Chapter 156 Spider 43
Lin Yue is a half-human, half-spider monster.
Neither his appearance nor his emotions are normal human beings. He has completely degenerated into a monster.
A monster devoid of human emotions, prone to madness at any moment...
But it was this spider monster that, in front of her, had new vitality, cried like humans, laughed like humans, and even had emotions of love, jealousy, and reluctance. These emotions that once belonged to him but were deprived of him returned to him again because of her.
Xu Zhao is just an ordinary person.
She has her own selfish desires and vanity.
Just imagine, a handsome spider boy begs you to stay by his side, humbly telling you that you are his everything and the existence he can never give up, who can remain calm?
Xu Zhao's mind replayed Lin Yue's images scene by scene, including his shy smile when he was weaving a web, his patient attitude as he squatted in front of the iron pot to serve her hot rice, and how he bewitched her mind but only dared to hold her fingers and kiss them... Her heart beat heavily, and a slight numbness came over her.
Xu Zhao's fingers were covered in kiss marks, sticky as if licked by a puppy. She casually picked up the towel Lin Yue had thrown into the spider web and slowly wiped the base of her fingers, her eyes fixed on Lin Yue, her eyelashes slightly lowered, her emotions unclear.
"If only it were true," Lin Yue exhaled, glancing quietly at Xu Zhao. He felt her expression was odd; it didn't seem like someone under control. But...if she weren't, how could she possibly say such sweet words? He hung his head in frustration, inevitably complaining. He forcefully tugged at her hand and bit her index finger.
He had two sharp teeth in his mouth, and he rubbed it with the tip of one of them, then began to lick it soothingly. "...Xu Zhao, I'm truly grateful that you came to Blackwater Town. Although all your memories here are dark and embarrassing, for me, my world had already collapsed and rotted before you arrived. It was your arrival that repaired it bit by bit, allowing me to still hold on to the hope of continuing to live... If it weren't for you, I might have died long ago."
Facing Xu Zhao who was under his control, he finally had the courage to speak out the thoughts that were buried deep in his heart.
Xu Zhao blinked her eyes. Her fingertips felt a little itchy, but she endured it and didn't pull them out. She let Lin Yue grab her fingers and nibble and bite them.
Her heart beat hard again because of his words. She couldn't help but start thinking about her feelings -
Is her liking for him the result of revenge due to her jealousy towards Lin Yue’s deception, or is it the result of her unconscious control of her consciousness, or is it her true thoughts that she has not yet realized?
Lin Yue started preparing lunch early.
He braved the rain, bringing back fresh potatoes from the fields in town. He stewed potatoes and beef, and fried crispy golden pork. He didn't know where he got the ingredients for the pork, but marinated the strips in a mixture of Sichuan peppercorns and five-spice powder, then coated them in egg batter and fried them in oil. The aroma filled the air. He also made a delicious fish soup, using fish he'd caught from the stream.
Xu Zhao had nothing to do. Lin Yue had tidied up all the places in the thatched hut in order. He wrapped the dirty clothes under the golden spider web and hung them in the middle of the room to dry. There was no need to instruct him about lunch. Breakfast was still in his stomach and he started preparing it.
Xu Zhao was enjoying his free time, holding his chin, and conscientiously playing the role of being controlled by the mind.
Lin Yue held a bowl of fragrant crispy meat and stood under the net bag. He raised his arm and put the bowl to her mouth: "Try it. Do you like the taste?"
Xu Zhao didn't need to do anything the whole time. She just sat in the net bag and stared blankly. After Lin Yue finished making lunch, he would take the initiative to bring it to her and ask whether she wanted to eat it on the table or in the net bag.
If Xu Zhao said that the crumbs were in the net bag and dropped them on purpose, he would gently say: "You can put them anywhere you want. If the net bag gets dirty, I'll weave another one. I can weave a net very quickly." Speaking of weaving a net, he smiled shyly.
He seemed to see through the tantrum child's behavior, but pretended not to know and coaxed him gently and patiently.
Xu Zhao wasn't one to make a fuss. Hearing this, he returned to the table with his bowl and chopsticks. That night, he wove a brand new golden web and, in a coaxing manner, took her to lie down on it. He told her to mess with the web however she wanted. If she broke it, he could weave many more.
