Chapter 030 Chapter 30 (4+5 more)
Xu Duanyi took Bixi towards Linfeng Pavilion, but unexpectedly they ran into someone on the way.
"Safety?"
Xu Duanyi saw Xie Pingan first.
She called out to him in surprise, surprised that he was here.
The yard where he lived was a little far from here, and this road was not the route he usually took.
Xu Duanyi had some guesses in his mind.
When Bixi saw Xie Pingan, her reaction was quite big.
Whenever Bixi thought of Xie Ping'an's attitude yesterday, she felt a little nervous. Compared with the King of Nannan, this hot-tempered Xie Sanlang made Bixi more worried.
Children with bad tempers and who are out of control are truly the most annoying things.
She frowned and wanted to walk up to her master, to prevent Xie Sanlang, who had a bad temper, from doing anything bad to her master.
She looks like this.
Xie Pingan naturally saw all of this.
There was a hint of sarcasm in his eyes, but he didn't reveal anything. He came today to apologize to Xu Duanyi.
I'm not here to argue with them.
This book is compiled exclusively for you by the LK team. Just like he said last night -
A real man should take responsibility for his actions!
He blamed her wrongly.
Then he can say sorry.
and……
Just as Xie Ping'an was about to speak, he saw his second sister-in-law, who was of noble status, patted the maid's arm and stopped her from blocking her way.
Then he took the initiative to walk over and talk to him: "Ping An, is there anything you want to talk to me about?"
Her reaction surprised Xie Pingan.
Looking at Xu Duanyi's gentle smile, Xie Ping'an seemed to have an equally gentle but slightly younger smile in his mind, which gradually overlapped with the face in front of him.
That was the former Xu Duanyi.
This made Xie Pingan's eyes become a little confused.
But this confused mood only lasted for a short while. Soon, more malice, cold words, mocking eyes and smiles flooded into his mind like a tide.
His face straightened almost immediately, becoming even more cold than before.
He then took a step back, as if he wanted to stay away from Xu Duanyi.
“I’ll give this back to you.”
With a cold face, he handed the thing in his hand to Xu Duanyi.
Without looking, Xu Duanyi knew what it was, looking at the boy's tense face and his lips pursed into a cold and resolute straight line.
Xu Duanyi did not ask him why he wanted to return it to her, whether he did not like it. This book is exclusively compiled by the LK team for you. She can guess the reason.
Xu Duanyi sighed in his heart, but did not show it on his face.
She just asked Xie Pingan in a gentle tone: "Do you really want to give it back to me? This is just a meeting gift for you and Changning."
There was an obvious struggle between the boy's eyebrows.
Obviously, he really liked this gift. He even couldn't let it go and looked at it for a long time when he got home last night. After finishing his homework, he studied the chess game for a long time.
This is the best gift he has received in these years.
It is also the most attentive.
But this struggle did not last long.
Xie Ping'an's gaze was directed at the chess score, but was coldly withdrawn by him.
He said nothing, but continued to return the chess score to her.
Xu Duanyi knew that he really didn't want to accept it.
She could actually understand his mentality.
Just like at the beginning, when she was taken into the palace by her aunt, even though her aunt and the crown prince were very kind to her and took care of her in everything.
But she still felt guilty and didn't dare to accept it.
It's a feeling of unworthiness.
I am afraid that I will gain good things but not be able to give back the same good things, and I am afraid that one day I will be abandoned by others.
This mentality did not gradually improve until many years passed, when her heart gradually became stronger and richer.
This was Xie Pingan’s mentality at that time.
Perhaps she is even more wary and distrustful than she was back then.
Because he had been treated badly, the young man no longer dared to easily trust others' efforts, nor did he dare to easily give his heart to others.
If you don't get it, don't worry about losing it.
If a person has nothing, he naturally does not have to worry about losing anything. But if one day he suddenly has something he loves but is forced to lose it... that kind of pain is far more severe than not getting it.
Xu Duanyi felt sorry for the young man in front of him.
Because I feel bad, I don't want to force him.
She reached out and took the chess record from the boy's hand. Although he was reluctant to let go, he breathed a sigh of relief.
