I always think that even without me, she can still live a good life. With me, sometimes her life is full of flowers and smooth sailing, but I have added a lot of troubles. But if I think about it selfishly, I can't live a good life without her.
I have never told her that I often feel inferior when facing her. I cannot understand many of the books she reads, and I may not understand what she says. I sit and listen to her classes, but I don’t find any fun in them except boredom. But in order to understand her better and get closer to her, I am willing to be patient and listen carefully.
The suitors around her are all excellent people, with high education, strong abilities, and they are not necessarily worse looking than me. They can also resonate with her spiritually. When I see them, I feel uneasy and inferior, but I also think that maybe she was meant to be with such excellent people.
It is precisely because of this, and because of the inferiority complex in my heart, that I began to want to become a better person. Although I may not be able to match her, I at least hope that many years later, when she sees me staying by her side, she will not feel regretful or disgusted. If she is a little greedy, she can also use the word "worth it" to describe me, which would be even better.
To love and be loved, to love deeply and always, is our relationship and my hope."
After obtaining Jiang Yiyu's permission, the media uploaded this interview to the website without deleting a single frame. It immediately caused a sensation, and many hot search terms popped up one after another, with people scolding him, praising him, and envying her.
Song Shengsheng was shopping with Su Bei when he saw this video. The two of them sat in a coffee shop and watched the entire interview word for word. Su Bei commented quietly, "Your actor Jiang has a bit of a crazy streak on him. Look at the second most searched phrase on #JiangYiYu'sLoveBrain. I don't know which genius came up with it, but it fits the bill perfectly!"
Song Shengsheng was silent for a while, then frowned: "Why do I feel like he really doesn't want to do this anymore?"
"Huh? What do you mean?"
"Literally. He told me a long time ago that he's a little tired of working on stage. Last time I had a fight with his illegitimate child, he blamed himself terribly, saying that if he were a normal person, I wouldn't have to go through all that. His family has been in a mess lately, too. So I don't think he said these things out of sheer romantic frustration, but out of careful consideration. He's planning something big."
"Big thing? What big thing?"
"I don't know, but I always feel that he is paving the way. I think I will soon be unable to hide."
"Ah? Does Mr. Jiang have to make it so complicated just to show affection?"
"Maybe I'm overthinking it, but I really don't want to hide it anymore. Sometimes I wonder, if everyone knows who I am to him, will I be able to do whatever I want with him?"
"Would your brother agree?"
"The fact that this interview was released today means my brother doesn't want to be involved anymore."
Su Bei took a sip of coffee, put down the cup, looked at Song Shengsheng, and asked tentatively: "Why do I feel...you seem a little unhappy?"
"It's not that I'm unhappy, but I just have a weird feeling, like the house has collapsed."
"Ah? A collapsed house?"
Song Shengsheng nodded. "Not only has the reputation collapsed, but the artist I like has also become less motivated because of love. Don't you think he'll quit being a fan and start turning against me?"
"Song Shengsheng, are you sick? Look carefully, this is your husband, and you're quitting being a fan and turning against him?"
"I've spent a ton of money on him. The total amount I've spent on him is enough to buy a house in Beijing, one in a prime location. For someone like me, a huge spender who's no different from his sponsor, it's understandable that I'd feel a bit uncomfortable for a while, isn't it?"
Su Bei frowned and tutted. She put down the cup, leaned back in her chair, folded her arms, and looked at Song Shengsheng. After thinking for a while, she said, "What does your actor Jiang think of your condition?"
“Respect but don’t understand, and just do what you are told.”
Su Bei drew out a long hum and said, "It seems like you two are fellow sufferers. One is in love, the other is inexplicably confused. What a perfect match!"
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In February, on the day of the Little New Year, Jiang Yiyu still could not go home. In the video, he rested his chin on the table, humming in a wronged tone, saying that he missed Song Shengsheng and wanted to go home, and wanted to be kissed, hugged and lifted up high. The staff behind him were all laughing when they heard it.
Song Shengsheng reached out and tapped Jiang Yiyu's forehead on the screen. Jiang Yiyu also shook his head in response: "My dear, do you miss me?"
"It's okay. Can you come back on New Year's Eve? Grandpa said he'd like to wait for you to make dumplings together!"
"Then you must be able to come back! Wait for me for three more days. The day after tomorrow afternoon I will fly to South City to give Jin Beisheng a gift. After that, I will talk to him for a day and then go back."
"Is that three days? Shouldn't it be four days?"
"It won't take four days. Once I'm done with my business, I won't spend even a minute in South City. I'll fly straight to Beijing and be back with you."
"Look at how capable you are! I've noticed you've lost so much weight in the past few days."
"They're watching me every day, and the work is very intense. I can't be fat in front of the camera, so I lost weight."
"At which party can I see you this year?"
"It's still the ones I go to regularly. They've finished their work a long time ago. They've been busy with photo shoots and social events lately. It's all troublesome."
"Drink less alcohol, it's bad for your health. It's best not to smoke. I saw someone film you smoking outside a few days ago. When I saw it, I wanted to call you and scold you, but then I thought, it's all in the past, and we haven't caught you in the act. You'll definitely deny it, so I let it go. Don't do it again. Do you understand?"
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