Chapter 081

Since ancient times, the concept of ghosts and gods has always been the most illusory. Jiashan also knew in her heart that her experiences in these two lives were too ethereal and strange. If she told them out loud, she might be burned to death as a weirdo.

Perhaps it was because the atmosphere tonight was too gentle, or perhaps it was because she had been carrying the burden alone for long enough, she suddenly had the urge to be truly "honest" with Zhan Yue.

I want to tell him everything I've been through without hiding anything.

I just don't know if he is willing to accept it?

Jiashan buried her head, her expression as calm as ever. Only her fingers, which were holding the handkerchief and trembling slightly, betrayed her nervousness and fear at the moment.

Zhan Yue's observation skills have always been sharp. Seeing Jiashan becoming uneasy for no reason, he couldn't help but frown.

Zhan Yue looked at her carefully and replied softly, "I don't believe it."

Jiashan seemed to have gotten an expected answer. She didn't say anything, but just pursed her lips and intertwined her fingers tightly.

Zhan Yue then replied quietly: "However, sometimes I feel that the fact that we can be together so smoothly may be an extra grace given to me by God."

Zhan Yue smiled and said, "Although I don't believe it, I still feel awe."

He answered truthfully, and seeing that Jiashan remained silent, he patiently asked, "Why are you asking me this for no reason?"

Jiashan raised her eyes slightly and glanced at Zhan Yue. She saw that Zhan Yue looked as handsome as ever. She licked her dry lips subconsciously and whispered, "If I say that I have seen the spring of the twenty-second year of Zhanghe, would you think I am talking nonsense?"

It was only the fifteenth year of Zhanghe now, and there were still seven years to go until the twenty-second year of Zhanghe as Jiashan had said. Zhan Yue looked calm, and just held Jiashan's hand tighter.

He smiled and asked instead of answering, "Is it a dream?"

Seeing that Zhan Yue did not react as violently as she had imagined, Jia Shan finally got a moment's respite from her anxiety. She frowned slightly, reflecting on the question that she had always been wondering about: "Maybe it was a very long dream, maybe——"

She paused and said slowly, "Maybe it was in the previous life."

"Really?" Zhan Yue lowered his head slightly and kissed her drooping eyelids gently. "In the previous life, were we also husband and wife?"

Jiashan looked up and saw Zhan Yue's eyes were full of energy. Suddenly, she seemed to have finally calmed down. She looked at him quietly and answered truthfully, "No."

Speaking of his past life, Jiashan said with a neutral expression: "At that time, I followed my father's wishes and married Zhan Shaoying."

The smile on Zhan Yue's face faded a little. Without waiting for his answer, Jia Shan continued, "A few years later, you married the daughter of Lord Feng, the governor of Huguang. That was the Feng we met in the building outside that day."

Zhan Yue's face was as calm as water. He stretched out his hand and gently held her waist. His deep voice rang in Jiashan's ears: "No wonder you look at Feng's family differently."

"Could it be that the person who warned you in Prince Qin's Mansion today was her?" Zhan Yue asked.

The room was quiet for a moment, and the smoke from the calming incense rose and turned into a layer of white mist in the room. Through the smoke, Jiashan narrowed his eyes and said, "Yes. If that can be called a warning."

In a few words, she simply recounted her dealings with Feng Wanhua in the Qin Palace.

"I believe that she didn't say that unintentionally. I just don't know why she said that and whether she was really talking about the Princess of Qin." Jiashan analyzed calmly.

Thinking of Feng Wanhua's meaningful look outside the building, Zhan Yue didn't dare to say anything for a moment. But Jiashan gradually relaxed.

She smiled softly and said, "Or, you can go and ask. After all, you two were once husband and wife, and she might give you this face."

Seeing that Jiashan didn't sound jealous, Zhan Yue smiled as if nothing had happened. He said, "What do you mean by marriage? Didn't I tell you that I only have one wife?"

"How could I be so stupid in my previous life, watching you marry Zhan Shaoying. Fortunately, I have made up for it in this life and did not repeat the same mistake again." Zhan Yue's eyebrows were gentle, and his head rested lightly on Jiashan's soft shoulder. "Don't use this matter to poke my heart again."

Jiashan curled her lips slightly, and her heart, which had been somewhat gloomy because of the mention of Zhan Shaoying, softened for a moment. She gently pushed Zhan Yue and said, "Yes, how can you be so stupid."

Jiashan was talking and laughing, and Zhan Yue's expression became gentle and focused. He stared at Jiashan for a long while, and said with his lips moving slightly: "Do you mind if I ask, what happened in the 22nd year of Zhanghe?"

Jiashan's eyelashes trembled slightly, Zhan Yue carefully considered his words and whispered, "Is it Father..."

Jiashan pursed his lips and held Zhan Yue's hand tightly.

Zhan Yue immediately held her hand more tightly and asked tentatively, "The one who ascended the throne is Zhao Youcheng?"

Jiashan said nothing, but Zhan Yue had already figured out many things about his past life. He looked at him with pity, "Given his character, I'm afraid he won't tolerate the existence of the Pei family and Yuan Kang."

"When the nest is overturned, no egg is left unbroken, and neither are you—"

Zhan Yue's voice suddenly stopped, and Jia Shan suddenly squeezed his fingertips. The past, which was no longer too sad, was now exposed to her vulnerability again in front of the person who loved her the most.

Jiashan wiped away the tears that overflowed from the corners of his eyes and said, "It's all in the past."

Zhan Yue patted her back gently and held her in his arms like an eagle protecting its cubs: "Yes, it's all over."

He hugged her and whispered, "I'm sorry."

Jia Shan paused and looked at him in confusion: "What are you sorry for?"

"I wasn't able to be by your side to protect you in my previous life," Zhan Yue said.

When he said this, Jiashan thought of the time when Zhan Yue said some kind words to him when they met at Dongzhimen.

She told Zhan Yue about this: "At that time, Zhao Youcheng was in high spirits and eager to establish his authority. No one dared to get too close to me. I have been proud all my life, so how could I bear it?"

"At that time, you were the only one who dared to help me and advised me to take care of myself." As she spoke, Jiashan's eyes began to warm up again. She held back her sourness and said, "So, don't apologize."

"Hearing you say that, I feel relieved." Zhan Yue exaggerates and breathes a sigh of relief. He lowers his head and kisses Jiashan's ear. "Since I can say such words, I guess you were the only one in my heart in my previous life."

Jiashan said, "How can I know if you are so depressed?"

"You know that." Zhan Yue said, "otherwise you wouldn't have told me all this."

Zhan Yue looked down at her: "Is that so?"