Chapter 34
Lin Han stopped when he heard that.
He hesitated: "But now..."
I can't see anything now.
Moreover, Lin Han had seen the unchanging starry sky more than once.
He Yunting did not answer directly, but asked him an unrelated question: "Have you heard of the El Inniho Nebula?"
Lin Han recalled: “I seem to have heard of it, but I don’t have much impression.”
"You can only see such wonders in the border areas." He Yunting also looked out the porthole and saw a dark sky. "It is still traveling on the star road and cannot be seen."
Lin Han said "hmm", and then heard He Yunting say: "I have seen him twice before. If I can see him this time, I would like to take Mr. Lin to see him."
Lin Han always felt that He Yunting started talking more to her after that birthday.
He began to try to express what was on his mind, although it was still very awkward.
Perhaps because he saw Lin Han looking out the porthole all day, He Yunting explained, "You won't be able to see it on the first day. Tomorrow, after the battleship successfully jumps, Mr. Lin will be able to see it."
Lin Han didn't expect to be observed by He Yunting, but he nodded anyway.
Curiosity and desire are both real.
He knew his physical condition and his second gender, which meant he was destined to be unable to travel the galaxy.
But he just couldn't help wanting to see those distant celestial bodies and nebulae, and the romantic and lonely planets.
"Mr. Lin, come with me." He Yunting said, respectfully giving Lin Han the right to choose.
If he doesn't want to, he can return to his cabin now.
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Lin Han followed He Yunting all the way up to a small room.
"This was used for observation in the past," He Yunting explained, "but later the warship was upgraded and many functions were combined together. There was no need for a dedicated person to come here for observation, so it was left idle."
Lin Han took a few steps and looked around the room.
"But if you want, this is also one of the best observation platforms," said He Yunting.
No need to put on a spacesuit or open a astronautical device.
In this quiet corner, you can maximize your contact with space.
"I saw the El Inniho Nebula for the first time in this room. I was already on my way back at that time and only had time to see its silhouette. Thinking about it now, I still feel a little regretful."
Lin Han asked curiously: "Why do you feel regretful? Didn't you see him again later?"
He Yunting did not comment: "But every time the El Inniho Nebula appears, it is a unique wonder."
"But I don't know when we can meet - maybe on the day we arrive at the border area, or if Mr. Lin is willing, I would also like to invite you to join us."
He Yunting's words were always very straightforward. Even though Lin Han knew that he had no other intentions, he couldn't help but breathe faster: "Okay."
"Then I'll wait for you here tomorrow night."
“Don’t tell anyone else.”
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The battleship jump went more smoothly than expected.
The next day, everyone began to adapt to life on the warship. Wen Tianyao seemed a little dizzy and did not leave the room for the whole day. Fortunately, they brought a doctor with them, who went in to check and said that there was nothing serious.
The Belfast was traveling on its own exclusive star path, and after a long day, it finally began to find the right angle and space to retract, and finally successfully jumped and began to fly at the speed of light.
After a period of extreme darkness, they finally entered the desired orbit.
During the jump, all the portholes of the entire battleship, except for the command room and the captain's room, were automatically closed. It took a long time for everything to return to calm.
Even though there was no distinction between day and night now, Lin Han kept counting the time and walked towards the observation room where he and He Yunting had agreed to meet the day before.
And He Yunting was already waiting for him there.
"You're here," he said. "This is the starry sky tonight."
He Yunting walked to the specially designed observation window and pressed the lifting button.
The obscured images emerged one by one. In this not-so-large observation room, Lin Han finally saw the starry sky that was once so far away from him through a layer of special glass.
——This was the first time he faced the starry sky at such a close distance.
Unlike the unchanging starry sky he saw in the empire, now they were traveling through the Milky Way. The huge warships became like dust, and passing by them were nebulae of various sizes.
Each one is unique, each one is breathtakingly beautiful.
Some of the planets are very small and shine secretly by reflecting the light of other stars, some are burning inside, and some are still rotating rapidly.
