Chapter 100
Lin Han thought he wouldn't cry.
Because compared to this kind of emotion that is simply used for catharsis, he has not yet recovered from those truths.
Just like what happened on the battleship before, an overly close relationship sometimes makes Lin Han conjure up some specific images in his mind.
The inner perspective was He Yunting's, so he had the rare opportunity to truly stand in the other person's shoes and see again everything that happened three years ago.
He finally understood why He Yunting hid from him the moment he recovered his memory, and finally knew the whole picture of the current events without any obstruction.
It was no use covering his ears; those words still stabbed into his chest like sharp knives, but the holes were so empty that not even blood could flow out.
Before he could react, the past just kept on drilling into the gaps that had been pierced, twisting the soft flesh of his heart and digging deep into it, leaving him no chance to avoid it.
He saw his name and information turned into a string of symbols, and listed in a special database along with a row of Omegas that could no longer be verified.
He saw many unfamiliar faces, saw a secret laboratory sealed in a remote place, and saw He Yunting walking out of it with cold and silent eyes.
He saw He Yunting kill many people, and saw the last person say his mother's name word by word with a grin, and then cruelly recounted every thing that had happened to her. The more he spoke, the more pleased the other person's face became.
He knew that his mother would sometimes be in a daze, look at something and sigh softly, hold his hand and tell him, Hanhan, don't be afraid, Hanhan can go wherever she wants in the future.
But she was always gentle when looking at herself, so gentle that there was no trace of those things in her eyes.
Lin Han's body began to tremble. An intense sadness gripped his throat and he could only make vague and unclear sounds.
“No, no…”
Don't tell me, I don't want to know.
At this moment, he just wanted to escape. His knees were so weak that he could not stand and he kept talking.
But these facts kept drilling into his mind. He had no way to avoid them. He was sweating with fear all over. His voice became a little louder in pain without him even noticing: "No, Mom, Mom—"
In just a moment, all the images disappeared.
There was no longer any terrifying scene in front of his eyes. He only heard a man's voice in his ears. He didn't know whether it was the voice in his heart or the comfort that came out of his mouth: "Lin Han, don't be afraid."
"Cry," he added, "I am here."
Lin Han was surprised to find that tears had already started flowing down his face without him noticing.
The moment he realized he was crying, an even stronger sadness came over him. Lin Han's heart was aching. He couldn't control his emotions at all. He could only lean on the person who was holding him in front of him, letting his tears soak the fabric of his clothes on his chest.
Lin Han cried quietly, but occasionally he would sob uncontrollably. If it were in the past he would probably feel embarrassed, but now he had nothing to worry about.
"You...you were..." His voice came over muffled, with a salty taste, "Were you standing in front of me like this at that time?"
"Um."
Lin Han couldn't ask any more questions.
He hoped that He Yunting would wake him up at that time, and he would probably say awkwardly, "The lecture is over, don't sleep anymore," and he would open his eyes in his lingering sleepiness and see those eyes as soon as he looked up.
Maybe I will fall in love at first sight.
But he also knew that He Yunting would not do that, and he understood that the past could not be reversed, so everything could only exist in his imagination.
but……
Lin Han said: "Hold me tighter."
But that’s where they should have started.
He Yunting was not good at comforting people, let alone this time he wanted to make the other person have a good cry.
He could only do as he was told, and then use his hands to move along his back again and again, just like Lin Han had done before.
It was the first time that Lin Han cried for so long.
He always thought that he was strong enough to do many things on his own, take care of himself, and live a good life.
But now, standing in the house where he had lived for more than ten years, he finally felt a sense of helplessness and belated realization.
It was still a familiar scene when I saw it. It turned out that every time a woman spoke to me with a smile, there were so many things hidden in her heart.
It turns out that those things really happened. It turns out that someone really cherished him and placed him in the most precious position, allowing him to walk safely along the way, do what he wanted to do, and live the way he wanted to live.
But one of them will never come back.
With a heart full of inescapable despair.
"Your mother won't blame you." He Yunting finally spoke. He seemed to know what Lin Han was thinking. "You have done what she wanted to see the most."
“You grew up without any influences, and without any emotional disturbances.”
He Yunting rubbed Lin Han's hair.
"You are not a burden to her."
"You are her hope."
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When they left the civilian area and returned to the aircraft, Lin Han had stopped crying.
Apart from not smiling, he looked no different from usual.
But he still couldn't speak.
Both of them looked a little embarrassed now. One had red eyes and nose, the other had wrinkled collar and a large puddle of water on his shoulder.
He Yunting waited for him to calm down for a long time, and only when it was indeed getting late did he restart the aircraft and take off towards the core area.
"Where are we going?" Lin Han suddenly spoke. Even though he didn't cry out loud, his voice was still hoarse.
