Meng Sheng took a breath, his tone calm but with a touch of seriousness and resolve. "I'm calm. I know exactly what I'm doing, and every decision I make is the result of careful consideration. What I said last night might have been a little unpleasant and harsh, but... every word was the truth."
She pursed her lips and said, "Also, there are some things I want to make clear to you. I don't want this matter to create too much distance between us.
I don't distrust you, nor am I on guard against you. I know you are so angry because you are worried about me, but even if I could do it again, I still wouldn't tell you. It's not because I don't trust you, nor because I have excluded you from my heart, but because I can't drag you into this abyss where people are eaten without leaving any bones.
I believe that if you were in my position, you would make the same choice as me."
This approach may seem a bit like self-admiration or a pretentious way of doing things.
But only when she is really in this situation will she truly feel what it means to have no solution.
She also understood why Pei Sui was so angry.
From his perspective, she really didn't trust him and excluded him without hesitation.
This kind of anger is mixed with more heartache and self-blame.
He couldn't imagine how dangerous that night was, and blamed himself for not being with her. He also felt how pathetic he was as a boyfriend, letting her bear so much alone. Even if her spine was broken, she was unwilling to say more to him.
This impermanence is not a failure.
When he felt this emotion, he felt frustrated and powerless, but he also heard some words from her that were almost calm enough to draw a clear line between them, and he felt really bad.
She took several breaths and said, "So, I sincerely apologize to you for hurting you and making you angry. I'm sorry."
She didn't say anything like she hoped he could forgive her, but instead gave him the choice. Even if he said he wanted to break up now, she seemed to be able to accept it calmly.
Pei Sui frowned, understanding the meaning of her expression. His deep eyes, filled with a hint of coldness, looked at her deeply.
The right to choose between them has actually always been in Meng Sheng's hands.
The one who holds his lifeline and their future in his hands has always been Meng Sheng.
After a long while, he finally asked in a hoarse voice, "Meng Sheng, do you want to have a future with me?"
Meng Sheng was stunned. He didn't expect him to ask this suddenly.
At that moment, many things flashed through her mind, but she gave a very affirmative answer within two seconds.
"have."
If she hadn't been attracted to him, she would never have agreed to be with him.
Perhaps she felt that this word was not enough to express her feelings, so she added, "If I didn't like you, I wouldn't be so dependent on you..."
"Depend on me?" Pei Sui immediately responded, "When have you ever depended on me?"
"Huh? Where isn't it?"
"At least I didn't feel it, which only means it's not enough." Pei Sui grabbed her hand, "You are not alone. You don't have to bear everything by yourself. Even if it's about your mother, I can still have this obligation even if I'm not your boyfriend. Meng Sheng, I want to be with you for the rest of my life. I'm not the type to get off halfway. I'm willing to face anything with you and solve it together."
There is nothing in life that cannot be overcome.
Even if it meant giving up his future and himself for her, he would be willing to do so.
Besides, it hasn't reached that point yet.
He knew that she was independent and used to taking care of everything on her own. He also understood that her starting point in this matter was not to burden him, but he also wanted to feel needed.
From the beginning, there was actually only a process between them. Although the process was important, he had never heard Meng Sheng express his feelings to her. It seemed like a relationship that could be stopped at any time.
No one would believe it if I said I wouldn't go. The founder of the famous Suixing Law Firm and the second young master of the Pei family, the richest man in Beijing, would actually become worried and uneasy because of love.
Whenever he felt this uneasiness, he would always relieve it through some physical contact such as hugging her, holding her hand, and kissing her, so that his empty heart would be filled again.
Meng Sheng looked at his eyes filled with disappointment and grievance, and his heart suddenly felt a pang.
She raised her hands and threw herself into his arms, hugging his waist tightly. Her soft voice was unconsciously choked with sobs, "I'm sorry."
Almost the moment she rushed in, Pei Sui reached out and embraced her, holding her tightly in his arms and kissing her earlobe. "You don't have to apologize. It's my fault as a boyfriend. I've never been in a serious relationship before, so I don't know how to treat you well or what I should do... You can slowly teach me how to be a good boyfriend. I can learn anything. So, no matter what happens in the future, you can discuss it with me. Don't be afraid of getting me into trouble. I'm stronger than you think. Nothing can crush me."
The only thing that could crush him was her distrust and indifference, or her lack of love and sense of superfluity.
No matter which one it is, it will be like cutting out the flesh of his heart.
The pain is indescribable.
It was like being in purgatory, making him experience the pain and despair of all kinds of punishment.
He slowly raised his hand, pinched her pink earlobe, and murmured, "I know everyone has secrets. There are some things you don't want to say. I won't force you. I can wait. Whenever you are willing to tell me, I will be willing to listen. But you can't lie to me, especially something like this. It makes me feel like you don't need me and don't trust me."
"good."
Meng Sheng's mind seemed to be injected with something extraordinary, which was trying hard to pull at her emotions and reason.
She bit her lip to suppress the sobs that were about to burst out of her throat and pressed her face against his chest, but in the end she couldn't hold back her tears. "I didn't think it through. From now on, we can discuss anything together. I won't make choices for you anymore."
She always thought that she was the only one involved in everything, but she didn't know that there was a man who was chosen by heaven and was willing to share the joys and sorrows with her and stand by her through thick and thin.
At this moment, she seemed to be able to firmly confirm that the man in front of her would not betray her or hurt her like Shang Boyu.
She thought she was too lonely.
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