Lin Han had imagined the scene of wandering among the stars many times.
In dreams, in imagination.
But there has never been a time like now when I was overwhelmed by some sudden feeling.
His chest was beating hard, his heart was beating fast.
The planetary dust that he once longed for was now listed before his eyes.
The feeling was so strong that Lin Han didn't know where it came from. He just felt his nose tip was sore and his heart ached, and he almost cried.
It had nothing to do with other emotions, it was just that at this moment he was suddenly surrounded by the universe, giving rise to an indescribable sadness.
At this moment Lin Han began to think a lot, about the career he loved and the mecha driving he once dreamed of. He began to feel shallow and at a loss, and felt that the universe was vast and boundless, and he was terribly small.
He gritted his teeth and tried to endure it; he wanted to see the starry sky again.
And He Yunting seemed to have noticed something strange.
"Mr. Lin?" He Yunting asked anxiously, "Are you okay?"
Lin Han wanted to say that he was fine, that everything was alright, but at that moment he felt almost powerless to even speak. A strange feeling of suffocation surged up and blocked his throat. He opened his mouth to speak, but in the end no sound came out.
After the feeling of suffocation, what followed was dizziness that impacted the nerves. Lin Han closed his eyes to get rid of the feeling, but his feet went soft in the dizzy feeling of weightlessness and he fell forward.
A strong and warm hand held him.
He Yunting pulled Lin Han towards him and wanted to hold him with his other hand, but was afraid of offending him. In the end, he just held him with one hand and the other hand was vaguely blocking Lin Han behind him without touching him, forming a posture that was almost intimate but less than a hug.
"Mr. Lin?"
Lin Han listened to the voice, trying to pull himself out of the unspeakable sorrow, and managed to calm himself down: "Yeah."
"I'm fine," he said.
He really had no other thoughts. He just felt an eternal and boundless shock at this moment, and then was swept away by this shock and submerged in the tiny dust.
What kind of existence do I exist in the universe?
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He Yunting seemed to know what he was thinking at the moment and suddenly spoke.
"That's how it was when I first saw the stars."
Lin Han was a little surprised and looked up at him.
"Space sickness," He Yunting explained for him, "I had it too, Mr. Lin, don't be afraid."
At that time, He Yunting was still too young and too fearless. He possessed enviable pheromones and mental power, as well as abilities and willpower that were beyond the reach of ordinary people.
In the first three rounds of the pilot selection, no one was his match. All eyes were on him. Although he was taciturn, he had the self-confidence and pride of a young man.
At that time, He Yunting always felt that the world belonged to him. He was young and energetic and had dreams.
Until he boarded a battleship for the first time and came into contact with the starry sky for the first time.
It was as if something had grabbed his breath, and a strong feeling of suffocation surrounded him.
I felt so insignificant at that moment, not even worthy of the slightest existence.
The results of mankind's years of hard work are not worth mentioning in space. Whether it is joy or sorrow, big or small, it cannot compare to the carbon base calcined after the death of a star.
For the first time, He Yunting began to panic and doubt, and had a strong sense of dizziness. He felt humbled and hopeless because of his own insignificance.
"When we arrived at the border area, it was my first time flying in space. All my combat skills seemed to disappear. I almost couldn't even complete the simplest operations."
Lin Han felt inexplicably sad, as if he wanted to empathize with the other person.
He didn't say anything, just listened quietly.
"I was in the same situation as you, or even worse than you - I started to recall a lot of meaningless things, hoping to calm myself down." He Yunting stood up. Far behind him, there was a white dwarf star without fusion reaction. The light was dim, but the temperature was scorching.
"But when I really tried to sail, I suddenly calmed down. It was strange. It happened at that moment." He looked at Lin Han's face, as if he wanted to give him a comforting smile, but gave up because he didn't know how to use this expression. He just continued, "Because nothing will not perish."
Lin Han's heart moved, and his eyelashes trembled as he looked at He Yunting.
Nothing will not perish.
He Yunting said.
“The universe is no different from us.”