"and--"
Xie Pingan took his hand back while talking to Xu Duanyi.
Seeing Xu Duanyi looking at him, he seemed a little embarrassed, but he did not turn away, as if he was avoiding her.
He is not Xie Qingya!
He clenched his hands, which fell to his sides, and said, looking at Xu Duanyi's face, "Yesterday, I misunderstood that you bullied Changning. It's my fault. I'm sorry."
His reaction caused Bixi, who was originally somewhat dissatisfied with him, to look at him in surprise.
Apparently no one expected that this hot-tempered Xie Saburo would actually take the initiative to apologize.
Xu Duanyi still looked at him and smiled: "It's okay, you didn't do anything."
Xie Pingan didn't expect that this problem could be solved so easily.
There was no embarrassment or ridicule.
This made him a little confused.
"Anything else?"
After a while, seeing that he was silent, Xu Duanyi took the initiative to ask him.
Only then did Xie Pingan come to his senses.
Not wanting Xu Duanyi to see his feelings, he shook his head.
"Then I'll go back first?"
Xu Duanyi held the chess score and talked to Xie Pingan.
Xie Pingan nodded and stepped aside to let others go first.
Seeing the master and servant walking away, Xie Pingan looked in the direction they left. He looked for a long time, until there was no trace of the master and servant there. Xie Pingan did not retract his gaze, but just stared with a frown.
A long time passed.
He turned around and left.
…
"The master treats them as his brothers and sisters. This is great, Sanlang Xie. It's a pity that this is a rare copy. You even sent people to look for it for a long time."
Bixi held the chess manual in her arms, her face filled with regret and resentment.
Xu Duanyi said nothing.
Until Bixi asked her where to put it when she returned.
Xu Duanyi then spoke: "Put it aside for now, no need to put it away."
Bi Xi didn't know what she was going to do, but she didn't want to comment on her either, so she just said yes softly.
Return to Linfeng Pavilion.
Shi Yu was naturally happy to see them coming back.
While Xu Duanyi was drinking tea, he listened to her talk about what happened in the mansion today.
It's nothing serious.
Aunt Deng was in charge of the affairs of the Prince of Nan'an's Palace, and she had only received some visiting cards and invitations.
They were all people she knew well who were going to hold a banquet and wanted to invite her to attend.
When Xu Duanyi lived in the palace, no one except the Xiao family had the face to invite her.
Now that she has married into the Nan'an Palace, even if those people don't have the intention, they still have to put on a show.
Xu Duanyi looked at the thick stack of invitations.
I flipped through a few of them and lost interest.
They were all tea parties and poetry gatherings, just a bunch of people sitting together, drinking tea and chatting. Xu Duanyi had no interest in them.
"You guys go back and pick them out according to their identities. I'm going to take a shower first." After a busy day, she was very tired.
I thought about taking a shower first, then taking a nap to refresh myself.
"I'll ask someone to fetch some water!"
Shi Yu said this and walked out.
Bi Xi went in to prepare clothes and bathing supplies for her.
After taking a shower, Xu Duanyi sat in front of the dressing mirror and let Bixi comb her long hair while she listened to her talk about the main people of the families who invited her today.
"You drafted a reply and rejected them all for me. Just say that I'm a little busy at the moment and I'll invite them to a gathering when I'm free in the future."
Xu Duanyi smeared the jade cream on her face and talked to Bixi.
Bixi said yes.
"That's right."
Xu Duanyi thought of something and asked Bixi, "When will Baozhu's marriage be arranged?"
These trivial matters have always been remembered by Bixi.
Without thinking, Bixi answered, "On the tenth day of next month."
That's only half a month.
"Come with me to visit the Duke of Huguo's Mansion tomorrow." When she got married, her eldest cousin and sister-in-law did a lot for her.
Besides, she hadn't seen her grandmother, uncle and aunt for a long time.
Her uncle and aunt did come to her wedding, but she barely spoke a few words to them.
Although her relationship with them could not be described as very good, there was still a blood relationship between them.
It is reasonable for her to go and see it.
I thought of my father again——
This time my father didn't make it back.
