The ward instantly returned to its original silence.
Neither of them spoke again.
Gu Ci thought that he would always bring up the issue of "leukemia", even if... even if he didn't care, he would at least ask a few questions.
But after a while, she still didn't wait.
After a moment, seeing him slightly tilt his body, as if preparing to leave, she had to be the first to break the silence.
"Ah Sui...I'm sorry."
Hearing this, Pei Sui's eyes fell on her face, with a hint of inquiry, as if he was waiting for her next words.
Suddenly, Gu Ci smiled sadly.
I calmly stated, "Actually, I should have said sorry to you a long time ago. Five years ago, when I was diagnosed with leukemia, I thought my life was over.
I also thought that my sick body was no longer worthy of you, so I didn't want to be a burden or a problem for you, so I self-righteously and willfully broke off the engagement.
I didn't consider your feelings at all, didn't discuss it with you, and made you controversial. I'm sorry."
Pei Sui had withdrawn his gaze without knowing when.
No response was given.
The engagement between him and Gu Ci was arranged by Mr. Pei when he was still young and ignorant.
The two grew up together as childhood sweethearts and spent their teenage years together when it was easy for feelings to blossom.
He and Gu Ci did spend a lot of time together, and it's hard to say how deep that relationship was.
But before canceling the engagement, he really regarded Gu Ci as his future wife who would spend the rest of his life with him and whom he would take care of for the rest of his life.
This has never changed at the age of 25.
Later, when he returned from studying abroad, Gu Ci proposed to cancel the engagement.
He remembered that at first he thought it was because of their two or three years of long-distance relationship that made her feel uncomfortable and upset.
So, for this reason, he went to look for Gu Ci, but did not see her.
The Gu family was inexplicably told that she had gone abroad.
Later, when I contacted her via email, I got the following reply: "Let's part ways amicably. See you later. I hope we can still be friends."
He was completely puzzled and a little melancholy at that time, but no matter how sad and heartbroken he was, he had to get the person back and get things clear.
It seems that there is no need.
Now that it has been made clear, that is enough.
He respected her choice.
Even after all these years, he could still glimpse what he was thinking at the time.
Pei Huan had said before that he didn't know whether he was not in love enough or was too cautious, so he insisted on the gentleman's theory of "parting in peace" to the end, swallowing all the pain and suffering.
He did not refute or defend himself at the time.
Love and marriage were both arranged for him by his family. He can accept them and shoulder the responsibilities that he should fulfill.
But in the end, he was somewhat unhappy and repulsed by this arrangement.
In comparison, this relationship and future marriage that was constrained by the family from the very beginning were actually less important to him than the establishment of Suixing Law Firm.
However, in the past ten or twenty years, who can dare to say that he has not been sincere?
More than five years is neither long nor short.
But it can also make many things flow one by one in the river of time.
As she once said, Gu Ci now is just the past and a friend to him.
They are still relatively distant friends.
The reason I came to see her today was just because of this relationship and for the sake of Gu's father and his elder brother.
Therefore, her "I'm sorry" was, to say the least, heartless and cold-blooded, insignificant and dispensable.
The silence in the ward seemed to last for a long time.
After a while, his low and cold voice sounded, "What do you mean by mentioning this to me now?"
Gu Ci was stunned, perhaps shocked by his nonchalant tone and expression.
Or maybe his indifferent attitude hurt her memories.
Gu Ci took a deep breath and slowed down her disordered breathing before speaking, "I... I don't mean anything else. I just felt that... something was a little unclear at the beginning, so I have to make it clear."
As she spoke, she suddenly smiled sadly, "Actually, to be honest with you, I'm not afraid of you laughing at me. During the time I was receiving treatment abroad,
I have always regretted the decision I made and I don’t know if it was the right choice.
Maybe I'm too narrow-minded. Even though I have been ill for so many years, you have always treated me well and never despised me.
So, I wanted to tell you the truth more than once, but I was afraid that you would hate me and dislike me because of that incident, so I always hesitated and struggled.
When I decided to come back, I was sure that my physical condition had almost stabilized. However, I didn't expect that after only two months, I suddenly fell ill, which caught me off guard.
Don't think I'm nagging, I just feel a little guilty... cough cough cough..."
After talking so much in a row, her breathing and heart rate became disordered.
The air I inhaled was much less than the air I exhaled. As my lungs were squeezed, I started coughing violently and uncontrollably.
The cheeks that were originally as pale as paper now had some unusual redness due to the blood circulation.
Seeing this, Pei Sui reached out to press the bell to call the doctor.
“Don’t…don’t…”
Gu Ci hurriedly spoke out to stop him and shook her head.
She patted her chest gently to calm herself down, and said, "It's okay, I just spoke a little hastily, I'll be fine after a while..."
After taking two deep breaths, the heart rate on the instrument was indeed slowly decreasing.
Pei Sui frowned and withdrew his hand.
Gu Ci slowed down again and tried to force a smile, "Sorry."
"Don't mention the past anymore. Just take a rest."
Pei Sui spoke lightly, then turned around and prepared to leave.
Gu Ci's pupils shrank slightly, and she called out to him, pointing to the pink and white porcelain cup with a rabbit and her name printed on it on the table on the other side.
"A Sui, before you leave, could you pour me a cup of warm water? My throat is a little dry and I feel uncomfortable. I feel like coughing.
My mother and sister are gone, and the nanny has gone back to prepare dinner... cough cough cough..."
As she spoke, she coughed twice more, and the corners of Qing Ling's beautiful eyes turned red.
Pei Sui's gaze fell on the pink and white porcelain cup. His eyes froze for a moment, then slowly narrowed.
This porcelain cup is a couple's style.
It was a piece of clay made a few days before their engagement party.
Her cup was pink and white with a rabbit painted on it, and his was blue and white with a lazy cat painted on it.
It's been many years.
He walked over, picked up the cup with an expressionless look, poured her a cup of warm water from the water dispenser, walked back to the edge of the bed and handed her the cup.
Gu Ci smiled gently and said thank you, and wanted to reach out to take it, but she didn't have much strength in her hands.
So he could only slowly lean his head over and slowly open his lips, "Thank you for your help."
When Meng Sheng came in, what he saw was Pei Sui holding a cup and feeding Gu Ci water.
There is some distance between the two of them. The situation and scene, although not ambiguous, still make people feel a bit intimate.
A kind of intimacy that is unique to the two of them.
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