Lu He couldn't fall asleep that night. She felt a little uneasy without Xu Feiming by her side.
I tossed and turned, got up and wrote in my diary, recording what was on my mind.
Lu He didn't fall asleep until late at night.
When Liu Xinlan returned home, she coaxed her child to sleep that night. As she looked at her sleeping child, she fell into deep thought.
Xu Qianli came in after taking a shower and saw that Liu Xinlan was still awake. He carefully leaned in, hugged Liu Xinlan, and asked, "What are you thinking about? You're still awake?"
Liu Xinlan leaned against him and let out a long sigh.
"I have something to say to you?" Xu Qianli twitched in fear when Liu Xinlan said this.
"Xinlan, what do you want to say?" she asked tentatively, swallowing nervously.
Liu Xinlan got up from Xu Qianli's embrace, turned to face him, and noticed his nervous expression.
"I plan to take a leave of absence without pay for a while." Liu Xinlan looked at Xu Qianli and discussed it with him very seriously.
"Why? Everything's fine, why would you want to take unpaid leave?" Xu Qianli didn't understand why Liu Xinlan suddenly brought this up.
Liu Xinlan sighed softly and said, "I've been under a lot of pressure lately, and I always take it out on you. I think I'm not quite right in the head. We live under the same roof, but it's like we can't see each other. She seems to have a sense of insecurity about us. She pays close attention when we bicker, afraid that we'll fight and break up."
Liu Xinlan felt that she was working too hard and was under a lot of work pressure recently, and that she was also neglecting to take care of and spend time with her child.
"I want to rest for a while, and we'll talk about going back to work later." Liu Xinlan looked at Xu Qianli and said, "Bai Le has been out of the workforce for two months now, and she'll be back to work soon. I plan to apply for a break after she returns to work. As for you, if you can go home, come back as often as possible. Even if she only sees us once a day, that would be good."
After Liu Xinlan finished speaking, she looked back at Xiangxiang and felt sorry for her daughter. She had started working shortly after her daughter was born and hadn't had time to spend with her.
Shen Qiaoyue spends more time with her daughter than she does as her mother.
“Xinlan, if you’re tired, take a good rest. After the New Year, no matter how late it is, I will come back to be with you and the child.” Xu Qianli came over and hugged Liu Xinlan. “If you’re not feeling well at work, take a break and come back to work when you’re better. If you don’t want to go to work, that’s fine too. Stay home with our daughter and we can take turns taking care of her. You can take care of the child at home during the day and I will take care of the child when we get back at night.”
"You make it sound so easy. You only come back a few times a week, so busy you're practically invisible. Don't you know how hard it is to take care of the kids if you don't work?" Liu Xinlan was conflicted; she wanted to be with her children, but she also wanted to go to work.
When I'm not working, it's really boring. I'm just at home and I don't know what to do that makes me feel meaningful.
I have to take a break now. If I don't adjust my mood before going back to work, and instead leave my anger and frustration on the patients, that would be a big problem.
"I'll listen to you. Everything should be based on your happiness. If you're tired from work, take a break first, and then go back to work when you're rested." Xu Qianli knew that Liu Xinlan was under a lot of pressure, and he felt sorry for her but couldn't make the choice for her.
"Qianli, I feel like I've become a bitter woman. I don't know why, I just feel very uncomfortable." Liu Xinlan didn't want to be like this, but she just couldn't control herself.
Xu Qianli gently patted Liu Xinlan's back and comforted her, "It's because I haven't been a good husband that you've become like this. Xinlan, I'm sorry."
If Xinlan hadn't married him, she might have had a better life. After marrying him, she had to balance both sides and faced enormous pressure in her work and life.
“Xinlan, this daughter is enough for us. Don’t take what those people in the family compound say to heart.” Those old ladies in the family compound always gossip about other people’s private lives and like to make comparisons. “Think about how cute she is, how happy she is. It doesn’t matter if she doesn’t have a younger brother or sister. Xiaoli gave birth to a daughter, Bai Le gave birth to a daughter, she has daughters everywhere. I don’t care.”
In Xu Qianli's heart, he would love any child that was born to both of them.
Liu Xinlan looked at Xu Qianli, nodded, and leaned against Xu Qianli's chest.
If they can't even take care of one child, they certainly wouldn't dare have a second one.
In recent years, Liu Xinlan has been working under great pressure. Despite the difficulties caused by some factional people at work, she has always tried her best to overcome them and continue to work.
"I don't care what they say. Right now, I just want to be there for my child as he grows up. I can't stop working. Once I've rested enough, I'll go back to work." Liu Xinlan just felt that she wasn't in good shape and needed to adjust.
"I know I'm just your husband. I can't make choices for you, and I won't make choices for you. Xinlan, when we encounter difficulties, we'll overcome them together. Don't keep them to yourself." Xu Qianli breathed a sigh of relief, thankfully it wasn't about divorce.
Xu Qianli hugged Liu Xinlan tightly.
"Qianli, I'm sorry. You've taken on all my pressure these past few days." Liu Xinlan knew that Xu Qianli had actually been accommodating her all along.
Xu Qianli said, "No, I also have things I didn't do well. Don't keep it to yourself in the future. Remember to tell me, otherwise I won't know that I did something wrong, and it will be hard for you to keep it to yourself."
Liu Xinlan nodded. After everything was out in the open, things changed, and she felt much better.
Xu Qianli said, "I will spend more time with you and our daughter in the future. It's hard to believe how much we've grown up. So many years have passed in the blink of an eye. She'll be four years old in a few months!"
"That's right. Luckily, Xiangxiang has her older brothers and sisters by her side every day, otherwise she would be so lonely." Liu Xinlan thought of Da Nian and Xiao Nian, who were always by Xiangxiang's side, ensuring that Xiangxiang would not be lonely throughout her childhood.
Hehe~
We were talking about something I wanted to think about when I suddenly burst into laughter, excitedly reciting a dream.
Liu Xinlan and Xu Qianli watched as Xiangxiang laughed so happily that they were drooling.
"Bring me a handkerchief." Liu Xinlan called to Xu Qianli to bring a handkerchief to wipe Xiangxiang's drool.
Liu Xinlan took the handkerchief that Xu Qianli handed her and carefully wiped the drool from Xiangxiang's mouth.
"What happy dream did this child have to be so joyful?" Liu Xinlan couldn't help but gossip.
Xu Qianli looked at his daughter with a smile, drooling as he laughed.
"She must have been dreaming about delicious food. Just thinking about or hearing about delicious food always makes my mouth water." Xu Qianli knew his daughter was a foodie.
The next second!
"Chicken leg, delicious, delicious!" Xiangxiang murmured with a smile in her dream.
Liu Xinlan and Xu Qianli exchanged a smile; they really had dreamt of delicious food.
"Chicken leg, go to the supply and marketing cooperative tomorrow night and see if they have any chickens for sale. We'll buy one and make chicken legs for Xiangxiang," Liu Xinlan said to Xu Qianli.
“Okay, I’ll go check it out first thing tomorrow morning,” Xu Qianli said.
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