Chapter 162 A Heart Beyond One's Control
When Fu Shenyuan arrived at the hospital, he was still very flustered. He was genuinely worried that Lin Xuesha's life might be in danger.
But he was overthinking it. When the doctor saw him arrive, he took him directly to Lin Xuesha's private room.
Lin Xuesha was lying in bed with her eyes closed, pretending to be asleep. She only opened her eyes after hearing Fu Shenyuan's movement.
She deliberately made herself look pitiful and disheveled, hoping that Fu Shenyuan would feel pity for her.
"How are you, Xue Sha?" Fu Shenyuan sat down by the hospital bed and couldn't help but ask as he looked at her pale face.
Lin Xuesha shook her head and said in a sweet voice, "Shen Yuan, I feel a stomachache and I'm not feeling well."
The doctor spoke at just the right moment.
"Sir, your wife's health is not very good right now. We just had a check-up, and it shows that there is a risk of miscarriage at any time."
The doctor's words were obviously made up.
He had received Lin Xuesha's money and the dean's instructions, so he told Fu Shenyuan exactly what Lin Xuesha wanted to hear.
The doctor said, "Has your wife been feeling down lately? We still advise you to prioritize your wife's well-being, otherwise this baby might not survive, and it would be bad if it threatened your wife's health."
Lin Xuesha also had a pitiful look on her face, as if she felt very sad after hearing what the doctor said.
Lin Xuesha got out of bed and threw herself into Fu Shenyuan's arms. Seeing this, the doctor quietly stepped back and left.
Fu Shenyuan looked at the petite and pitiful woman in his arms, who seemed to be sobbing.
Lin Xuesha clung tightly to Fu Shenyuan, refusing to let go. She trembled as she nestled against his chest and whispered, "Shenyuan, I'm so scared, so scared. Can you please not leave me? I love you so much. Lately, I feel like you're drifting further and further away from me. I can hardly hold onto you anymore. Why have I become like this? Shenyuan, am I overthinking things?"
Lin Xuesha gripped his clothes tightly: "I don't know if it's because of the pregnancy that I've become so sensitive."
Lin Xuesha added another sentence, as if afraid that Fu Shenyuan wouldn't pay attention to her.
Feeling guilty, Fu Shenyuan said, "I'm sorry, Xue Sha, I've been neglecting your feelings lately."
With so many things happening lately, Fu Shenyuan has indeed paid less attention to Lin Xuesha.
Looking back now, he really shouldn't have made Lin Xuesha feel sad.
Because no matter what, it was Lin Xuesha who gave him this new life, so he should pay more attention to Lin Xuesha.
Fu Shenyuan sighed softly.
He couldn't control himself anymore; his thoughts were completely out of control.
"Xue Sha, I'm sorry."
Fu Shenyuan could only say that; he couldn't say anything else.
"Shen Yuan, please don't leave me, I'm so scared."
Lin Xuesha nestled in his arms and pretended to cry for a long, long time, until she finally had no strength left and let go of his hand as if exhausted.
She did this simply to evoke Fu Shenyuan's sympathy; she knew he couldn't bear to see her sad.
Sure enough, Fu Shenyuan's face began to show guilt and heartache.
Lin Xuesha whispered in his arms, "Shen Yuan, I'm afraid I won't be able to keep this child, and I'm also afraid the child won't see his mom and dad together. Can you grant my wish, even if it's just a fake wedding, so our child can see it?"
Lin Xuesha's pitiful words inevitably moved the listeners.
Fu Shenyuan put Lin Xuesha back on the bed and covered her with a blanket.
He said, "Don't think about it too much, just get a good night's sleep."
Upon hearing this, Lin Xuesha closed her eyes.
Fu Shenyuan left the ward and walked to the corner, where he saw the doctor waiting on the other side.
He and the doctor went into the office.
Fu Shenyuan asked, "How is her health? What about the baby?"
The doctor said, "Your wife is too weak. I've examined her, and it seems to be a chronic illness from years ago that has affected her health. The baby she's carrying is also very weak, and she probably won't be able to give birth. But we can't tell your wife that, so we can only tell you."
After hearing what the doctor said, Fu Shenyuan felt as if he had fallen into a cold, icy abyss.
Lin Xuesha can't give birth to her child; sooner or later, she will miscarry.
That was also a blow to Lin Xuesha's health at that time.
She will have to suffer this kind of hardship again for him.
Fu Shenyuan felt his heart being torn apart again.
He said quietly, "Okay, I know. How much longer can she keep this child?"