Although the accident was avoided, Xu Duanyi was still afraid that something might have happened to him.
So last night, she wrote a letter to her father.
Asked him how he was feeling.
Fearing that her father would not tell the truth, she privately wrote a letter to her father's confidant, Tan Su, asking him why her father could not come.
She and her father have been separated for many years and rarely see each other.
But her father always treated her well.
There were no male descendants in the family, and a year after my mother passed away, many people were busy arranging a new marriage for my father.
Even my aunt couldn't say anything about this.
After all, she was the only girl in the mansion.
But my father resolutely refused.
He said that in his life, he had only one wife and one daughter.
No descendants, no descendants.
Anyway, he has no father or mother, he was born and raised by himself, so he doesn't care whether he has a son to see him off in his later years.
If something hadn't happened, her father would never have missed her wedding.
I just don't know what happened.
Xu Duanyi was a little worried about this.
Just then Shi Yu came in, and Xu Duanyi asked her, "Did you deliver the letter I asked you to deliver this morning?"
Shi Yu hurriedly said, "It was delivered. When the gatekeeper heard that it was for the Marquis, he immediately sent someone to deliver it."
徐端宜便放了心。
所有的事都吩咐完了，徐端宜的精神也到達了極限。
她打着呵欠上床睡覺去。
走到拔步床前，徐端宜看到床上那兩個并排放在一道的枕頭，目光微頓。
不過也就一會光景，在身後碧溪問她怎麽了的時候，徐端宜便回過神說：“沒什麽，我睡半個時辰，到時間了喊我。”
徐端宜說着便掀開被子，上了床，也沒讓人把身旁的枕頭拿掉。
碧溪見她合眼，便悄悄替她放下了床帳。
大概是真的累了。
徐端宜很快就入睡了。
醒來的時候，徐端宜聽到外頭有人說話。
她起初沒聽清。
剛睡醒，大腦也還沒徹底清醒過來。
這個時候的徐端宜是最不設防的，她提着被子擋臉，翻了個身，臉朝向裏頭，試圖再眯一會。
直到隐隐約約聽到謝長寧的聲音。
徐端宜起初，還以為自己是聽錯了，直到拉下被子，外頭的聲音變得又清晰了一些。
“啊……嫂、嫂嫂在歇息嗎？那、那我過、過會再來吧。”
“诶。”
碧溪攔人：“女郎走一趟也累，不若先坐在裏頭等主子醒來？主子再過會也該醒了。”
“這……”
還真是！
徐端宜立刻清醒了許多。
她一邊坐起來，一邊往外頭喊話：“碧溪，與長寧說，我起了！”
說完，她便掀開被子起來了。
時雨進來伺候她，徐端宜簡單梳洗一番就出去了。 本書由LK團隊為您獨家整理 這點時間，碧溪也已經把謝長寧請到屋中坐好了，又替人上了一盞她愛喝的杏仁牛乳茶。
徐端宜出去的時候，謝長寧正頗為拘謹地坐在外頭的坐床上。
捧着一碗牛乳茶，慢慢喝着。
看到徐端宜出來，她立刻站了起來。
“嫂、嫂嫂。”
謝長寧和徐端宜打招呼，臉上還挂着自責，顯然是以為自己的到來，才把她吵醒了。