Lin Yue has an extraordinary possessiveness. Occasionally, the love in his eyes is so scorching that it can make Xu Zhao tremble like a spark, but other than that, he is a very qualified friend, even the kind of friend who is particularly caring.
Of course, he is also a very qualified and excellent partner.
After spending a whole day together, Xu Zhao somewhat gave up on himself and allowed the mixed thoughts in his mind to become entangled.
Lin Yue would occasionally confuse her in the ocean of consciousness, as if he was afraid that she would wake up. What a fool! Couldn't he see that she had been awake all along?
She lay in the newly woven spider web, and Lin Yue approached her cautiously.
"Xu Zhao, can I sleep here with you?"
If she said no, would he listen?
Xu Zhao glanced at Lin Yue, who looked nervous. Staring at him with those rippling eyes, he felt so resentful that he had no place to vent.
Perhaps this is the advantage of good looks. With a face like that, it's hard to harbor any dislike for him, no matter what he does. Knowing he's a master at disguising himself, mastering the art of using innocent expressions to achieve his inner desires, knowing it is one thing, having the heart to reject it is another!
Lin Yue persisted, asking, "Can I sleep with you in the new net bag?"
Xu Zhao turned his back to him.
Lin Yue lowered his eyes in disappointment. After a few breaths, he crawled in front of her, his four bright black eyes glued to her face.
In the warm nest created by the golden spider web, Xu Zhao faced the half-human, half-spider creature that was clearly not human, but he didn't feel the slightest fear.
She felt white spider silk falling around her, not many, just one or two, with a sweet fragrance, which was not enough to confuse her mind.
My heart felt sore and swollen, and I was a little angry. Is this the only method you can use?
Xu Zhao: "If I say no, you won't lie here?"
Lin Yue was startled, his face panicking, and he observed her expression suspiciously: "Xu Zhao...you, do you like me?"
Xu Zhao laughed angrily.
She quickly adjusted her facial expression and looked at him with a smile: "Of course, Lin Yue, I like you. You can sleep wherever you want, no need to ask for my opinion. My opinion is not important."
Lin Yue suddenly grabbed her wrist, his eyes filled with bloodshot, as if covered with spider silk.
He turned sideways and faced Xu Zhao.
The bristly legs pressed lightly against the sides of her legs, and the bristles pierced the fabric of her pants, becoming soft to the touch when they touched her skin.
"Xu Zhao, you are very important to me, more important than my own life. If you don't want to lie in the same spider web with me, I will leave now. I know that my appearance is horrible, even dirty and weird. I understand that you hate me..."
He lowered his eyelashes slightly, rubbed his body against her arms, rested his forehead on her collarbone, and his voice was slightly moist.
"...But you like me now. I want to be a little willful, indulge my inner thoughts, and hold you in my arms to sleep... Please allow me to carry on this wishful dream for a little while longer..."
Xu Zhao frowned: "What do you mean?"
Lin Yue had already curled up in her arms.
He murmured, "Xu Zhao likes me. Xu Zhao likes me. When will Xu Zhao like me... She will never like me..."
…
The next day, Xu Zhao understood what Lin Yue meant.
She once thought that the boldest thing Lin Yue had ever done was to hug her and kiss her fingers, until today, when he carried her on his big belly when he went out.
In Xu Zhao's opinion, spider bellies were a very sensitive area. She came to this conclusion because, on several occasions, whenever she touched a spider's belly, sticky silk would unconsciously ooze out from the very bottom. The silk continuously emerged, covering the surface and filling it with a rotten, greenish atmosphere.
She sat diagonally on the spider's belly, her dangling feet slightly pushing against its legs. "Where are we going?"
Lin Yue carried her deep into the dense forest. He reached the spot where he had escorted Zhao Wenqing and the others away. Dried blood was faintly visible on the ground, and the spider's limbs lay scattered, leaving only its dry skin.
How did you get here?
Just then, Lin Yue stopped.
The place where he stood was the place where he had deceived Xu Zhao. Here, he had used despicable means, hoping to gain her pity and keep her by committing suicide. But when his plan succeeded, he felt a deeper and deeper sense of powerlessness.
Xu Zhao shouldn't have been imprisoned in Blackwater Town by him... He shouldn't have to guard this nearly decayed soul forever...