A gnat in the universe, a drop in the ocean.
The stubborn warships will be shattered into pieces, and the indestructible mechas will eventually be turned into dust.
Their fate is no different from that of the stars.
"But no matter what, we have the present."
Lin Han looked at him, his eyes gradually becoming clear from the slight confusion, as if washed by the purest rain, and then he looked at those cold and deep eyebrows.
He thought that He Yunting had a kind of simplicity that he himself was not aware of.
Being so simple as to say such words is also another kind of romantic philosophy.
When the other person hugs you during your susceptible period, he or she has no other thoughts in his or her mind. And when you jokingly ask him or her whether he or she likes you or not, he or she still thinks about it seriously before saying "I don't know".
Lin Han often wondered whether He Yunting himself was unaware of some of the thoughts in his subconscious mind.
Over the years, he has been walking alone in the darkness, shouldering the responsibilities of his country and family. Will he be unable to breathe due to the heavy burden? Will he be constantly struck by the confusion?
But he just walked over like this, tore off the mud attached to his body, threw it into the abyss, and then stood in the sunshine again with hope.
He knew that the Milky Way was vast and boundless, but he could also find peace and tranquility in it.
Lin Han suddenly felt that all his previous empty feelings became insignificant. All forms of particle fragments merged into the universe, forming an endless cycle.
"Look," He Yunting raised his head, "that's a dust nebula not far from us."
Lin Han also looked over there. Light blue nebulae gathered together. They didn't even have a name and could only be seen by people by reflecting the light from nearby stars.
"They are right in front of us now, but no one knows how many billions of years these lights have traveled to reach this world and meet us."
This time, He Yunting's tone was calm. There was no tension or indifference. He spoke in a low and slow voice.
This was something he had once doubted, and now he wanted to make another person less anxious and confused.
"We are born in the brief present, and we are also stardust in the universe."
"Lin Han." He Yunting called his name, his azure eyes crossing billions of years of starry sea, falling into the coincidence of this moment, "Don't doubt the meaning of existence."
“You are existence itself.”
The author has something to say: I unilaterally declare that from today on, Lao He becomes my favorite top that I have ever written!
I know it's wrong to keep you all waiting, but I write very slowly and have made many revisions. I also feel that my poor words can't express the feeling I want, so I feel very painful and conflicted.
But I will still update daily, and as long as you don’t ask for leave, I will update every day. By the way, I’d like to recommend a book written by my gay friend! "The whole entertainment industry thinks I am an alpha" by Dui Si Yao Bu Qi:
Lin Si is a top idol in the entertainment industry, and is called "the alpha that omegas most want to be marked by."
However, Lin Si, who is portrayed as an alpha, is actually an omega.
Lin Si, who is restricted too much in his daily life and cannot fall in love, registered an account on the dating app "Paopao": Forget Love.
On this day, he met the alpha "44" in the square, whose matching rate with him reached 94.800%.
After unremitting efforts, the super sweet online love baby "Forgot Love" is finally going to meet "44" in person.
But at the agreed location, he met his cold-hearted, omega-phobic nemesis boss: Lu Yan.
Even more unfortunately, the two people who injected too much pheromone inhibitors ushered in the most uncontrollable fever period in each other's lives.
Lin Si: Lu Yan? Hey! Why did you bite my neck...I am Lin Si!
Lu Yan: Baby, it’s me.
Lin Si:? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?
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Before the face-to-face meeting, Lin Si experienced strong side effects due to the effects of pheromone inhibitors on the glands and had to rely on alpha pheromones to regulate glandular hormones.
And the alpha with the highest genetic match with him is Lu Yan.
Therefore, he and Lu Yan were forced to live together and they hated each other.
later……
Lin Si huddled in the quilt, curled up: Lu Yan, you are a big liar! Alpha doesn’t have such intensive fever periods! Start sleeping in your own room today! !
Lu Yan: Hug me.
*The cute omegax who fantasizes that he is in love every day, and the boss alpha who is forced to fall in love online because he has no feelings
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