Chapter 102 The Past
Yu Nian looked at him and bit her lips hard.
Yu Nian's body couldn't stop trembling. When he bit her neck fiercely, Yu Nian finally couldn't help it and grabbed his hand, "Not tonight."
"Why?" Ji Yanxing's voice was unclear. "You said we could do it. You probably aren't on your period today."
Yu Nian closed her eyes. She thought that she could accept doing it with him without any emotions, but she overestimated herself. Many scenes from the past flashed through her mind.
"Don't you want to do it?" Ji Yanxing leaned close to her ear and asked in a low and gentle voice.
Yu Nian swallowed, his voice trembling, “I don’t want to.”
Ji Yanxing smiled, and his thin lips left her body, "How about this, you kiss me once, and it will count as a reward."
Yu Nian was startled, she looked up at him, and saw a faint smile in his eyes, indicating that she either did it or she kissed him.
——He was waiting for her to kiss him.
Yu Nian looked at him quietly for a few seconds, and suddenly realized that he did it on purpose, deliberately giving her a seemingly better choice, so that she would take the initiative...
Once she gets used to taking the initiative, she will gradually stop resisting him and slowly accept this way of getting along.
"I hate you and won't kiss you on my own initiative," Yu Nian released his hand and said indifferently, "Just do it if you want to."
Seeing that her eyelashes were no longer trembling and her eyes were back to being cold and mocking, Ji Yanxing once again emphasized that she hated him and pulled his lips: "Are you saying this for yourself or for me?"
"Both," she admitted frankly, "After all, our previous four years were not without merit. I loved you sincerely, and I'm afraid of making the same mistake again, so I always remind myself that I should hate you."
After a pause, she looked into his eyes and said, "Besides, the fact that you forced me to stay with you does make me hate you."
——I loved you sincerely.
Ji Yanxing lowered his eyes to look at her. Why wasn't he as happy as the first time he heard her say she loved him this time?
Is it because the words she used imply that loving him is a thing of the past?
"It's okay to hate me, but it's better than treating me like air." After he finished speaking, Ji Yanxing grabbed her wrist and lifted it above her head. With his other hand, he unbuttoned her shirt and his lips moved from her neck down to her collarbone.
Yu Nian opened his eyes, looking at the dead silent and cold corridor, slightly lost in thought.
Perhaps because she has liked him for so many years, her heartbeat has become a conditioned reflex towards him, which makes Yu Nian extremely scared. She is afraid that she will fall under his warmth again. If he personally breaks the memories of the past in the most sharp way, the effect should be very good.
Be a little worse to her. Then when she thinks of him in the future, she will no longer think of the sweetness of the past four years, nor will she remember his kindness to her. She will only remember his beastly side.
Her body became stiffer and stiffer, like a block of iron. Ji Yan paused, and the emotions that surged in his head cooled down. He watched her look indifferently at the corridor with a dull look in her eyes, not giving him any response.
The fishy sweetness in his throat rushed up again. Although she was in his arms and she agreed to let him kiss her and did not struggle or push him, why did he feel that she was so far away from him?
It was as if there was an invisible barrier between them, which she had set up for him, preventing her from loving him again and not allowing him to enter her world.
So close, yet so far away.
Ji Yanxing closed his eyes, held her chin, turned her head back, and forced her to look at him.
"Did you do this on purpose?" he whispered.
Yu Nian looked at him and said truthfully, "I'm really not in the mood to cooperate with you right now, nor am I in the mood to put on a forced smile."
"Because you hate me?"
"Why do you ask when you already know the answer?" When she is nice to someone, she is really nice, and when she is annoying, every word she says can really pierce the softest part of people's hearts.
Ji Yanxing stared at her for a long time, and finally held her face, bent down and kissed her gently between the eyebrows, his voice was low and unclear, "Good night."
Yu Nian raised his hand and closed the door.
Just one door away.
Ji Yanxing looked at the door that was closed almost as he went out. He raised his hand and pressed his heart. He could clearly feel the suffocation and panic in his heart.
It was a rare moment for him to feel panicked and at a loss.
After closing the door, Yu Nian stood there for a while, her whole body wrapped in a feeling of confusion and tiredness. Perhaps it was because he had kissed her forehead before going to bed for the past four years. The scene just now overlapped with countless scenes in her memory and kept flashing in her mind.
The familiarity made her heart ache a little. She lowered her head, raised her hand to touch her chest, took a long breath, walked towards the bedroom, and suddenly caught a glimpse of a piece of white gauze out of the corner of her eye.
Yesterday he promised her that he would have someone take down the wedding photos, but he didn't. Instead, he covered it completely with a piece of white gauze. She closed her eyes, thinking of how she smiled with anticipation and satisfaction in the photos, and how he looked down at her with a smile in his eyes.
At this moment, it is covered by white gauze and nothing can be seen.
Yu Nian didn't argue with him about taking it off. Just cover it up. She would be on a business trip for the whole next month and would not be able to stay here for many days.
While she was showering in the bathroom, Ji Yanxing was standing in the corridor smoking. He looked at the cigarette butt that was about to burn out, and thought lightly that he had smoked too many cigarettes tonight, but he still couldn't suppress the irritability and depression in his chest.
When he bent down and kissed her between the eyebrows, there was no movement in her eyes, not even a trace of fluctuation, and she even looked a little distracted.
He lit another cigarette, took a deep puff, exhaled the smoke quietly, looked at the ring on his left ring finger, stroked it gently with his fingertips, and his emotions gradually stabilized.
The next morning, Yu Nian did not intentionally get up late like she did yesterday, because she had to go to Miancheng on a business trip and would take the high-speed train, with a ticket for 10 o'clock.
"I'm going to Miancheng on a business trip, probably for two or three days."
During breakfast, she told him about her business trip to prevent him from causing any trouble if he didn't see her at home.
Ji Yanxing paused while pouring milk for her and looked up at her. "Your recent work intensity is several times higher than before."
Yu Nian swallowed the sandwich in his mouth before saying, "We were in different places before, and in order to fly to Australia to be with you, I had much less workload than my colleagues at the same time."
Being a lawyer is one of the most competitive professions. In the first two years of practicing law, Qiao Siyun was on business trips for an average of 20 days a month. It was only at the beginning of this year, when she had her own caseload, that things started to get better. She just made up for the lack of work intensity before.
Ji Yanxing continued to pour the milk and put the cup in front of her, "Mrs. Ji, I don't like you being too busy at work."
"Are you planning to interfere with my work now? Will you be satisfied only if I do nothing at home and wait for you to come home every day?"
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