He said, "Xu Zhao, I'll just take you here."
Xu Zhao froze suddenly. Thinking he had misheard, he jumped to the ground, circled in front of him, and stared at him.
When she took a look, she saw Lin Yue's face, which was so strange that it even frightened her a little.
He didn't realize how terrifying he was at that moment. His face was twitching like crazy, with a calm, almost trembling, aggrieved and lost expression on one side, and a ruthless, world-destroying madness on the other.
He clenched his hands. His eyelashes half-shaded, the two spider eyes on his forehead shone with intense desire. This was the first time he had seen human emotion in a spider's eyes. These were originally two pure black, gleaming gems, but now they looked strange and terrifying.
His jaw tightened as he whispered, "There's nothing here. I've never seen the food you want to eat, let alone made it. Blackwater Town is a town on the verge of collapse and ruin. Leaving you here is an unrealistic and selfish delusion on my part."
The nails dug into the palms.
The sharp stinging pain stimulated his nerves like an electric current. He felt his eyes moisten, and he knew clearly that they were not only filled with tears, but also with his uncontrollable rationality that was about to overturn.
The soul inside her body was struggling and tearing apart. He was kind, but also mean. A voice shouted, "Leave her, leave her, leave her!"
He couldn't do that. Relying on his remaining sanity, he raised his head and gave Xu Zhao what he thought was a gentle smile.
In fact, his smile was cold and vicious, like a poisonous snake lurking in the dense forest, waiting for the opportunity to crush its prey under its fangs.
Xu Zhao was so frightened by his appearance that he didn't recover for a long time. He bit his tongue and managed to regain his thoughts from his burning gaze. He asked hesitantly, "...Are you serious? Are you really willing to let me go?"
Lin Yue hesitated for a moment and nodded twice with difficulty.
He acted as if sending her away was as serious as losing his own life, so that when he was thinking, his face was heavy and his cheeks were pale, only his eyes were blood red and tightly clung to her.
...Being looked at by him with such eyes, Xu Zhao had the illusion that she was being stared at by a ferocious beast, as if the next moment, if she dared to make the slightest movement, she would be pounced on by its sharp claws.
Xu Zhao calmed down for a moment and asked him, "What happens after I leave?"
Lin Yue didn't say anything, just staring at her.
At this point, she was no longer in the mood to pretend, so she asked directly: "What about you after I left?"
Several strands of shimmering white spider silk drifted over Xu Zhao's body, entwining her limbs. Lin Yue watched the scene calmly, his expression changing for a few moments before finally settling on a relatively normal one.
He said, “I’m going to die.”
Without Xu Zhao, there is no meaning in living.
He clenched his hands tightly, suppressing the urge to entangle her in the spider web. His voice trembled, revealing a hint of tears: "...I used improper means to keep you. When the power of mental control fades, you will know the truth and hate me. And when that happens, I will go crazy if you hate me like a mouse. If I only had Lin Yue's soul, I could control myself, but I also have the spider's soul in my body. I am uncontrollable, extremely possessive, and have no moral sense. The only thing I want to do is..."
"One day I will hurt you... Rather than this, I'd rather let you go and then end my own life."
He looked sincere.
Xu Zhao was certain he wasn't lying this time, much less putting on a show. He was clearly going against his instincts, his entire face twitching with unattractive convulsions, his delicate, alluring features twitching in fits and starts. The look in his eyes swung between grievance and madness, unable to settle.
Fear crept up her spine with the cool breeze from the forest, and she felt her heart suddenly tighten.
While she was hesitating, Lin Yue threw himself into her arms.
Then she felt a wetness on her neck.
Tears slid down her shoulders to her heart.
Lin Yue hid his crazy face. He could feel his sanity gradually collapsing. He shouldn't have hugged her, but he wanted to remember Xu Zhao's warmth deeply in the last moment.
This was the only warmth he felt. It was scorching, like a bowl of hot porridge on a winter night, enough to warm his frozen body.
He wanted to keep her.
But no, Xu Zhao will be sad.
So I could only send her away while I was still sober.
Whenever he thought about her leaving him, he couldn't help but have dark and somewhat cruel thoughts.
Thus began a vicious cycle, and his complexion grew worse and worse.
The hand on her waist was restrained.
Just lightly grasping her clothes.