徐端宜看在眼中，自是忙笑着與她說道：“剛醒來就聽到你的聲音，正好，我也想找你呢。”
“找、找我？”
徐端宜的話，讓謝長寧打斷了自責的情緒。
她神情驚訝地擡起頭，不知道嫂嫂找她要做什麽。
“先坐。”
徐端宜拉着謝長寧，重新坐回到了坐床上。
碧溪也給她上了一盞碧螺春。
今年新鮮的碧螺春，還未入口，便已能聞到一股濃郁的香氣，徐端宜剛起來，有些渴，便先嘗了一口。
眼見謝長寧一直看着她，似乎在等着她繼續剛才的話。
徐端宜看着她這副模樣，便忍不住想笑。
放下茶盞。
徐端宜下意識想擡手，摸一摸她的頭，手指才擡起，又想到昨日她不自在的躲避。
未免引起她的不舒服，徐端宜便又按捺着，沒有伸手。
“長寧。”
徐端宜喊她，繼續剛才的話：“你三兄如今還喜歡下棋嗎？”
謝長寧哪裏知道，謝平安剛才做的事？當下，想也沒想便點頭說道：“喜、喜歡啊！”
為證明這件事的真實性，也為了感激徐端宜。
謝長寧便就着昨日她送的棋譜說道：“昨、昨日三、三兄，看到嫂、嫂嫂送的棋譜時，眼、眼睛都、都亮了。”
“謝、謝謝嫂嫂。”
她今日過來，一來是為了道謝，二來是為了道歉。
感謝的話，已經說出口。
謝長寧便想再跟嫂嫂說一聲抱歉。
雖然三兄昨夜說了，他會跟嫂嫂道歉的，但畢竟事情起因是因為她，謝長寧覺得自己也有必要跟嫂嫂說聲抱歉。
只是抱歉的話，還沒說出口。
謝長寧便看到身邊的嫂嫂，忽然遞給她一件東西。
“這、這是什麽？”
謝長寧一邊伸手接過，一邊神情困惑朝徐端宜發問，瞧清手裏的東西後，謝長寧卻忽然變了臉。
“這、這個……”
因震驚，謝長寧的語氣都變得着急了許多，小臉也跟着漲紅了起來。
她想說話，卻急得語無倫次，本來說話就慢，現在更是因為着急，說不清了。
她不明白嫂嫂給三兄的棋譜，怎麽又回到了嫂嫂這邊？
心裏想到一個可能，也只可能如此……
謝長寧原本漲紅的小臉，忽然又變得蒼白起來。
“別急。”
身邊，徐端宜還在柔聲安撫她。
謝長寧卻漸漸紅了眼眶，早知三兄是這樣道歉的，她絕對不會讓他來！
嫂嫂肯定很難過。
謝長寧的心中，被自責和不安充盈着。
她看着徐端宜，急得都快哭了：“嫂、嫂嫂……我、我……”
她想道歉。
卻因不安，說不出話。
徐端宜忙先安撫起她的心情：“別急，我給你看這個，不是生你三兄的氣，也沒有要責怪你的意思。”
她讓碧溪去絞塊帕子過來。
等人拿過來後，徐端宜拿着帕子，一邊擦拭謝長寧的眼睛，一邊與她說：“我知你三兄為何如此，他并不是針對我，他只是害怕，是不是？”
謝長寧說不出話。
但雙眼卻因為徐端宜的話，而亮了一下，連連點頭表示就是這樣的！
“所以我當然不會責怪他。”
徐端宜把她臉上的淚痕擦幹淨，便把帕子放到了一旁。
她看着謝長寧的眼睛，繼續與她說：“其實我給你看這個，是想請你幫個忙。”
“幫、幫忙？”
謝長寧眨了眨眼，看起來有些不太能理解這個意思，情緒倒是終于被安撫住，話也能說出口了。
她一臉吃驚地看着嫂嫂。
不解。
她有什麽能幫嫂嫂的？
徐端宜看着她，不疾不徐與她說道：“我能看出你三兄很喜歡這個棋譜，也知道你三兄在此道頗有天賦，所以我想把它放到你那。”
“你三兄若問起，只說你喜歡，我給了你。”
謝長寧雖然今年才十三，性格也軟弱，人卻十分聰慧。
她起初并不明白嫂嫂的意思。
但聽她說完，便立刻反應過來嫂嫂的用意了。
水汪汪的眼睛，立刻湧起了光亮。
她有些高興。
嫂嫂的法子很好！
這樣做的話，三兄也就不用糾結了。
正要點頭答應，謝長寧忽然猶豫地看了徐端宜一眼：“……嫂、嫂嫂。”
她輕聲喚她。
“嗯？”
徐端宜看着她，笑盈盈問道：“怎麽了？”
謝長寧雙手揪着自己的衣擺，猶豫又小聲地問道：“你、你為什麽，對、對我們這、這麽好啊？”
她很少這樣提問。
說完，便本能想低頭，但猶豫片刻，她還是鼓起勇氣，強撐着看着徐端宜。
她看到嫂嫂在她提問之後，先是驚訝地看向她，似是沒想到，她會有這樣的提問。
這樣的注視，令謝長寧無端感到緊張，她又想低頭了。
但頭還沒有徹底低下，她就被一只溫柔的手心，輕輕按住了頭頂，然後似安撫一般，輕輕摸了摸。
謝長寧其實有些不習慣這樣近距離的接觸。
這讓她渾身有些緊繃，甚至想逃避。
就像昨日一樣。
但或許因為這只手，實在太溫柔了。
溫柔的。
就像是……母親回來了。
她舍不得躲開。
謝長寧在這樣的動作下，再次擡起頭，癡癡地看着對面的徐端宜。
她看到嫂嫂臉上的驚訝，早已被溫柔的笑容所取代。
緊接着，她的聲音随之而來：“因為我把你們當做我的弟弟妹妹，雖然我這樣的說法，你們不一定會相信，但在當年，在謝清崖把我帶來看你們的時候，在我抱起你們的時候，我就真的把你們當成了我的弟弟妹妹。”
“何況謝……”
下意識想說謝伯伯、謝伯母。
看着謝長寧稚嫩天真的臉，徐端宜又改口道：“公爹、婆母還有大兄，從前對我也很好，便是看在這個份上，我也該好好對你們，照顧你們。”
“長寧。”
她柔聲喚她。
在謝長寧茫然看向她的時候，徐端宜繼續用溫柔的嗓音，與她說道：“我知道你們這些年，經歷了許多事，我也知道，有些事情不是一朝一夕就能改變的。”
