Chapter Seven: I Like Her
Li Yunxing couldn't understand why he wanted to talk to someone.
Li Yunxing remained in her room, but her thoughts kept wandering.
He was indeed slow to react, but lately, the constant thinking about You Suian made him feel uneasy, as if he had returned to the time when they were still friends.
Although he always emphasized to himself that he hated You Sui'an, things were getting stranger and stranger.
He was becoming more and more attached to her. Could Zhao Zhi have been right? Did he actually start to like You Sui'an now?
The thought of this possibility drove him crazy.
Before, they were just friends at most, right? Why did they start showing all sorts of signs after being ignored?
He was incredulous, his expression contorted. Did he have masochistic tendencies?
ah? ! !
Ahhh!
No, no, it's not certain whether I'll like it or not, Li Yunxing silently comforted herself.
He quickly took out his homework to calm his nerves. Doing homework can be frustrating, but it can also be very engaging. He didn't stop until he had finished all his holiday homework.
It got dark.
Like that night. Li Yunxing recalled You Sui'an's cold eyes and suddenly felt powerless.
He checked the time—20:33
He opened Zhao Zhi's chat window, hesitated for a long time, and then started typing.
[Meteor]: Why do you think I have a crush on You Sui'an?
[The most handsome man in the universe]: ?
[The most handsome man in the entire universe]: Is that even a question?
[The Most Handsome Man in the Universe]: He practically glues his eyes to her, blushes whenever he sees her, and now he's even more so, asking her this question—what else could it be but liking her? If he hadn't asked then, wouldn't he be thinking about her every single day after all this time?!
[Meteor]: I'm a little confused. When I said I hated it, I probably really meant it.
[The most handsome man in the entire universe]: ?!
[The Most Handsome Man in the Universe]: Huh? What's going on?
[Meteor]: How about we meet up and chat? I'll treat you to barbecue.
[The most handsome man in the universe]: Come on over!
Li Yunxing sent out the store name, along with a location.
The night was cool and still. But a burning flame seemed to be lurking in Li Yunxing's heart, making him anxious.
Li Yunxing looked at Zhao Zhi, took a deep breath, and as if making up her mind, began to speak slowly and deliberately.
You Suian and he were just ordinary classmates at first, and they wouldn't even greet each other when they met.
It was a cool evening like that, and the rain was pouring down. Rain in Province C always comes unexpectedly.
They were moved to another teaching building for the exam, which had two extra classrooms that were used as exam rooms.
Li Yunxing looked around; half the people had already left, and he didn't see any familiar faces. After all, with so many classes taking the exam together, the chances of running into classmates were slim.
He stayed for another two minutes, but the rain did not lessen. Just as he was about to leave in the rain, You Suian ran in, panting and carrying some humid steam.
You Suian looked at him, and her bright eyes struck him directly in the mind.
She was still a little flustered, but the surprise in her voice was undiminished: "Li Yunxing? You haven't left yet? Did you forget your umbrella? Do you want to wait for me a while, and we can go back together?"
She smiled somewhat embarrassedly: "I left my cup here, I have a bad memory."
Although You Sui'an is usually gentle, it seems more like a passive approach out of politeness. She rarely takes the initiative to communicate with people, especially boys. In fact, You Sui'an is still quite distant in Li Yunxing's eyes.
Li Yunxing blushed slightly and shyly agreed.
Actually, he originally wanted to refuse, but the rain must have been too heavy.
You Suian's smile deepened. Just as she was about to open the umbrella, Li Yunxing reached out his hand: "How about... I do it?" You Suian did not refuse, gently handed him the umbrella, and smiled.
No one spoke; they simply sat quietly under the umbrella, in that small corner of the world, watching the raindrops slide across the eaves and fall to the ground, while Li Yunxing's hand remained steady.
Later, You Sui'an and Li Yunxing became acquainted, and You Sui'an would occasionally exchange a few words with him.
Later, for some reason, she seemed to suddenly awaken a mischievous sense of humor, teasing him for no reason, which always left Li Yunxing blushing.
He would occasionally retaliate, but it looked like elementary school students bickering. You Sui'an was usually very eloquent, but it was unexpected that he could be so childish.
only……
"Hahahaha, you mean you tripped and fell on the stairs, broke the bowl, and then just happened to put your hand on it?"