He wanted to hear Xu Zhao tell that sweet lie at the last moment, so he greedily sneaked into her consciousness.
Ask her to say "I love you" again.
With these words, he would be willing to die.
——Xu Zhao. Say it again, you like Lin Yue.
——Xu Zhao. Say it again, you like Lin Yue.
—You like him. You like him. You like me. Say it again.
Xu Zhao blinked, hesitated for a moment, reached out and cupped Lin Yue's cheek, and when his palm touched the part where the spasm occurred, it was as if an electric current penetrated into the pores and flowed through the blood throughout the body.
But she still bravely cupped his cheeks.
Lin Yue raised his head obediently, and in just a moment, his eyes were covered with dense bloodshot. At first glance, they were bright red and eerie.
Xu Zhao was so scared that she almost let go, but she held back.
She muttered to herself that a handsome and delicate appearance could arouse her love and affection more, and the way he looked now... was okay.
His spider limbs could not be seen, but his wrists and ankles were wrapped in spider silk, which covered her body. She could smell the bitter fragrance of Lin Yue in her breath.
His voice urging me was still in my mind.
It's really not something a normal person can bear...
The forest exit was only a few steps away. As long as she tore off the spider silk and pushed Lin Yue away, she could leave Blackwater Town and never come back.
Treat everything that happened here as a nightmare. Return to where she lived, find Zhao Wenqing, and ask him for the remaining reward. The days ahead should be as happy as possible.
I thought this, but I didn't feel any joy. Instead, I felt a faint melancholy, which slowly turned into overwhelming condemnation.
If all the good things in life came at the cost of abandoning Lin Yue, she would rather not have them. She spent the entire night agonizing over her feelings for Lin Yue. But the truth was clear, wasn't it?
She has been lonely since childhood and developed a solitary personality, keeping an absolute safe distance from boys.
Only Lin Yue was an accident.
His embrace and kiss only made her heart throb. As for his possessiveness and his crazy and unbearable love, to be honest, it just filled Xu Zhao's inner insecurity.
After learning that he loved her to the point of almost going crazy, loving her to the point of being anxious about gains and losses, and even willing to sacrifice his own life.
While feeling terrified, an inexplicable emotion also washed over me: the satisfaction and joy of being loved wholeheartedly and passionately.
Xu Zhao's eyes became calmer and calmer, while Lin Yue's expression finally froze on the crazy side, his eyes overflowing with a strong sense of madness.
Like a beast about to break out of its cage, its sharp teeth had already bitten her neck. In a moment, it would pierce her throat and completely capture the prey.
Lin Yue's voice was relatively calm, with a hint of grievance. He spoke with difficulty, "...leave here, Xu Zhao. Since you don't want to say it, I won't force you. They're all lies anyway. You, you have to remember me...never mind, just forget it..."
Xu Zhao exerted a little force, and Lin Yue's chin was lifted up, and his hunched shoulders straightened, then fell back into the position of bending in front of her.
Let her hold his jaw in a strong manner.
"Have you had enough fun?" she whispered, "Lin Yue, the game ends here."
Lin Yue opened his eyes wide in panic, and then his cheeks flushed: "You...you didn't..."
Xu Zhao lowered his head, standing half a fist away from Lin Yue.
"If you were ruthless and used the same method you used to control Zhao Wenqing and the others to invade my consciousness, perhaps I could still be controlled. But the force in my mind is as light as a drizzle. How can you successfully control me?"
"and you……"
The imagined condemnation, abuse, and anger were all gone. Xu Zhao's eyes remained clear as water. The fingers gripping his jaw were warm, and he felt a surge of warmth, his entire body softening.
Xu Zhao is not a procrastinator. Now that he knows what is in his heart, he must take action to prove it.
She said: "Then what should I do? Scold you, hate you, despise you? The fact is just the opposite... Lin Yue, what you said is despicable and vicious. I only dare to think about it in my mind, but I dare not even kiss you. Remember to do this next time-"
She lowered her head and pressed her lips against the pair that she had wanted to nibble and bite several times when Lin Yue invaded her consciousness.
In her imagination.
This was the moment when their feelings came to a head. Everything about the future could be discussed. But behind her, the deep red in Lin Yue's eyes, unable to be appeased by her, instead burned like a raging fire, only to burn more fiercely.
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