The doctor replied, "It will take at most about a month. It won't be as convenient to remove it after that."
Fu Shenyuan nodded and left the office.
With each step he took after leaving the doctor's office, Fu Shenyuan felt his steps were heavy.
He gradually sensed that things in his life were spiraling out of control and heading towards extremes.
What went wrong that led us to this point?
He used to feel like he had everything under control, but now, it seems like he can't control anyone, no matter who they are.
Even his own heart...
Fu Shenyuan leaned against the window at the end of the corridor, lit a cigarette, and the smell of tobacco filled his lungs, slowly numbing all his senses.
The swirling smoke made his vision flicker, and he thought about many things until the last ember of the tobacco went out, burning his fingertips with a hot sensation.
He stubbed out his cigarette.
He had run out of time to think.
After a long while, Fu Shenyuan finally made up his mind.
No matter what, he couldn't let Lin Xuesha down.
This is what he owes Lin Xuesha.
What he absolutely had to repay was Lin Xuesha's kindness.
Fu Shenyuan returned to the ward and picked up Lin Xuesha. After returning to the villa, Fu Shenyuan asked, "Where would you like to hold the wedding? I'll have someone arrange it right away."
Lin Xuesha was at her wit's end when she was surprised to find that Fu Shenyuan had already agreed.
It seems that her phone call to the doctor earlier was quite effective; Fu Shenyuan was indeed soft-hearted.
Lin Xuesha looked at Fu Shenyuan with tender eyes and said incredulously, "Shenyuan, are you really willing to marry me?"
Fu Shenyuan nodded.
Lin Xuesha was then convinced that Fu Shenyuan was not lying.
So she happily snuggled into Fu Shenyuan's arms and said, "I want to have a castle wedding abroad, like a prince and princess wedding, and we'll invite lots of guests to come and bless us. I want our wedding to be beautiful and blessed by the whole world!"
Fu Shenyuan stroked her long, black hair, nodded, and said, "Okay, I'll have Tan Shen take care of it."
Lin Xuesha felt very satisfied.
Fu Shenyuan finally agreed to her request; she was going to become Mrs. Fu.
Lin Xuesha hugged Fu Shenyuan tightly.
Fu Shenyuan lowered his raised hand again; he didn't hug her back.
Where no one could see, his eyes were filled with distress.
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Since Fu Shenyuan agreed to marry Lin Xuesha, the people around him have been efficiently and quickly organizing the wedding arrangements.
Fu Shenyuan was suspended from his job and didn't have to go to work. He spent his days in the villa listening to Lin Xuesha choose various things to use for the wedding.
Not long after, Fu Shenyuan also went to apologize to Old Master Fu in person.
"Grandpa, I was wrong before," Fu Shenyuan said.
Grandpa Fu didn't want to get angry with his only grandson, so he said, "Forget it, what's past is past. Now that you want to have a wedding, have a proper one. After you and Ranxing get your marriage certificate, you can go and register it. Then stop causing trouble and just live your life with Lin Xuesha."
Fu Shenyuan's eyes cooled slightly, and the corners of his mouth twitched barely.
Grandpa Fu noticed that his expression was a bit abnormal, so he asked, "What's wrong? You've married the woman you love and you're still not happy? Don't think about the past, especially with Ranxing. You're just not used to it, there's nothing wrong with that."
Fu Shenyuan looked up at Old Master Fu, who gave him an approving look.
Fu Shenyuan silently lowered his head again.
His mind was so confused that he couldn't even make sense of it. Even if his grandfather could give him a clear answer, he still couldn't be sure of his own feelings.
He had never felt so conflicted and helpless before.
Just like now, everyone is working hard to prepare for his wedding with Lin Xuesha, but he no longer feels the joy he used to expect.
He watched everything unfold like an outsider.
Perhaps it really is as Grandpa said, that his feelings for Jiang Ranxing are just a habit, and habits are hard to change, so there's nothing to it.
Perhaps it was truly a case of being destined to be apart from Jiang Ranxing, and they were never meant to be together.
But why do I feel so sad?
He felt uneasy watching Jiang Ranxing leave.
He never imagined he would be like this, unable to let go of Jiang Ranxing.
After a long pause, Fu Shenyuan nodded, and only then did Old Master Fu feel somewhat relieved.
Grandpa Fu said, "It's good that you've been suspended from your job. Focus on handling things at home. Only when your family is at peace can you have the energy to take care of the larger community."