“但永遠不要因為害怕，就去拒絕別人對你們的付出。”
“也許以後還是會有人傷害你們，但那是他們不對，不是你們的問題，不要用別人的過錯來懲罰自己，禁锢自己。”
“你們永遠可以相信，然後一點點分辨那是對的，還是錯的，好的，還是壞的……對待那些對你們好的、真心付出的人，你們可以懷着感激。對待那些不好的、惡意的人，你們也不必因為他們，就害怕人人都會如此。”
“我們不能因為別人的過錯，懲罰自己。”
“要向前看，要走出不好的困局。”
徐端宜說這些話的時候，始終看着謝長寧。
剛才伸手摸她的頭，是下意識的動作，手放過去的時候，就後悔了，她害怕，長寧會像昨日一樣躲開。
沒想到沒有。
又見她看着她時的雙眼，雖然透露着茫然，卻也隐含着一股孺慕懷念之情。
徐端宜便猜測。
她可能是想到了謝伯母，索性便也沒有收回。
她慢慢和長寧說話。
Seeing the confusion on Chang Ning's face gradually turn into contemplation, Xu Duanyi said: "These words may not be easy for you to think through all at once. Don't worry, you can take your time."
"But if you have anything, you can tell me. I will be your most loyal listener."
Xu Duanyi withdrew his hand only after he finished speaking.
At this moment, when Xie Changning saw Xu Duanyi taking his hand away, he actually felt a bit reluctant and attached.
But she didn't ask to stay.
She just continued to tug at the hem of her clothes, looked at Xu Duanyi, and whispered, "Sister-in-law, sister-in-law, thank you, thank you."
After her mother left, no one ever said these words to her again.
Although she couldn't immediately understand what her sister-in-law said and couldn't do anything about it, she was sure of one thing... her sister-in-law was really doing it for her own good and for their own good.
Although Aunt Deng and Fuqiu cared about her, they were of different status after all.
Usually I just take care of her food, clothing and daily life.
What's more, they always treated her like a child and kept her behind their backs most of the time. They had almost never had a heart-to-heart talk with her like this.
The third brother loves her very much.
But the third brother is now living a life that is too repressed and too tense... Every time she sees the third brother, she just wants him to live a more relaxed life, so naturally it is impossible for her to say extra words to him.
Second brother...
She and her second brother haven't had a good talk for a long, long time.
So when her second brother came to her place last night, she was happy but more surprised.
