Chapter 94



Chapter 94

Lu Anhe's expression at that time was very natural, and he said, "Boss, are you feeling too uncomfortable?" Nothing was lost.

He Yunting was silent for a long time. He couldn't think of a reason, but he was afraid that his pheromones would make his subordinate, who was also an alpha, uncomfortable. Although the sequelae of the susceptible period had not completely disappeared, he still retracted his pheromones and said nothing more.

There was no need for Lu Anhe to explain. The soldiers at the base would no longer mention the fact that the commander's pheromones almost got out of control during the susceptible period. So the susceptible period, which was extremely serious for every alpha, was just passed over as an ordinary little accident.

Lin Han asked at that time, what happened next.

But he also knew that what happened later had nothing to do with him. There is no one anymore who keeps him secretly in their heart and loves him carefully, clumsily but sincerely.

What's even sadder is that he didn't even have the chance to feel it all.

Lu Anhe was a little hesitant for a while and was unwilling to tell Lin Han, so he didn't say many details about that susceptible period.

But sometimes, the less you say, the more human nature wants to think and explore, and to get caught up in the exploration and empathize.

In fact, Lin Han's lips were trembling when he got off the spacecraft with Lu Anhe. If He Yunting was still anxious that the other party might have forgotten him when he came back from the Proton Star, now that he really knew what had happened, all his anxiety turned into fine and dense pain, which spread up bit by bit and eroded his original calmness and composure. He wished he could turn back the time to a few years ago, walk up to the idiot who was not smart at all and was afraid to even talk to him, and say the first sentence after the two of them confessed, "Do you dare to love me?"

While he was convincing himself that it was all over no matter what, he still couldn't help but recall what He Yunting had experienced in those three days.

As an omega, Lin Han couldn’t fully understand what the susceptible period meant to the alpha, but his nature and instinct made him clearly understand what the other party needed at that time.

And he also wants to meet the other party's needs.

I want to hug him as a partner, kiss him as a lover, and as an ordinary and simple omega, offer everything to my alpha, not just pheromones.

But no.

At that time, He Yunting had just forgotten himself. Even if there was no help or the comfort of pheromones, having a name in his heart that he could call out was better than sitting alone in the mecha.

So the alpha was surrounded by extreme anxiety and boredom, but the more uncomfortable he felt, the more he wanted to use a certain name as a comfort. Even if he couldn't say it out loud, it could slightly alleviate his instinctive desire to destroy.

But he had nothing.

It can only repeat and accumulate continuously in the silent emptiness, escalating the depression.

When he buried all the emotions that came from nowhere by himself, I was deleted from his life and we became two real strangers.

Due to the nature of his job and his own personality, it is unlikely that he and He Yunting will even pass by each other again.

They ran on their respective paths. All of He Yunting's emotions were hidden in his azure eyes. He walked faster and faster, and became more and more silent. Everyone praised his military exploits and regarded him as a sharp sword. In the end, all the people of the empire would remember his name.

He was remembered by everyone, but he himself could not remember an ordinary name that should be spoken easily.

"What are you thinking about?" Lin Han asked softly when he heard He Yunting calling his name in between actions.

Lin Han raised his head to look at him. He Yunting's eyes were still very beautiful, and he was not sentimental even in the current situation. Desire is wrapped up in one's heart, and one is born with a clarity beyond desire.

He knew what he was doing. Even though the alpha's rationality could be almost thin in this situation, He Yunting was still keenly aware of his emotions, slowed down his movements and asked him.

Lin Han shook his head, leaned forward and bit the man's Adam's apple, but was afraid that the position was too high and someone would see him, so he didn't dare to use too much force, so his lips moved down, as if to punish himself for being distracted, and whispered, "Nothing."

He was originally glad that He Yunting did not have the ability to read minds, but now he felt that the other party did not need this ability at all and could easily perceive his emotions.