He asked, his voice a little soft as if washed by tears, as if he had no opinion at all and just wanted to simply ask the other party.
"It's all right." He Yunting couldn't help but ask, "Are you okay?"
Lin Han tried hard to close his eyes, trying to block the emotions that were rising up again: "I'm fine."
"It will be fine after a while." As if afraid that He Yunting would worry, he added.
After a while, he finally tried hard to bend the corners of his mouth again. His upper lip was slightly upturned because he had been crying for too long, and it looked moist, making the smile vivid and pitiful.
"Let's go." Lin Han said.
The greening and planting in civilian areas are very random and not so well organized, but when the aircraft is started and viewed from mid-air, it does have a unique charm.
He Yunting looked at the unknown plants growing intertwined with the buildings below and suddenly remembered something.
"Let me take you back." He Yunting said, "The tulips in the manor are in bloom, do you want to see them?"
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Lin Han remembered that before He Yunting returned from Proton Star, he had seen his flower field once.
At that time, the entire flower field had only grown stems, and the buds had not yet grown, so all that could be seen was a lush green scene.
There seemed to be a glass greenhouse in the middle, but Lin Han couldn't see clearly because it was too far away. There should be some rare and delicate varieties planted in it.
He had never seen such a large flower field, so he naturally looked forward to seeing it in full bloom.
The two didn't speak again on the way, but He Yunting kept letting Lin Han hold his hand.
They seemed like a couple still in their student days. Now that they knew everything, they just held each other's hands tighter.
When He Yunting was quiet, he didn't even have a voice in his heart. There was only a dry palm without any secrets.
While waiting, Lin Han used his fingers to stroke the rough calluses on the other person's hands. Even though he knew he shouldn't be sad anymore, his heart couldn't help but feel numb.
"You probably didn't have such thick calluses on your hands back then." Lin Han lowered his head and asked him, "Was the training very hard?"
He Yunting was debugging the autopilot program. The flight speed was very fast and they were about to land.
He was stunned for a moment and replied, "Not bad."
"What's wrong?"
"No." Lin Han shook his head and stopped talking.
He was just thinking that if he could do it again, he would probably go find him when he was tired from training, rub his hands, or hold his hand and take him back to school.
In short, he shouldn't suffer so much alone anymore. This way, the calluses on his hands will be smaller.
Lin Han couldn't help feeling that he was being pretentious, but he couldn't help it.
Just like he would rather know the truth than want a kiss, even though he knows those days will never come back, he still wants to make all kinds of assumptions.
"We're here." He Yunting didn't ask any more questions, just said quietly.
He did not stop outside this time. There was a large open space next to the flower field. He seemed to not want Lin Han to walk around too much, so he just stopped next to it.
Lin Han's gaze was still on He Yunting's hand. Perhaps because he had been crying for too long, his mind was a little slow. He said "Oh" and nodded, preparing to get up and follow He Yunting down.
"Forget it." He Yunting suddenly said, "Mr. Lin, close your eyes."
Lin Han was tired of crying, and her eyes were sore and swollen, so she just did as she was told. She heard He Yunting continue, "Give me your hand."
"—Give me your hand."
Lin Han suddenly remembered that a long time ago when he first arrived at the base, He Yunting still had a cold look on his face, while he spoke in a light tone. For the first time, he wanted to try to tell He Yunting that he had the ability to read minds, and said to him, give me your hand.
Unexpectedly, after so much time had passed, he also heard the same words.
Lin Han put his hand on it, but He Yunting was afraid that he would fall, so he helped him down.
Lin Han smelled a very light floral scent.
Tulips are not plants with strong scents, and you can't smell any fragrance on normal days. But now, as it's getting close to evening, the fragrance begins to leak out a little. Even if there is such a large area of tulips, it won't make people feel dizzy or chest tightness.
Lin Han let the other person lead him without worry, and walked forward step by step, smelling the fragrance and stepping on the clean white bricks.
He heard the door open: "Okay."
Lin Han opened his eyes.
What catches the eye is a vast expanse of purple that stretches as far as the eye can see, but it does not make people feel dull or gaudy. Each flower has been carefully trimmed, with just the right color and height.
When the wind blows, the flowers and stems sway gently. As the sunset approaches, it moves down a little, revealing clouds dyed golden. Not far from here, there is a parked aircraft and the M2742 standing quietly.
The purple flower field looks like the distant and rare El Iniho Nebula, or a gorgeous purple gem. Because of the light ups and downs, it turns into a purple tide stained with golden light.
"I didn't know why I planted this at the time." He Yunting said calmly, "It was just that one day I suddenly saw a flower field with this color, which looked very similar to the El Inniho Nebula that I had seen before."
But this is different from El Iniho.
Nebulae are not common, but now they are within reach.
