It's not like Cheng Ying hadn't thought about these things.
But he had reached a desperate situation, and he soberly walked himself to the edge of a cliff from which there was no turning back. He had to either drag Yu Jiao into the abyss with him, or he would be doomed alone.
Both results are good for Cheng Ying. Even if he is doomed to failure, at least he can leave an indelible mark in Jiaojiao's heart just like in his previous life.
She will remember him forever and never forget him.
If it is the former, that would be great.
Once upon a time in the Qinling Mountains, apart from the teacher, there were only Jiaojiao and him. Those days were extremely happy, and he just wanted to go back to the past.
He just wanted to go back to the past with Jiaojiao, where their lives were simple, but they could be so close that they were indistinguishable from each other. She was like his little tail, always following behind him, and her clear, dark almond eyes would only reflect his figure.
Cheng Ying stopped Xia Ning from continuing to persuade him: "I don't think I've ever asked you if you're willing to go across the sea with me? If you don't want to, I can help you change your appearance and identity."
There was a hint of vigilance in Xia Ning's eyes, like that of an abandoned young animal, but he lowered his eyes in time so that Cheng Ying did not notice.
"I want to follow you." Xia Ning's voice was firm, just like when he was a child, wandering on the streets, and Cheng Ying threw him a steamed bun and asked him if he wanted to go with him.
Cheng Ying smiled and said nonchalantly, "Okay, then follow me."
Xia Ning looked at the smile in his eyes, and her heart also began to smile.
Ever since Miss Yu came to Du Gong's side, he smiled more often and became a gentler person. Although he lost his former ruthlessness because of this gentleness, Xia Ning felt it was worth it, at least Du Gong finally had a happy face.
He will always be loyal to the Governor, even if it means risking his life. As long as the Governor can get what he wants, whatever he asks him to do will be worth it.
Xia Ning left the study and met Yu Jiao again in the corridor in the afternoon.
"Mr. Xia, is my senior brother still in the study?" Yu Jiao glanced in the direction of the study and asked softly.
Xia Ning: "The governor still needs to deal with some things in the study."
"I'm not looking for my senior brother, I want to talk to you." Yu Jiao raised her hand slightly, "Xia Shaocheng, please come this way."
Xia Ning hesitated and did not move. He remembered that before leaving Beijing, Yu Qizhe went to the Imperial Household Department and said he wanted to talk to him.
He turned around and glanced at the study room which was still lit. He lowered his head slightly, his gesture was very respectful, but his words were a rejection: "Miss, if you have anything to say, you may go and talk to the governor."
Yu Jiao smiled and explained, "I'm just worried about my senior brother's safety."
Only then did Xia Ning follow.
Yu Jiao stopped at Fangshan, which was a little remote. She looked at the yellowed branches of the crabapple tree in the corner and said slowly, "Xia Shaocheng, you came from the capital, so you should know my brother's situation very well. My brother said he would take me to Jiaxing, but I'm afraid that if we leave Xianyang City, we will be trapped."
Xia Ning said: "The governor has made all the arrangements. There will be no mistakes. You can rest assured, young lady."
Yu Jiao turned around and looked at Xia Ning: "I know you are extremely loyal to my senior brother. In your mind, he must be so powerful that he can do anything to make you submit to him. But in my eyes, he is just an ordinary person, just like the millions of ordinary people in this world. He can get hurt and bleed, he can be weak and his whip can't reach his abdomen."
"He is not a god, Xia Shaocheng."
Xia Ning was silent for a while, and his hand holding the Embroidered Spring Knife tightened slightly. These words were like a blow to his head.
Because it hit the nail on the head.
These people believed in Dugong and obeyed his orders without hesitation, and they probably longed for his power.
They used to be weaklings, trampled and bullied by others. It was Du Gong who made them see what a strong person looks like. If anyone dared to plot against Du Gong, he would break that person's bones and step on him.
During all the years he had followed the Governor, there had never been anything he wanted to do but failed to do, anyone he wanted to kill but couldn't kill, or anything he wanted to get but couldn't get.
Even if that person is an emperor.
His power can easily make people submit and worship him.
"But he is just a mortal, born with flesh and blood like each of us, and will fall into the quagmire." Yu Jiao originally wanted to persuade Xia Ning, but at this moment she couldn't help but feel sad. Senior brother didn't have three heads and six arms, and his strength and ruthlessness were not innate. In his previous life, he was even a humble gentleman with a mild temper who saved the wounded and dying.
"There will be a day when he will be at the mercy of others!"
Xia Ning was silent for a long time, and his hand holding the Xiuchun Knife tightened and loosened, repeating it unconsciously several times.
Yu Jiao smiled sadly and spoke with difficulty: "He is my most important relative. I cannot watch him go to the end of his rope. I want him to live and live well."
Yu Jiao wiped the moisture from the corners of her eyes. There was something she had kept in her heart for a long time, but she couldn't tell it to her senior brother.
But now she could say it out loud: "It's not because of me that I'm against the world!"
The night wind in late autumn is extremely chilly, and the fallen leaves on the ground are swirling around.
Yu Jiao took a deep breath and calmed down a bit. "Xia Shaocheng, going to sea in Jiaxing is not a good way out. Senior Brother shouldn't spend the rest of his life hiding on an island with me. As long as you let me out of the city, I can convince Liu Ziqi to let Senior Brother go. Everything is still in time and it won't be irreversible."
Xia Ning clenched the Embroidered Spring Knife, and his face turned cold again: "Miss Yu, I will not betray the Governor."
He turned around and said, "I have never heard these words before."
Before taking a step, Xia Ning left a final word: "Miss Yu, I have been with Du Gong since I was very young. Du Gong has never been happy from the bottom of his heart in these years. He seems to be so powerful that he can do anything, but I know that Du Gong also has his own needs. It is with you by his side that Du Gong has become more popular."
"As long as it is what the Governor wants, Xia Ning will not hesitate to sacrifice his life for it."
Yu Jiao looked at his back with a helpless and bitter expression. She murmured, "But is that more important than him being alive?"
She wants her senior brother to be alive.
She had already lost her senior brother, and she couldn't bear the pain of losing him again.
Why is it so difficult?
She just wants everyone around her to be well...
At this moment, Yu Jiao suddenly couldn't hold on any longer. In the chilly autumn wind, she slowly squatted down, hugged her knees and broke down in tears.
Facing her senior brother, guilt was like a mountain, pressing down on her, making it almost suffocating for her.
She couldn't love him, nor could she give him the response he wanted.
She always owes her senior brother a debt that she can never repay.
She didn't want to hurt him at all.
But what can she do?
Yu Jiao felt powerless. She only had one heart, which she had given to others. No matter how good her senior brother was, she only had family affection for him. She couldn't deceive her own feelings, as that would be unfair to Yu Qizhe.
Under the wooden frame covered with vines in Fangshan, a tall and slender figure stood in the endless night, silently watching Yu Jiao crying silently, his narrow and long phoenix eyes were filled with heartache. He raised his hand and made a gesture of wiping tears in the air.
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