"Your second uncle has taken over the company now, but don't worry, I won't let him completely control it. You still have a chance to come back. During this time, you should also adjust your mindset. When you come back, I need a more mature and stable leader. Do you understand, Shen Yuan?"
Grandpa Fu's greatest expectation for his grandson was that he would become the leader of a business empire just like his own.
This is how he has trained Fu Shenyuan all these years.
Fu Shenyuan nodded: "I understand, I will adjust my state."
"Yes, go back and prepare well for your wedding." Old Master Fu smiled and watched Fu Shenyuan walk away.
The old butler leaned over and said, "Master, Young Master Sun doesn't seem to be in good condition. Should we give him another nudge?"
Grandpa Fu shook his head: "No need for now. It's fine as it is now. I believe he can recover on his own."
"This kid is too sentimental, he has been for so many years. If he weren't like that, he would be even more sharp than he is now."
Emotions can dull a person's sharpest edge.
In Old Master Fu's eyes, the last thing Fu Shenyuan should have was those unnecessary emotions.
But Fu Shenyuan valued that relationship the most, and devoted most of his remaining life to it.
Grandpa Fu sighed.
Green Mountain Villa.
Fu Xingyi stood in the living room with surprise and asked, "Aunt Xue Sha, are you really going to marry Dad? Are you going to be my mom?"
Lin Xuesha nodded and smiled, "Yes, Yiyi, are you happy?"
Fu Xingyi's face flushed, and he slowly nodded, but then a hint of displeasure appeared on his face.
"I'm happy, but what about Mom? What will happen to Mom if Aunt Xue Sha marries Dad? I can't have two moms."
Even if Fu Xingyi didn't understand, he should know that a person only has one mother and one father.
If Aunt Xue Sha is going to marry Dad, what about Jiang Ranxing?
Lin Xuesha could tell at a glance that Fu Xingyi had no idea about Fu Shenyuan and Jiang Ranxing's divorce.
She might as well tell him now.
Lin Xuesha said softly, "Yiyi, don't you know?"
Her voice still carried a deliberately feigned sense of doubt.
"What?" Fu Xingyi looked up at her with his little face.
Lin Xuesha continued, "Didn't your father tell you that your parents are divorced?"
Fu Xingyi rarely reads the news, so he naturally didn't see Fu Shenyuan's press conference, and no one dared to tell him, so he was unaware of it.
Fu Xingyi's face was almost scrunched up: "When did this happen? I have no idea! Aunt Xue Sha, can you tell me?"
Lin Xuesha chuckled inwardly, but outwardly gently pulled Fu Xingyi's small body into her arms.
"Yiyi, it's okay if Mommy doesn't want you anymore, Aunt Xuesha wants you. From now on, I'll be your mommy, okay?"
Fu Xingyi was initially very sad, but after hearing what Lin Xuesha said, he felt much better.
However, he still couldn't get over his parents' divorce, and he still had many doubts and anger in his heart.
He was angry that Jiang Ranxing hadn't told him.
So that evening, when no one was looking, Fu Xingyi took the phone from the nanny and called Jiang Ranxing.
Jiang Ranxing was resting at home when she saw that it was Fu Xingyi calling, so she picked up the phone and answered it.
“Hey, Yiyi,” Jiang Ranxing said.
Upon hearing Jiang Ranxing's voice, Fu Xingyi felt both wronged and angry.
"Mom, you're lying! You and Dad are getting a divorce, and you didn't even tell me! You haven't come to see me for so many days, so you just don't want me anymore! Humph!"
Fu Xingyi was so angry that he shook the bed, his beautiful eyes filled with tears, which fell one after another like a broken string of pearls.
Jiang Ranxing knew this day would come, so she said, "Yiyi, I was going to tell you about this later, but I didn't expect you to find out first."
"How about this, Yiyi, are you free tomorrow? I'll take you out, tell you in person, and show you around. What do you think?"
Jiang Ranxing had originally planned to meet Fu Xingyi as well.
During her few days of rest, her health has improved considerably.
Moreover, she wanted to finish up her work before having the abortion.
She has arranged all the work at the studio and Ling Su in the past few days. Now there are only some things left to do in her personal life, namely, things related to Fu Xingyi.
Just then, Fu Xingyi called, so she asked him to come out and spend another day with her son, telling him everything she needed to tell him. Then she would have no more worries.
Fu Xingyi's anger subsided a little after hearing Jiang Ranxing's words.
Fu Xingyi said, "Okay, then I'll talk to my mom tomorrow. Where am I supposed to find you, Mom?"
