With a sob in her voice, Shen Qiaoyue questioned Lu Chen.
When asked this question, Lu Chen was taken aback and looked at Shen Qiaoyue, unable to answer it.
Seeing that Lu Chen did not respond, Shen Qiaoyue sniffed, but still could not hold back her tears.
“Lu Chen, being a military wife is really tough. The year you went to the north, the children asked every day, ‘Why isn’t Dad here?’ This time when you’re away, Da Nian asked me, ‘Dad is lying again. Does Dad not want us anymore?’”
Shen Qiaoyue expressed her grievances, staring at Lu Chen and saying, "I support your choice, Lu Chen. I am your wife. Sometimes I wish you would be a little selfish because I am afraid that you will get hurt, afraid of losing you, and afraid that the children will lose you. I am not a good military wife, but I want to be a good wife and a qualified mother. I hope that the children can grow up in a complete family."
Seeing Shen Qiaoyue crying so sadly, yet unable to utter a single word, Lu Chen understood perfectly well that his wife was worried about him.
He does indeed get injured every time he goes out.
Holding Shen Qiaoyue in his arms, Lu Chen gently patted her back and softly comforted her, "Wife, I'll listen to you. I'll definitely protect myself next time and won't get hurt again."
Over the years, they have been separated more often than together, and each time they are away for a long time, I have never heard Shen Qiaoyue complain. But I never thought that she was swallowing all her grievances.
Shen Qiaoyue knew she shouldn't say that, as it would distract Lu Chen from his work. However, she was so startled by his words that she couldn't control her worries and revealed them all.
Even though she knew Lu Chen would be alright, she was still afraid of the ever-changing future, very afraid.
They had children and families, which brought them more responsibilities.
"Wife, all these years I've caused you so much worry and fear because of the harm I've brought you, have you ever resented me?" Lu Chen asked Shen Qiaoyue.
"Of course I resent it. I resent why you always get hurt, why you always make me worry. Don't think I don't know. You always get hurt for others. You always save others and never think about me and the children. What if something really happens to you?"
How could Shen Qiaoyue not resent it? But she had no choice and could not convince herself to let Lu Chen become selfish and not save others. That would cause Lu Chen pain, and she would also be in great pain. Her conscience wouldn't allow it.
Lu Chen stared at his wife, a woman who was tough on the outside but soft on the inside.
Shen Qiaoyue sniffed and hugged Lu Chen tightly, saying, "What? Weren't you quite eloquent just now? Now you can't speak properly?"
It's always the same; whenever Lu Chen's work is mentioned, he falls silent.
Shen Qiaoyue wouldn't actually let him retire and change careers. As his wife, how could she not worry when she saw her husband returning from missions always with injuries?
Lu Chen didn't know how to answer, so he chose to remain silent.
He was so engrossed in this job that he couldn't give it up, and he understood his wife's worries, but what could he do? There was nothing he could do but remain silent, silently telling himself that he just had to protect himself from getting hurt again.
Shen Qiaoyue leaned against Lu Chen's chest, and gradually calmed down as she cried.
The more she thought about it, the angrier she became. She pounded on Lu Chen's chest, looked up at him with teary eyes, and gazed at him with a pitiful expression.
She cried for so long, yet Lu Chen still couldn't comfort her.
In his past life, when Shen Qiaoyue cried, he was the same way, standing aside, saying nothing, looking very awkward.
"Wife, I'm sorry." It seems that this is the only sentence Lu Chen can say. He doesn't know what else to say to comfort others.
Shen Qiaoyue burst into tears again in anger.
"Can't you... comfort me a little? In your heart, am I being unreasonable right now?" Shen Qiaoyue shouldn't have paid any attention to Lu Chen.
Lu Chen panicked and said anxiously, "I...no, I'm not being unreasonable, honey, I..."
As Shen Qiaoyue shed tears, she looked at Lu Chen's expression and gradually became anxious, her face turning bright red as she became anxious.
Lu Chen, this repressed and brooding man, really doesn't know how to comfort people.
"Honey, wait a little longer. When the time is right, I'll apply for a transfer and stay with you and the kids. I promise I won't get hurt again during this period. Give me some time to train those new recruits, and then I'll apply for a transfer. How about I become a security guard at your factory?"
Lu Chen seemed to have made a decision, and said to Shen Qiaoyue.
He has indeed spent far too little time with his family. If he continues like this, he will still choose to save others without hesitation when faced with danger.
Rather than that, it would be better to retire, so that I can spend more time with my family.
When Shen Qiaoyue heard what Lu Chen said, she stared at him blankly and asked, "Is this how you think of me?"
"No, honey, retiring was my own decision," Lu Chen explained again.
Shen Qiaoyue took a deep breath in anger.
I closed my eyes, didn't want to talk, and lay down to sleep.
When Lu Chen saw his wife's sudden action, he felt like a child who had done something wrong.
Oh no, I must have said something wrong.
"Honey, did I do something wrong?" Lu Chen asked Shen Qiaoyue nervously, clutching the blanket. "Tell me so I can correct it. Otherwise, I really don't know where I went wrong."
Hearing Lu Chen's words, Shen Qiaoyue, who was already angry, felt even more aggrieved and sad.
Silently weeping in bed, she sat up again, tears welling in her eyes, and said to Lu Chen, "Lu Chen, I worry about you, I care about you, I'm afraid of losing you. I don't want you to always be on the front lines. As long as you're not on the front lines, you can still do more in the army, train more new recruits. I don't want you to always get injured on missions. I'm conflicted, but I understand the cause you're so passionate about. It's not that I don't support you, it's just that I have no choice but to support you, which is why I'm afraid. I'm confiding in you, can't you even listen to me complain a few times?"
Seeing that Shen Qiaoyue was crying even harder, Lu Chen panicked even more and reached out to wipe away the tears from the corners of Shen Qiaoyue's eyes.
"Honey, I misunderstood you. I'm sorry."
Shen Qiaoyue's tears, like pearls, flowed continuously down her cheeks.
“Have I ever delayed your mission? Never, right? I’ve worried about you all these years, so much so that I can’t sleep. Every night I dream of you being hurt. I have no one to talk to, so I can only swallow my pain. I… I just…” Shen Qiaoyue was even more heartbroken. No matter how good Lu Chen was, he couldn’t speak well or comfort people. He was unmoved when Shen Qiaoyue cried, and he was still unmoved when Shen Qiaoyue was aggrieved. It made her feel like she was the only one being unreasonable.
"Lu Chen, you just think I'm being unreasonable, don't you?"
“I’m worried about you, and I’m telling you what’s on my mind because I want you to know that the children and I are worried about you. I hope you’ll think about the family in everything you do in the future. Am I wrong?”
"Isn't it you who joked with me using your own body?"
Shen Qiaoyue was furious.
Shen Shen said during the day that they never argued, but now they've started arguing.
Lu Chen panicked even more. He didn't know what to say. He actually had a lot to say, but he was afraid that if he said it, his wife would be even angrier.
"Xiaoyue, what's wrong?" Chu Wanfang heard Shen Qiaoyue arguing in the next room and came over to knock on the door out of concern.
After hearing her mother knocking on the door, Shen Qiaoyue gradually calmed down.
She glanced at Lu Chen and said to the door, "Mom, I'm fine. I was just talking too loudly. I'll be careful."
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