Chapter 69 Feeling Guilty
Jiang Wang was silent for a long time after hearing what I said, and then he said to me as if he had made some important decision.
"Okay, I'll take you there."
I breathed a sigh of relief when I heard Jiang Wang give in.
Just when I was about to say something else to him, Jiang Wang interrupted me.
"However, you must tell me your and Song Nanxing's identities."
Faced with Jiang Wang's request, I hesitated for a moment.
In fact, it’s not that we can’t tell him, but this is still the territory of the Brotherhood of Steel after all.
The Bureau of Anomalous Investigation is an absolutely secret organization. Although Jiang Wang has come into contact with the anomalies of the Apocalypse Sect, I do not trust the Brotherhood of Steel, and I do not trust Lin Hanning very much either.
Does anyone know if there is anyone eavesdropping next door?
"Forget it. Since you don't want to say it, I won't force you. But... Ji Ling, if you trust me, you can say something you think is right."
Perhaps seeing my embarrassment, Jiang Wang shrugged nonchalantly.
But I saw a hint of loss in his eyes.
Seeing him like this, I felt a little guilty. After all, Jiang Wang was the first person I met after the mutation, and he was very honest with all of us.
But now, I have reservations about him.
For a moment I didn't know what to say, so I just tried to calm him down and said:
"Jiang Wang, I'm not hiding this from you on purpose, but... there are some things I can't explain clearly here."
"Well, it's better to be cautious."
After hearing my explanation, Jiang Wang replied without comment.
This made me frown involuntarily, and I was about to say something else.
Jiang Wang probably didn't want to continue this topic, so he told me this.
"Let's go, let's go eat first, and then we'll go to church."
"Um."
Looking at Jiang Wang's back, I didn't know what to say for a moment, so I just shut up and followed him.
I followed Jiang Wang all the way to the so-called cafeteria. It was called a cafeteria, but it was actually just a low bungalow.
This used to be the community’s convenience store, and it was an illegal building.
But it's the end of the world now, and the authorities don't have the energy to care about these things.
When I walked in, there were only three or two people sitting inside.
When these people saw Jiang Wang, they all stood up and greeted him.
But the moment they saw me, they all picked up their food and walked out.
I felt a little embarrassed about this situation, but I couldn't show it.
But Jiang Wang noticed it, and he smiled and comforted him:
"Don't mind them, they're just a little shy."
Although Jiang Wang explained it this way, I know that these people are not acting like this because they are shy.
It may be normal for one person to be shy, but if several people are like this at the same time, if it is not xenophobia, then there must be something about me that makes them react like this.
I always feel that there is something wrong with the way these people look at me, as if they are looking at a plague god.
This annoys me a little.
When I was a child, I often saw this kind of look.
Since my parents are not around all year round, I have rarely seen them.
In the eyes of other children, I was an unwanted child.
At that time, I was bullied by other kids around me.
Except my childhood friend.
He was the only one willing to help me at that time.
Because of him, I learned to fight back.
In this way, we grew up together until junior high school.
When my parents left, I was regarded as a plague by everyone who disliked me.
Whenever we walk on the street, they always look at me with that kind of eyes.
At the same time, he was saying bad things about me behind my back.
"See, I told you Ji Ling is a plague god. She even killed her parents."
"Ah? Didn't they say they were missing?"
"Who knows? If it were me, I'd say she would have killed him."
"Maybe she's in jail. My grandma said her parents are murderers!"
When the man said this last sentence, he suddenly raised his voice, just so that I could hear it.
At that time, I couldn't bear it anymore, so I pinned the talking child to the ground and beat him up.
My childhood friend next to me was frightened by my crazy look.
Just as he was about to pull me away, a steel pipe was swung towards my head.
In order to protect me, his arm was broken by the steel pipe.
When I saw my childhood friend’s limp right arm, I, who was already suffering from the lack of parental companionship, had my first mental breakdown.
Later, because I injured others and had so-called mental problems, I was sent to a mental hospital.
I was treated there for half a year before being discharged.
Since then, I have become even stranger in the eyes of other children, but I actually enjoy this feeling. At least they dare not approach me anymore, and no longer talk nonsense in front of me.
But my childhood friend never blamed me, and because of that, I always felt guilty.
Thinking of this, I couldn't help but recall the last time I saw him.
For a moment, even the food was difficult to swallow.
Perhaps my performance was a little obvious, Jiang Wang glanced at me and waved his hand in front of me.
"Ji Ling, what's wrong with you? Is the food not to your liking?"
Looking at the bowl of hot instant noodles in front of me, I slowly shook my head.
It is quite difficult to eat such food in the end times.
What's more, those people just ate just ordinary biscuits.
The Brotherhood of Steel treating me to this kind of food is considered top-notch treatment.
Although Lin Hanning showed sincerity and enough goodwill towards me, I still did not let down my guard against Lin Hanning.
After all, inexplicable kindness is what makes people most wary.
After calming down, I continued to eat instant noodles with my head down.
However, after just two bites, I heard the voices of Song Nanxing and Lin Hanning.
They were quite far away, and even with my keen senses, I still couldn't quite hear what they were saying.
But what surprises me is that
These two people actually came to the cafeteria together?
As they got closer to the cafeteria, the content of their conversation became clearer.
"Gorilla, please don't mind that we can't get you any bananas."
"To be honest, I'm quite curious. Do you always want to eat chocolate? After all, the kids I knew before all loved it."
For a moment I found it a little funny. Song Nanxing, the talkative one, finally got someone to talk him down, even though the two of them quarreled like two elementary school students.
But listening to them bickering dispelled my gloomy mood.
Jiang Wang looked at my expression in amazement:
"In just this short while, your expression has changed so many times. Have you learned how to change your face?"
"I've learned it before. Why do you want to learn it too?" I raised my eyebrows slightly.
Jiang Wang didn't respond. He just lowered his head and took another big mouthful of instant noodles before slowly saying, "But seeing that you're in a better mood, I'm relieved."
"Because what I'm about to say might be a bit heavy."
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