Xie Zhuo didn't speak immediately, but thought for a while before slowly saying, "I really like children."
Xu Yan paused, and gently pinched his fingers as well.
“I’ve been fantasizing about what it would be like if we had a child,” Xie Zhuo released Xu Yan’s hand, his fingertips sliding down to her lower abdomen, “would the child look like me or like you?”
Xu Yan opened her mouth, wanting to say something, but before she could speak, she heard Xie Zhuo continue, "However, what I was thinking at the time was that it was up to you; you could have the baby whenever you wanted."
“If you…don’t want to have children,” Xie Zhuo paused, “I won’t force you to have them.”
Xu Yan was suddenly stunned, and her voice rose a few decibels.
"What?"
Xie Zhuo's hand was still on Xu Yan's lower abdomen. Hearing her slightly surprised voice, he patted her gently to comfort her.
"I love children, and I want to have a child of our own, but..."
Xie Zhuo frowned, seemingly lost in thought. "Having a child is not a simple or easy thing."
“Sun Jiarou almost died after being taken to the hospital that day. Although it was related to the fall she took, when I think about it…”
Xie Zhuo didn't continue, but Xu Yan still guessed what he was going to say next.
Sun Jiarou's situation was indeed dangerous; if she hadn't been brought there in time, she might have died.
Xu Yan also heard about how Han Xiaoyu was almost beaten to death by Sun Guoan and Sun Jiarou's brothers.
However, she never expected that this incident would leave such a deep shadow on Xie Zhuo.
Xu Yan leaned over and kissed Xie Zhuo on his furrowed brow. "It's okay. There are so many accidents. So many babies are born in the brigade. Sun Jiarou's case is a low-probability event in mathematics."
Xie Zhuo breathed a sigh of relief and hummed in agreement. "I know, but we're not in a hurry."
"No rush?" Xu Yan couldn't help but repeat softly.
If this were said in later generations, Xu Yan would definitely find it normal, since many people in later generations marry and have children late, or even choose not to marry or have children at all.
In today's rural areas, it's quite surprising to hear a man born and raised in the countryside say such things.
She looked at Xie Zhuo.
“Yes,” Xie Zhuo nodded, “I want to wait a little longer, until we are both ready. I don’t want what happened to Da Bao and Xiao Bao to happen to our children.”
"I think when she or he is born, we will be ready and looking forward to his arrival."
Xu Yan remained silent for a long time.
She stared at Xie Zhuo for a long time, then hooked her arm around his neck, and Xie Zhuo lowered his head and kissed her lips.
A very brief kiss.
“That’s what I think too,” Xu Yan said. “From any perspective, it’s not really suitable for us to have another child right now. I admit, I’m a little scared and not ready, but…”
She leaned over and kissed Xie Zhuo on the cheek again, "I also want to have a child that belongs to both of us."
Because of her words, Xie Zhuo's hand, which was placed on Xu Yan's lower abdomen, trembled slightly.
Compared to Xu Yan's understanding of Xie Zhuo, Xie Zhuo's understanding of Xu Yan is much greater than what Xu Yan herself knows.
Because he understands things better, his expectations will be lower.
From the day they got married, he was already prepared for Xu Yan to leave him one day. At that time, he thought that it would be great if they could stay together for two years.
But as time went on, his feelings for Xu Yan deepened and his possessiveness grew stronger.
If they could be together forever, he wouldn't want to be separated from her for even a moment.
He also knew that Xu Yan had his own plans.
So he secretly adjusted his plans for the future, thinking that if the college entrance examination were to be reinstated, he would also take the exam.
He goes wherever she goes.
Of course, what he just said wasn't a deliberate tactic to get Xu Yan to make a promise; that's exactly what he was thinking.
He wouldn't care if Xu Yan stayed with him forever, even if they never had children.
"Really?" Xie Zhuo's voice was a little low.
Hearing his question, Xu Yan smiled and said, "What are you thinking? I also want to be a mother. Although we have Da Bao and Xiao Bao now, I still want to have a child with you."
"Like you said, it could be like you, or like me, or it could be like both of us."
“However, it might take a few years,” Xu Yan said, his expression becoming more serious. “Right now…”
Before Xu Yan could finish speaking, Xie Zhuo pressed his lips against hers and sealed her lips.
She didn't know what was wrong with Xie Zhuo all of a sudden, but she opened her lips in response.
Xie Zhuo's eyes grew even deeper, and he couldn't help but feel happy when he heard that he was also included in her future plans.
The warm palm slid down a little.
Xu Yan gave a soft snort.
She wanted to reach out to block, but the next moment, Xie Zhuo touched a certain spot, and her whole body went limp.
Many people stay up all night on New Year's Eve, but there is no such custom on New Year's Day. No matter how noisy it is, people will go to bed early to avoid the high electricity bill.
Outside, you can hear the howling wind blowing snowflakes like willow catkins, pelting against the windows.
At first, Xu Yan managed to bite her lip and keep quiet, but after hearing Xie Zhuo occasionally say those unpleasant things in her ear, she couldn't hold back anymore.
She was both ashamed and annoyed.
I scratched his arm several times.
Xie Zhuo could still smile, her eyelashes half-drooping and the corners of her lips curving upwards, "Little kitty."
Then, the cat retaliated with an even harder swipe of its paw.
The indoor atmosphere was enchanting, and Xie Zhuo only slowed down his movements after the wind and snow subsided somewhat.
Xu Yan's eyelashes were wet, making her look very well-behaved.
Xie Zhuo's heart melted completely. He lowered his head and kissed the corner of her reddened eyes. Only when she rubbed her legs against his waist, which seemed a little impatient, did he move again.
Xu Yan was still not satisfied.
The wind and snow started again, blowing against the door curtain, and you could hear the curtain rubbing back and forth against the wooden door.
Xie Zhuo suddenly wanted to tease Xu Yan, so he used his fingertips to brush away the strands of hair that were stuck to the corner of her mouth.
He said, "Or, you could beg me, and I'd..."
It snowed all night the night before, and the whole world was covered in white the next day.
Da Bao and Xiao Bao were laughing excitedly in the yard. Xu Yan turned her head and looked to the side. Xie Zhuo had gotten up sometime earlier and was no longer on the kang (a heated brick bed).
Xu Yan felt unwell all over, and after lying down for a while, he fell asleep again. When he woke up again, it was already lunchtime.
Xie Zhuo knew that going too far at night was too much, so he didn't let the two kids bother Xu Yan. He also wrapped the puppy, which had been barking incessantly since early morning, in a thick towel and took it to Da Bao and Xiao Bao's room.
Originally, Da Bao and Xiao Bao wanted to have a snowball fight and build a snowman, but when they saw "Kaixin", they obediently squatted to the side and watched Xie Zhuo feed the puppy milk.
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