Chapter 135 Wedding
Later, after they divorced, he asked her if she wanted him to love her, and she said no in embarrassment.
In a way, she is also a realist, and is relatively indifferent to this aspect. She will not insist on hearing him say "I love you" every day to be satisfied.
She felt comfortable with him, she enjoyed being with him, and they were happy together, and that was enough.
They rarely speak directly about the topic of love or not.
But when she first fell in love with him, all she hoped for was his love.
He loved her as much as she loved him.
Over the years, she has been too obsessed with the word "matching". Following in his footsteps, she has forgotten her original intention, which is just the love that most ordinary girls want.
Now, hearing him express his love in person, she thought she no longer cared or wanted it, but there was still an inexplicable grievance that surged up, and a sour liquid blocked her throat.
Ji Yanxing hugged her tighter, his voice trembling: "I dreamed of your wedding with another man"
On the plane back home, my body was so exhausted that even though I was tense, I closed my eyes and fell into a light sleep.
It was a very strange dream, so everyone's faces were illusory, only hers was clear. He was like the God controlling this dream, overseeing the direction of the dream.
He saw her standing at the end of the long red carpet, wearing a holy wedding dress, even the one she wore at their wedding, holding a bouquet, and walking towards the man opposite step by step.
In the dream, he couldn't see the man's face clearly, but he knew clearly that the man was not him.
It could be Lu Yuchen, Zhou Yang, Ke Yu, or any other man.
The only thing it couldn't be was him.
This is his dream!
He tried hard to change the direction of the dream, and even chose the most vicious method to make her selfishly leave the wedding because she still loved him and she could not marry someone else.
But no.
Even though this was his dream, he couldn't control the direction of the dream, so Ji Yanxing tried desperately to wake up, but it was like a nightmare. He couldn't wake up no matter what.
He was forced to watch the entire wedding process.
She walked towards another man with a face full of happiness and anticipation, exchanged rings with him, and the man leaned over and kissed her.
The dream changed and the scene turned into her wedding night with that man.
He couldn't see the person's face clearly, but he could see her expression, just like countless times before, just like when she was with him. Active and enthusiastic to cater to him.
He stood beside the bed, watching the scene coldly. His finger bones tightened and the joints turned white inch by inch.
He watched expressionlessly, accompanied by the pleasure of self-abuse. His internal organs seemed to be pierced by steel needles soaked in poison. The pain was so sharp that he had never felt it so clearly.
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Waking up from his dream, he was glad that he woke up and did not see the last step, but it made him break out in a cold sweat.
After waking up from the dream, Ji Yanxing took half a minute to realize that it was just a dream.
Then he clearly realized that he couldn't let her go, otherwise the dream would become reality.
When Yu Nian heard what he said about his dream, she thought it was ridiculous. "Even if I get married again, I won't invite you to the wedding."
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Ji Yanxing pursed his lips into a straight line. Yu Nian looked at his expression and thought he was going to quarrel with her. His Adam's apple rolled and he said in a hoarse voice, "I'm sorry."
Yu Nian's body froze, and his heart trembled slightly.
"Before I went to Australia, I knew that no one would love me more than you, and no one would treat me better than you."
Maybe as she said, there will be someone who loves him more passionately than her, but due to his personality, he does not believe that too strong a feeling can last long, just like beautiful fireworks, fleeting.
"But I relied on your love and help, thinking that no matter what I did, you would forgive me just like we had a conflict before." His voice was already hoarse. "When dealing with Meng Ziyun and Meng Qing, I shouldn't have kept it from you, and I didn't put your feelings first. It was my fault. This won't happen again in the future."
Yu Nian leaned against the door, staring at him blankly, not sure what she was feeling at the moment, or maybe a mixture of all feelings.
He frankly analyzed his own evilness, like a criminal calmly recounting his crimes, revealing all his shame to her, allowing her to look at him in various ways, just for a chance to atone for his sins.
"I've asked someone to send Meng Qing abroad and cut off all contact with her. She will no longer appear in our lives. I've asked someone to ban Meng Ziyun. Lu Yan will help me keep an eye on her and will not let her appear in your sight again."
Ji Yanxing lowered his eyes to look at her slightly trembling eyelashes, his Adam's apple rolled, and he analyzed his inner thoughts more deeply. "Before, because Meng Qing saved me, I treated them sisters differently from other people, but now my gratitude has been consumed, and I will no longer care about their affairs."
This kind of thing is difficult for Ji Yanxing to talk about, but he has to be honest.
Even if she didn't really care about it, what he didn't say would always be a thorn in her heart, not fatal, but it would prick her from time to time, forcing her to put up a protective shield for her heart.
One high and one low, looking into each other's eyes.
He took off the mask he was used to wearing and told her all the darkness and complexity in his heart. Ji Yanxing stared at her, waiting for her response.
Yu Nian slowed down his voice and regained his composure. "You don't have to explain to me."
There was no need for him to explain to her their current relationship.
"Whether you want to hear it or not, I will tell you what needs to be made clear." Ji Yanxing leaned forward slightly, his tone extremely gentle. "I will pull out the thorns in your heart one by one."
Yu Nian's heart sank again. She closed her eyes and said coldly, "Are you done? I'll go in after you finish—"
"Nian Nian" Ji Yanxing held her fingers. Thinking of the scene of Zhou Yang hugging her, she tried her best to suppress her anger and said in a gentle voice, "Don't think about others, okay?"
He knew that she was planning to start a new relationship recently.
She is always like this. Even if she has not gotten out of it subjectively, she will not allow herself to stay in the quagmire for too long. She will force herself to get out with the help of objective external forces.
Yu Nian raised her eyes and saw the red corners of his eyes, and her heart was stabbed.
His voice was hoarse and his tone was almost begging: "I will love you as you want me to, give me another chance, I will make you fall in love with me again"
Yu Nian's mind was in a mess. She thought she would not be able to sleep tonight. She cursed Ji Yanxing in her heart before going to bed. Her flight was at 10 o'clock the next morning, so she had to get up at 7 o'clock. It was because he said so much so late at night that made her have so many wild thoughts.
As a result, after taking a shower, I fell on the bed and fell into a deep sleep within a few minutes.
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