Duan Cheng, who sat behind You Sui'an and was also Li Yunxing's deskmate, nodded somewhat helplessly, then said in a strong voice, "Laugh again, and I'll knock your head off."
"Hahahaha, first of all, you have to be able to hit me with one hand."
Duan Cheng looked at You Sui'an with a resentful expression.
You Sui'an politely stopped smiling. But she didn't expect Duan Cheng to pester her to help him copy notes.
You Suian thought about it and realized that she was indeed the fastest at finishing her homework among their group. She didn't know why the others were all so slow.
After all, there is not much homework in junior high school, and she finishes her science homework relatively quickly, while her humanities homework is about the same for everyone.
Suddenly, You Suian looked at Li Yunxing and suddenly became interested, saying to Duan Cheng, "Then beg me."
"Please, godfather, sister, beautiful lady!" Duan Cheng exclaimed without hesitation upon hearing this.
I didn't expect to travel to Sui'an so easily. Oh no, now I really have to copy notes. Oh well, I have plenty of time anyway.
But... for some reason, she remembered those rosy cheeks, those fragmented words, and that slightly awkward person.
When Li Yunxing heard these words, he felt a strange tightness in his chest, as if someone had taken his place. He shook his head to clear his mind of these chaotic thoughts.
I was just a little uneasy.
He never expected that just one vacation would bring about such a dramatic change in everything.
You Suian has stopped actively engaging with him lately, only occasionally offering a curt response. Is she... in a bad mood lately?
Li Yunxing thought about it and realized that final exams were indeed approaching, and You Sui'an was probably just under a lot of pressure. However, he was still filled with unease.
This is winter vacation, so you must be in a better mood now that you've been to Sui'an.
Li Yunxing thought for a moment, then clicked on You Suian's profile picture and picked a cute emoji to test the waters.
He froze, staring at the red exclamation mark. His phone, losing its balance, slammed heavily onto the table.
It wasn't broken. But some parts had become fragmented.
His emotions, surging like the sea, almost overwhelmed him. He dropped his phone again; it turned out his hands were shaking.
Li Yunxing felt wronged. He sat there quietly. After what seemed like an eternity, he sent a friend request; he was unwilling to give up.
It vanished without a trace.
Li Yunxing kept sending friend requests almost obsessively, one a day, not many, but each one tormented You Sui'an and himself.
A week later, You Suian agreed. She was tired. Every single time, she wavered, and she curled her lips in a mocking smile.
Li Yunxing didn't know where to start, so she carefully chose a topic.
[Meteor]: I'm at my uncle's house, but I just went out without my key. They've all gone out too, so I can't get in.
【^o^】：Yeah
[Meteorite]: [Image]
[Meteor]: I also lost one of my earphones.
He thought dejectedly, "I'm so miserable, so please have pity on me."
【^o^】: Oh
[Meteor]: My phone is almost out of battery too.
【^o^】：Yeah
Li Yunxing suddenly felt weak and turned off her phone.
You Sui'an closed his eyes briefly. Why didn't you question me? Why did you pretend nothing was wrong? Why didn't you care at all? Why didn't you dare face the problem directly?
Li Yunxing lost this fish, so he was unwilling to give up and wanted to keep it. In You Suian's opinion, Li Yunxing's act of showing weakness and playing the victim was more like a guilty conscience.
They approached each other willingly, yet were forced to drift further apart.
It took Li Yunxing a semester to gradually come to dislike her.
You Suian also spent a semester suppressing those extreme emotions and his own restless thoughts.
They should have never crossed paths again.
Zhao Zhi was a little stunned. He just liked shipping couples, but he didn't expect it to end up being a bad ending.
The skewers on the table hadn't been touched in a long time.
Li Yunxing seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, casually leaning back in his chair, his expression somber. He was finally no longer tense.
Zhao Zhi didn't know how to put it, but he felt there must be some misunderstanding.
Li Yunxing gave a somewhat bleak smile: "Perhaps."
The more he interacted with You Suian lately, the less he felt like himself, and... the less he disliked her. Even though he kept telling himself that he disliked her.
Later, he realized that perhaps You Suian had fallen for Duan Cheng; otherwise, he couldn't find any reason why You Suian would be so cold to him.