Lin Han climbed up the man's back with his hands and wrapped his legs around his waist. He subconsciously kicked off the cloth that was in the way at his calves, but couldn't help but look at his naked body.

Lin Han had a weak constitution since childhood and had basically never exercised properly. At this time, his skin color was pale and looked weak. But the opponent was different. His skin color was darker, and Lin Han liked every inch of his muscle texture. After years of training and harsh battles, although He Yunting did not have a scar-prone physique, he still had scars of varying depths on his body.

He saw the long scar on He Yunting's right shoulder. His wound had not healed fully when they first met, but he happened to be deliberately bumped into by a blood-burning omega who was arranged to be similar to Qi Jiaze. The wound was broken and bleeding, but he still pretended nothing happened with a cold face.

Lin Han somehow moved closer while panting and kissed the scar with his lips.

He Yunting's shoulders were covered with a little sweat. After feeling Lin Han's movements, he panted softly: "It doesn't hurt anymore."

Lin Han hugged his arms a little harder, feeling his presence more deeply, and heard him say, "But I suddenly remembered that the situation at that time was not optimistic."

Lin Han naturally knew that, after all, with He Yunting's control over the battlefield and his reaction ability, the scene where an entire mecha arm had to be cut off must be very dangerous.

He Yunting seemed to want to get up and separate from him at this moment, but in the end he didn't do it.

He didn't finish the rest of his words, but Lin Han seemed to be embedded in him and still heard He Yunting's hesitant words.

[I was injured due to inertia and impact, and an idea flashed through my mind at a certain moment. 】

[I never thought death was scary, but when the main screen shattered and the data box automatically popped out and recorded the message, I was thinking. 】

If I die like this, will anyone cry? 】

"I thought this idea was weird at the time." He Yunting noticed that Lin Han was stunned and explained, "Now that I think about it, that person should be you."

"Because, if they died on the battlefield, the soldiers at the base wouldn't shed tears." He Yunting even explained the reason to Lin Han, "That's why I find it strange."

"But this thought only flashed through my mind for a moment, and I didn't pay much attention to it. Now it seems..."

"I will cry." Lin Han answered without thinking much.

Even though the possibility of this assumption is too low, he had not met the other person at that time, nor did he know the memory that had been buried for a long time and the deep affection that no one knew about.

His voice had already become soft and fragmented due to He Yunting's actions, and now it sounded more like a low muttering to himself.

"I'm not your soldier, just a crying coward."

Lin Han said this, and felt a little embarrassed. It seemed that he had indeed started to cry more after meeting He Yunting. Ever since the day when He Yunting stood downstairs of his building for several nights, his tear glands seemed to be inexplicably developed: "It's not like I haven't cried before."

He felt that He Yunting was too gentle today. He was very eager when he entered the room, but after he realized his emotions, he gradually became gentle.

"Then you..." Lin Han moved his lips and was about to ask, do you still remember your susceptible period three years ago?

He swallowed the words back when they were on the tip of his tongue. He wished that the memory of the susceptible period would completely disappear from He Yunting's mind. He didn't want to think about it again and endure the torment again.

"Forget it." Lin Han hooked He Yunting's neck and pressed him against her, "Just kiss me more."

-

He recalled that He Yunting's previous resistance was probably related to that susceptible period.

After all, the susceptible period is related to too many things, including sex. Desire is nothing to be ashamed of.

I don’t know what happened, which is why the other party had subconscious hesitation at the beginning.

But fortunately, they were all resolved.

Now that technology is so advanced, people can operate mechas and travel in space that were unimaginable before. Everything is in order.

Information technology has reached unprecedented heights, overcoming certain laws that have been used for hundreds of years and surviving in a completely new way.

There have also been advances in other research, such as the fact that memories can be stored, and even in various forms.

But no matter how these things progress, humans are still humans after all.

Even though people are generally living longer, their bodies are still very fragile.

A sharp object can pierce your finger and cause blood to ooze out, and a simple emotion can make one's eyes well up with tears.