Jiang Ranxing thought for a moment and said, "Didn't you always want to go to the newly opened amusement park? How about Mom takes you there tomorrow?"
Fu Xingyi finally relented: "Okay, see you tomorrow then."
"Alright, Yiyi, go to sleep early. Goodnight."
After Jiang Ranxing finished speaking, he hung up the phone.
Fu Xingyi stared at his black-out phone screen and suddenly remembered what Fu Shenyuan had said that day: he would take him to see Jiang Ranxing next time.
Now that he's already made plans with his mother, he should go and tell his father too.
So Fu Xingyi put on his slippers and tiptoed out of his room.
The housekeeper happened to come upstairs and saw Fu Xingyi.
The butler asked, "What are you looking for, young master? I'll help you."
“No,” Fu Xingyi waved his hand, “I just wanted to see if Dad was home. I need to talk to Dad.”
The butler pointed to the study: "The master just returned and is in the study. Would the young master like to go there? I also need to take something in."
Fu Xingyi then noticed that the butler was carrying tea and snacks.
Fu Xingyi nodded and followed the butler to the study.
The butler knocked twice on the door, and after a commotion inside, he spoke, "Come in."
The butler went in first, and Fu Xingyi followed him into the study.
He usually doesn't dare to come to the study, because when his father calls him into the study, it's usually to educate or criticize him.
The study was not a very kind place in his young mind.
"Young Master is here too, sir," the butler reminded him.
Fu Shenyuan was looking at documents on his computer when his gaze shifted to the doorway. The arc of light reflected from the computer screen onto his glasses was still clearly visible.
Fu Xingyi cautiously called out, "Dad."
Fu Shenyuan didn't say anything, took off his glasses, walked to the sofa and sat down, beckoning Fu Xingyi to come over as well.
Upon hearing this, Fu Xingyi walked over to the sofa and sat down.
After the butler put the things down, Fu Shenyuan dismissed him.
After the door closed, Fu Shenyuan asked Fu Xingyi, "What's wrong?"
Seeing that Fu Shenyuan hadn't said anything, Fu Xingyi finally dared to speak.
He blinked and said, "I just called my mom, and she said she's taking me out to play tomorrow at that new amusement park."
"Dad, you said you'd take me to find Mom last time, are you still keeping your word?"
Fu Shenyuan nodded: "It's a promise, I'll go with you tomorrow."
Fu Xingyi scratched his little hands before daring to ask, "Dad, have you and Mom divorced? Is that why you're marrying Aunt Xue Sha?"
Fu Shenyuan nodded again, indicating his agreement.
"Why didn't you tell me, Dad? I should know about Mom and Dad's situation."
Fu Xingyi still felt wronged. He was angry not only with Jiang Ranxing, but also with Fu Shenyuan.
Why didn't his parents tell him anything?
Fu Shenyuan said, "You're still young, there are some things you don't understand, so I didn't tell you."
Fu Shenyuan did not intend to tell Fu Xingyi the details.
There are some things that children shouldn't know.
Fu Xingyi wanted to say something, but seeing Fu Shenyuan's cold profile, he couldn't bring himself to ask.
Never mind, I'll just ask my mom tomorrow.
Fu Xingyi then asked, "Dad, when are you and Aunt Xue Sha's wedding? I heard it's abroad. Can I go with you?"
“If you want to go abroad, I’ll have Tan Shen take you with me.”
Fu Xingyi was a little happier then: "Great, then I'll ask Uncle Tan to take me with me."
Fu Xingyi jumped off the small sofa and said, "Dad, I'm going back to sleep now. Let's go find Mom together tomorrow."
"Hmm," Fu Shenyuan replied, watching Fu Xingyi walk out of the study.
A moment later, Fu Shenyuan actually smiled.
What's wrong with him now? He was incredibly excited and thrilled when Fu Xingyi told him that he would take him to find Jiang Ranxing tomorrow.
It was an overwhelming joy, a feeling I had never experienced before, emanating from the depths of my heart.
He had never been this excited, not even when he went to see Lin Xuesha.
He knew that his feelings for Jiang Ranxing were no longer what they used to be.
This was something he had never imagined before.
He wanted to see Jiang Ranxing, and the only way he could do so was through Fu Xingyi.
Fu Shenyuan couldn't help but wonder what kind of expression Jiang Ranxing would have when she saw him tomorrow, and whether she would be even a little happy.
He had to admit that,
He kept thinking about Jiang Ranxing.
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