He was almost scathingly sarcastic, calling her a love-struck fool, saying she wasn't even with Duan Cheng yet.
In an instant, he began to feel lost. That was someone else's business, none of other people's business, and none of his business.
Zhao Zhi didn't offer many words of comfort. He carefully said, "If you like it, won't you be sad if you don't figure it out? Won't you regret it if you don't try?"
Li Yunxing wanted to refute, how could he possibly like it, but he just couldn't seem to open his mouth.
He was unwilling to accept it, but he hesitated. In fact, he also harbored resentment in his heart, so he thought it might as well just leave it at that.
When Li Yunxing returned to school and saw You Suian, she still felt an uncomfortable, bittersweet feeling. Before, she thought it was dislike, but now... what is it now?
You Suian had recently become vaguely aware of his gaze, and he couldn't quite describe the feeling. He just felt uncomfortable all over and a little bit of loss.
We have no connection anymore, do we...?
You Sui'an made a decisive move back then, but she didn't regret it. Li Yunxing had indeed gradually drifted away, but now... was this just her imagination?
She silently berated herself, feeling incredibly narcissistic; how could she have thought he was constantly looking at her?
But why does Li Yunxing keep appearing lately? Why does she always go through the front door and pass by her side, even though it's so close to the back door...?
Why couldn't she remember the dictation content? Then, before the deadline, I had to find her little by little and have her memorize it, even though there was another class representative...
Why did I stare at her for so long when I went to the laundry room to get my clothes at night, even though the lighting was dim...?
Only occasionally could You Suian deny that Li Yunxing was indeed very attractive, such as those eyes that always seemed so pure, but only occasionally.
You Suian was very upset. If she was just overthinking things, she felt pathetic for her delusions and narcissism. If not, then how did Li Yunxing view her?
He's a guy who has a girlfriend.
Regardless of the circumstances, she no longer knew what kind of person Li Yunxing was.
If he comes to bother me before we've even broken up, he's certainly despicable, but what about me, who's already wavering? Am I just humiliating myself?
Although many people think that online dating is just for fun, You Suian is a very serious person when it comes to relationships, and she never thinks that way.
If they've already broken up, what does he consider her to be? A second-best option, or just some insignificant person with a bit of novelty?
You Suian disliked the feeling of being out of control. She wanted to confide in someone and talk to Tang Qingyue, but she was not used to opening herself up or revealing her innermost thoughts.
I wanted to speak several times, but could only give up.
Tang Qingyue could tell that she had something on her mind, but she didn't press her for details. She just hugged her and said, "Tell me when you want to talk about it."
You Suian leaned on her shoulder and closed his eyes briefly.
She can control herself; even if her heart is churning, her emotions cannot dictate her actions.
She might still have some restless thoughts, but they weren't enough to make her take action.
Even with her gentle and polite demeanor, she possessed an undiminished pride. She could not bear being controlled by her emotions and becoming anxious about gains and losses, nor could she tolerate having any moral flaws.
She glanced at Tang Qingyue and spoke with some frustration.
"There's a really cute person who would set off with me and race me to school. He would set up an auto-reply with 'Go for it!' when I was rushing to finish my homework late at night. He was also very shy and would always blush and turn his head away when we made eye contact unintentionally..."
“But then we… had a fight,” You Suian said carefully, though it was much more serious than a fight, but she didn’t know where to begin. “Recently I’ve been seeing him a lot at school, so I’m very sad.”
Tang Qingyue knew that You Suian was not a particularly concerned person with saving face; in fact, she was usually quite carefree and would always be the first to make peace if she had a disagreement with a friend. Tang Qingyue felt that this friend had probably violated her principles.
"Did she make you feel bad? But if you completely cut ties with her, you'll be very sad? Well... I haven't encountered this situation much. I just hope you can be comfortable with yourself. Whether you forgive her or not is only related to your own feelings."
You Suian didn't know that she had given up on her own initiative, and besides, wasn't the simplest way to let go completely?
She smiled. Yes, she hadn't hesitated at the time, but now thinking about these things seemed a bit hypocritical.
They're already acting like they're going to die before they're even together. How good will things be if they actually get together?
She never blames herself for any of her decisions.
But the strange feeling of Li Yunxing constantly lingering in her mind was becoming somewhat annoying.
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