng doesn't have the habit of trying to please others without their consent.
Thinking that even without him, I could still figure everything out, I subconsciously wanted to get up, but before I could stand up, I was stopped by this man again.
"etc."
Now she really leaves without hesitation and won't give in to him at all.
Yang Yan was so angry that he laughed: "Did I say I really won't tell you?"
"You just said that." Chai Heng's memory is not that bad.
"There are indeed people who want to rebel in Furong Mountain. Whether you believe it or not, this is the result found by the undercover agents I sent to Furong Mountain to investigate." Yang Yan said.
"But the uncles and aunts I know well just want to live a good life. They experienced a mutiny in their youth and almost died at the hands of the Saint. They have been called the remnants of the previous dynasty for so many years, and they just want to live a good life. Moreover, their brother who once pledged allegiance to the Saint is no longer with us, and his children, the original princes, are all dead too. Why would they rebel for no reason?"
On Furong Mountain, people work at sunrise and rest at sunset.
If you don't have enough good life, why do you want to seek death?
"Of the hundreds of people on Furong Mountain, not all of them are conspirators. Most of the uncles and aunts you know are innocent, but there are some who truly want to restore the previous dynasty. Moreover, how do you know that the Li Emperor truly has no children alive in this world?"
Yang Yan said lightly, but there was something deeper in his eyes.
"If he had any children alive, they would be about our age."
"Your master has sheltered so many former ministers and their families on Furong Mountain. They were all people who were once loyal to the Li Emperor. How could it be impossible for him to shelter one more prince?"
The direction of his words was already very clear.
Chai Heng suddenly remembered what her senior brother had said to her. He said it was his uncle who killed his father and mother. Uncle...
If Emperor Li's child were still alive, the saint today would be his uncle.
"You mean my senior brother is?"
Walls have ears, so Chai Heng didn't finish the second half of the sentence.
Yang Yan's eyes met hers, and everything was said without words.
"He knew perfectly well that with Furong Mountain's limited power, even with everyone's support, his rebellion wouldn't succeed, yet he still did it. Especially since he knew Prince Jing and his wife were already dead, leaving no one to protect Furong Mountain. Yet, he still dragged those who trusted him with him to their deaths. Was I wrong to call him a little bitch?"
He was also very unhappy when he thought about how in his previous life, every time he called Lu Shichu a bitch, she would hear it and insist on calling him a bitch.
Chai Heng's head was buzzing as if struck by lightning.
She never dreamed that the truth of her previous life would be like this.
"Why didn't you tell me before?"
What? When he found out the truth, she had just finished being beaten by Madam Chai and was lying unconscious in Fuyuan. Lu Shichu was already the only one alive in Furong Mountain at that time. If he told her, she would probably have no desire to see him.
He probably knew at that time that he had gone too far, so every time he felt that he had gone too far, he always wanted to find some thoughts for her. After all, people still have to live.
Yang Yan now thinks that although he was very mean to her and was too cruel to her at that time, he always had some unnecessary thoughts in his mind, such as what if she lost her desire and wanted to die?
So I often test her.
See if she has the will to survive.
She was not a coward, and most of the time she was willing to live, but there was a time when her desire to live was not very strong, perhaps even she herself was unaware of it.
During the time when she had just recovered from the injuries she sustained at home, she would always lie under the big osmanthus tree in the yard covered with a blanket, sitting there for the entire day, completely in a daze.
Zhou Jiu sent people to monitor her daily, reporting on Chai Heng's situation. He was worried, but his own situation wasn't much better than hers. Because of the Xue family incident, the sage was determined that Chai Heng couldn't stay, so he endured three days of imperial caning in the sage's side hall, ultimately saving her life.
If it had been an ordinary whip on his back, he could have pretended nothing had happened and gone to see her. But the caning on that shameful part of his back made it difficult for him to sit or lie down, unable to even grit his teeth and touch a stool. Naturally, he didn't want to embarrass himself in front of her during the day. So he only dared to secretly hug her at night. She was taking tranquilizers every day at the time, and she slept soundly at night, so she didn't know anything at all.
There is no way to sum up these things in one word.
So Yang Yan said, "Even if I tell you, you won't believe it."
"I would have believed you if you had said it then."
"Although you had already started to hurt me because of Xue Ruyue, I believed everything you said at that time." Chai Heng said seriously.
Although their relationship had reached a point where it was irreversible, she really liked him at that time, not just saying it.
As soon as she said this, both of them realized something at the same time and fell silent for a while.
After a long while, Yang Yan spoke first: "Have you told Cui Miao? Tell him that you are ready to accept his feelings."
"No."
Chai Heng had been chatting with Yang Yan for such a long time that he felt a little thirsty. He picked up the kettle on the table and poured himself a glass of water.
"Why?"
Yang Yan's throat tightened.
Chai Heng: "I don't know how to proceed with Cui Miao. I'm wondering if we're moving too fast. What if he decides I'm not good enough after spending some time with him? I'm afraid he'll be scared away. Then, after all this trouble, we won't even be able to be friends anymore."
She cherishes her friendship with Cui Miao very much.
But I’m not sure if I’m good enough.
"Plus, I've been busy lately, and I can't always think about romance. I want to take it slow."
Hearing the words "take it slow", Yang Yan's sadness that had accumulated this morning because Cui Miao hugged her but she didn't push him away suddenly dissipated a lot.
Then I heard her continue.
"But Cui Miao is really good. I'm afraid I'll never meet someone so good to me again. People's love won't last forever, and I can't let him wait for me forever. I have to give something back."
"So Yang Yan, you're a man, can you teach me what I should do so that I can let him know that I'm willing to be with him without doing it too quickly?"
As soon as these two words fell, Yang Yan suddenly clenched the small porcelain bottle of medicine powder that he had been playing with in his hands. With each word she spoke, he tightened his grip a little more. In the end, he squeezed the porcelain bottle until it was almost broken, and then he relaxed his grip.
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