But she wouldn't say anything to her second brother about it.
She seemed to have closed herself off out of habit. She didn't want her two brothers to worry about her, nor did she want them to worry too much about her.
She seems... to be afraid of bothering others.
She didn't want to be a burden or an encumbrance to others, as if this would always be the case.
But her sister-in-law told her...
You can accept other people's kindness, and you don't have to be afraid of other people's malice.
You should not punish yourself for other people's mistakes.
You have to believe that there will always be someone who loves you in this world.
It's so shocking.
Xie Changning only felt that her mind was filled with these words, but she did not feel uncomfortable. Instead, she felt an unprecedented sense of fullness and relaxation.
Xie Changning pursed her lips into a shallow arc and did not refuse the kindness.
Instead, she picked up the book and thanked Xu Duanyi with a bright smile: "Sister-in-law, sister-in-law, thank you, thank you!"
For the first time, she wasn't nervous about her stutter.
Instead, he faced Xu Duanyi with the most brilliant smile.
Seeing her sister-in-law smiling and raising her hand again, she knew what she was going to do, but she saw that she was holding it back, as if she wanted to put it down.
She also knew why her sister-in-law did that.
After hesitating for a moment, Xie Changning mustered up his courage for the first time and slowly moved his head towards Xu Duanyi.
Suddenly saw her action.
Xu Duanyi was still unsure of what she was going to do until she saw that she looked a little embarrassed and nervous. Xu Duanyi recalled that she didn't seem to mind before, so she touched her head.
I had a vague guess in my mind.
Xu Duanyi tentatively placed his hand on her hairy head.
Seeing the little girl immediately curl her eyebrows happily, Xu Duanyi's eyes also curled up a little.
I was right.
Bixi and Shiyu in the house saw this scene and started laughing.
This meeting brought Xu Duanyi and Xie Changning closer.
Seeing that it was almost time for dinner, Xie Changning took the initiative to suggest to Xu Duanyi: "Sister-in-law, sister-in-law, why don't you have dinner with us tonight!"
Xu Duanyi knew that she and Ping'an had to eat together every day. Although Ping'an didn't like her very much, Xu Duanyi felt that there was no need to reject the child's suggestion.
There is Changning.
Ping An wouldn't be angry because she went over to eat.
It took a lot of effort for Changning to let down his guard and get close to her, which is good, and she shouldn't be disappointed.
I was just about to nod and say yes.
Then he heard Xie Changning beside him say, "I, I'll turn around and go, go, go and call my second brother as well!"
She naturally has her own little thoughts.
She likes her sister-in-law.
She hopes that her second brother and sister-in-law can live together happily.
But when Xu Duanyi heard this sentence, the words that were about to come out suddenly stopped.
"Sister-in-law, sister-in-law?"
Without hearing Xu Duanyi's answer, Xie Changning looked up at her.
Xu Duanyi looked at her.
The words she had originally agreed to turned into a gentle refusal: "I am a little tired today, so I won't go. I will bother you later, okay?"
Although Xie Changning felt it was a pity, it was naturally difficult for him to say it was a bad thing.
"After that, I will treat my sister-in-law to dinner again!" She said to Xu Duanyi with a smile.
Xu Duanyi naturally agreed.
It was getting dark outside, and Xu Duanyi didn't want to delay her dinner, so he asked someone to prepare a lantern.
But when Shi Yu went to prepare the lantern.
Xu Duanyi looked at Xie Changning again and asked, "Changning."
Xie Changning responded and asked, "Sister-in-law, sister-in-law, what's wrong?" She looked at Xu Duanyi eagerly, her eyes clear.
But Xu Duanyi remembered the moment of uneasiness and panic she felt when she reached out her hand to her yesterday.
Are you simply afraid of contact with people?
Or did someone really do something to her?
Xu Duanyi didn't know.
She looked at Xie Changning and asked, "Has anyone ever bullied you?"
"W-what?"
Xie Changning seemed not to understand, but Xu Duanyi saw a flash of panic across her face after her brief confusion.
But before Xu Duanyi could ask.
She then hastily said, "No, no."