Lin Han wondered, if he were a little more prosperous, would it be possible for him to go back a few years and take the initiative to find him.

All the loves in my life have been responded to, but the other party is always not fulfilled.

He always insists on doing the things that seem the most difficult. If possible, I would like to find him earlier, talk to him, smile at him more, anything is fine.

"It's not bitter." He Yunting suddenly spoke.

Lin Han didn't understand at once.

The other party's tone softened. Even though he still hadn't gotten back his own memories, he seemed to have a resonance with his own thoughts at that time. He said to Lin Han, "Mr. Lin has been able to persevere until now. How could he be a coward?"

He seemed to be thinking seriously, guessing his own state of mind at that time, and completing the sentence he had just said.

"Have you ever seen the polar night? It's different from the polar night on Earth many years ago. Because there is no gravity, you can only control the mecha to drive in the darkness where you can't see anything. No matter which direction you drive, there is only despair that can drive people crazy."

"So, secret love is not bitter."

That kind of liking is too clean and too simple.

It doesn't matter if there is no response. My heart is just focused on hiding him, so how can I bear to waste time ruminating on the bitterness.

"Just thinking about loving someone this much, I can see the light even if I'm walking in the polar night."

-

It was late at night, and Gululu had already accepted the fact that the bedroom door might not be opened until tomorrow, and he quietly shrank back to the TV like a ball.

Lin Han looked very tired, his limbs were soft and he had no strength.

"Can I carry you to take a shower?" He Yunting stretched out his hand towards Lin Han, wanting him to hold his arm so that he could pick him up and walk to the bathroom.

Although Lin Han felt limp all over, she was still playing tricks on him and deliberately refused to let him pull her up: "Wait a moment."

He Yunting asked: "Feeling uncomfortable?"

"No." Lin Han's hair was a little wet. She beckoned He Yunting to come closer, as if she wanted to speak in a low voice.

The other person bent down along with him, put his face close to Lin Han's lips, thinking that he was going to say something.

Unexpectedly, Lin Han took advantage of the fact that he lowered his head and pulled him back onto the bed, and while in this position she began to suck his earlobe.

"I'm not in heat yet, maybe it will be a while." Lin Han's voice was still very clear, as if the words did not come from his mouth, "At least tonight, can you help me forget all this?"

He couldn't help but feel sad, but he also couldn't pretend nothing had happened.

But he still wanted to say it to He Yunting at some point.

There is no need to negotiate with yourself, and there is no need to be too obsessed with the time you have missed.

I'm right in front of you.

"Lin Han." After an unknown amount of time had passed, so long that Lin Han felt that even the slightest sound was hoarse and even his eyes could hardly open, he heard the other party's serious and calm voice.

"Please accompany me...to the exhibition hall."

-

He Yunting actually didn't lie.

He was indeed worried about many things, such as what would happen if he got his memories back, and whether there would be new difficulties between them.

But if you think about it carefully, there is nothing to be afraid of.

He also believes that secret love is not painful.

He originally divided love and sex into two halves. Lin Han, wearing the graduate school uniform, represented beauty and purity, while sex to him was like a beast. The compromise between desire and instinct is ugly and should not be tainted.

But tonight they talked about almost everything, and he was able to possess and love again and again.

So he really feels that secret love is not painful.

Even though he was not able to possess the other person's youth, he truly grasped this light that belonged only to him, and walked out of the darkness step by step to a place where he could be seen.

Mind reading is really a great supernatural power, He Yunting thought.

The name that had not been called out for so many years finally rang in the other person's ears.

All love will be heard by him.

The propagation of sound requires a medium, but his is light.

The author has something to say: I'm sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, I still haven't updated as promised. It's my fault. I won't make excuses. Please send red envelopes to all the comments on this chapter. I'm very sorry.

I can't find the state, it's very difficult to write, this is why I'm struggling until now, sorry, sorry, sorry

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