Lin Han was in the glass greenhouse in the center, which contained some other flowers with faint fragrance, but all he could see was the entire purple galaxy.
His hand was still holding He Yunting's. Everything around him was too quiet, so quiet that his heartbeat seemed deafening.
"Mr. Lin——"
He Yunting wanted to ask Lin Han if she liked it, but he was interrupted as soon as he opened his mouth.
“I have no regrets.”
Lin Han said: "I did everything voluntarily."
A ray of setting sun passed through the glass door and fell into the greenhouse. Lin Han was covered by He Yunting's shadow, and both of them were wrapped in a layer of fine velvety light.
He saw that He Yunting's facial features were still handsome, and when he lowered his head to look at him, his deep blue eyes were still filled with clean, sincere tenderness.
For a moment, he felt that whether it was sunset or noon, they were just the light that the two of them missed that year.
There are nebulae nearby witnessing them, as if they only need to pick up this light to cross countless light years, dissolve into the universe and galaxy, and return to the most ordinary day of the year.
The atmosphere was very good. They no longer needed to interact with each other through anything, even if the price was to destroy some deliberately created beauty.
"He Yunting," Lin Han looked at him and smiled. This time, there was finally less sadness in his eyes. With the same bright light as many years ago, she said to him, "We have no secrets anymore."
"Come and kiss me, please."
Lin Han thought that he was indeed a very greedy person.
He still wants all the beautiful and sincere things, wants an everlasting warm hug, wants the gentleness of still waters, wants a kiss that is either hot or affectionate.
I want lots and lots of love.
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When He Yunting's lips pressed down, Lin Han leaned against the glass door of the greenhouse and exchanged breaths with him silently.
It was hard to describe the emotion he was feeling. He had no idea where he had thrown his gloves. He wanted so badly to use his hands to caress every inch of the other person's skin, kiss his scars, and lick away his sweat.
Lin Han bit He Yunting's chin, grabbed his hand that was originally intertwined with hers, and put him on her waist.
He Yunting followed the movement of his hand and slid upwards lightly, touching a delicate and gentle skin as smooth as jade.
If he used a little force, he could leave a light red mark on it.
"Let's do it." Lin Han breathed quickly between kisses, "Okay?"
-
A layer of mist covered the glass greenhouse, and the purple flowers gradually became unclear. At first glance, they looked like the El Inniho Nebula, which could only appear in border areas.
Lin Han knelt on the cold crystal chair. Just as she was about to raise her neck impatiently, the man who was leaning half sideways behind her bit her Adam's apple.
"Hmm..." The other party's strength was not strong, he only felt a suffocating itch.
Lin Han shuddered all over, as if he could no longer bear it. He supported himself on the translucent door with his hands, but then his hands slid down due to his weakness, leaving only wet marks left by his five fingers on the glass.
"Shout it out." He Yunting pressed down on Lin Han's waist and spoke in his ear.
Shout it out, whether it’s a suppressed sob or an unbridled cry.
Only I can hear your voice.
There is no one else here, and love becomes naked and real under the sky, with only a continuous purple wave.
Without even closing our eyes, we can be drowned by the waves and then be reborn in the boundless, romantic, and tangible nebula.
The author has something to say:
Chapter 100, let’s send out a hundred red envelopes to celebrate!
He Yunting got hard, and Zuo Run became weak. What does it mean that Zuo Run became weak? Let the editor take you to learn about it below. Zuo Run has become weak, which means Zuo Run has lost his way. It took me two days to write 4,000 words while I was crying. As for why Zuo Run has become weak? I'm not really sure, it's just what you see.
...Okay, I’ll stop talking nonsense and recommend my gay friend’s article. It’s almost finished! Outlast me!
"Pretentious villains will be marked" by Xigua Chaorou
Gu Jingming traveled into a book and became the alpha villain - an omega in disguise.
He went through the storyline obediently, then took the secretly transferred assets, changed his identity and re-entered the entertainment industry to start a new life.
As a result, just as the new life began, the male protagonist suddenly became abnormal.
At the beginning——
The male protagonist glanced at him coldly: "Tell me where he is."
"Senior, you are joking," said Gu Jingming, who had just been on the hot search for kicking an alpha to death, pretending to be obedient, "I really don't know where your mortal enemy is."
later--
"I always see his shadow in you."
"I'm willing to do business with you."
Gu Jingming sneered: "Get lost, if you come over here again I'll kick you."
at last--
Not only did Gu Jingming fail to kick the male protagonist, he was also pressed against the wall by the male protagonist.
The strong alpha scent made him powerless, and he couldn't help blushing: "Let go!"
The male protagonist slowly approached his neck, sniffed his glands, and whispered, "Where are you kicking, baby? That's your future inhibitor."
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