Chapter 435: Mom, can we not die?

Zheng Xiaolian was stunned.

After realizing what was happening, she waved her hands away in panic.

"No, no, no, that's not necessary..."

She was already feeling bad enough that he saw her in such an embarrassing situation.

She also understood that Song Wenlin wanted to take her out for dinner because he saw her current predicament.

An inexplicable feeling of bitterness surged into my heart.

She wiped away her tears secretly.

When she looked up again, she tried hard to force a smile.

"Wenlin, thank you, but I really can't bother you anymore! I'm married now, and I have a child. I can't, I can't bother you anymore!"

God knows, it took her all her strength to say these words.

The child was so hungry that he was about to faint.

But Zheng Xiaolian knew that she couldn't and could no longer accept Song Wenlin's kindness.

He is a good man!

He has always been a good guy!

In the beginning, it was I who betrayed him.

In order to stay in the city and no longer go back to the farm that kept her awake every night, she finally chose to abandon him.

Although it was partly because of her mother, Zheng Xiaolian knew in her heart that she was also afraid of being caught again. She felt that the thought of returning to that farm would make her life worse than death.

She also knew what kind of harm this would cause to Song Wenlin.

But she had no choice in that situation.

Who would have known that the country had already allowed the educated youth to return? ?

Just one step, just one step!

If she had known that the educated youth returning to the city would not have to be repatriated, she would never have abandoned him!

She hadn't lived a good life these past few years. Or should I say, she had lived a very bad life. It seemed like it was God's retribution for her past actions. She deserved it all.

Two years ago, her mother fell ill with a lung problem. The doctor said it was difficult to cure, but because she held on to a glimmer of hope, she kept asking her in-laws for money. Even if she was scolded and beaten, she would take the money back to pay for her mother's treatment.

But in the end, all her efforts to fetch water with the bamboo basket were in vain, as her mother passed away this fall.

What she didn't expect was that although the child she gave birth to was weak and sickly since childhood, she didn't care, but he suddenly fell into a coma two days ago. After a doctor's examination, she found out that Xiaoxiao had a tumor in her brain.

As she grew up, the tumor also continued to grow and now has pressed on her nerves, which caused her coma a few days ago.

When Zheng Xiaolian heard the news, she was completely stunned.

Why did God play such a joke on her?

Will she let all her loved ones leave her one by one?

Experts say that if Xiaoxiao does not receive timely treatment for this tumor, it will only grow larger and larger. If it squeezes any blood vessels or nerves, it may even cause cerebral hemorrhage or stroke. It is more likely to develop into brain cancer. By then, she can only wait to die.

Her child Xiaoxiao was only two years old, and at that moment Zheng Xiaolian even felt like the sky was falling.

Her current man is also named Zheng Lijun!

Both of his parents are full-time workers, and he himself is also the workshop manager in the factory.

He was nice to her when they first got married, but ever since her mother fell ill and she asked him for money, he became a completely different person.

But she had no choice but to ask him for money, and she borrowed from all the relatives she could.

The families of my two younger brothers also sold their old houses.

But this money is just a drop in the bucket for her mother's illness.

Zheng Lijun felt that he had lost so much money and looked down on her.

In addition, Zheng Xiaolian only gave birth to a daughter over the years, and her mother-in-law was not very satisfied with her.

Now that the young lady is ill again, the whole family's attitude has changed.

Zheng Lijun really felt that he had married a dead end.

Her parents-in-law became increasingly dissatisfied with her and even considered forcing their son to divorce her and remarry.

No one was willing to pay for Xiaoxiao's medical treatment, so Zheng Xiaolian had to secretly sell her job to pay for her medical treatment.

But even so, it can only slow down the growth of the tumor and cannot fundamentally solve the problem.

The doctor said that if Xiaoxiao wants to recover completely, she must undergo a craniotomy. Although it is very risky, there is no other solution now.

She didn't want to bother Song Wenlin at this time, for she was afraid that she would be tempted to borrow money from him.

She had already let him down enough and felt guilty enough.

I really want to pass on my misfortune to him.

In fact, just now by the river, Zheng Xiaolian really had the idea of ​​committing suicide.

She and Xiaoxiao have both experienced too much suffering, and perhaps death is the only true relief.

All the way there, she was holding Xiaoxiao and comforting her constantly.

"Xiaoxiao, dear child, you won't feel uncomfortable, painful, or hungry anymore in a while. Mommy will stay with you, always with you..."

But when she got closer, she found that the river was frozen.

Just when she was wondering what other ways of death she would have.

It was Song Wenlin's help that made her wake up.

She actually wanted to take her own daughter with her to die. She was still so young and hadn't seen the world properly, but she decided the length of her life privately. Wasn't she too selfish?

But Zheng Xiaolian thought sadly that she had no money to pay for her daughter's medical treatment, so it would be better to die cleanly than to live in pain.

Moreover, she would always be with her and die with her.

Song Wenlin saw that she was shaking her head desperately and was unwilling to go with him.

I also feel a little uncomfortable in my heart.

"Xiao Lian, I know what you are afraid of. I don't want to do anything to you. You are married, don't worry, I don't have any improper thoughts. Even if I see a stranger with a child, I can still give her a bite of food, right?"

Zheng Xiaolian froze at these words.

Although she tried her best not to have anything to do with him anymore, she couldn't help feeling sad when she suddenly heard him say that he no longer had any improper thoughts about her.

Because even though he hated me so much, I still loved him and thought about him all the time!

Quietly clenching her sleeves, she couldn't help but laugh at herself.

How could she have the nerve to love him now?

At this moment, Xiaoxiao in her arms suddenly held her face.

A pair of clean and pure eyes, just like my former self.

I only heard Xiaoxiao crying and whispering, "Mom, can we not die? Xiaoxiao... doesn't want to die, and I don't want Mom to die either..."

Xiaoxiao, who is just over two years old, has been smarter than other children since she was young. She could call "Mom" when she was less than one year old. Perhaps it is because she lives in such a family that her thoughts and ideas are not like those of a two-year-old child.

Hearing her words and meeting her eyes filled with sadness and pleading.

Zheng Xiaolian couldn't hold back any longer and hugged her and started crying, "wuwuwu..."

Why does she want to die? !